Chasing River
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I nod. And then realize that he can’t hear that, so I add, “I’m just glad I was there.”
“So am I.” He takes a bite of his sandwich. “Get some rest.”
“You too.” I make a move to head back upstairs.
“And River?”
“Yeah?”
Gabe finally turns and meets my eyes. “You’ll never be good enough for my daughter.”
I don’t know if he’s saying that to discourage me or to hurt me. Or challenge me. Or maybe he’s just stating the obvious. He’s right, though, and I’m glad he sees it, because it means he’s good enough to be her father.
I smile. “But I’ll never stop trying to be.”
He pauses, something unreadable flickering across his face before it smooths over. “Good night.”
THIRTY-SIX
Amber
“You sure you don’t want to stay a few more days?” I shut River’s trunk—every time he calls it his boot, I giggle—and watch my dad sling his duffel bag over his shoulder.
“Your mother says she needs me back home.”
“Is that what you heard? Because I swear I heard something completely different. How peaceful the house is and how clean the kitchen is . . .”
“Alright, alright.” He hooks an arm around my neck and pulls me into his side. “Besides, the longer I stay here, the longer you’ll stay here.” His gaze drifts over to River, who’s standing quietly by his car in the airport drop-off lane. He drops his voice. “Don’t forget what I said, okay?”
I force my smile. Get on a plane and leave River behind. “I haven’t forgotten, believe me.”
“If it’s meant to work out, then it will.” He plants a kiss on my forehead. “Thanks for sacrificing a few days for your ol’ dad. I had fun.” Nothing about his tone suggests that’s true, but that’s just him. We spent more time together in the last four days than we have since Jesse and I were nine and we went camping for a week. Aside from the odd bickering—River can’t believe how similar the two of us sound sometimes—I found myself laughing a lot more than I usually do with him. Something’s changed between my father and me, a subtle shift in how I see him, and maybe in how he sees me. I’m guessing the last two weeks and the revelations they’ve brought has played a big role in that.
“Thanks for going easy on him.” River gave us our space, spending most of his time with Rowen and his parents, but he did venture out for a few pints.
Dad grunts in response, though I can tell he’s warmed up to River. Not to the idea of me and River, but . . .
“So, when will you be home, again? Beginning of September?”
The realistic answer to that would be “yes,” but saying it now feels like I’m promising him that I will be. And I’m not entirely sure anymore. “Go on, you’re going to miss your plane.”
He sighs. “Right.” Strolling over to River, they clasp hands. “Keep her out of any more trouble while she’s here.”
“Definitely,” River promises somberly, standing tall. “It was a pleasure to meet you.” Unless my dad finds himself back in Ireland, he’s not likely to ever see River again.
Dad presses his lips together and then nods. “Take care of yourself, and your family. Tell your mother that she makes a mean stew.”
River grins. “She’ll be happy to hear that.”
“Well, alright then.” With one last nod my way, sparking a wave of emotion that brings tears to my eyes, my dad disappears into the Dublin airport.
River wraps his arms around my shoulders, pulling my back into his chest. I revel in his warmth. As much as I loved having my father here, it meant less time doing this with River. I’ve desperately missed it.
I don’t know how I’m going to leave him, but I know that I’ll have to at some point.
“So?” He rests his chin on top of my head. “What now?”
“Where did you say you found this place, again?” River’s amazed gaze drifts first over the stone cottage, and then to the bay beyond, a sea of crisp blue waters as far as my eyes stretch.
“Online. One of those private home rental places. It had really good ratings and we lucked out because they had a cancellation.” I haven’t stopped grinning since River turned his car into the gravel driveway. He knew we were going to the Cliffs of Moher—like we had planned—but this was a surprise. “Apparently it was rebuilt about twenty-five years ago, using the stones from the original cottage, which was abandoned during the Great Famine in the mid–eighteen hundreds. Have you heard of it?”
He grins, sliding the bags from my grip and planting a kiss on my lips. “Look at you, Miss Know-It-All.” I trail behind him as he limps past the thick border of brambly bushes and wildflowers and to a fuchsia door, the renter’s key dangling from his fingertips.
Inside, the Irish seaside charm only multiplies, the expansive, open living space filled with oak and pine furniture and plenty of kitschy antiques. A massive, double-sided fireplace stands like a pillar in the center of the cottage, opening up to both a cozy sitting area and rustic dining room. Even the dated pastel blue floral couches and the pink cushions—décor that would belong in my late grandparents’ homes—are something to be admired here. “This is perfect. Exactly what I wanted.”
A quiet, peaceful place for just River and me after so much turmoil.
Upstairs, we wander through four bedrooms, each with two single beds sitting side-by-side. “The sleeping arrangements are the only weird thing,” I murmur, dragging a nightstand out of the way, in a room that overlooks the Atlantic. That’s the view I want to wake up to with River every day for the next four days. “But I figured we could just reorganize things . . .” I lean forward to push one of the beds over.
And find myself sprawled out on top, thanks to a playful push from River.
He chases my laughs away with a deep, all-consuming kiss.
“I think I could live here,” I murmur absently, staring out over the purple-and-pink dusk sky and vast expanse of water from our grassy perch atop the cliffs, as we’ve done for the past four nights. River sits at my back, our bodies guarded against the crisp evening air by heavy wool blankets.
I feel him tense; I hear the hard swallow. Since that night when he begged me to stay in Ireland, before Delaney’s was attacked, the topic of me leaving has sat in the middle of every room like a giant white elephant. It’s our last night here. I don’t think we can avoid talking about it much longer.
Before we left for this cottage, I had to make a choice. I’d already cancelled my trip to England, but there was another flight looming: the one that was supposed to carry me from London to Madrid in a week’s time.
So I rearranged my ticket to fly me from Dublin to Spain’s capital. The plane leaves tomorrow night. I know it’s the right decision, I know that my father is right and I need to remove myself from this situation for a while to be sure I’m thinking clearly, but it pains me all the same.
River heard me on the phone with the airline, making the arrangements. He hid his disappointment behind a smile, but I saw it all the same.
I turn back to lay a soft kiss on his jawline. “So? What’s your plan?”
“So am I.” He takes a bite of his sandwich. “Get some rest.”
“You too.” I make a move to head back upstairs.
“And River?”
“Yeah?”
Gabe finally turns and meets my eyes. “You’ll never be good enough for my daughter.”
I don’t know if he’s saying that to discourage me or to hurt me. Or challenge me. Or maybe he’s just stating the obvious. He’s right, though, and I’m glad he sees it, because it means he’s good enough to be her father.
I smile. “But I’ll never stop trying to be.”
He pauses, something unreadable flickering across his face before it smooths over. “Good night.”
THIRTY-SIX
Amber
“You sure you don’t want to stay a few more days?” I shut River’s trunk—every time he calls it his boot, I giggle—and watch my dad sling his duffel bag over his shoulder.
“Your mother says she needs me back home.”
“Is that what you heard? Because I swear I heard something completely different. How peaceful the house is and how clean the kitchen is . . .”
“Alright, alright.” He hooks an arm around my neck and pulls me into his side. “Besides, the longer I stay here, the longer you’ll stay here.” His gaze drifts over to River, who’s standing quietly by his car in the airport drop-off lane. He drops his voice. “Don’t forget what I said, okay?”
I force my smile. Get on a plane and leave River behind. “I haven’t forgotten, believe me.”
“If it’s meant to work out, then it will.” He plants a kiss on my forehead. “Thanks for sacrificing a few days for your ol’ dad. I had fun.” Nothing about his tone suggests that’s true, but that’s just him. We spent more time together in the last four days than we have since Jesse and I were nine and we went camping for a week. Aside from the odd bickering—River can’t believe how similar the two of us sound sometimes—I found myself laughing a lot more than I usually do with him. Something’s changed between my father and me, a subtle shift in how I see him, and maybe in how he sees me. I’m guessing the last two weeks and the revelations they’ve brought has played a big role in that.
“Thanks for going easy on him.” River gave us our space, spending most of his time with Rowen and his parents, but he did venture out for a few pints.
Dad grunts in response, though I can tell he’s warmed up to River. Not to the idea of me and River, but . . .
“So, when will you be home, again? Beginning of September?”
The realistic answer to that would be “yes,” but saying it now feels like I’m promising him that I will be. And I’m not entirely sure anymore. “Go on, you’re going to miss your plane.”
He sighs. “Right.” Strolling over to River, they clasp hands. “Keep her out of any more trouble while she’s here.”
“Definitely,” River promises somberly, standing tall. “It was a pleasure to meet you.” Unless my dad finds himself back in Ireland, he’s not likely to ever see River again.
Dad presses his lips together and then nods. “Take care of yourself, and your family. Tell your mother that she makes a mean stew.”
River grins. “She’ll be happy to hear that.”
“Well, alright then.” With one last nod my way, sparking a wave of emotion that brings tears to my eyes, my dad disappears into the Dublin airport.
River wraps his arms around my shoulders, pulling my back into his chest. I revel in his warmth. As much as I loved having my father here, it meant less time doing this with River. I’ve desperately missed it.
I don’t know how I’m going to leave him, but I know that I’ll have to at some point.
“So?” He rests his chin on top of my head. “What now?”
“Where did you say you found this place, again?” River’s amazed gaze drifts first over the stone cottage, and then to the bay beyond, a sea of crisp blue waters as far as my eyes stretch.
“Online. One of those private home rental places. It had really good ratings and we lucked out because they had a cancellation.” I haven’t stopped grinning since River turned his car into the gravel driveway. He knew we were going to the Cliffs of Moher—like we had planned—but this was a surprise. “Apparently it was rebuilt about twenty-five years ago, using the stones from the original cottage, which was abandoned during the Great Famine in the mid–eighteen hundreds. Have you heard of it?”
He grins, sliding the bags from my grip and planting a kiss on my lips. “Look at you, Miss Know-It-All.” I trail behind him as he limps past the thick border of brambly bushes and wildflowers and to a fuchsia door, the renter’s key dangling from his fingertips.
Inside, the Irish seaside charm only multiplies, the expansive, open living space filled with oak and pine furniture and plenty of kitschy antiques. A massive, double-sided fireplace stands like a pillar in the center of the cottage, opening up to both a cozy sitting area and rustic dining room. Even the dated pastel blue floral couches and the pink cushions—décor that would belong in my late grandparents’ homes—are something to be admired here. “This is perfect. Exactly what I wanted.”
A quiet, peaceful place for just River and me after so much turmoil.
Upstairs, we wander through four bedrooms, each with two single beds sitting side-by-side. “The sleeping arrangements are the only weird thing,” I murmur, dragging a nightstand out of the way, in a room that overlooks the Atlantic. That’s the view I want to wake up to with River every day for the next four days. “But I figured we could just reorganize things . . .” I lean forward to push one of the beds over.
And find myself sprawled out on top, thanks to a playful push from River.
He chases my laughs away with a deep, all-consuming kiss.
“I think I could live here,” I murmur absently, staring out over the purple-and-pink dusk sky and vast expanse of water from our grassy perch atop the cliffs, as we’ve done for the past four nights. River sits at my back, our bodies guarded against the crisp evening air by heavy wool blankets.
I feel him tense; I hear the hard swallow. Since that night when he begged me to stay in Ireland, before Delaney’s was attacked, the topic of me leaving has sat in the middle of every room like a giant white elephant. It’s our last night here. I don’t think we can avoid talking about it much longer.
Before we left for this cottage, I had to make a choice. I’d already cancelled my trip to England, but there was another flight looming: the one that was supposed to carry me from London to Madrid in a week’s time.
So I rearranged my ticket to fly me from Dublin to Spain’s capital. The plane leaves tomorrow night. I know it’s the right decision, I know that my father is right and I need to remove myself from this situation for a while to be sure I’m thinking clearly, but it pains me all the same.
River heard me on the phone with the airline, making the arrangements. He hid his disappointment behind a smile, but I saw it all the same.
I turn back to lay a soft kiss on his jawline. “So? What’s your plan?”
