All the Little Lights
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“My vote is no,” Althea said. “Mavis, tell them.”
“I . . . I don’t know.”
“You don’t know?” Althea asked, her voice firmer than I’d heard her speak before. “How can you not know? She’s your daughter. Put an end to this madness.”
“I—” Mama began.
The door cracked open, Mama there in her robe, blocking my line of sight into the room. “What are you doing up, Catherine? Go to bed. Now.” She slammed the door in my face, and whispers filled the room on the other side.
I took a step back and then walked to my room, closing the door behind me. I stared at the light slipping in through the crack at the bottom, wondering why they were discussing me and what they were considering that Althea had so adamantly voted against. The music box chimed a few notes, spurring me into action. I pressed the dresser against the door, and then—feeling that wasn’t enough—pushed my bed against the dresser again, and sat. I stared at the door until I couldn’t keep my eyes open, begging for the sun to rise.
The second time my eyes blinked open, I wondered if the meeting down the hall had been a dream. When I dressed for the day and made my way downstairs, I wondered if I’d dreamed everything about the night before. Uncle Toad’s mess was gone. The living room, dining room, and kitchen were spotless, even as Mama cooked. The air was filled with the smells of baking biscuits and sausage grease, the meat popping in the skillet between the notes of whatever tune Mama was humming.
“Good morning,” Mama said, draining the sausage.
“Morning,” I said, cautious. It had been so long since Mama had been more like herself and in a good mood that I wasn’t sure how to react.
“Your uncle and cousin are checked out. I told him he’s not to come back for a while. What happened last night is inexcusable.”
“How long is a while?” I asked.
Mama turned to me, remorse in her eyes. “I’m sorry for the things he said to you. It won’t happen again, I promise.” I sat down in front of the plate she placed on the dining table. “Now eat. I have a few things to do yet. We’ve got several coming down for breakfast. So, so much to do, and I didn’t sleep well last night.”
She left the room.
“Baby?” Althea said, appearing from the pantry, tying apron strings behind her back. She picked up a rag and began to clean the stove top. “Did we wake you?”
“Did you clean up after Uncle Toad, or did Mama?”
“Well, you just never mind that.” She peered out the window. “Better eat up. Your boy is here.”
“Oh,” I said, shoving a sausage in my mouth and grabbing two biscuits and my jacket before hooking my arm through the straps of my bag. Elliott was already standing on the porch when I opened the door.
“Bye-bye, baby!” Althea called.
Chapter Fourteen
Elliott
I held the door open for Catherine with one hand and held wrapped huckleberry bread in the palm of the other. “Breakfast?”
“Thanks,” she said, holding up another one.
I chuckled. “We’re already sharing a brain. We’re meant to be.”
Catherine blushed, then sat in the passenger seat. I closed the door, jogging around to the other side. She was quiet, and that made me nervous. “Everything okay, I guess?”
“Yeah. Just tired,” she said, staring out the window as I pulled away from the curb.
“Didn’t you sleep well?”
“I did. I think.”
I glanced down at her arms, noticing multiple angry, red, half-moon marks on her skin from wrist to elbow. “You sure you’re okay?”
She pulled down her sleeve. “It’s nothing. A nervous tic.”
“So what were you nervous about?”
She shrugged. “Just couldn’t sleep.”
“What can I do?” I asked, feeling desperate.
She leaned back, closing her eyes. “Right now I just need a nap.”
I touched her knee. “You sleep. I’ll drive.”
She yawned. “I heard Anna Sue is having a Halloween party next week.”
“So?”
“So are you going?”
“Are you?”
Catherine’s eyes opened. Even through her exhaustion, she seemed surprised, as if she were waiting for me to admit I was joking. “No. Dressing up as someone else doesn’t interest me.”
“Not even for one night?”
She shook her head, closing her eyes again. “No, and especially not if it involves Anna Sue Gentry.”
“Looks like it’s popcorn and a scary movie marathon at my house, then?”
She smiled, her eyes still shut. “Sounds perfect to me.”
Catherine’s shoulders sagged, her body relaxed, and her breathing evened out. I tried to drive slow, taking any corners wide. Just before we reached the dirt road I’d had in mind, Catherine scooted over and hugged my arm, resting her cheek against my shoulder. I used my other hand to put the car in park and turn off the ignition, and then we sat on the side of the road while she slept. Her nose made the slightest wheezing sound, and even though my arm and my butt began to go numb, I didn’t dare move.
The sky opened up for a few minutes off and on, raining down a light mist. I played on my phone until the battery was at 1 percent, and then I slowly maneuvered to plug it into the car charger, looking down at the girl snuggled up next to me. Catherine seemed so much smaller than when we first met—more frail, more delicate, and still she was tough as nails. I’d never met anyone like her, but I knew that had something to do with the fact that I’d never loved anyone else the way I loved her, and I never would again. She was more important to me than she knew. I’d been waiting to get back to her for so long, and now that we were sitting together in the quiet, cold car, it seemed surreal. I touched her hair, just to remind myself that it was real.
My phone rang, and I scrambled to answer before it woke Catherine. “Hello?” I whispered.
“Hey,” Dad said.
I rolled my eyes. “Yeah?”
“So I promised your uncle John I wouldn’t call and ask you for anything, but Kimmy lost the apartment, and we’ve been staying with Rick, and he’s got this new girlfriend and her and Kimmy don’t get along. I haven’t been able to find a job, and things just aren’t looking real good. I know . . . I know you’ve got a birthday coming up and your aunt Leigh always gives you a couple hundred bucks. If you could ask her for it early and lend it to me, I swear I’ll get you paid back by Christmas and then some.”
I frowned. “You’re asking for my birthday money I haven’t gotten yet?”
“Didn’t you hear what I said? We’re going to be homeless in a week or two.”
I clenched my teeth. “Get a job, Dad. Does Kim or whoever have a job?”
“That’s none of your business.”
“If you’re wanting to borrow money from me, it is.”
He was quiet for a few moments. “No, she ain’t got a job. Are you going to lend it to me or not?”
“I’m not asking Aunt Leigh for money for you. She takes good care of me. I’m not doing that. If you want to borrow money from her, ask her yourself.”
“I tried! I already owe them five hundred.”
“And you haven’t paid them back, but you want to borrow money from me.”
“I . . . I don’t know.”
“You don’t know?” Althea asked, her voice firmer than I’d heard her speak before. “How can you not know? She’s your daughter. Put an end to this madness.”
“I—” Mama began.
The door cracked open, Mama there in her robe, blocking my line of sight into the room. “What are you doing up, Catherine? Go to bed. Now.” She slammed the door in my face, and whispers filled the room on the other side.
I took a step back and then walked to my room, closing the door behind me. I stared at the light slipping in through the crack at the bottom, wondering why they were discussing me and what they were considering that Althea had so adamantly voted against. The music box chimed a few notes, spurring me into action. I pressed the dresser against the door, and then—feeling that wasn’t enough—pushed my bed against the dresser again, and sat. I stared at the door until I couldn’t keep my eyes open, begging for the sun to rise.
The second time my eyes blinked open, I wondered if the meeting down the hall had been a dream. When I dressed for the day and made my way downstairs, I wondered if I’d dreamed everything about the night before. Uncle Toad’s mess was gone. The living room, dining room, and kitchen were spotless, even as Mama cooked. The air was filled with the smells of baking biscuits and sausage grease, the meat popping in the skillet between the notes of whatever tune Mama was humming.
“Good morning,” Mama said, draining the sausage.
“Morning,” I said, cautious. It had been so long since Mama had been more like herself and in a good mood that I wasn’t sure how to react.
“Your uncle and cousin are checked out. I told him he’s not to come back for a while. What happened last night is inexcusable.”
“How long is a while?” I asked.
Mama turned to me, remorse in her eyes. “I’m sorry for the things he said to you. It won’t happen again, I promise.” I sat down in front of the plate she placed on the dining table. “Now eat. I have a few things to do yet. We’ve got several coming down for breakfast. So, so much to do, and I didn’t sleep well last night.”
She left the room.
“Baby?” Althea said, appearing from the pantry, tying apron strings behind her back. She picked up a rag and began to clean the stove top. “Did we wake you?”
“Did you clean up after Uncle Toad, or did Mama?”
“Well, you just never mind that.” She peered out the window. “Better eat up. Your boy is here.”
“Oh,” I said, shoving a sausage in my mouth and grabbing two biscuits and my jacket before hooking my arm through the straps of my bag. Elliott was already standing on the porch when I opened the door.
“Bye-bye, baby!” Althea called.
Chapter Fourteen
Elliott
I held the door open for Catherine with one hand and held wrapped huckleberry bread in the palm of the other. “Breakfast?”
“Thanks,” she said, holding up another one.
I chuckled. “We’re already sharing a brain. We’re meant to be.”
Catherine blushed, then sat in the passenger seat. I closed the door, jogging around to the other side. She was quiet, and that made me nervous. “Everything okay, I guess?”
“Yeah. Just tired,” she said, staring out the window as I pulled away from the curb.
“Didn’t you sleep well?”
“I did. I think.”
I glanced down at her arms, noticing multiple angry, red, half-moon marks on her skin from wrist to elbow. “You sure you’re okay?”
She pulled down her sleeve. “It’s nothing. A nervous tic.”
“So what were you nervous about?”
She shrugged. “Just couldn’t sleep.”
“What can I do?” I asked, feeling desperate.
She leaned back, closing her eyes. “Right now I just need a nap.”
I touched her knee. “You sleep. I’ll drive.”
She yawned. “I heard Anna Sue is having a Halloween party next week.”
“So?”
“So are you going?”
“Are you?”
Catherine’s eyes opened. Even through her exhaustion, she seemed surprised, as if she were waiting for me to admit I was joking. “No. Dressing up as someone else doesn’t interest me.”
“Not even for one night?”
She shook her head, closing her eyes again. “No, and especially not if it involves Anna Sue Gentry.”
“Looks like it’s popcorn and a scary movie marathon at my house, then?”
She smiled, her eyes still shut. “Sounds perfect to me.”
Catherine’s shoulders sagged, her body relaxed, and her breathing evened out. I tried to drive slow, taking any corners wide. Just before we reached the dirt road I’d had in mind, Catherine scooted over and hugged my arm, resting her cheek against my shoulder. I used my other hand to put the car in park and turn off the ignition, and then we sat on the side of the road while she slept. Her nose made the slightest wheezing sound, and even though my arm and my butt began to go numb, I didn’t dare move.
The sky opened up for a few minutes off and on, raining down a light mist. I played on my phone until the battery was at 1 percent, and then I slowly maneuvered to plug it into the car charger, looking down at the girl snuggled up next to me. Catherine seemed so much smaller than when we first met—more frail, more delicate, and still she was tough as nails. I’d never met anyone like her, but I knew that had something to do with the fact that I’d never loved anyone else the way I loved her, and I never would again. She was more important to me than she knew. I’d been waiting to get back to her for so long, and now that we were sitting together in the quiet, cold car, it seemed surreal. I touched her hair, just to remind myself that it was real.
My phone rang, and I scrambled to answer before it woke Catherine. “Hello?” I whispered.
“Hey,” Dad said.
I rolled my eyes. “Yeah?”
“So I promised your uncle John I wouldn’t call and ask you for anything, but Kimmy lost the apartment, and we’ve been staying with Rick, and he’s got this new girlfriend and her and Kimmy don’t get along. I haven’t been able to find a job, and things just aren’t looking real good. I know . . . I know you’ve got a birthday coming up and your aunt Leigh always gives you a couple hundred bucks. If you could ask her for it early and lend it to me, I swear I’ll get you paid back by Christmas and then some.”
I frowned. “You’re asking for my birthday money I haven’t gotten yet?”
“Didn’t you hear what I said? We’re going to be homeless in a week or two.”
I clenched my teeth. “Get a job, Dad. Does Kim or whoever have a job?”
“That’s none of your business.”
“If you’re wanting to borrow money from me, it is.”
He was quiet for a few moments. “No, she ain’t got a job. Are you going to lend it to me or not?”
“I’m not asking Aunt Leigh for money for you. She takes good care of me. I’m not doing that. If you want to borrow money from her, ask her yourself.”
“I tried! I already owe them five hundred.”
“And you haven’t paid them back, but you want to borrow money from me.”
