44 Cranberry Point

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"All right," Jon said, leaning against the wooden slats of his deck chair. "That does it."
"What?" His determined words startled her.
"Turn in your two-week notice."
"Jon..."
"You clearly want to be at home."
"Jon, I can't, not yet." While it was true she wanted to be home with Katie and begin working as Jon's manager, she couldn't leave the gallery in the lurch. The owners had always been wonderful to her; not only that, she couldn't abandon Lois during the busiest time of the year.
"You're miserable," Jon said. Holding his wineglass, he frowned at her, and Maryellen tried to reassure him with a warm, loving smile.
"We were jammed this afternoon," she said, "and I hardly had a moment to myself, but that's how this business goes. Anyway, Lois isn't ready to assume management responsibilities yet. She's learning, though."
"You aren't getting enough sleep."
"Would you stop trying to fix everything?" Although she meant to use a teasing tone, the remark came out sounding sharp and impatient.
Jon frowned more heavily. "That's what I thought a husband did."
"I'm sorry...." Maryellen didn't dare mention the reason for her mood. Standing, she collected the dirty dishes. "I guess I'm just out of sorts."
Jon brightened suddenly. "Could that mean what I think it means?"
Maryellen shook her head. She certainly hadn't had any problem getting pregnant with Katie and although they weren't using birth control, she wasn't pregnant with their second child yet.
Jon took her news with a light shrug. "I guess we'll just have to try harder. I want to experience this next pregnancy from the beginning."
Maryellen was heartened by the prospect. "That sounds good to me."
While Jon dealt with bills and paperwork downstairs, Maryellen bathed Katie and gently rocked her to sleep. She brushed the soft curls from her daughter's forehead, holding her securely as Katie sucked energetically at her bottle. Maryellen had gradually stopped breastfeeding the month before and now gave Katie a bottle early in the morning and at bedtime.
Maryellen glanced around the nursery, which always brought her a fresh surge of pleasure. Jon had drawn and painted a series of wild animals along the walls, creating for each a background that reflected its natural habitat.
Jon's parents would never see this. Maryellen closed her eyes, discouraged by the hopelessness of the situation.
"The object is to put Katie to sleep, not you," Jon whispered.
She opened her eyes to see him standing in the doorway, arms crossed. He wasn't a handsome man by conventional standards, but the sight of him stirred her emotions and her senses.
"It's been a long day," she said.
"Then take a hot bath, relax, go to bed," Jon advised.
"I've got the dishes."
"I already took care of that."
"But Jon..." she protested. Their agreement was that when he cooked, she'd do the cleanup afterward. "You spoil me."
He grinned at that. "I want to spoil you. I love you, Maryellen. You and Katie are my family. You're everything to me."
Instead of bringing joy, his words fell on her like stones. It was her own fault, her own guilt; she'd interfered where she had no right to and cruelly raised his parents' hopes.
"I think I will go to bed early tonight," Maryellen said and placed Katie in her crib. She covered her with a light blanket, waiting to be sure their little girl was truly asleep before she silently left the room.
Jon took the empty bottle downstairs while Maryellen ran hot water into the tub. She scented it with lavender salts, then got in and sank into the soothing bath.
Her decision was made. She had no choice. She'd answer Joseph Bowman's letter the next day and tell him he was asking the impossible of her. She'd mail photos of Katie from time to time and keep his parents updated, but that was all she could promise. She'd also ask them not to contact her again.
The water had cooled by the time Maryellen stepped out of the tub. She dressed in a cotton nightie and a short robe. Jon was watching television and she sat on the sofa beside him, nestling gratefully in his arms.
"Feel better?" he asked, kissing the top of her head.
"Yes."
"Good."
"Remember what you were saying earlier?" she murmured, tilting her head and kissing the side of his jaw.
"About what?"
"Me getting pregnant."
She felt his mouth relax into a smile. "I remember that quite distinctly."
Maryellen glanced toward the television. "How interested are you in that program?"
"I can catch a rerun." He used the remote to turn off the TV, then kissed her as if he'd been waiting all day for just this moment.
Maryellen entwined her arms around his neck and opened her mouth to his exploration. Jon moaned softly, sliding his hand inside the folds of her robe, and sought her breast. Between soft kisses intermingled with lengthier ones, Maryellen reached over to snap off the lamp. They stood and began to walk toward the stairs, but didn't make it to the first step before he gathered her close and kissed her once more.
"I don't think I'll ever get tired of making love to you." He kissed the vulnerable hollow of her throat.
"I should hope not." Maryellen laughed and, walking backward, advanced one step up from him, circling his ear with her tongue. Jon groaned and she moved up an additional step. He followed, his hand again seeking her breasts. This time it was Maryellen who released a soft sigh of pleasure. If they didn't hurry up these stairs, they'd never make it to the bedroom.
As they kissed, Maryellen tore at his shirt while he removed her robe.
"Jon," she whispered, her voice thick with passion. They were halfway up the stairs, both partially undressed.
Still one step below her, he hugged her waist and buried his face between the fullness of her breasts.
Maryellen could feel her knees weakening. Framing his face with both hands, she gazed directly into his eyes. "Come on. I think there's a more comfortable way of doing this. It's called a bed."
Jon grinned up at her and then, in one sweeping motion, he swung her into his arms and carried her up the remaining stairs. Giggling like teenagers, they fell onto the bed and into each other's embrace.
Twenty-Nine
"Who left the milk out overnight?" Bob demanded as Peggy walked into the kitchen early Tuesday morning.
Peggy poured coffee into her favorite mug. "Good morning to you too, sweetheart."
Bob scowled. "I ended up dumping the entire half gallon."
They both realized it could only have been Hannah. Peggy wished she knew what it was about the young woman that irritated her husband so much. Bob took offense at the slightest thing; the milk incident was a good example. Hannah had worked the late shift at the PancakePalace and returned to the house some time after Bob and Peggy were asleep. Apparently she'd decided to drink a glass of milk before going to bed and forgotten to put the carton back in the refrigerator. Yes, it was a thoughtless act, but it wasn't catastrophic. Bob had leaped at the opportunity to shriek and howl with indignation. Enough was enough.
"Stop it this minute, Bob Beldon," Peggy said calmly after her first sip of coffee. "I'll mention it to Hannah, but she doesn't need you berating her." The girl was timid as it was, and one harsh word from Bob would destroy her.
"Does she think—"
"Bob." Peggy cut him off before he could wake Hannah with his ranting. "Aren't you meeting Pastor Dave this morning?" They had a standing golf date every Tuesday. Whether they played in the morning or the afternoon depended on the pastor's schedule.
Her husband looked at his watch, frowning. He nodded abruptly. "I'll be back before noon."
"Yes, dear," Peggy murmured as she headed for her chair in the living room. Each morning she took a few moments to meditate before beginning her day. In those moments, she organized her thoughts and made mental plans of what she hoped to accomplish. Bob was often reading from the AA Big Book, and she'd gotten into the habit of claiming a little peace and quiet for herself. It allowed her to start the day in a tranquil frame of mind.
Bob paused at the door that led to the patio. "You'll say something to Hannah, right?"
"Yes, dear."
He expelled his breath loudly enough for her to hear. "Don't patronize me, Peggy."
She didn't know what had set off her husband's foul mood, but assumed that whatever was bothering him would work its way out of his system before he finished his golf game. More than likely he'd come home at lunchtime apologetic and contrite.
A few minutes later, just after Peggy had settled into her morning routine, Hannah stepped quietly into the family room. Her hair fell in thin brown tendrils about her face, which was ashen. She bit her lower lip, hesitating as if she wasn't sure she should interrupt Peggy.
"You heard?" Peggy asked softly.
The young woman nodded. "I'm so sorry.... I didn't mean to leave out the milk."
Peggy tried to reassure her with a smile. "I know you didn't."
"I'll pick up another half gallon before I leave for work this afternoon."
"Don't worry about it." Peggy gestured for Hannah to sit across from her. The girl looked shaken and Peggy hoped to comfort her.
"Did you sleep well?" Peggy asked.
Hannah's nod was tentative. "My dad used to yell, too."
The last thing Hannah needed was for Bob to do the same. "Bob didn't mean anything by it."
"I.. .know. It's just that when I hear a man yell, especially one who's around my dad's age, it... affects me, you know?"
"Of course it does." Peggy's irritation with her husband rose.
"My father was an unhappy person most of my life."
Hannah rarely mentioned her father. Peggy didn't know whether that was because of her grief at his death or because her memories of his accident were too painful to talk about.
"Sometimes at night, when I was a little girl, I'd wake up to the sound of my father shouting."
Peggy felt a moment's shock—and a rush of pity for Hannah. Having lived with an alcoholic for years, she wondered if Max Russell drank, too. "Did your father have a drinking problem?"
Hannah shook her head. "Sometimes he drank too much, but it wasn't a problem. Not a bad one, anyway. Some days he was mean for no reason. He used to shout at Mom and me for the littlest things."
"I'm sorry."
"He wasn't a bad person, you know. I really loved my dad."
"Of course you did." Peggy wondered if Hannah fully understood what her father had experienced during the war.
"My mom stood by him through all the times we had to move and all the fights." Tears filled her eyes. "It's so wrong that she died, so wrong."
"You moved around a lot?"
Hannah needed a minute to compose herself. She swallowed visibly. "Dad was never able to hold down a job for long. He'd be fine for a while, and then he'd drift into this...dark place."
"Dark place?"
"That's what Mom called it. He'd be happy, and suddenly it would be like someone had turned off the lights. I could always tell when it happened. So could Mom. She'd ask me to go to my room and I would, because I knew what was going to follow."