Brightly Woven
Page 23
I crossed it out hastily, guilt welling up inside me. I didn’t want Henry to know any of it, but every word of the letter had been true, and seeing my heart splayed out in words made me feel only worse.
Several hours later, I found myself by the lonely window in Owain’s room with my reassembled loom and ten rows of blue. Mrs. Pemberly had brought me dinner and even cookies, though they weren’t nearly as delicious as the ones that emerged from my mother’s oven. At that point I would have given anything—a finger, my best dress, my loom—just for a taste of her cooking. I would have devoured it, even if it had been coated with dust.
The room had darkened abruptly, and all I had to light my work were three candle stubs that were melting quickly. Still, once my hands began their usual routine, it felt like coming home again. When the rain finally started to fall, I opened the windows and listened to the droplets as they hit the roof and windowpane. For the first time in days, I felt like myself.
But just as quickly, a different storm blew in, one of hearty laughter and heavy stomping.
“I think I know which room is mine, boy!”
“Didn’t know you could read!”
“How ’bout you read my…my…”
“Ha! Still a quick wit, I see!”
I dropped the thread without a second thought.
Thank you, Astraea, I thought, releasing a heavy sigh.
The door to the room banged open, and two figures stumbled in, laughing and wheezing. I turned to greet them, but the words died on my lips. They stopped midchuckle, their eyes wide. They had forgotten about me.
“Hullo, Syd!” North said brightly. He was leaning heavily on Owain, who looked only a little steadier on his feet.
“Are you hurt?” I asked. “When you didn’t come back I thought that—Did you get the dragon?”
North tried to draw me into a hug, but I knew the warning signs now. Flushed cheeks, glazed eyes…and the smell. I took a step back, and he landed face-first on the bed.
I looked to Owain in disbelief, but he wouldn’t meet my eyes.
“He’s drunk—you’re both drunk!” I said. “All this time, were you just drinking yourself to rot?”
“We did the job, lass!” Owain said quickly. “Job done, dragon slayed, all merry!”
“So tell me how the job entailed drinking yourselves into stupidity?” I demanded. “You should never have left me behind! I wanted to go!”
“But it was a dragon—too dangerous,” Owain said, almost whining.
“I’ll decide what’s too dangerous for me from now on, thank you,” I snapped.
Owain shook his head, and the rain clinging to his thick hair went flying. “Took us hours to ride out there on Vesta. North gave that dragon hell—never seen so much magic in my life. Whirls of ice, fire of his own! I thought he might be burned to a crisp, but he brought the red cloak down and there wasn’t a burn on him. Then I climbed on the dragon’s back and took my sword and—” He took a deep breath. “And then the villagers made us stay and feast, because that dragon had been around for a year and no wizard had been able to kill the bloody thing until him and me!”
I clenched my fists at my side. “So North, where’s your pay?” I demanded. “If you killed this dragon, I want to see what the villagers gave you.”
North had a piece of paper in his hands and was peering at it closely. He blinked several times, trying to clear his vision.
“Henry Porter,” he began, his voice slightly slurred as he read the name on the letter I’d written earlier. “Who is this Henry? Why do you keep writing to him?”
“That’s my letter,” I said, ripping it so brutally from his hands that it tore. “How dare you?”
“Why do you keep writing home, anyway?” North asked, rolling onto his back. “What do you tell them? How much you…you hate me and how stupid I am?”
My throat burned, but I couldn’t speak. He was the one who had taken me far enough away that I could only imagine what was happening to my home—to my friends and family.
North continued playing with the ripped edge of the letter. “’s not so bad with me, is it? I take care of you. Not like your parents. Gave you up for a few drops of rain.”
He wasn’t even talking to me anymore. My throat clenched, and I felt the letter wrinkle in my palm. Don’t cry, I told myself. Don’t cry, don’t cry…
And just as quickly, the ache in my heart gave way to a new one, only this pain was hot and burning. The tears dried up in my eyes before they had a chance to fall.
“You’re better off with me, Syd,” North said simply. “I’ll take care of you and all.”
“Well,” I said, clutching my necklace in my fist. “Start taking care of yourself, because I won’t be your problem anymore.”
“What?” He lifted his head. “Don’t be stupid, Syd—”
I tore out of the room, not letting him finish, and I stumbled down the stairs.
“Syd!” he yelled, his voice cut off as the door shut behind me.
I heard the door bang open again and the sound of a few heavy steps before a sudden crash marked the end of all further movement. “Syd, don’t—”
But I just ran harder, past a startled Mrs. Pemberly and out into the cold rain.
If it had been a clear night, I would have been halfway back to Cliffton, but the rain was hard and unforgiving, so thick that I had to stop and shield my eyes just to see the street names. Lungs burning, desperate, I forced myself to keep running.
Several hours later, I found myself by the lonely window in Owain’s room with my reassembled loom and ten rows of blue. Mrs. Pemberly had brought me dinner and even cookies, though they weren’t nearly as delicious as the ones that emerged from my mother’s oven. At that point I would have given anything—a finger, my best dress, my loom—just for a taste of her cooking. I would have devoured it, even if it had been coated with dust.
The room had darkened abruptly, and all I had to light my work were three candle stubs that were melting quickly. Still, once my hands began their usual routine, it felt like coming home again. When the rain finally started to fall, I opened the windows and listened to the droplets as they hit the roof and windowpane. For the first time in days, I felt like myself.
But just as quickly, a different storm blew in, one of hearty laughter and heavy stomping.
“I think I know which room is mine, boy!”
“Didn’t know you could read!”
“How ’bout you read my…my…”
“Ha! Still a quick wit, I see!”
I dropped the thread without a second thought.
Thank you, Astraea, I thought, releasing a heavy sigh.
The door to the room banged open, and two figures stumbled in, laughing and wheezing. I turned to greet them, but the words died on my lips. They stopped midchuckle, their eyes wide. They had forgotten about me.
“Hullo, Syd!” North said brightly. He was leaning heavily on Owain, who looked only a little steadier on his feet.
“Are you hurt?” I asked. “When you didn’t come back I thought that—Did you get the dragon?”
North tried to draw me into a hug, but I knew the warning signs now. Flushed cheeks, glazed eyes…and the smell. I took a step back, and he landed face-first on the bed.
I looked to Owain in disbelief, but he wouldn’t meet my eyes.
“He’s drunk—you’re both drunk!” I said. “All this time, were you just drinking yourself to rot?”
“We did the job, lass!” Owain said quickly. “Job done, dragon slayed, all merry!”
“So tell me how the job entailed drinking yourselves into stupidity?” I demanded. “You should never have left me behind! I wanted to go!”
“But it was a dragon—too dangerous,” Owain said, almost whining.
“I’ll decide what’s too dangerous for me from now on, thank you,” I snapped.
Owain shook his head, and the rain clinging to his thick hair went flying. “Took us hours to ride out there on Vesta. North gave that dragon hell—never seen so much magic in my life. Whirls of ice, fire of his own! I thought he might be burned to a crisp, but he brought the red cloak down and there wasn’t a burn on him. Then I climbed on the dragon’s back and took my sword and—” He took a deep breath. “And then the villagers made us stay and feast, because that dragon had been around for a year and no wizard had been able to kill the bloody thing until him and me!”
I clenched my fists at my side. “So North, where’s your pay?” I demanded. “If you killed this dragon, I want to see what the villagers gave you.”
North had a piece of paper in his hands and was peering at it closely. He blinked several times, trying to clear his vision.
“Henry Porter,” he began, his voice slightly slurred as he read the name on the letter I’d written earlier. “Who is this Henry? Why do you keep writing to him?”
“That’s my letter,” I said, ripping it so brutally from his hands that it tore. “How dare you?”
“Why do you keep writing home, anyway?” North asked, rolling onto his back. “What do you tell them? How much you…you hate me and how stupid I am?”
My throat burned, but I couldn’t speak. He was the one who had taken me far enough away that I could only imagine what was happening to my home—to my friends and family.
North continued playing with the ripped edge of the letter. “’s not so bad with me, is it? I take care of you. Not like your parents. Gave you up for a few drops of rain.”
He wasn’t even talking to me anymore. My throat clenched, and I felt the letter wrinkle in my palm. Don’t cry, I told myself. Don’t cry, don’t cry…
And just as quickly, the ache in my heart gave way to a new one, only this pain was hot and burning. The tears dried up in my eyes before they had a chance to fall.
“You’re better off with me, Syd,” North said simply. “I’ll take care of you and all.”
“Well,” I said, clutching my necklace in my fist. “Start taking care of yourself, because I won’t be your problem anymore.”
“What?” He lifted his head. “Don’t be stupid, Syd—”
I tore out of the room, not letting him finish, and I stumbled down the stairs.
“Syd!” he yelled, his voice cut off as the door shut behind me.
I heard the door bang open again and the sound of a few heavy steps before a sudden crash marked the end of all further movement. “Syd, don’t—”
But I just ran harder, past a startled Mrs. Pemberly and out into the cold rain.
If it had been a clear night, I would have been halfway back to Cliffton, but the rain was hard and unforgiving, so thick that I had to stop and shield my eyes just to see the street names. Lungs burning, desperate, I forced myself to keep running.
