Balthazar
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But the New World wasn’t so new any longer, and as blue light burned brighter and nausea gripped Balthazar’s gut, he knew that all Redgrave’s fears had been justified.
The wraiths were the only creatures unholier than he was himself.
The pain lashed through him—through all of them—like being stabbed with a sword of ice. Balthazar crumpled along with the rest; they collapsed atop one another in a heap. Charity fell beside him, and for one moment their eyes met.
Still, two centuries later, she was more afraid of him than of Redgrave or the wraiths.
Wraith light swept down again, agonizing and swift. Redgrave somehow summoned the strength to lunge back up the steps and out the door the way he had come; his tribe followed, Charity among them. Although Balthazar tried to clutch at the hem of her skirt, pain had weakened his grip, and the fabric simply brushed his fingertips for a moment before she was gone.
Now the wraiths had only one vampire to torment—Balthazar himself—and the attacks grew more blinding, more terrible. His body twisted in response to the assault, fangs jutting from his jaw as if this were an attacker he could fend off. He could hear the screams of the people inside, horrified by what they were witnessing even if they didn’t understand it. As Balthazar pushed himself toward the door, he looked up once to see Richard … and in his old friend’s face was more revulsion than compassion.
Richard had never seen this—his monstrous true form. It could never be unseen. Although he could not have guessed the full truth, Richard must now realize that Balthazar was not human. One small refuge, one fragile friendship, was broken. With it went Balthazar’s ties to the human world.
He pushed himself out onto the street, falling into a mud puddle. As Balthazar spat dank water from his mouth, he looked up to see that Redgrave, Charity, and the rest were gone; no doubt they’d fled this place as fast as they could.
As the fire-reddened sky overhead churned and faraway screams split the night, Balthazar thought, They’ve left me here in hell.
Chapter Fourteen
THE NEXT DAY, REDGRAVE DIDN’T COME. HE didn’t approach Skye at school, didn’t stalk her house, anything.
Or the next day.
Or the day after that.
During study hall on that third day, Skye texted Balthazar, Did you actually scare Redgrave off? Or talk him out of it?
I doubt it. I just can’t believe it’s going to be that easy.
Balthazar had told her about his altercation with Redgrave, and that he’d basically given him the equivalent of an antidrug speech. There was something else he hadn’t told her about what Redgrave had said or done—she could sense Balthazar holding back about it. Regardless of what that might be, Skye didn’t think one serious talking-to was going to be enough to save her.
She typed, So what’s he waiting for?
I don’t know. He can be patient, when he wants something. He knows how to bide his time.
That sent a shiver down her spine, and she sank back in her library chair. This place seemed so ordinary, so cozy—like if anything as terrifying as Redgrave walked in here, he’d turn to dust or burst into flame, the way vampires in movies did when they walked into a sunbeam.
And yet he could appear at any minute.
“Who do you keep texting?” Madison said quietly, though not quietly enough; people at nearby tables—and Balthazar—would’ve been able to hear her.
“Shhhh! It’s just—a friend of mine from my old school.” Skye couldn’t resist a small smile; after all, she was telling the absolute truth.
Somebody at a nearby table muttered, “In other words, a friend she thinks actually counts.”
Madison flushed so deeply with anger that her freckles seemed to disappear. Skye snapped back at the other girl, “The only person in this room who doesn’t count is you.”
“Ahem.” Balthazar rose from his desk and strolled toward them. How was it he could look that hot while wearing glasses and a blazer? But the glasses did something to his face—made his cheekbones look even more cut, maybe—and there was apparently no piece of clothing that couldn’t be rendered hot by being draped over those shoulders. “Study hall is for studying, young ladies. Not for arguing. Let’s keep it down, okay?”
Skye had to look away from him to keep from laughing. As he went back to his place, she quickly texted, Young ladies?
I’m trying to talk like a teacher! Too much?
You’re hilarious. But I think they’re buying it.
She stole a glance at him at the same moment he was stealing a glance at her. Though she would’ve thought that would make it harder to keep from laughing, it had a very different effect. As their eyes met, she remembered their two hungry kisses—the way it had felt to be held in his arms—and she knew, beyond a doubt, he was remembering that, too.
Quickly she looked away, turning back to her books, though calculus had never seemed less interesting. Madison whispered, “Is it just me or is he getting even better looking?”
“It’s not just you.” With determination, Skye kept her eyes on her calculus.
“Now I need to change panties.”
“Madison!” Skye started giggling despite herself.
Her phone chimed again. Let’s keep it down, young lady.
Which only made her laugh harder. But she kept it quiet.
As the days went on, and Redgrave didn’t come, Skye and Balthazar began to fall into a pattern. He watched her get on the bus in the mornings, from a distance; they never saw each other then, never spoke, but she knew he was there to guard her if needed.
They saw each other for the first time each day in her homeroom, where he took her name and tried to act official … and, when she wore one of her skirts, tried very hard not to look at her legs. Skye supposed she could have worn jeans a little more often, if she wanted to make things easier on him; they were definitely warmer, which counted for something in upstate New York during January. But she didn’t. All those years of riding had given her great legs—they were her best feature, she thought—and she liked the warmth that rushed through her every time she caught Balthazar stealing a peek.
History class was less fun, because Balthazar took history seriously. “So are we still going to use the textbook?” Madison asked one day as Balthazar handed out these enormous packets of photocopied material.
“No, we’re not.” Balthazar sounded extremely satisfied about that. “You won’t need it until Mr. Lovejoy returns, and frankly, you’d be better off without it even then. For a genuine perspective on the colonial period, you need to go back to original sources.”
Flipping through the packet, Skye saw that their materials were now old legal deeds and diaries and other documents from the colonial era. Not excerpts, not interpretations, not commentaries: just the original stuff. The rest of the class started to groan, and she was mostly grateful she had access to the ideal tutor.
“I know this doesn’t look good,” Balthazar said, though he remained cheerful. “But I’m here to help you as much as you need. If there’s anything about this era—anything at all—ask me, and I’ll explain.” Britnee’s hand shot up. “Already! Okay. What is it, Britnee?”
“Mr. More? I was wondering? Whenever you read old stuff like this, people’s spelling is weird, and they use an f when they mean an s? And I don’t get why that is? Did they actually say it differently back then?”
Balthazar could only stare at her, nonplussed, for a long second. Then he managed to say, “They didn’t pronounce it differently. The spelling was just—a convention of the time. Which I admit doesn’t make much sense, but there are things we do today that are just as strange.” He took a deep breath. “Moving on!”
The rest of her school days were never as much fun, at least not until study hall. She finally got her transfer out of anatomy, because the risk of suffering the janitor’s heart attack the same way she had the suicide victim’s hanging was just too much to think about. The school filled her free hour by letting her work as an aide to Mr. Bollinger, who was super nice but didn’t have a whole lot for her to do.
Sometimes Skye felt herself falling into a rut—going only the places she knew were safe—but with vampires after her, a routine seemed like a good thing. She’d deal with the impact her psychic visions would have on her life more when this crisis had passed.
Her routine involved capping off each day with study hall, normally the most boring hour in school. Now study hall was the good part. That was when she got to text Balthazar some more.
She braved Craig’s basketball games when Balthazar had to supervise, though she never, ever cut under the bleachers. Usually she went with Madison and her group of friends, which meant they could sometimes sit near Balthazar and even talk and joke with him in the stands. Though Skye was careful never to speak to him directly when there were so many people around to see, sometimes it was nice just being close to him. Nicer to see how his gaze followed her while she joked around with Madison, Keith, Khadijah, and the rest of the gang.
Best of all, though, was when they were alone together.
“You’re really good with Peppermint,” Skye said, watching Balthazar riding beside her. While she was on Eb, he sat astride the mare from her stables, who was fairly old and fairly cranky. As a result, she wasn’t ridden often—which meant she’d gotten a little fat. However, Balthazar handled her smoothly.
“I’ve always done best with mares. Not sure why.” Balthazar patted the reddish shoulder of his horse; Peppermint responded with a whicker. “She’s a steady girl.”
“With you, she is.” Maybe the old horse had never needed anything but kindness and patience. “The only other rider she was ever as good with was Dakota. He was gentle with her, like you.”
For a moment she thought of Dakota as he had been one short year ago—riding ahead of her on Christmas break, coaxing stubborn Peppermint swiftly uphill, while she and Eb followed behind. The forest seemed to ring with their lost laughter.
“You don’t speak about Dakota often,” Balthazar said. His voice was even, inviting her to talk if she wanted to, but clearly not pushing the matter.
Skye knew she wanted to talk about Dakota, but it didn’t feel like the right time. Then again, it never seemed to feel like the right time. Maybe she should take the chance. “He was—the brave one. The free one.”
“You seem pretty brave to me.”
“You didn’t know Dakota.” She realized then that Balthazar and Dakota would have liked each other. They weren’t alike, exactly, but they would have gotten along. It was one more cruelty to her brother’s early death—one more friendship and experience he’d been denied. Skye stared down at the reins in her hands. “He wasn’t a rebel—Mom and Dad were never around enough to rebel against—but he did his own thing. Made up his mind about everything. I wanted to be as fearless as he was someday. But I always knew our parents needed me more. So I kept doing the safe thing, the right thing, for them.”
“You sell yourself short,” Balthazar said. His tone was so tender that Skye didn’t dare look at him. “But your brother sounds like an amazing guy.”
“He was.” And then Skye banished the memory as quickly as it had come. “Let’s ride.”
They were on the high ridge about thirty minutes’ ride from her house. After that first terrible attack, it had taken her awhile to go out on Eb again; even with Balthazar by her side, it seemed too scary. Mrs. Lefler rode Eb often enough to make sure he had adequate exercise, so it wasn’t a necessity. But ultimately, she missed it too much. Letting Redgrave take that part of her life from her was too cruel.
Besides, the woods had their own stark beauty in winter—and Balthazar had proved to be an enthusiastic rider.
The wraiths were the only creatures unholier than he was himself.
The pain lashed through him—through all of them—like being stabbed with a sword of ice. Balthazar crumpled along with the rest; they collapsed atop one another in a heap. Charity fell beside him, and for one moment their eyes met.
Still, two centuries later, she was more afraid of him than of Redgrave or the wraiths.
Wraith light swept down again, agonizing and swift. Redgrave somehow summoned the strength to lunge back up the steps and out the door the way he had come; his tribe followed, Charity among them. Although Balthazar tried to clutch at the hem of her skirt, pain had weakened his grip, and the fabric simply brushed his fingertips for a moment before she was gone.
Now the wraiths had only one vampire to torment—Balthazar himself—and the attacks grew more blinding, more terrible. His body twisted in response to the assault, fangs jutting from his jaw as if this were an attacker he could fend off. He could hear the screams of the people inside, horrified by what they were witnessing even if they didn’t understand it. As Balthazar pushed himself toward the door, he looked up once to see Richard … and in his old friend’s face was more revulsion than compassion.
Richard had never seen this—his monstrous true form. It could never be unseen. Although he could not have guessed the full truth, Richard must now realize that Balthazar was not human. One small refuge, one fragile friendship, was broken. With it went Balthazar’s ties to the human world.
He pushed himself out onto the street, falling into a mud puddle. As Balthazar spat dank water from his mouth, he looked up to see that Redgrave, Charity, and the rest were gone; no doubt they’d fled this place as fast as they could.
As the fire-reddened sky overhead churned and faraway screams split the night, Balthazar thought, They’ve left me here in hell.
Chapter Fourteen
THE NEXT DAY, REDGRAVE DIDN’T COME. HE didn’t approach Skye at school, didn’t stalk her house, anything.
Or the next day.
Or the day after that.
During study hall on that third day, Skye texted Balthazar, Did you actually scare Redgrave off? Or talk him out of it?
I doubt it. I just can’t believe it’s going to be that easy.
Balthazar had told her about his altercation with Redgrave, and that he’d basically given him the equivalent of an antidrug speech. There was something else he hadn’t told her about what Redgrave had said or done—she could sense Balthazar holding back about it. Regardless of what that might be, Skye didn’t think one serious talking-to was going to be enough to save her.
She typed, So what’s he waiting for?
I don’t know. He can be patient, when he wants something. He knows how to bide his time.
That sent a shiver down her spine, and she sank back in her library chair. This place seemed so ordinary, so cozy—like if anything as terrifying as Redgrave walked in here, he’d turn to dust or burst into flame, the way vampires in movies did when they walked into a sunbeam.
And yet he could appear at any minute.
“Who do you keep texting?” Madison said quietly, though not quietly enough; people at nearby tables—and Balthazar—would’ve been able to hear her.
“Shhhh! It’s just—a friend of mine from my old school.” Skye couldn’t resist a small smile; after all, she was telling the absolute truth.
Somebody at a nearby table muttered, “In other words, a friend she thinks actually counts.”
Madison flushed so deeply with anger that her freckles seemed to disappear. Skye snapped back at the other girl, “The only person in this room who doesn’t count is you.”
“Ahem.” Balthazar rose from his desk and strolled toward them. How was it he could look that hot while wearing glasses and a blazer? But the glasses did something to his face—made his cheekbones look even more cut, maybe—and there was apparently no piece of clothing that couldn’t be rendered hot by being draped over those shoulders. “Study hall is for studying, young ladies. Not for arguing. Let’s keep it down, okay?”
Skye had to look away from him to keep from laughing. As he went back to his place, she quickly texted, Young ladies?
I’m trying to talk like a teacher! Too much?
You’re hilarious. But I think they’re buying it.
She stole a glance at him at the same moment he was stealing a glance at her. Though she would’ve thought that would make it harder to keep from laughing, it had a very different effect. As their eyes met, she remembered their two hungry kisses—the way it had felt to be held in his arms—and she knew, beyond a doubt, he was remembering that, too.
Quickly she looked away, turning back to her books, though calculus had never seemed less interesting. Madison whispered, “Is it just me or is he getting even better looking?”
“It’s not just you.” With determination, Skye kept her eyes on her calculus.
“Now I need to change panties.”
“Madison!” Skye started giggling despite herself.
Her phone chimed again. Let’s keep it down, young lady.
Which only made her laugh harder. But she kept it quiet.
As the days went on, and Redgrave didn’t come, Skye and Balthazar began to fall into a pattern. He watched her get on the bus in the mornings, from a distance; they never saw each other then, never spoke, but she knew he was there to guard her if needed.
They saw each other for the first time each day in her homeroom, where he took her name and tried to act official … and, when she wore one of her skirts, tried very hard not to look at her legs. Skye supposed she could have worn jeans a little more often, if she wanted to make things easier on him; they were definitely warmer, which counted for something in upstate New York during January. But she didn’t. All those years of riding had given her great legs—they were her best feature, she thought—and she liked the warmth that rushed through her every time she caught Balthazar stealing a peek.
History class was less fun, because Balthazar took history seriously. “So are we still going to use the textbook?” Madison asked one day as Balthazar handed out these enormous packets of photocopied material.
“No, we’re not.” Balthazar sounded extremely satisfied about that. “You won’t need it until Mr. Lovejoy returns, and frankly, you’d be better off without it even then. For a genuine perspective on the colonial period, you need to go back to original sources.”
Flipping through the packet, Skye saw that their materials were now old legal deeds and diaries and other documents from the colonial era. Not excerpts, not interpretations, not commentaries: just the original stuff. The rest of the class started to groan, and she was mostly grateful she had access to the ideal tutor.
“I know this doesn’t look good,” Balthazar said, though he remained cheerful. “But I’m here to help you as much as you need. If there’s anything about this era—anything at all—ask me, and I’ll explain.” Britnee’s hand shot up. “Already! Okay. What is it, Britnee?”
“Mr. More? I was wondering? Whenever you read old stuff like this, people’s spelling is weird, and they use an f when they mean an s? And I don’t get why that is? Did they actually say it differently back then?”
Balthazar could only stare at her, nonplussed, for a long second. Then he managed to say, “They didn’t pronounce it differently. The spelling was just—a convention of the time. Which I admit doesn’t make much sense, but there are things we do today that are just as strange.” He took a deep breath. “Moving on!”
The rest of her school days were never as much fun, at least not until study hall. She finally got her transfer out of anatomy, because the risk of suffering the janitor’s heart attack the same way she had the suicide victim’s hanging was just too much to think about. The school filled her free hour by letting her work as an aide to Mr. Bollinger, who was super nice but didn’t have a whole lot for her to do.
Sometimes Skye felt herself falling into a rut—going only the places she knew were safe—but with vampires after her, a routine seemed like a good thing. She’d deal with the impact her psychic visions would have on her life more when this crisis had passed.
Her routine involved capping off each day with study hall, normally the most boring hour in school. Now study hall was the good part. That was when she got to text Balthazar some more.
She braved Craig’s basketball games when Balthazar had to supervise, though she never, ever cut under the bleachers. Usually she went with Madison and her group of friends, which meant they could sometimes sit near Balthazar and even talk and joke with him in the stands. Though Skye was careful never to speak to him directly when there were so many people around to see, sometimes it was nice just being close to him. Nicer to see how his gaze followed her while she joked around with Madison, Keith, Khadijah, and the rest of the gang.
Best of all, though, was when they were alone together.
“You’re really good with Peppermint,” Skye said, watching Balthazar riding beside her. While she was on Eb, he sat astride the mare from her stables, who was fairly old and fairly cranky. As a result, she wasn’t ridden often—which meant she’d gotten a little fat. However, Balthazar handled her smoothly.
“I’ve always done best with mares. Not sure why.” Balthazar patted the reddish shoulder of his horse; Peppermint responded with a whicker. “She’s a steady girl.”
“With you, she is.” Maybe the old horse had never needed anything but kindness and patience. “The only other rider she was ever as good with was Dakota. He was gentle with her, like you.”
For a moment she thought of Dakota as he had been one short year ago—riding ahead of her on Christmas break, coaxing stubborn Peppermint swiftly uphill, while she and Eb followed behind. The forest seemed to ring with their lost laughter.
“You don’t speak about Dakota often,” Balthazar said. His voice was even, inviting her to talk if she wanted to, but clearly not pushing the matter.
Skye knew she wanted to talk about Dakota, but it didn’t feel like the right time. Then again, it never seemed to feel like the right time. Maybe she should take the chance. “He was—the brave one. The free one.”
“You seem pretty brave to me.”
“You didn’t know Dakota.” She realized then that Balthazar and Dakota would have liked each other. They weren’t alike, exactly, but they would have gotten along. It was one more cruelty to her brother’s early death—one more friendship and experience he’d been denied. Skye stared down at the reins in her hands. “He wasn’t a rebel—Mom and Dad were never around enough to rebel against—but he did his own thing. Made up his mind about everything. I wanted to be as fearless as he was someday. But I always knew our parents needed me more. So I kept doing the safe thing, the right thing, for them.”
“You sell yourself short,” Balthazar said. His tone was so tender that Skye didn’t dare look at him. “But your brother sounds like an amazing guy.”
“He was.” And then Skye banished the memory as quickly as it had come. “Let’s ride.”
They were on the high ridge about thirty minutes’ ride from her house. After that first terrible attack, it had taken her awhile to go out on Eb again; even with Balthazar by her side, it seemed too scary. Mrs. Lefler rode Eb often enough to make sure he had adequate exercise, so it wasn’t a necessity. But ultimately, she missed it too much. Letting Redgrave take that part of her life from her was too cruel.
Besides, the woods had their own stark beauty in winter—and Balthazar had proved to be an enthusiastic rider.
