Chesapeake Blue
Page 79
"It's not like that."
Cam stepped closer. "Do you want me to tie your tongue in a knot or are you going to shut up?" Because he felt ten again, Seth shrugged.
"Things changed for you the way they were supposed to change. Things changed for us, too. Ever stop to think that if I hadn't been stuck with some smart-assed, skinny, pain-in-the-ass kid I might not have met Anna? I might have had to live my whole life without her—and without Kevin and Jake. Phil and Sybill, same deal. They found each other because you were in the middle. I figure Ethan and Grace might be getting around to dating just about now, almost twenty years after the fact, if you being part of things hadn't nudged them along."
He waited a beat. "So, how much do we owe you for our wives and children? For pulling us back home, for giving us a reason to start the business?"
"I'm sorry."
Pure frustration had Cam dragging at his own hair. "I don't want you to be sorry, for sweet Christ's sake! I want you to wake up."
"I'm awake. I don't feel much like George Bailey, but I'm awake. It's a Wonderful Life," Seth added.
"Grandma—Stella told me I ought to think about it."
"Yeah. She loved old movies. I should've figured if anybody could put a chip in that rock head of yours, it would be Mom."
"I guess I didn't listen to her either. I think she's pissed off at me, too. I should've told you right along."
"You didn't, and that's done. So we start with now. We'll deal with her tonight."
"I'm looking forward to it." Seth turned with a slow smile. "I never thought I'd say it, but I'm looking forward to meeting her tonight. It's been a long time coming. So… you want to kick my ass, or slap me around?"
"Get a grip on yourself. Just wanted to clear the air." Cam slung a friendly arm around Seth's shoulder. Then shoved him into the water. "I don't know why," Cam said when Seth surfaced, "but doing that always makes me feel better."
"Glad I could help," Seth sputtered and let himself sink.
"YOU'RE STAYING HERE. That's the end of it."
"And when did we come to the point where you dictate where I go and what I do? Play it back for me, I must have missed it the first time around."
"I'm not going to argue about this."
"Oh yes," Dru said, almost sweetly, "you are."
"She's not getting near you again. That's number one. The place I'm meeting her is a dive, and you don't belong there. That's two."
"Oh, I see. Now you decide where I belong. That's a tune I've been hearing all my life. I don't care for it."
"Dru." Seth paused, then paced to the back door of the family kitchen, back again. "This is hard enough without me going in there worrying about some ass**le hassling you. The place is one step up from a pit."
"I don't know why you think I can't handle ass**les. I've been handling you, haven't I?"
"That's real funny, and I'll bust into hilarity over it later. I want this done and over. I want it behind me. Behind us. Please." He changed tacks, laid his hand gently on her shoulder. "Stay here and let me do what I have to do."
It was turmoil in his eyes now rather than temper. And she responded to it. "Well, since you ask so nicely."
His shoulders relaxed as he laid his forehead on hers. "Okay, good. Maybe you should stretch out for a little while. You didn't get much sleep last night."
"Don't push it, Seth."
"Right. I should go."
"You know who you are." She turned her head to brush her lips over his. "And so do I. She doesn't. She never could."
SHE LET HIM GO, and stood on the front porch with the other Quinn women as the two cars drove away.
Anna lowered the hand she'd lifted in a wave. "There go our strong, brave men, off to battle. And we womenfolk stay behind, tucked up safe."
"Put on the aprons," Aubrey mumbled. "Make potato salad for tomorrow's picnic." Dru glanced around, saw the same look in her companions' eyes she knew was in her own. "I don't think so."
"So." Sybill rolled her shoulders, glanced at her watch. "How much lead time do we give them?"
"Fifteen minutes ought to be about right," Anna decided.
Grace nodded. "We'll take my van."
SETH SAT at the bar, brooding into his untouched beer. He figured the dread in the pit of his stomach was natural. She'd always put it there. The venue, he supposed, was the perfect place for this showdown with her, with his early childhood, with his own ghosts and demons.
He intended to walk out of it when he was finished, and leave all of that misery behind, just another smear on the dirty air.
He needed to feel clean again, complete again. He wondered if Ray would have understood this nasty tug-of-war between fury and grief.
He liked to think so. Just as he liked to think some part of Ray was sitting beside him in the bar. But when she walked in, there was only the two of them. The drinkers, the pool players, the bartender, even that nebulous connection with the man who'd been his grandfather faded away. It was just Seth, and his mother.
She relaxed onto a stool, crossed her legs and sent the bartender a wink.
"You look a little rough around the edges," she said to Seth. "Tough night?"
"You look the same. You know, I've been sitting here thinking. You had a pretty good deal growing up."
"Shit." She snagged the gin and tonic the bartender put in front of her. "Lot you know about it."
"Big house, plenty of money, good education."
"Fuck that." She drank deep. "Bunch of jerks and ass**les."
"You hated them."
"My mother's a cold fish, stepfather's pu**y-whipped. And there's Sybill, the perfect daughter. I couldn't wait to get the hell out and live."
"I don't know about your parents. They don't have anything to do with me either. But Sybill never hurt you. She took you in, took both of us in when you landed on her doorstep, broke and with nowhere else to go."
"So she could lord it over me. Goddamn superior bitch."
"Is that why you stole from her when we were in New York? Cleaned her out and took off after she'd given you a place to stay?"
Cam stepped closer. "Do you want me to tie your tongue in a knot or are you going to shut up?" Because he felt ten again, Seth shrugged.
"Things changed for you the way they were supposed to change. Things changed for us, too. Ever stop to think that if I hadn't been stuck with some smart-assed, skinny, pain-in-the-ass kid I might not have met Anna? I might have had to live my whole life without her—and without Kevin and Jake. Phil and Sybill, same deal. They found each other because you were in the middle. I figure Ethan and Grace might be getting around to dating just about now, almost twenty years after the fact, if you being part of things hadn't nudged them along."
He waited a beat. "So, how much do we owe you for our wives and children? For pulling us back home, for giving us a reason to start the business?"
"I'm sorry."
Pure frustration had Cam dragging at his own hair. "I don't want you to be sorry, for sweet Christ's sake! I want you to wake up."
"I'm awake. I don't feel much like George Bailey, but I'm awake. It's a Wonderful Life," Seth added.
"Grandma—Stella told me I ought to think about it."
"Yeah. She loved old movies. I should've figured if anybody could put a chip in that rock head of yours, it would be Mom."
"I guess I didn't listen to her either. I think she's pissed off at me, too. I should've told you right along."
"You didn't, and that's done. So we start with now. We'll deal with her tonight."
"I'm looking forward to it." Seth turned with a slow smile. "I never thought I'd say it, but I'm looking forward to meeting her tonight. It's been a long time coming. So… you want to kick my ass, or slap me around?"
"Get a grip on yourself. Just wanted to clear the air." Cam slung a friendly arm around Seth's shoulder. Then shoved him into the water. "I don't know why," Cam said when Seth surfaced, "but doing that always makes me feel better."
"Glad I could help," Seth sputtered and let himself sink.
"YOU'RE STAYING HERE. That's the end of it."
"And when did we come to the point where you dictate where I go and what I do? Play it back for me, I must have missed it the first time around."
"I'm not going to argue about this."
"Oh yes," Dru said, almost sweetly, "you are."
"She's not getting near you again. That's number one. The place I'm meeting her is a dive, and you don't belong there. That's two."
"Oh, I see. Now you decide where I belong. That's a tune I've been hearing all my life. I don't care for it."
"Dru." Seth paused, then paced to the back door of the family kitchen, back again. "This is hard enough without me going in there worrying about some ass**le hassling you. The place is one step up from a pit."
"I don't know why you think I can't handle ass**les. I've been handling you, haven't I?"
"That's real funny, and I'll bust into hilarity over it later. I want this done and over. I want it behind me. Behind us. Please." He changed tacks, laid his hand gently on her shoulder. "Stay here and let me do what I have to do."
It was turmoil in his eyes now rather than temper. And she responded to it. "Well, since you ask so nicely."
His shoulders relaxed as he laid his forehead on hers. "Okay, good. Maybe you should stretch out for a little while. You didn't get much sleep last night."
"Don't push it, Seth."
"Right. I should go."
"You know who you are." She turned her head to brush her lips over his. "And so do I. She doesn't. She never could."
SHE LET HIM GO, and stood on the front porch with the other Quinn women as the two cars drove away.
Anna lowered the hand she'd lifted in a wave. "There go our strong, brave men, off to battle. And we womenfolk stay behind, tucked up safe."
"Put on the aprons," Aubrey mumbled. "Make potato salad for tomorrow's picnic." Dru glanced around, saw the same look in her companions' eyes she knew was in her own. "I don't think so."
"So." Sybill rolled her shoulders, glanced at her watch. "How much lead time do we give them?"
"Fifteen minutes ought to be about right," Anna decided.
Grace nodded. "We'll take my van."
SETH SAT at the bar, brooding into his untouched beer. He figured the dread in the pit of his stomach was natural. She'd always put it there. The venue, he supposed, was the perfect place for this showdown with her, with his early childhood, with his own ghosts and demons.
He intended to walk out of it when he was finished, and leave all of that misery behind, just another smear on the dirty air.
He needed to feel clean again, complete again. He wondered if Ray would have understood this nasty tug-of-war between fury and grief.
He liked to think so. Just as he liked to think some part of Ray was sitting beside him in the bar. But when she walked in, there was only the two of them. The drinkers, the pool players, the bartender, even that nebulous connection with the man who'd been his grandfather faded away. It was just Seth, and his mother.
She relaxed onto a stool, crossed her legs and sent the bartender a wink.
"You look a little rough around the edges," she said to Seth. "Tough night?"
"You look the same. You know, I've been sitting here thinking. You had a pretty good deal growing up."
"Shit." She snagged the gin and tonic the bartender put in front of her. "Lot you know about it."
"Big house, plenty of money, good education."
"Fuck that." She drank deep. "Bunch of jerks and ass**les."
"You hated them."
"My mother's a cold fish, stepfather's pu**y-whipped. And there's Sybill, the perfect daughter. I couldn't wait to get the hell out and live."
"I don't know about your parents. They don't have anything to do with me either. But Sybill never hurt you. She took you in, took both of us in when you landed on her doorstep, broke and with nowhere else to go."
"So she could lord it over me. Goddamn superior bitch."
"Is that why you stole from her when we were in New York? Cleaned her out and took off after she'd given you a place to stay?"
