Always You
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I looked up into two familiar green eyes and I felt like I was home, everything was ok, Clay was here with me nothing else mattered. "I'm sorry Riley bear" he said putting his forehead to mine and holding my cheek. I closed my eyes enjoying his closeness. "I'm an asshole, I know and I'm so sorry, I love you Riley bear" he said quietly. I couldn't speak so I did the only thing I wanted to do in the world other than hold him tight, I kissed him, he responded immediately kissing me back with so much passion that it took my breath away.
He pulled out of the kiss too soon and I whimpered, tears were starting to form in my eyes, he'd rejected me again. "I need to say something" he said stroking my face lightly. I closed my eyes not wanting to hear it, "This doesn't mean the same for me as it does for you" he said quietly. Jeez I know that! Does he think I don't know that? I want him with every bone in my body and he's just getting a quick thrill.
"I know that Clay" I said quietly still leaving my eyes closed, "I know that this is something fun for you" I said kissing him again.
Now that we'd admitted it maybe we could still do this and be friends at the same time, like friends with extra's because I just needed him. He pulled away looking at me intently slightly confused. "No Riley, it's not fun for me" he said, I gasped oh God I wasn't even fun? What the hell? Did I do something wrong? He said that I was good at it, he must have lied. My breathing sped up as I started to panic. "Riley! Riley that's not what I meant jeez, of course its fun for me in that way, but what I meant was I don't want you to just be something fun, I love you, I want to be with you, but I'll be here for whatever you need, you need a friend I'll be your friend, you need someone to hold you I'll be that too, whatever you want, I'll do anything" he said quietly, rubbing my cheek tenderly.
I still couldn't breathe, my heart was beating so fast I thought it would kill me, he wanted me? Am I dreaming? I must still be sleeping and this is just the best dream I have ever had in my life, I didn't ever want to wake from this dream. I looked up at him hopefully, warmth spreading from his fingers though my cheek melting my heart.
"Clay" I whispered, how do I respond to that? He's just told me he loves me that he'll do anything for me, what can I say to that?
"It's ok Riley bear, I know things are gonna be difficult from now on, now that you know how I feel, but I promise I won't stand in the way of you and Blake, I'm sorry for what I said and for walking off like that. I was jealous and hurting, I wasn't going to meet Zoë, I just said that, I was lashing out. I promise we can make this work, it'll hurt like hell but I can put my feelings for you aside and be your friend I promise, I just needed you to know finally" he said. Wow that was the longest speech I had ever heard him make.
I smiled at him and he smiled back kissing my forehead and laying his head back with a contented sigh probably pleased that he had finally told me the truth and got it off of his chest. He thinks I don't want him? Is he crazy? Every girl I knew wanted to be with Clay, he is the most perfect boy in the world. I sat up quickly and looked down at his beautiful face.
"I love you too Clay" I said, he nodded and smiled his beautiful smile.
"I know that Riley bear, but I just needed you to know finally, that I'm in love with you, I have been since the first time I saw you, you were so shy holding that damn rabbit that was always escaping" he said with a smile. I laughed, I'd forgotten about that, Clay and I were always running around trying to catch that damn rabbit. I bent my head and kissed him gently.
"Clay, I'm in love with you too" I said quietly looking into his eyes. His eyes lit up and his face went from complete shock into the biggest smile I had ever seen him do, it made me smile too.
"You love me?" he asked excitedly, I laughed and nodded.
He grabbed my face, "You're being serious Riley? You love me?" he asked desperately. I nodded again watching as his face lit up into a huge smile.
"Yes Clay I love you" I smiling at his expression, he looked like a kid on Christmas morning. He kissed me passionately, tenderly, making a moaning sound in the back of his throat, that made my whole body burn, I slowly unbuttoned his shirt kissing his chest as I pulled it off.
He grabbed hold of me and rolled over so I was under him running his hands through my hair still beaming at me. "I wish you'd told me this a couple of days ago, I've been going through hell I swear, I was so happy when I woke up next to you after that first night then when I came back from the shower you looked so horrified and like you'd been crying" he said shaking his head at the memory looking hurt.
"I had been crying" I admitted trailing my hands down his back feeling his muscles move as he tensed.
"Why?" he asked kissing my cheek.
"I thought you'd left me, I thought that you played me and that everything was ruined" I said.
He frowned, "That's why you said we had to forget it?" he asked quietly still stroking my hair, I nodded.
"I thought you regretted it, you're a player Clay you've never even had a girlfriend I thought I needed to straighten it out before things got awkward, I thought you'd used me" I said hooking my thumbs in his belt loops spreading my fingers out over his perfect ass.
He bent his head trailing little kisses from the corner of my mouth across my cheek to my ear. "I've told you hundreds of times why I've never had a girlfriend" he whispered nibbling on my ear lobe. I frowned, he'd told me? I can't remember.
"Why?" I asked confused, he chuckled.
"Riley bear, you're the only one for me, I don't want a girlfriend if it's not you" he said simply, Oh God yeah! He always says that, that because I wasn't interested in him was why he was a player and never wanted anything serious, he always said I was the only girl for him. I thought back to all the times he told me he loved me or that he would do anything for me. All the times he made me things, little surprises, picking me flowers, everything he did for me, I'd just laughed at him thinking he was joking, that was him telling me how he felt. God I've been so stupid!
Happiness burst inside me, "So what your saying is that you want me to be your girlfriend?" I asked giving him a flirty smile.
"No Riley bear, what I'm saying is that I want you to be my everything, my soul mate, my girlfriend, my whole world" he said kissing me lightly, I blushed and giggled like a little kid. He smiled at me "Ok was that too much?" he asked blushing slightly.
"Maybe a little" I said pulling his face to mine and kissing him passionately.
"I have one thing I would definitely like you to be" I said rolling so I was on top of him again.
"Anything" he said running his hands down my back, across my ass and down my thighs, making me moan breathlessly.
"My first" I whispered in his ear seductively, he gasped and rolled over again so he was on top and kissed me.
The kiss was amazing it made my whole body tingle, it made me lose myself, by the time he pulled away to kiss my neck I was giddy with desire. I pulled at his jeans trying to get them off as quick as possible, he was doing the same to my clothes. I was already down to my panties and bra before he pulled away, "Crap! We can't, I don't have anything" he said slapping his forehead, the disappointment I felt was overwhelming, it was almost painful.
I looked at his face to see he felt the same as me, suddenly he brightened and kissed me again, Oh thank you God he's remembered he has one. The nervous excitement was starting to build back up again. Oh my God I'm about to have sex with Clay! I was still pulling at his jeans pushing them all the way off. "Riley, I don't have one" he said rolling off of me slightly again still beaming at me.
"Then why do you look so happy Clay? I thought you just remembered you had one in your wallet or something" I said confused giving him my puppy dog face.
He chuckled and ran his thumb across my bottom lip as he spoke "I'm happy because we don't have to rush anything, we have forever for me to be with you, we don't have to do this tonight, it's not a 'tonight only' offer is it?" he asked with a teasing smile. I rolled him under me, he was only in his boxers I still had on my bra and panties, I sat up and gave him an evil smile.
"Well to be honest I'm not sure if I'm still gonna want you tomorrow" I said pretending to think about it whilst running my hands down his chest.
"Hmm really? Well then maybe I'd better make the most of you tonight then" he said with an wicked glint in his eye sitting up and tickling me, making me laugh and squirm around on his lap.
I pushed him off and jumped up, still giggling I ran for the door, I heard him jump off the bed behind me, I ran as fast as I could downstairs, he was gaining on me. I made it to the kitchen before he grabbed my waist span me around and picked me up by my h*ps I wrapped my legs around his waist. "Hmm now what's a fitting payback for running away from me?" he said narrowing his eyes at me pretending to think as he walked forwards, "I know" he said as he leant me against the fridge. I screamed as the cold door touched my back and jerked into him further which caused me to grind hard against his erection making me gasp.
He laughed and moved backwards kissing me passionately running his hands up my back warming it back up. "I love you Riley, so much" he said lovingly "We don't need to rush this, I want to be with you, I want to make love to you, God I want to make love to you so much" he said putting his forehead to mine "But we have all the time in the world" he said looking at me lovingly. I kissed him again and my stomach growled loudly.
He chuckled, "It's a movie night, how about I order us a pizza while you choose a DVD" he said putting me down gently. I nodded and turned go back upstairs, I knew he was watching me so I purposefully swayed my ass seductively as I walked. I head him moan, and I bit my lip trying not to laugh. "Choose something that's gonna scare you, I like having you cling to me" he said with another smirk. I went upstairs and threw on his t-shirt, I quickly looked in the mirror, Oh crap, my face was puffy and red from crying, my mascara had smudged under my eyes so I looked like a panda and my hair was all messy. I groaned wow I look so sexy.
I quickly grabbed a brush and started to brush out the snarls and tangles, I grabbed my face wipes and wiped my smudged make up off quickly. Grabbing my make up bag I started to apply some concealer to the red blotches. I had just finished applying mascara to one eye and was about to start the other when Clay cleared his throat from the doorway, I jumped and looked at him, "Why are you doing that?" he asked amused.
"Isn't it obvious? I look a complete mess from all the crying" I said turning back to the mirror.
He walked in and grabbed my face wipes turning me round to face him, he pulled one out and wiped my freshly applied makeup off my face gently. "You are the most beautiful girl in the world Riley, you don't need any of that" he said throwing the wipe in my bin kissing me tenderly.
"I just wanted to look nice for you" I said biting my lip to stop the moan that tried to escape as I ran my eyes down his body, he was still in just his boxers.
"I'm sorry but you'll never look nice" he said grabbing my hand and pulling me out to the hundreds of movies I have.
"I won't?" I asked lagging behind him slightly on purpose so I could watch his ass.
"Nope, never, you are just too perfect to ever just look 'nice', and do you mind not staring at my ass?" he said with a chuckle. I reached out a hand and slapped it playfully, "I thought it was my ass now" I said simply sticking out my tongue, he moaned quietly and pulled me forward. "Come on Riley bear choose a film the pizza will be here soon" he said wrapping his arms around my waist resting his chin on my shoulder. I chose iRobot, I know its not a scary film like he asked but it was the first one I saw and I didn't plan on watching the movie anyway.
The doorbell rang and I skipped off to answer it while he pulled on his jeans, "Wait, your only in a t-shirt Riley" he called as I made my to the door, I didn't care I was hungry. I opened the door to a guy from our school I think his name was Steven or something like that and he was a senior the same as Clay.
"Err Hi, I have your large pizza, half margarita, half super loaded and your chocolate fudge cake and banoffi pie" he said looking me up and down slowly lingering on my bare legs.
I heard a sound from beside me I knew that Clay was there, I held up one finger to him signalling for him to wait. "Hi, it's Steven isn't it? You go to South Shore right?" I said with a bright smile as I leant against the door frame crossing one ankle over the other.
"That's right, and you're Riley Thomas" he said nodding with a cocky grin, I smiled.
"I just wanted to ask you, is there some reason why none of the guys ask me out at school?" I asked biting my lip and looking at him through my eyelashes, I heard Clay shuffle and I held up a hand to him again. Bless him he did as I asked he didn't move or say anything, he really is sweet and funny and so damn sexy it hurts my eyes.
"Actually everyone knows you're Clay Preston's girl, he's like seriously in love with you it's totally obvious, so I think they just stay away because of that" he said frowning slightly.
"Really? Everyone knows that?" I asked a little shocked, did everyone know it but me?
He nodded, "Yeah but if you ever want to step away from the whole stereotypical jock I would definitely take you out" he said looking down at my legs again.
"I'll keep that in mind Steven, how much do I owe you for the pizza?" I asked trying out my flirty sexy voice on him.
He pulled out of the kiss too soon and I whimpered, tears were starting to form in my eyes, he'd rejected me again. "I need to say something" he said stroking my face lightly. I closed my eyes not wanting to hear it, "This doesn't mean the same for me as it does for you" he said quietly. Jeez I know that! Does he think I don't know that? I want him with every bone in my body and he's just getting a quick thrill.
"I know that Clay" I said quietly still leaving my eyes closed, "I know that this is something fun for you" I said kissing him again.
Now that we'd admitted it maybe we could still do this and be friends at the same time, like friends with extra's because I just needed him. He pulled away looking at me intently slightly confused. "No Riley, it's not fun for me" he said, I gasped oh God I wasn't even fun? What the hell? Did I do something wrong? He said that I was good at it, he must have lied. My breathing sped up as I started to panic. "Riley! Riley that's not what I meant jeez, of course its fun for me in that way, but what I meant was I don't want you to just be something fun, I love you, I want to be with you, but I'll be here for whatever you need, you need a friend I'll be your friend, you need someone to hold you I'll be that too, whatever you want, I'll do anything" he said quietly, rubbing my cheek tenderly.
I still couldn't breathe, my heart was beating so fast I thought it would kill me, he wanted me? Am I dreaming? I must still be sleeping and this is just the best dream I have ever had in my life, I didn't ever want to wake from this dream. I looked up at him hopefully, warmth spreading from his fingers though my cheek melting my heart.
"Clay" I whispered, how do I respond to that? He's just told me he loves me that he'll do anything for me, what can I say to that?
"It's ok Riley bear, I know things are gonna be difficult from now on, now that you know how I feel, but I promise I won't stand in the way of you and Blake, I'm sorry for what I said and for walking off like that. I was jealous and hurting, I wasn't going to meet Zoë, I just said that, I was lashing out. I promise we can make this work, it'll hurt like hell but I can put my feelings for you aside and be your friend I promise, I just needed you to know finally" he said. Wow that was the longest speech I had ever heard him make.
I smiled at him and he smiled back kissing my forehead and laying his head back with a contented sigh probably pleased that he had finally told me the truth and got it off of his chest. He thinks I don't want him? Is he crazy? Every girl I knew wanted to be with Clay, he is the most perfect boy in the world. I sat up quickly and looked down at his beautiful face.
"I love you too Clay" I said, he nodded and smiled his beautiful smile.
"I know that Riley bear, but I just needed you to know finally, that I'm in love with you, I have been since the first time I saw you, you were so shy holding that damn rabbit that was always escaping" he said with a smile. I laughed, I'd forgotten about that, Clay and I were always running around trying to catch that damn rabbit. I bent my head and kissed him gently.
"Clay, I'm in love with you too" I said quietly looking into his eyes. His eyes lit up and his face went from complete shock into the biggest smile I had ever seen him do, it made me smile too.
"You love me?" he asked excitedly, I laughed and nodded.
He grabbed my face, "You're being serious Riley? You love me?" he asked desperately. I nodded again watching as his face lit up into a huge smile.
"Yes Clay I love you" I smiling at his expression, he looked like a kid on Christmas morning. He kissed me passionately, tenderly, making a moaning sound in the back of his throat, that made my whole body burn, I slowly unbuttoned his shirt kissing his chest as I pulled it off.
He grabbed hold of me and rolled over so I was under him running his hands through my hair still beaming at me. "I wish you'd told me this a couple of days ago, I've been going through hell I swear, I was so happy when I woke up next to you after that first night then when I came back from the shower you looked so horrified and like you'd been crying" he said shaking his head at the memory looking hurt.
"I had been crying" I admitted trailing my hands down his back feeling his muscles move as he tensed.
"Why?" he asked kissing my cheek.
"I thought you'd left me, I thought that you played me and that everything was ruined" I said.
He frowned, "That's why you said we had to forget it?" he asked quietly still stroking my hair, I nodded.
"I thought you regretted it, you're a player Clay you've never even had a girlfriend I thought I needed to straighten it out before things got awkward, I thought you'd used me" I said hooking my thumbs in his belt loops spreading my fingers out over his perfect ass.
He bent his head trailing little kisses from the corner of my mouth across my cheek to my ear. "I've told you hundreds of times why I've never had a girlfriend" he whispered nibbling on my ear lobe. I frowned, he'd told me? I can't remember.
"Why?" I asked confused, he chuckled.
"Riley bear, you're the only one for me, I don't want a girlfriend if it's not you" he said simply, Oh God yeah! He always says that, that because I wasn't interested in him was why he was a player and never wanted anything serious, he always said I was the only girl for him. I thought back to all the times he told me he loved me or that he would do anything for me. All the times he made me things, little surprises, picking me flowers, everything he did for me, I'd just laughed at him thinking he was joking, that was him telling me how he felt. God I've been so stupid!
Happiness burst inside me, "So what your saying is that you want me to be your girlfriend?" I asked giving him a flirty smile.
"No Riley bear, what I'm saying is that I want you to be my everything, my soul mate, my girlfriend, my whole world" he said kissing me lightly, I blushed and giggled like a little kid. He smiled at me "Ok was that too much?" he asked blushing slightly.
"Maybe a little" I said pulling his face to mine and kissing him passionately.
"I have one thing I would definitely like you to be" I said rolling so I was on top of him again.
"Anything" he said running his hands down my back, across my ass and down my thighs, making me moan breathlessly.
"My first" I whispered in his ear seductively, he gasped and rolled over again so he was on top and kissed me.
The kiss was amazing it made my whole body tingle, it made me lose myself, by the time he pulled away to kiss my neck I was giddy with desire. I pulled at his jeans trying to get them off as quick as possible, he was doing the same to my clothes. I was already down to my panties and bra before he pulled away, "Crap! We can't, I don't have anything" he said slapping his forehead, the disappointment I felt was overwhelming, it was almost painful.
I looked at his face to see he felt the same as me, suddenly he brightened and kissed me again, Oh thank you God he's remembered he has one. The nervous excitement was starting to build back up again. Oh my God I'm about to have sex with Clay! I was still pulling at his jeans pushing them all the way off. "Riley, I don't have one" he said rolling off of me slightly again still beaming at me.
"Then why do you look so happy Clay? I thought you just remembered you had one in your wallet or something" I said confused giving him my puppy dog face.
He chuckled and ran his thumb across my bottom lip as he spoke "I'm happy because we don't have to rush anything, we have forever for me to be with you, we don't have to do this tonight, it's not a 'tonight only' offer is it?" he asked with a teasing smile. I rolled him under me, he was only in his boxers I still had on my bra and panties, I sat up and gave him an evil smile.
"Well to be honest I'm not sure if I'm still gonna want you tomorrow" I said pretending to think about it whilst running my hands down his chest.
"Hmm really? Well then maybe I'd better make the most of you tonight then" he said with an wicked glint in his eye sitting up and tickling me, making me laugh and squirm around on his lap.
I pushed him off and jumped up, still giggling I ran for the door, I heard him jump off the bed behind me, I ran as fast as I could downstairs, he was gaining on me. I made it to the kitchen before he grabbed my waist span me around and picked me up by my h*ps I wrapped my legs around his waist. "Hmm now what's a fitting payback for running away from me?" he said narrowing his eyes at me pretending to think as he walked forwards, "I know" he said as he leant me against the fridge. I screamed as the cold door touched my back and jerked into him further which caused me to grind hard against his erection making me gasp.
He laughed and moved backwards kissing me passionately running his hands up my back warming it back up. "I love you Riley, so much" he said lovingly "We don't need to rush this, I want to be with you, I want to make love to you, God I want to make love to you so much" he said putting his forehead to mine "But we have all the time in the world" he said looking at me lovingly. I kissed him again and my stomach growled loudly.
He chuckled, "It's a movie night, how about I order us a pizza while you choose a DVD" he said putting me down gently. I nodded and turned go back upstairs, I knew he was watching me so I purposefully swayed my ass seductively as I walked. I head him moan, and I bit my lip trying not to laugh. "Choose something that's gonna scare you, I like having you cling to me" he said with another smirk. I went upstairs and threw on his t-shirt, I quickly looked in the mirror, Oh crap, my face was puffy and red from crying, my mascara had smudged under my eyes so I looked like a panda and my hair was all messy. I groaned wow I look so sexy.
I quickly grabbed a brush and started to brush out the snarls and tangles, I grabbed my face wipes and wiped my smudged make up off quickly. Grabbing my make up bag I started to apply some concealer to the red blotches. I had just finished applying mascara to one eye and was about to start the other when Clay cleared his throat from the doorway, I jumped and looked at him, "Why are you doing that?" he asked amused.
"Isn't it obvious? I look a complete mess from all the crying" I said turning back to the mirror.
He walked in and grabbed my face wipes turning me round to face him, he pulled one out and wiped my freshly applied makeup off my face gently. "You are the most beautiful girl in the world Riley, you don't need any of that" he said throwing the wipe in my bin kissing me tenderly.
"I just wanted to look nice for you" I said biting my lip to stop the moan that tried to escape as I ran my eyes down his body, he was still in just his boxers.
"I'm sorry but you'll never look nice" he said grabbing my hand and pulling me out to the hundreds of movies I have.
"I won't?" I asked lagging behind him slightly on purpose so I could watch his ass.
"Nope, never, you are just too perfect to ever just look 'nice', and do you mind not staring at my ass?" he said with a chuckle. I reached out a hand and slapped it playfully, "I thought it was my ass now" I said simply sticking out my tongue, he moaned quietly and pulled me forward. "Come on Riley bear choose a film the pizza will be here soon" he said wrapping his arms around my waist resting his chin on my shoulder. I chose iRobot, I know its not a scary film like he asked but it was the first one I saw and I didn't plan on watching the movie anyway.
The doorbell rang and I skipped off to answer it while he pulled on his jeans, "Wait, your only in a t-shirt Riley" he called as I made my to the door, I didn't care I was hungry. I opened the door to a guy from our school I think his name was Steven or something like that and he was a senior the same as Clay.
"Err Hi, I have your large pizza, half margarita, half super loaded and your chocolate fudge cake and banoffi pie" he said looking me up and down slowly lingering on my bare legs.
I heard a sound from beside me I knew that Clay was there, I held up one finger to him signalling for him to wait. "Hi, it's Steven isn't it? You go to South Shore right?" I said with a bright smile as I leant against the door frame crossing one ankle over the other.
"That's right, and you're Riley Thomas" he said nodding with a cocky grin, I smiled.
"I just wanted to ask you, is there some reason why none of the guys ask me out at school?" I asked biting my lip and looking at him through my eyelashes, I heard Clay shuffle and I held up a hand to him again. Bless him he did as I asked he didn't move or say anything, he really is sweet and funny and so damn sexy it hurts my eyes.
"Actually everyone knows you're Clay Preston's girl, he's like seriously in love with you it's totally obvious, so I think they just stay away because of that" he said frowning slightly.
"Really? Everyone knows that?" I asked a little shocked, did everyone know it but me?
He nodded, "Yeah but if you ever want to step away from the whole stereotypical jock I would definitely take you out" he said looking down at my legs again.
"I'll keep that in mind Steven, how much do I owe you for the pizza?" I asked trying out my flirty sexy voice on him.
