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Guilt needled at my conscience. This place was more than I deserved. It wasn’t fair that I got to live here when Anna was back home. Our roof leaked. The bathroom smelled like mold and mildew. The floor in the foyer was squishy in places. Anna had made a game of mapping the spots and jumping over them.
Thinking of her made my insides clench.
I should have asked to bring her with me.
I looked again at the nightstands. “Where’s the phone?”
“There are no phones.”
I spun around. “Excuse me?”
His face was blank now, all previous charm gone. “No phones,” he answered.
“How am I supposed to call my family?”
“You’re not. Not while you’re training.”
I gave him my back again, afraid he’d see the glossy sheen in my eyes.
I’d promised Anna I’d call her as soon as I could.
“Is that going to be a problem?” Connor asked.
The whole reason I’d come here was to protect Anna. But I couldn’t do that if I couldn’t even talk to her. How was I supposed to know if she was all right?
“Dani?”
Shit.
“No,” I answered quickly. “Not a problem at all.”
I’d just figure out some other way of talking to her. They couldn’t keep me a prisoner here. I’d find a phone somewhere outside of the building.
“So,” Connor went on, “do you like the room?”
“It’s nice.”
“Good. I’m glad to hear that.”
I turned to face him. The door-opener had left us once we’d hit ground level, so it was just Connor and me.
Out of his office, Connor had adapted to fit into the more casual setting. His suit jacket hung open, fanned at the h*ps so he could slide his hands into his pants pockets.
He still looked ridiculously handsome, but in a way that seemed much more approachable.
He smiled when he caught me staring, and I raised a brow, as if to say, Yes, I’m looking, and No, I’m not impressed. But I was.
“All meals are served in the lounge down the hall,” he said. A hint of amusement still caught in his voice. “They’re served at seven, noon, and six. We’ll go to the lounge next.”
“There are others here, aren’t there?” I asked.
“Just one.”
“A boy, right?” OB had told me there was another.
Connor nodded. “Sam. You’ll like him.”
I would do everything in my power not to. I wasn’t here to make friends. I wanted to pay my debt—for getting my father the help he needed—and then be on my way.
We left the bedroom and took a right. Connor gestured to the first door we passed on the left. “That’s Sam’s room. You’re more than welcome to visit him if you’d like.”
“Is he there now?”
“No. He’ll be in training until tonight.”
We passed three more doors that were not mentioned, so I assumed the rooms were empty. At the end of the hall, on the right, was the lounge. It too had a view of Lake Michigan. There were several sofas, all the same blue linen as mine. A long metal dining table sat in front of the windows. To its right was a small kitchen.
“Feel free to hang out here when you have free time,” Connor said. “There’s a TV in the cabinet.” He pointed to the black entertainment center in front of the sofas.
“Great.” I offered a smile. “So, when do I start training?”
“Tomorrow.”
A pregnant silence followed as I waited for him to elaborate, and he waited for me to ask.
Damn it.
“What is the training, exactly?”
“We’ll go over the particulars tomorrow.”
I gritted my teeth, stopping myself from cursing, or worse, begging for more info.
“I guess tonight is all mine then?” I said.
Connor nodded. “All yours. You’re free to roam this floor and the first floor. There’s a gym there. And a pool. You’ll find the appropriate clothing for both places in your closet. If you need anything, ask the front desk.”
I followed him out of the lounge and down the hall toward the elevator. He pressed the button to go down.
“I think you’ll fit in well here,” he said, and glanced over at me.
I pulled back, trying to get a better look at his face. Was he lying? I’d trained myself to see a lie from six miles away, but that was only when it came from my own family. Anna had never been good at lying. She did this odd dance with her eyes, like she was trying to find a lie in the room, and focus on it until it became the truth.
My dad fidgeted a lot when he lied. And my mom avoided telling the truth by cleaning. If she picked up the duster in the middle of a conversation, she was hiding something.
Connor, though, was a good liar. He had no obvious tells. My fitting in here seemed like a lie, but part of me really wanted to believe him.
“Thanks,” I said.
The elevator opened, and he stepped inside. “I’ll see you early tomorrow morning,” he said.
“I’ll look forward to it.”
The elevator closed before I had a chance to see his reaction.
* * *
I walked the beach for an hour or so after Connor left me. I’d worn the jacket I’d found in my closet, but the cold air still cut through the thick fabric, and by the time I came back inside my skin was wind whipped and beating red.
Later, I checked out the gym, which was a giant room full of all of the necessary equipment. I didn’t know what any of the machines did other than the treadmills. I’d never been big on exercise.
The pool was long and narrow and was a nice eighty degrees. I sat with my feet dangling in the water for a bit and watched Lake Michigan churn through the glass wall of the poolroom.
When I’d explored all I could explore, I returned to the second floor and rifled through my closet again. Most of what was inside was basic wear: Gray sweatpants. Black sports bras. Black tank tops. Plain T-shirts. Thin, form-fitting sports jackets. The only color in the closet was on the identical pairs of running shoes—black Nikes with pink soles.
At exactly six o’clock, I went to the lounge, pausing when I passed Sam’s door. I couldn’t hear anything on the other side and wondered if he was already eating his dinner.
I wanted to meet him. Mostly I wanted to pump him for information and find out what his training was and how mine might be similar. But when I got to the lounge, I saw only a single tray of food on the table and no Sam in sight.
Was the food his or mine? And if it was mine, where was his? Where was he?
I found a steaming bowl of potato soup on the tray, several packets of crackers, a bowl of grapes, and a biscuit with a cold bottle of water.
The food was delicious. The last few years, my mother’s home cooking had started to taste bland, like she’d left out all of the spices she used to use. Now, it felt like my taste buds were coming alive again.
Afterward, I cleaned up and put my dishes in the dishwasher and left it to do its thing.
On my way back to my room, I stopped at Sam’s door, put my ear to the wood. Still silent. I knocked, waited. Knocked again. Nothing.
Maybe I’d see him at breakfast.
I went back to my room to lie down and fell asleep quickly.
* * *
Dad picks Anna up and sets her on his hip. He’s different today. There are no bottles of cheap whiskey within reach. He’s not checking the clock to see if it’s time for his next dose of pain pills, with a few extra tossed in.
He’s closer to the Dad I remember, who used to take me on nature walks and name the trees like they were giants in a fairy tale.
“Dani?” the Fox says. “Can I talk to you alone?”
I look between him and Dad and Anna. Mom sits in the background knitting, ignoring us. Sometimes I want to rip those damn needles out of her hands and throw them in the garbage.
“Sure.”
I follow him to the sunroom at the back of the house. The sun has set, sucking the color from the sky. The white bark of the birch trees in the backyard stands out in the closing darkness. I sit on the edge of one of the wicker chairs and fold my hands in my lap.
I strain to hear Anna down the hallway.
“I wondered if you might be interested in working for me,” the Fox asks.
I look up. My first thought is, Is this supposed to be my present? Anna got a Barbie and I got this?
“Where?” I ask.
“In Cam Marie. In my lab.”
“What would I be doing?”
“We’re doing research. Advance science. Genetic alteration. It’s for a program. We need subjects. People to train and later to send on assignments.”
I don’t know much about science. I failed eighth grade biology, but I do know what test subjects are. “You mean I’d be a guinea pig?”
“That’s a harsh way of putting it.”
But he doesn’t say no.
“When would you need me?”
“You’d have to leave within the week. What do you say?” he coaxes. He leans back and crosses one leg over the other, like he doesn’t care at all what my answer is. But I think he does. I think he wants me to say yes more than he’s ever wanted anything.
“No.” The word comes easily. I can’t leave Anna alone with my parents, and I don’t believe anything he says anyway. “Thanks, though.”
I start to rise, when he adds, “Your dad agreed to stop drinking if you went.”
I freeze. “What?”
“He’ll quit. And I’ll hire someone for therapy and pain management.”
A lump forms in my throat and I swallow it back. “He won’t stick to it. He never does.”
“He will.” His foot, the one that hangs over the other knee, jiggles.
“What about Anna?”
“She’ll be fine. Things will be different.” He tilts his head to the side, and the new angle sharpens all his features, bringing out the Fox.
I sit back down. “How long would I be gone?”
“Six months. If it works out, maybe longer, but only if you want.”
“Will it hurt? Any of these genetic alterations?”
“No. I have the best medical team.”
“Will I be different when I leave?”
“Possibly.”
“Better or worse?”
He smiles. “Better. Much, much better.” He sits forward, rests his elbows on his knees. There’s steel in his eyes, but his answers come too quickly. Like he’s mapped out all the ways this conversation could go and he knows just what to say.
“Come work for me,” he goes on, “and I will fix everything that is broken about your family. I’m promising you and Anna a better life.” The words come out carefully and quietly, and I realize all his answers were leading to this. An offer I would have a hard time refusing.
Not only do we not have the money to properly take care of Dad’s problems, but he would never agree even if we did. The Fox has something we don’t. He’s always had Dad’s respect and admiration. He also has money.
“What do you say?”
As I sit there, watching him watch me, my head fills with the slow whisper of words. Words I have memorized.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we—
Of many far wiser than we—
And neither the angels in heaven above,
Nor the demons down under the sea,
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee
It’s from a poem by Edgar Allan Poe. And I know it’s not a poem meant for sisters, but when I read that stanza in English lit last year, I couldn’t help but think of Anna. My little innocent eleven-year-old Anna. I would do anything for her.
I have nothing to lose, really, and everything to gain. So long as Dad does what he’s supposed to do, and the Fox keeps his promises.