Born in Shame
Page 73
“Yes, but—”
“Now, Maggie’s having a bit of a lie-in this morning, but she’d like to go with you. Liam will stay here, so you can have some time for the two of you to do some shopping, or for Maggie to show you around Dublin.”
“That would be nice.” Shannon drew a breath. She shouldn’t have.
“I’m hoping you’ll come by the gallery, have a tour. You said you’d been to our branch in New York.”
“Yes, and—”
“I think you’ll see we try to create different moods in different cities. In order to reflect the ambience. I’m going to be tied up a great deal of the day.” He glanced briefly at his watch. “Starting almost immediately. But I’d appreciate it if you’d find a moment to come by the office. Maggie can bring you in about three. We can go over whatever changes you’d like in the contracts.”
“Stop.” She held up both hands, unsure if she wanted to scream or to laugh. “You’re doing it again.”
“I’m sorry. What’s that?”
“Oh, don’t apologize or look politely bemused. You know exactly what you’re doing. You’re the most elegant steamroller I’ve ever been flattened by.” He flashed a grin that had her shaking her head. “And that—that quick charming smile is lethal. I can see how even someone as stubborn as Maggie crumbled.”
“That she didn’t. I had to batter away at her bit by bit. And you’re much more like her than you might like me to point out.” He smothered a fresh grin when Shannon’s eyes flashed. “Yes, much more like her.”
“Insulting me is not the way to win me over.”
“Then let me say this.” He folded his hands on the desk. “As your brother-in-law as much as the man who hopes to push forward your career. You didn’t come here because I outflanked you, Shannon. That’s part of it, yes, that pushed you to move when I pushed you to move. But what I’ve done is plant an idea in your head.”
“All right, you have. It’s an idea I toyed with years ago and dismissed an impractical. You’re trying to convince me now that it’s not.”
Intrigued, he leaned back and studied her. “Is it money?”
“I have money. More, actually, than I need. My father was very good at making it.” She shook her head. “No, it’s not money. Though it’s important to me to make my own, to have the satisfaction of that. I need security, and stability, and challenges. I suppose that sounds contradictory.”
“Not at all.”
Seeing he understood, she continued. “The painting I’ve done on my own, for myself, has always been a habit, a kind of obligation even—something I worked into my schedule like, well, like an appointment with myself.”
“And you’re hesitating on making it a focus.”
“Yes, I am. I’ve done better work here than I have ever in my life. And it pulls me in a direction I never seriously considered taking.” And now that she’d said it, she was more confused than ever. “But what happens when I go back to New York, Rogan, pick up the life I left behind there? If I sign a contract, I’d have given you my word. How can I do that when I can’t be sure I’ll be able to keep it?”
“Your integrity’s warring with your impulses,” he said, putting his finger straight to the pulse. “And that’s a difficult thing. Why don’t we oblige them both?”
“How do you propose to manage that?”
“Your contract with Worldwide will encompass the work you’ve done in Ireland, and what you have ready in New York—with an option,” he continued, running a pen through his fingers, “for a first look at what you may produce over the next two years. Whether it’s one piece or a dozen.”
“That’s quite a compromise,” she murmured. “But you wanted a show. I don’t know if I’ve enough for that, or if what I have will suit you.”
“We’re flexible on the size of a showing. And I’ll let you know what doesn’t suit me.”
She met his eyes. “I bet you will.”
Later, when he’d gone, Shannon wandered back upstairs. He’d given her a great deal to think over. Somehow he’d managed to open a door without forcing her to close another. She could accept his terms and go back to her life without missing a beat.
She found it odd, and more confusing than ever, that she wished he had pressed her into a corner where she’d be forced to make one clear-cut choice.
But there wasn’t time to brood on it—not if she wanted to see anything of the city before the photo shoot.
A photo shoot, she thought, chuckling to herself. Imagine that.
She wiped the smile away and knocked briskly on Maggie’s bedroom door. “Maggie? Rogan said to wake you.” Hearing no response, Shannon rolled her eyes and knocked again. “It’s past nine, Margaret Mary. Even pregnant women have to get out of bed sometime.”
Impatient, Shannon turned the knob and eased the door open. She could see the bed was empty, and thinking Maggie might be dressing, and ignoring her, she pushed the door wider.
As she started to call out again, she heard the unmistakable sounds of wretched illness from the adjoining bath. It didn’t occur to her to hesitate; she simply hurried through to where Maggie was heaving over the toilet.
“Get out, damn you.” Maggie waved a limp hand and fought the next wave of nausea. “Can’t a woman retch in private?”
Saying nothing, Shannon walked to the sink and dampened a thick washcloth with cool water. Maggie was too busy heaving to resist when Shannon held the back of her head and pressed the cloth to her clammy brow.
“Poor baby,” Shannon murmured when Maggie sagged weakly. “Horrible way to start the morning. Just rest a minute, get your breath back.”
“I’m all right. Go away. I’m all right.”
“Sure you are. Can you handle some water?” Without waiting for an answer, Shannon walked over to fill a glass, then came back to crouch and ease it to Maggie’s lips. “There you go, nice slow sips. It probably tastes like you swallowed a sewer.”
“This child best be a saint.” Because it was there, Maggie leaned against Shannon’s shoulder.
“Have you seen your doctor?” To soothe, Shannon took the cloth and ran it gently over Maggie’s face. “Isn’t there something you can take?”
“Now, Maggie’s having a bit of a lie-in this morning, but she’d like to go with you. Liam will stay here, so you can have some time for the two of you to do some shopping, or for Maggie to show you around Dublin.”
“That would be nice.” Shannon drew a breath. She shouldn’t have.
“I’m hoping you’ll come by the gallery, have a tour. You said you’d been to our branch in New York.”
“Yes, and—”
“I think you’ll see we try to create different moods in different cities. In order to reflect the ambience. I’m going to be tied up a great deal of the day.” He glanced briefly at his watch. “Starting almost immediately. But I’d appreciate it if you’d find a moment to come by the office. Maggie can bring you in about three. We can go over whatever changes you’d like in the contracts.”
“Stop.” She held up both hands, unsure if she wanted to scream or to laugh. “You’re doing it again.”
“I’m sorry. What’s that?”
“Oh, don’t apologize or look politely bemused. You know exactly what you’re doing. You’re the most elegant steamroller I’ve ever been flattened by.” He flashed a grin that had her shaking her head. “And that—that quick charming smile is lethal. I can see how even someone as stubborn as Maggie crumbled.”
“That she didn’t. I had to batter away at her bit by bit. And you’re much more like her than you might like me to point out.” He smothered a fresh grin when Shannon’s eyes flashed. “Yes, much more like her.”
“Insulting me is not the way to win me over.”
“Then let me say this.” He folded his hands on the desk. “As your brother-in-law as much as the man who hopes to push forward your career. You didn’t come here because I outflanked you, Shannon. That’s part of it, yes, that pushed you to move when I pushed you to move. But what I’ve done is plant an idea in your head.”
“All right, you have. It’s an idea I toyed with years ago and dismissed an impractical. You’re trying to convince me now that it’s not.”
Intrigued, he leaned back and studied her. “Is it money?”
“I have money. More, actually, than I need. My father was very good at making it.” She shook her head. “No, it’s not money. Though it’s important to me to make my own, to have the satisfaction of that. I need security, and stability, and challenges. I suppose that sounds contradictory.”
“Not at all.”
Seeing he understood, she continued. “The painting I’ve done on my own, for myself, has always been a habit, a kind of obligation even—something I worked into my schedule like, well, like an appointment with myself.”
“And you’re hesitating on making it a focus.”
“Yes, I am. I’ve done better work here than I have ever in my life. And it pulls me in a direction I never seriously considered taking.” And now that she’d said it, she was more confused than ever. “But what happens when I go back to New York, Rogan, pick up the life I left behind there? If I sign a contract, I’d have given you my word. How can I do that when I can’t be sure I’ll be able to keep it?”
“Your integrity’s warring with your impulses,” he said, putting his finger straight to the pulse. “And that’s a difficult thing. Why don’t we oblige them both?”
“How do you propose to manage that?”
“Your contract with Worldwide will encompass the work you’ve done in Ireland, and what you have ready in New York—with an option,” he continued, running a pen through his fingers, “for a first look at what you may produce over the next two years. Whether it’s one piece or a dozen.”
“That’s quite a compromise,” she murmured. “But you wanted a show. I don’t know if I’ve enough for that, or if what I have will suit you.”
“We’re flexible on the size of a showing. And I’ll let you know what doesn’t suit me.”
She met his eyes. “I bet you will.”
Later, when he’d gone, Shannon wandered back upstairs. He’d given her a great deal to think over. Somehow he’d managed to open a door without forcing her to close another. She could accept his terms and go back to her life without missing a beat.
She found it odd, and more confusing than ever, that she wished he had pressed her into a corner where she’d be forced to make one clear-cut choice.
But there wasn’t time to brood on it—not if she wanted to see anything of the city before the photo shoot.
A photo shoot, she thought, chuckling to herself. Imagine that.
She wiped the smile away and knocked briskly on Maggie’s bedroom door. “Maggie? Rogan said to wake you.” Hearing no response, Shannon rolled her eyes and knocked again. “It’s past nine, Margaret Mary. Even pregnant women have to get out of bed sometime.”
Impatient, Shannon turned the knob and eased the door open. She could see the bed was empty, and thinking Maggie might be dressing, and ignoring her, she pushed the door wider.
As she started to call out again, she heard the unmistakable sounds of wretched illness from the adjoining bath. It didn’t occur to her to hesitate; she simply hurried through to where Maggie was heaving over the toilet.
“Get out, damn you.” Maggie waved a limp hand and fought the next wave of nausea. “Can’t a woman retch in private?”
Saying nothing, Shannon walked to the sink and dampened a thick washcloth with cool water. Maggie was too busy heaving to resist when Shannon held the back of her head and pressed the cloth to her clammy brow.
“Poor baby,” Shannon murmured when Maggie sagged weakly. “Horrible way to start the morning. Just rest a minute, get your breath back.”
“I’m all right. Go away. I’m all right.”
“Sure you are. Can you handle some water?” Without waiting for an answer, Shannon walked over to fill a glass, then came back to crouch and ease it to Maggie’s lips. “There you go, nice slow sips. It probably tastes like you swallowed a sewer.”
“This child best be a saint.” Because it was there, Maggie leaned against Shannon’s shoulder.
“Have you seen your doctor?” To soothe, Shannon took the cloth and ran it gently over Maggie’s face. “Isn’t there something you can take?”
