A Reclusive Heart
Page 44
Her heart broke for him as he continued. “They set my room up in the walk in closet off their room and whenever there was a John in the house they took turns locking themselves up with me until the John left. Needless to say with six hookers in one house I spent a lot of time in that closet. When I was about four they decided I was old enough to watch out for myself.”
“You don’t have to tell me about this if you don’t want to, Nick,” she whispered as she traced his strong jaw.
“It’s fine, baby,” he said, leaning in to press a kiss against her forehead.
When he leaned back he focused all of his attention on the water between their bodies. “I didn’t think much about the women living there walking around na**d or blowing some guy on the couch while I watched my cartoons. It wasn’t until I started school and noticed that the other kids’ mothers didn’t behave like mine did.”
“As much as I hated living there,” he said tightly as his hands clenched into fists, “and how I f**king hated it, I couldn’t leave. I always thought, hoped really that my mother would wake up one day and decide to be a mother to me like the other children had, but she never changed and when I was old enough I walked away and started my own life and never looked back.”
“I’m sorry, Nick,” she said, not knowing what else to say.
“Don’t be,” he said, forcing a smile, “I’m over it.”
She didn’t think that he was. In fact she was pretty sure that the reason that he worked so hard was to put distance between himself and his past. She could relate to that. She didn’t want people knowing that she was a pushover or how pathetic she used to be. All she wanted was a chance to live her life without anyone trying to keep her down.
He looked so sad at that moment and she wanted to make it better for him, to let him know without words that he was loved. She leaned forward and brushed her lips against his. At first he didn’t move and she feared that perhaps Holly was right but then with a sigh he moved his lips against hers.
“I don’t want you to worry about anything, Jamie. I’m going to take care of you,” he promised as he gave her the sweetest kiss of her life.
As good as it sounded she knew that he wouldn’t be able to keep his word. As soon as the tour was over he was going to break her heart and she would be left with unimaginable pain, but she refused to focus on that. Right now she was in his arms and he was hers. She didn’t want to waste a second of their time together since she already knew that it wouldn’t last.
Soon the kiss turned hungry and they couldn’t stop running their hands over each other. There was really nothing better than being in Nick’s arms, she thought as she ran her hands over his wide shoulders and down his back, enjoying the feel of hard muscle tightening beneath her touch.
“Up you go, baby,” Nick said huskily against her mouth as he pressed one last kiss against her lips.
When he went to raise her out of the water she stopped him with a simple shake of her head. Frowning, he put her back in the water. He opened his mouth, probably to ask her what was wrong, when she gestured for him to get his butt out of the water. With an amused smile and a quick kiss he did just that. Once he was sitting on the edge she realized something very important.
She was kind of short.
Nick must have realized the problem because he lowered himself off the edge until his large erection was at eye level with her and although that was a pretty impressive sight she couldn’t seem to take her eyes off the muscles flexing in his arms and chest as he held himself up. When she caught his amused smile she forced herself to focus and leaned in and pressed a kiss to his hip.
She’d only done this a few times, but it was easily one of her favorite things to do for him. She knew that she probably wasn’t very good at this yet, but she was more than willing to keep trying. As she kissed and nibbled her way to the neatly trimmed patch of hair surrounding the root of the large erection that demanded her attention she couldn’t help but wonder what it would be like to take him to completion in her mouth. Whenever she thought he was close he always pulled away, but maybe now she’d get her chance, at least she hoped she would.
When she came to his erection she continued to take her time pressing teasing kisses against the hot skin until she couldn’t resist gliding her tongue over it. His low groan encouraged her to do it again. This time she took her time tracing her tongue over the thick vein that ran along the underside of his thick erection.
She flicked her tongue over the tip, licking away the excitement there before she took just the very tip into her mouth and suckled on it while she slowly traced the tiny slit with her tongue.
“Aw, f**k,” Nick groaned when she took him in her hand and slowly stroked him. The movement pushed more of his erection into her mouth, but not enough.
She looked up and met his hungry gaze as she moved forward and took more of him in her mouth. He sucked in a breath as he moved to pull away from her, but she refused to let him go, not when she had him where she wanted him.
“I need to be inside of you,” he ground out between clenched teeth as he tried to pull away from her.
Never pausing in her slow strokes, she pulled her mouth away long enough to point out, “You are inside of me,” before taking him back into her mouth and doubled her efforts.
He was panting hard and she couldn’t help but love the sound of a strong man like Nick losing control because of her. It wasn’t long before he was slowly thrusting in and out of her mouth. When he became impossibly thicker in her mouth and let out a sexy growl she knew that she had him. It was confirmed seconds later when he shouted her name and he released that salty sweet treat that she was beginning to love.
As he pulled away she pressed one last kiss to the tip of the soft velvety head and couldn’t help but smile when he shivered. Her smile quickly disappeared when she found herself suddenly yanked out of the water and in his arms.
Without a word he moved back on the tiled floor until only his legs were in the water and laid back. Just as she was about to ask him what he was doing she found herself moved up his body and straddling his face. She wasn’t exactly sure what was going on until she felt the first swipe of his tongue and then she decided that she simply didn’t care as long as he did that again.
When he gripped her bottom and encouraged her to move she did, hesitantly.
She wasn’t really sure what to do, but she decided that she’d figure it out when he slid his tongue inside of her. Her hands as if they had a mind of their own slid up her damp stomach and over her br**sts, pretending that they were his hands.
His grip tightened on her bottom as his tongue went wild inside of her. She pinched her ni**les the way he did and she was surprised at how good it felt. She’d never really touched or explored herself, too shy to even try that, but right now it felt too good to stop. As she continued to gently squeeze and caress her left breast she slid her trembling hand down her stomach.
The few times she’d attempted to touch herself down there it had never felt good. But the way he was licking inside of her was making the little nub between her legs swell up almost painfully. It was practically begging for attention and when her fingertips brushed up against it she couldn’t hold back the gasp of pleasure that slid through her.
She watched as his eyes closed to half mast as he watched her touch herself.
He looked like he was in ecstasy as he continued to lick her. It felt so good. She never thought that anything could feel this good. She loved when he touched her, craved it in fact, but the way he was giving her free reign to enjoy him made every little touch and sensation so much more powerful.
All too soon she was throwing her head back as she cried, screamed really, his name. She was still screaming his name when she found herself suddenly lifted off his mouth and shoved onto his newly restored erection. He sat up and wrapped his arms around her as he took her mouth in a hungry kiss that quickly ignited her need for him again.
Her fingers tangled in his hair as she returned the hungry almost brutal kiss as they ground their lower bodies together. It wasn’t long before she was panting and struggling to hold back, but he wouldn’t allow it. He used his hold on her to slam her down hard on his rock hard shaft as he thrust forward. It was too much, too soon and she lost the battle. She screamed his name, barely aware that he was chanting hers almost reverently.
“You don’t have to tell me about this if you don’t want to, Nick,” she whispered as she traced his strong jaw.
“It’s fine, baby,” he said, leaning in to press a kiss against her forehead.
When he leaned back he focused all of his attention on the water between their bodies. “I didn’t think much about the women living there walking around na**d or blowing some guy on the couch while I watched my cartoons. It wasn’t until I started school and noticed that the other kids’ mothers didn’t behave like mine did.”
“As much as I hated living there,” he said tightly as his hands clenched into fists, “and how I f**king hated it, I couldn’t leave. I always thought, hoped really that my mother would wake up one day and decide to be a mother to me like the other children had, but she never changed and when I was old enough I walked away and started my own life and never looked back.”
“I’m sorry, Nick,” she said, not knowing what else to say.
“Don’t be,” he said, forcing a smile, “I’m over it.”
She didn’t think that he was. In fact she was pretty sure that the reason that he worked so hard was to put distance between himself and his past. She could relate to that. She didn’t want people knowing that she was a pushover or how pathetic she used to be. All she wanted was a chance to live her life without anyone trying to keep her down.
He looked so sad at that moment and she wanted to make it better for him, to let him know without words that he was loved. She leaned forward and brushed her lips against his. At first he didn’t move and she feared that perhaps Holly was right but then with a sigh he moved his lips against hers.
“I don’t want you to worry about anything, Jamie. I’m going to take care of you,” he promised as he gave her the sweetest kiss of her life.
As good as it sounded she knew that he wouldn’t be able to keep his word. As soon as the tour was over he was going to break her heart and she would be left with unimaginable pain, but she refused to focus on that. Right now she was in his arms and he was hers. She didn’t want to waste a second of their time together since she already knew that it wouldn’t last.
Soon the kiss turned hungry and they couldn’t stop running their hands over each other. There was really nothing better than being in Nick’s arms, she thought as she ran her hands over his wide shoulders and down his back, enjoying the feel of hard muscle tightening beneath her touch.
“Up you go, baby,” Nick said huskily against her mouth as he pressed one last kiss against her lips.
When he went to raise her out of the water she stopped him with a simple shake of her head. Frowning, he put her back in the water. He opened his mouth, probably to ask her what was wrong, when she gestured for him to get his butt out of the water. With an amused smile and a quick kiss he did just that. Once he was sitting on the edge she realized something very important.
She was kind of short.
Nick must have realized the problem because he lowered himself off the edge until his large erection was at eye level with her and although that was a pretty impressive sight she couldn’t seem to take her eyes off the muscles flexing in his arms and chest as he held himself up. When she caught his amused smile she forced herself to focus and leaned in and pressed a kiss to his hip.
She’d only done this a few times, but it was easily one of her favorite things to do for him. She knew that she probably wasn’t very good at this yet, but she was more than willing to keep trying. As she kissed and nibbled her way to the neatly trimmed patch of hair surrounding the root of the large erection that demanded her attention she couldn’t help but wonder what it would be like to take him to completion in her mouth. Whenever she thought he was close he always pulled away, but maybe now she’d get her chance, at least she hoped she would.
When she came to his erection she continued to take her time pressing teasing kisses against the hot skin until she couldn’t resist gliding her tongue over it. His low groan encouraged her to do it again. This time she took her time tracing her tongue over the thick vein that ran along the underside of his thick erection.
She flicked her tongue over the tip, licking away the excitement there before she took just the very tip into her mouth and suckled on it while she slowly traced the tiny slit with her tongue.
“Aw, f**k,” Nick groaned when she took him in her hand and slowly stroked him. The movement pushed more of his erection into her mouth, but not enough.
She looked up and met his hungry gaze as she moved forward and took more of him in her mouth. He sucked in a breath as he moved to pull away from her, but she refused to let him go, not when she had him where she wanted him.
“I need to be inside of you,” he ground out between clenched teeth as he tried to pull away from her.
Never pausing in her slow strokes, she pulled her mouth away long enough to point out, “You are inside of me,” before taking him back into her mouth and doubled her efforts.
He was panting hard and she couldn’t help but love the sound of a strong man like Nick losing control because of her. It wasn’t long before he was slowly thrusting in and out of her mouth. When he became impossibly thicker in her mouth and let out a sexy growl she knew that she had him. It was confirmed seconds later when he shouted her name and he released that salty sweet treat that she was beginning to love.
As he pulled away she pressed one last kiss to the tip of the soft velvety head and couldn’t help but smile when he shivered. Her smile quickly disappeared when she found herself suddenly yanked out of the water and in his arms.
Without a word he moved back on the tiled floor until only his legs were in the water and laid back. Just as she was about to ask him what he was doing she found herself moved up his body and straddling his face. She wasn’t exactly sure what was going on until she felt the first swipe of his tongue and then she decided that she simply didn’t care as long as he did that again.
When he gripped her bottom and encouraged her to move she did, hesitantly.
She wasn’t really sure what to do, but she decided that she’d figure it out when he slid his tongue inside of her. Her hands as if they had a mind of their own slid up her damp stomach and over her br**sts, pretending that they were his hands.
His grip tightened on her bottom as his tongue went wild inside of her. She pinched her ni**les the way he did and she was surprised at how good it felt. She’d never really touched or explored herself, too shy to even try that, but right now it felt too good to stop. As she continued to gently squeeze and caress her left breast she slid her trembling hand down her stomach.
The few times she’d attempted to touch herself down there it had never felt good. But the way he was licking inside of her was making the little nub between her legs swell up almost painfully. It was practically begging for attention and when her fingertips brushed up against it she couldn’t hold back the gasp of pleasure that slid through her.
She watched as his eyes closed to half mast as he watched her touch herself.
He looked like he was in ecstasy as he continued to lick her. It felt so good. She never thought that anything could feel this good. She loved when he touched her, craved it in fact, but the way he was giving her free reign to enjoy him made every little touch and sensation so much more powerful.
All too soon she was throwing her head back as she cried, screamed really, his name. She was still screaming his name when she found herself suddenly lifted off his mouth and shoved onto his newly restored erection. He sat up and wrapped his arms around her as he took her mouth in a hungry kiss that quickly ignited her need for him again.
Her fingers tangled in his hair as she returned the hungry almost brutal kiss as they ground their lower bodies together. It wasn’t long before she was panting and struggling to hold back, but he wouldn’t allow it. He used his hold on her to slam her down hard on his rock hard shaft as he thrust forward. It was too much, too soon and she lost the battle. She screamed his name, barely aware that he was chanting hers almost reverently.
