Any Day Now
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“What is it, Alyssa?” he asked.
“It’s my mother,” she said, one large tear spilling over. “Connie, it’s my mom—she’s so sick. She’s dying.”
“What?” he asked. “What do you mean?”
“She was sick and they ran a lot of tests and she just got sicker and sicker and we were so worried but by the time they narrowed it down to pancreatic cancer, it had grown and metastasized.” She bit a knuckle as another great tear escaped and rolled down her cheek. “What will I do without her? I can’t get by without her.”
Conrad was filled with sympathy. He was still very close to his mother; he saw her regularly and talked to her at least every other day. And he liked Alyssa’s mother. He had even stayed in touch with her after he and Alyssa broke up, for a while anyway.
He put a hand around her shoulder and drew her to him. She leaned against him and cried and although one of his arms dangled at his side, he held her there for a moment. “You’re going to have to be very strong, Alyssa. You don’t want Rachel to have the added burden of worrying about you.”
“She’s my best friend,” she whispered.
“Have the doctors said how long they’d give her?”
“Just a matter of weeks, maybe less, probably not more.”
“You have Clay,” Connie said. “He’s a good brother, a good son. How’s your dad?”
“Broken,” she said, leaning against him again. She looked up at him with her tearstained face. “Will you visit her before...you know, before it’s over?”
“Have you arranged for hospice care?”
“Yes,” she said, wiping off her cheeks. “They’re starting visits the end of this week. I’m living at home again, to be with her.”
“You won’t regret that,” he said. “But you’re working?”
“It’s the only thing that takes my mind off it for a while. My clients have been wonderful. So supportive. And I cut my hours. Connie, will you visit?”
“Sure. Of course. Meanwhile, tell your mom I’m so sorry to hear the news. I’ll stop by one of these days, okay?”
“That would help. Thanks. My mom loves you, you know.”
“She’s a good woman. This is awful.”
“Can we just go get a cup of coffee or a soda or...”
He shook his head. “It’s not a good time,” he said.
“It’s never a good time,” she complained with a sniff. She wiped a hand under her nose. “Even now.”
“Alyssa, I’m sorry you’re hurting and this news is awful for me, too—I’m crazy about your mom, about your family. I’ll pay her a visit.”
“How about me? Can’t you be a friend to me?”
They’d been over this a few times; he’d been honest with her. He wasn’t interested in getting back together, he didn’t want to be friends. What they were was exes. That was all. He wasn’t mad anymore. In fact, he felt terrible for her right now. It was true—she was really close to her mother. Her mother got her through most of the sticky or difficult times of her life.
“I’m seeing someone, Alyssa. I doubt she’d appreciate that.”
“Who?”
“Never mind. Listen, I’ll call your house right away. I’ll visit your mom as soon as I can. I have to get some stuff at the store—lunch. The guys are waiting.”
She dropped her gaze. “Sure. Okay. Thanks.” Her eyes still on the ground, she turned and went back down the sidewalk to the beauty shop.
He watched her go and looked around. There were at least a dozen pairs of eyes on him. Some of them he knew—Lola from the diner, Jeff from the grocery outside straightening up the sidewalk baskets, Bertrice from the bookstore down the street. But there were others he didn’t know and to them, he supposed, he was a guy who just made a girl cry.
He didn’t care. He wanted to grab his lunch groceries and get back to the firehouse. He wanted to call his mom, see how she was doing today. He’d just talked to her yesterday but it would feel good to talk to her again.
* * *
Sierra could see the street from behind the lunch counter. She saw Conrad walk past. She smiled when she saw him; she almost always smiled at just the sight of him. He had that strong but leisurely gait. That was the thing about Connie—he was sure-footed in all things. His hands were in the pockets of his navy blue work trousers, that blue T-shirt snug on his broad shoulders. He could carry the weight of the world on those shoulders and often did.
She moved down to the end of the counter and watched him pass. She saw a woman step out of the beauty shop and call to him. He stopped and turned and they walked toward each other.
Of course—the ex. She felt pretty dim-witted—how had she failed to put two and two together like that. He’d mentioned she worked in town and they ran into each other now and then. She was a hairdresser, and she was beautiful. At least from where Sierra stood, she appeared stunning. Tall, leggy, long ebony hair, sophisticated.
Then he embraced her. He reached for her, pulled her close, held her for a long time before they parted a bit, talked a little bit longer, then separated and went on their way—he went left, she went right.
What had he said? They ran into each other sometimes. No, he said if they didn’t run into each other he wouldn’t even recognize her. Oh, but he recognized her. He had held her close.
Lola came into the diner. “Hey there, how’s it going?” she asked. She didn’t wait for an answer but went back to the kitchen area to stow her big purse and grab her apron. She was back at the sink giving her hands a scrub when Sierra joined her.
“It’s my mother,” she said, one large tear spilling over. “Connie, it’s my mom—she’s so sick. She’s dying.”
“What?” he asked. “What do you mean?”
“She was sick and they ran a lot of tests and she just got sicker and sicker and we were so worried but by the time they narrowed it down to pancreatic cancer, it had grown and metastasized.” She bit a knuckle as another great tear escaped and rolled down her cheek. “What will I do without her? I can’t get by without her.”
Conrad was filled with sympathy. He was still very close to his mother; he saw her regularly and talked to her at least every other day. And he liked Alyssa’s mother. He had even stayed in touch with her after he and Alyssa broke up, for a while anyway.
He put a hand around her shoulder and drew her to him. She leaned against him and cried and although one of his arms dangled at his side, he held her there for a moment. “You’re going to have to be very strong, Alyssa. You don’t want Rachel to have the added burden of worrying about you.”
“She’s my best friend,” she whispered.
“Have the doctors said how long they’d give her?”
“Just a matter of weeks, maybe less, probably not more.”
“You have Clay,” Connie said. “He’s a good brother, a good son. How’s your dad?”
“Broken,” she said, leaning against him again. She looked up at him with her tearstained face. “Will you visit her before...you know, before it’s over?”
“Have you arranged for hospice care?”
“Yes,” she said, wiping off her cheeks. “They’re starting visits the end of this week. I’m living at home again, to be with her.”
“You won’t regret that,” he said. “But you’re working?”
“It’s the only thing that takes my mind off it for a while. My clients have been wonderful. So supportive. And I cut my hours. Connie, will you visit?”
“Sure. Of course. Meanwhile, tell your mom I’m so sorry to hear the news. I’ll stop by one of these days, okay?”
“That would help. Thanks. My mom loves you, you know.”
“She’s a good woman. This is awful.”
“Can we just go get a cup of coffee or a soda or...”
He shook his head. “It’s not a good time,” he said.
“It’s never a good time,” she complained with a sniff. She wiped a hand under her nose. “Even now.”
“Alyssa, I’m sorry you’re hurting and this news is awful for me, too—I’m crazy about your mom, about your family. I’ll pay her a visit.”
“How about me? Can’t you be a friend to me?”
They’d been over this a few times; he’d been honest with her. He wasn’t interested in getting back together, he didn’t want to be friends. What they were was exes. That was all. He wasn’t mad anymore. In fact, he felt terrible for her right now. It was true—she was really close to her mother. Her mother got her through most of the sticky or difficult times of her life.
“I’m seeing someone, Alyssa. I doubt she’d appreciate that.”
“Who?”
“Never mind. Listen, I’ll call your house right away. I’ll visit your mom as soon as I can. I have to get some stuff at the store—lunch. The guys are waiting.”
She dropped her gaze. “Sure. Okay. Thanks.” Her eyes still on the ground, she turned and went back down the sidewalk to the beauty shop.
He watched her go and looked around. There were at least a dozen pairs of eyes on him. Some of them he knew—Lola from the diner, Jeff from the grocery outside straightening up the sidewalk baskets, Bertrice from the bookstore down the street. But there were others he didn’t know and to them, he supposed, he was a guy who just made a girl cry.
He didn’t care. He wanted to grab his lunch groceries and get back to the firehouse. He wanted to call his mom, see how she was doing today. He’d just talked to her yesterday but it would feel good to talk to her again.
* * *
Sierra could see the street from behind the lunch counter. She saw Conrad walk past. She smiled when she saw him; she almost always smiled at just the sight of him. He had that strong but leisurely gait. That was the thing about Connie—he was sure-footed in all things. His hands were in the pockets of his navy blue work trousers, that blue T-shirt snug on his broad shoulders. He could carry the weight of the world on those shoulders and often did.
She moved down to the end of the counter and watched him pass. She saw a woman step out of the beauty shop and call to him. He stopped and turned and they walked toward each other.
Of course—the ex. She felt pretty dim-witted—how had she failed to put two and two together like that. He’d mentioned she worked in town and they ran into each other now and then. She was a hairdresser, and she was beautiful. At least from where Sierra stood, she appeared stunning. Tall, leggy, long ebony hair, sophisticated.
Then he embraced her. He reached for her, pulled her close, held her for a long time before they parted a bit, talked a little bit longer, then separated and went on their way—he went left, she went right.
What had he said? They ran into each other sometimes. No, he said if they didn’t run into each other he wouldn’t even recognize her. Oh, but he recognized her. He had held her close.
Lola came into the diner. “Hey there, how’s it going?” she asked. She didn’t wait for an answer but went back to the kitchen area to stow her big purse and grab her apron. She was back at the sink giving her hands a scrub when Sierra joined her.
