Becoming the Whiskey Princess
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“You miss your mom?”
I nod as the tears start to come faster. Sucking in a deep breath, I hold on to her tightly, needing her strength. “I didn’t think this was going to be this hard,” I cry as my heart feels as if it is being ripped from my chest and stomped on.
“Amberlyn, it’s all so new, and so much is changing. Of course, this is going to be hard. You’re always so positive, but sometimes, ya need to accept that this is going to suck.”
I nod, my eyes starting to hurt from rubbing them so hard. I want to wipe away the pain, but no matter how hard I wipe, it is still there, slowly ripping me apart. She’s right; I try to be so positive about everything, but today…today sucks.
“I’m supposed to be happy though. I’m finding my dress for the day that will start the rest of my life.”
“Yeah, but you are allowing them to pick it out. We came in, had tea, and then came up to the dresses they think are up to ‘O’Callaghan standards,’” she says, making air quotes. “You aren’t an O’Callaghan yet. You are becoming one, so shouldn’t your dress be you?”
“Do you think that’s why I want to run and hide in a hole?”
She smiles. “That may be one of the reasons, but I think the main one is your ma, for sure. I know she’d want to be here, and I promise she is, in yer heart.”
I nod. “Yeah, you’re right.”
She kisses my cheek as I slowly wipe my tears from my face. Holding my gaze and with a bright smile, she says, “Why don’t we go look and see what we find?”
Looking around the room, I still have three more O’Callaghan dresses, but I have no inclination to put them on. Looking back at Fiona, I nod my head, “Yeah, let’s go look.”
“Thatta girl. Come on,” she says, pulling me up and out the door.
When I come out without a dress on, I can see the confusion on Mrs. O’Callaghan’s face. I ignore it as I say, “I’m gonna look around and see if something catches my eye.”
“None of the dresses that were brought out for you are good?” she asks me, and I shake my head.
“They’re not me,” I answer as Fiona’s arm links with mine; I know it’s for support.
“Sure aren’t. I see you in something softer,” Lena says, standing up and throwing her phone down. “Can I come help?”
I nod. “Sure.”
I can tell that Michele doesn’t want me to look, that she wants me to choose one of the dresses that are in the room, probably because they cost as much as a car, but she takes me to where the dresses all hang. Looking around the room, we look at each dress. I find two that are all right, but Lena is convinced they will look better on me than the hanger. I’m not sure, but I agree to try them on. We are about to head back to the dressing room when a soft blue catches my eyes. It’s the same color as Declan’s eyes, and instantly, I’m drawn to it.
Taking it by the hanger, I bring the dress out and I’m in awe. It’s a full tulle skirt, the back in layers with a big embellished gathering of tulle flowers. The strapless top has beautiful swirls of crystals and the back is buttoned with little blue buttons. I’ve never seen such a gorgeous blue, except when I look into Declan’s eyes, and I can’t help but need this dress.
“Is that a wedding dress?” Lena asks.
“Has to be, yeah?” Fiona asks looking back at Michele.
She nods. “Yes, it’s very rare. The only one we got, but Mrs. O’Callaghan didn’t like it.”
“It isn’t her dress,” Lena answers. “What do you think of it, Amberlyn?”
I look it over, a small smile playing on my lips. “Reminds me of Declan’s eyes. I love it.”
She smiles back at me as Fiona beams. “Try it on then!”
It’s the first time all day that I’ve been excited. I woke up with an icky feeling in my gut, and it just got worse as the day progressed. But now, as I slowly slide the soft blue dress up my body and Fiona buttons the back, I can’t contain the grin on my face. The dress looks a billion times better on me than it did on the hanger. The blue is gorgeous on my skin, and with my hair, it’s almost magical. Yeah, my wound is showing but I don’t care.
I love it.
“This is it,” Fiona whispers as she looks over my shoulder in the mirror.
Lena stands from where she was fluffing the skirt out before meeting my gaze, taking me in as I do the same. Slowly a smile comes over her face as she nods. “It is.”
“Yeah,” I whisper as tears sting my eyes. I can’t help but hear my mom say the same thing in my head. Closing my eyes, I suck in a deep breath and say, “Let’s go show Aunt Shelia and Mrs. O’Callaghan.”
Turning, I head for the door but then pause, looking back at myself in the mirror. The back is even more gorgeous than the front. It’s cut low, to the small of my back, with lots of embellishment. I love it. Fiona opens the door for me, and I see the grin on her face as she says, “Ma, this is it.”
I hear my aunt shriek in excitement, and then I make my entrance. Michele is grinning, my aunt is almost in tears, but I don’t miss the look of complete disgust on Mrs. O’Callaghan’s face. Ignoring her though, I go up on the platform as Michele fluffs out the bottom again. Meeting my gaze, she says, “One minute.”
I look myself over and can’t help but think that Declan is going to love it. It isn’t traditional, but it’s me. It’s gorgeous.
When Michele comes back, she has a white lace birdcage veil and a bouquet full of white and light blue flowers. Handing me the bouquet, she quickly braids my hair before putting the veil on my head, covering my face in such an elegant way. Unblocking my view of myself, she steps to the side and I am stunned by what I see.
I see Declan’s bride.
Everyone oohs and aahs as the tears gather in my eyes. I found it. I found my dress.
“Is this for the engagement party?
But then it is ruined with that one comment from Mrs. O’Callaghan.
Looking back at her, I shake my head. “No, this is my wedding dress.”
“But it’s blue.”
“I know, the color of Declan’s eyes.”
She makes a face before shaking her head. “But it isn’t traditional.”
Before I can answer that I really don’t give two shits, Shelia says, “Actually, it is.”
I nod as the tears start to come faster. Sucking in a deep breath, I hold on to her tightly, needing her strength. “I didn’t think this was going to be this hard,” I cry as my heart feels as if it is being ripped from my chest and stomped on.
“Amberlyn, it’s all so new, and so much is changing. Of course, this is going to be hard. You’re always so positive, but sometimes, ya need to accept that this is going to suck.”
I nod, my eyes starting to hurt from rubbing them so hard. I want to wipe away the pain, but no matter how hard I wipe, it is still there, slowly ripping me apart. She’s right; I try to be so positive about everything, but today…today sucks.
“I’m supposed to be happy though. I’m finding my dress for the day that will start the rest of my life.”
“Yeah, but you are allowing them to pick it out. We came in, had tea, and then came up to the dresses they think are up to ‘O’Callaghan standards,’” she says, making air quotes. “You aren’t an O’Callaghan yet. You are becoming one, so shouldn’t your dress be you?”
“Do you think that’s why I want to run and hide in a hole?”
She smiles. “That may be one of the reasons, but I think the main one is your ma, for sure. I know she’d want to be here, and I promise she is, in yer heart.”
I nod. “Yeah, you’re right.”
She kisses my cheek as I slowly wipe my tears from my face. Holding my gaze and with a bright smile, she says, “Why don’t we go look and see what we find?”
Looking around the room, I still have three more O’Callaghan dresses, but I have no inclination to put them on. Looking back at Fiona, I nod my head, “Yeah, let’s go look.”
“Thatta girl. Come on,” she says, pulling me up and out the door.
When I come out without a dress on, I can see the confusion on Mrs. O’Callaghan’s face. I ignore it as I say, “I’m gonna look around and see if something catches my eye.”
“None of the dresses that were brought out for you are good?” she asks me, and I shake my head.
“They’re not me,” I answer as Fiona’s arm links with mine; I know it’s for support.
“Sure aren’t. I see you in something softer,” Lena says, standing up and throwing her phone down. “Can I come help?”
I nod. “Sure.”
I can tell that Michele doesn’t want me to look, that she wants me to choose one of the dresses that are in the room, probably because they cost as much as a car, but she takes me to where the dresses all hang. Looking around the room, we look at each dress. I find two that are all right, but Lena is convinced they will look better on me than the hanger. I’m not sure, but I agree to try them on. We are about to head back to the dressing room when a soft blue catches my eyes. It’s the same color as Declan’s eyes, and instantly, I’m drawn to it.
Taking it by the hanger, I bring the dress out and I’m in awe. It’s a full tulle skirt, the back in layers with a big embellished gathering of tulle flowers. The strapless top has beautiful swirls of crystals and the back is buttoned with little blue buttons. I’ve never seen such a gorgeous blue, except when I look into Declan’s eyes, and I can’t help but need this dress.
“Is that a wedding dress?” Lena asks.
“Has to be, yeah?” Fiona asks looking back at Michele.
She nods. “Yes, it’s very rare. The only one we got, but Mrs. O’Callaghan didn’t like it.”
“It isn’t her dress,” Lena answers. “What do you think of it, Amberlyn?”
I look it over, a small smile playing on my lips. “Reminds me of Declan’s eyes. I love it.”
She smiles back at me as Fiona beams. “Try it on then!”
It’s the first time all day that I’ve been excited. I woke up with an icky feeling in my gut, and it just got worse as the day progressed. But now, as I slowly slide the soft blue dress up my body and Fiona buttons the back, I can’t contain the grin on my face. The dress looks a billion times better on me than it did on the hanger. The blue is gorgeous on my skin, and with my hair, it’s almost magical. Yeah, my wound is showing but I don’t care.
I love it.
“This is it,” Fiona whispers as she looks over my shoulder in the mirror.
Lena stands from where she was fluffing the skirt out before meeting my gaze, taking me in as I do the same. Slowly a smile comes over her face as she nods. “It is.”
“Yeah,” I whisper as tears sting my eyes. I can’t help but hear my mom say the same thing in my head. Closing my eyes, I suck in a deep breath and say, “Let’s go show Aunt Shelia and Mrs. O’Callaghan.”
Turning, I head for the door but then pause, looking back at myself in the mirror. The back is even more gorgeous than the front. It’s cut low, to the small of my back, with lots of embellishment. I love it. Fiona opens the door for me, and I see the grin on her face as she says, “Ma, this is it.”
I hear my aunt shriek in excitement, and then I make my entrance. Michele is grinning, my aunt is almost in tears, but I don’t miss the look of complete disgust on Mrs. O’Callaghan’s face. Ignoring her though, I go up on the platform as Michele fluffs out the bottom again. Meeting my gaze, she says, “One minute.”
I look myself over and can’t help but think that Declan is going to love it. It isn’t traditional, but it’s me. It’s gorgeous.
When Michele comes back, she has a white lace birdcage veil and a bouquet full of white and light blue flowers. Handing me the bouquet, she quickly braids my hair before putting the veil on my head, covering my face in such an elegant way. Unblocking my view of myself, she steps to the side and I am stunned by what I see.
I see Declan’s bride.
Everyone oohs and aahs as the tears gather in my eyes. I found it. I found my dress.
“Is this for the engagement party?
But then it is ruined with that one comment from Mrs. O’Callaghan.
Looking back at her, I shake my head. “No, this is my wedding dress.”
“But it’s blue.”
“I know, the color of Declan’s eyes.”
She makes a face before shaking her head. “But it isn’t traditional.”
Before I can answer that I really don’t give two shits, Shelia says, “Actually, it is.”
