Beautiful Darkness
Page 11
It'll be here.
Sure enough, my aunt's white Cadil ac made the right onto Cotton Bend. Aunt Caroline had the window rol ed down, what she liked to cal 360 air conditioning, and I could see her waving from down the block. I stood up as Amma elbowed her way past me. "Come on, now. Your daddy deserves a proper homecomin'." That was code for Get your butt down to the curb, Ethan Wate.
I took a deep breath.
Are you okay? Lena's hazel eyes caught the sun.
Yeah. I lied. She must have known, but she didn't say a word. I took her hand. It was cold, the way she always was now, and the current of electricity felt more like the sting of frostbite.
"Mitchel Wate. Don't tel me you've been eatin' anybody's pie but mine. 'Cause you look like you fel into the cookie jar and couldn't find your way back out." My dad gave her a knowing look. Amma had raised him, and he knew her teasing held as much love as any hug.
I stood there while Amma fussed over him as if he was ten years old. She and my aunt were chattering away like the three of them had just come home from the market. My dad smiled at me weakly. It was the same smile he gave me when we visited Blue Horizons. It said, I'm not crazy anymore, just ashamed. He was wearing his old Duke T-shirt and jeans, and somehow he looked younger than I remembered. Except for the crinkling lines around his eyes, which deepened as he pul ed me in for an awkward hug. "How you doing?"
My voice caught in my throat for a second, and I coughed. "Good."
He looked over at Lena. "Nice to see you again, Lena. I was sorry to hear about your uncle." Those were hard-bred Southern manners for you. He had to acknowledge Macon's passing, even in a moment as awkward as this one.
Lena tried to smile, but she only managed to look as uncomfortable as I felt. "Thank you, sir."
"Ethan, come on over here and give your favorite aunt a hug." Aunt Caroline held out her hands. I wanted to throw my arms around her and let her squeeze the knot right out of my chest.
"Let's go on inside." Amma waved at my dad from the top of the porch. "I made a Coca-Cola cake and fried chicken. If we don't get in there soon, that chicken'l have a mind to find its way home."
Aunt Caroline looped her arm through my dad's and led him up the stairs. She had the same brown hair and smal frame as my mom, and for a second it felt like my parents were home again, walking through the old screen door of Wate's Landing.
"I have to get home." Lena was clutching her notebook against her chest like a shield.
"You don't have to go. Come in."
Please.
I wasn't offering to be polite. I didn't want to go in there alone. A few months ago, Lena would have known that. But I guess today her mind was somewhere else, because she didn't.
"You should spend some time with your family." She stood up on her toes and kissed me, her lips barely touching my cheek. She was halfway to the car before I could argue.
I watched Larkin's Fastback disappear down my street. Lena didn't drive the hearse anymore. As far as I knew, she hadn't even looked at it since Macon died. Uncle Barclay had parked it behind the old barn and thrown a tarp over it.
Instead, she was driving Larkin's car, al black and chrome. Link had foamed at the mouth the first time he saw it. "Do you know how many chicks I could pul with that ride?"
After her cousin had betrayed her whole family, I didn't understand why Lena would want to drive his car. When I had asked her, she'd shrugged and said, "He won't be needing it anymore." Maybe Lena thought she was punishing Larkin by driving it. He had contributed to Macon's death, something she would never forgive. I watched the car turn the corner, wishing I could disappear along with it.
By the time I made it to the kitchen, there was already chicory coffee brewing -- and trouble. Amma was on the phone, pacing in front of the sink, and every minute or two she would cover the receiver with her hand and report the conversation on the other end to Aunt Caroline.
"They haven't seen her since yesterday." Amma put the phone back to her ear. "You should make Aunt Mercy a toddy and put her to bed until we find her."
"Find who?" I looked at my dad, and he shrugged.
Aunt Caroline pul ed me over to the sink and whispered the way Southern ladies do when something is too awful to say out loud. "Lucil e Bal . She's missin'." Lucil e Bal was Aunt Mercy's Siamese cat, who spent most of her time running around my great-aunts' front yard on a leash attached to a clothesline, an activity the Sisters referred to as exercising.
"What do you mean?"
Amma covered the receiver with her hand again, narrowing her eyes and setting her jaw. The Look. "Seems somebody put the idea in your aunt's head that cats don't need to be tied up, because they always come back home. You wouldn't know anything about that, would you?" It wasn't a question. We both knew I was the one who had been saying it for years.
"But cats aren't supposed to be on leashes." I tried to defend myself, but it was too late.
Amma glared at me and turned to Aunt Caroline. "Seems Aunt Mercy's been waitin', sittin' on the porch, starin' at an empty leash hangin' on the clothesline." She took her hand off the receiver. "You need to get her in the house and put her feet up. If she gets lightheaded, boil some dandelion."
I slunk out of the kitchen before Amma's eyes got any narrower. Great. My hundred-year-old aunt's cat was gone, and it was my fault. I'd have to cal Link and see if he'd drive around town with me and look for Lucil e. Maybe Link's demo tapes would scare her out of hiding.
Sure enough, my aunt's white Cadil ac made the right onto Cotton Bend. Aunt Caroline had the window rol ed down, what she liked to cal 360 air conditioning, and I could see her waving from down the block. I stood up as Amma elbowed her way past me. "Come on, now. Your daddy deserves a proper homecomin'." That was code for Get your butt down to the curb, Ethan Wate.
I took a deep breath.
Are you okay? Lena's hazel eyes caught the sun.
Yeah. I lied. She must have known, but she didn't say a word. I took her hand. It was cold, the way she always was now, and the current of electricity felt more like the sting of frostbite.
"Mitchel Wate. Don't tel me you've been eatin' anybody's pie but mine. 'Cause you look like you fel into the cookie jar and couldn't find your way back out." My dad gave her a knowing look. Amma had raised him, and he knew her teasing held as much love as any hug.
I stood there while Amma fussed over him as if he was ten years old. She and my aunt were chattering away like the three of them had just come home from the market. My dad smiled at me weakly. It was the same smile he gave me when we visited Blue Horizons. It said, I'm not crazy anymore, just ashamed. He was wearing his old Duke T-shirt and jeans, and somehow he looked younger than I remembered. Except for the crinkling lines around his eyes, which deepened as he pul ed me in for an awkward hug. "How you doing?"
My voice caught in my throat for a second, and I coughed. "Good."
He looked over at Lena. "Nice to see you again, Lena. I was sorry to hear about your uncle." Those were hard-bred Southern manners for you. He had to acknowledge Macon's passing, even in a moment as awkward as this one.
Lena tried to smile, but she only managed to look as uncomfortable as I felt. "Thank you, sir."
"Ethan, come on over here and give your favorite aunt a hug." Aunt Caroline held out her hands. I wanted to throw my arms around her and let her squeeze the knot right out of my chest.
"Let's go on inside." Amma waved at my dad from the top of the porch. "I made a Coca-Cola cake and fried chicken. If we don't get in there soon, that chicken'l have a mind to find its way home."
Aunt Caroline looped her arm through my dad's and led him up the stairs. She had the same brown hair and smal frame as my mom, and for a second it felt like my parents were home again, walking through the old screen door of Wate's Landing.
"I have to get home." Lena was clutching her notebook against her chest like a shield.
"You don't have to go. Come in."
Please.
I wasn't offering to be polite. I didn't want to go in there alone. A few months ago, Lena would have known that. But I guess today her mind was somewhere else, because she didn't.
"You should spend some time with your family." She stood up on her toes and kissed me, her lips barely touching my cheek. She was halfway to the car before I could argue.
I watched Larkin's Fastback disappear down my street. Lena didn't drive the hearse anymore. As far as I knew, she hadn't even looked at it since Macon died. Uncle Barclay had parked it behind the old barn and thrown a tarp over it.
Instead, she was driving Larkin's car, al black and chrome. Link had foamed at the mouth the first time he saw it. "Do you know how many chicks I could pul with that ride?"
After her cousin had betrayed her whole family, I didn't understand why Lena would want to drive his car. When I had asked her, she'd shrugged and said, "He won't be needing it anymore." Maybe Lena thought she was punishing Larkin by driving it. He had contributed to Macon's death, something she would never forgive. I watched the car turn the corner, wishing I could disappear along with it.
By the time I made it to the kitchen, there was already chicory coffee brewing -- and trouble. Amma was on the phone, pacing in front of the sink, and every minute or two she would cover the receiver with her hand and report the conversation on the other end to Aunt Caroline.
"They haven't seen her since yesterday." Amma put the phone back to her ear. "You should make Aunt Mercy a toddy and put her to bed until we find her."
"Find who?" I looked at my dad, and he shrugged.
Aunt Caroline pul ed me over to the sink and whispered the way Southern ladies do when something is too awful to say out loud. "Lucil e Bal . She's missin'." Lucil e Bal was Aunt Mercy's Siamese cat, who spent most of her time running around my great-aunts' front yard on a leash attached to a clothesline, an activity the Sisters referred to as exercising.
"What do you mean?"
Amma covered the receiver with her hand again, narrowing her eyes and setting her jaw. The Look. "Seems somebody put the idea in your aunt's head that cats don't need to be tied up, because they always come back home. You wouldn't know anything about that, would you?" It wasn't a question. We both knew I was the one who had been saying it for years.
"But cats aren't supposed to be on leashes." I tried to defend myself, but it was too late.
Amma glared at me and turned to Aunt Caroline. "Seems Aunt Mercy's been waitin', sittin' on the porch, starin' at an empty leash hangin' on the clothesline." She took her hand off the receiver. "You need to get her in the house and put her feet up. If she gets lightheaded, boil some dandelion."
I slunk out of the kitchen before Amma's eyes got any narrower. Great. My hundred-year-old aunt's cat was gone, and it was my fault. I'd have to cal Link and see if he'd drive around town with me and look for Lucil e. Maybe Link's demo tapes would scare her out of hiding.
