Children of Eden
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“Oh, they will once someone starts listening to him, agreeing with him. He’s safe until he has an audience. As long as he has no support he’s just an advertisement for the movement’s foolishness. He’ll be in prison soon enough.”
I shudder again. That’s my fate—at the very least—if I get caught.
Lark notices. “Don’t worry,” she says. “As long as you’re with me you’re safe. I know these streets like the back of my hand.” That phrase makes me think of Mom, and calms me. Lark seems so fearless, so confident, that it’s rubbing off on me. I feel safe with her at my side.
It’s a long, circuitous walk back to my house. We even pass her house, though she doesn’t point it out until we’ve walked beyond it. I crane my neck and see the soft warm glow in one of the windows.
Lark is chatty, which is a novelty to me. Ash tells me all about his day as soon as he gets home, and no matter how tired Mom is after work she always makes a point of sitting down with me for a while before I go to sleep. But so many of my hours have been spent in silence. Just hearing Lark’s patter is so interesting that sometimes I lose the train of her conversation and just listen to the flow of her voice, marveling that it is directed at me. Soon all of my life will be like this, with friends and conversation. But Lark will always be the first.
I’m lucky, too, that she takes the burden of conversation on herself. Most of the time I really don’t know what to say, how to respond. But she seems to understand, and barrels through any of my awkward pauses with a steady flow of words. She makes all this new socializing almost easy for me.
When we reach our home circle Lark suddenly stops, gripping my hand tightly.
“What is it?” I ask in alarm. She seems frozen. A few seconds later, though, she relaxes, though she doesn’t let go of my hand.
“I thought . . . never mind.”
“No, tell me,” I say.
She sighs, then smiles. “After what you’ve shared with me, I guess I don’t have the right to hide anything from you. I have seizures.”
She explains how a quirk in her brain makes her have seizures. “It’s kind of like a lightning storm in my brain. The neurons go crazy. The episodes usually aren’t too bad, and I can almost always feel them coming on. The world goes kinda . . . different. Floaty. I get a little dizzy. That’s why I thought I was going to have a seizure just now. The ground seemed to shift and I felt off-balance. Did you feel it?”
I shake my head. I think my heart is pounding too fast, too loud in my chest for me to notice any other sensation.
She smiles at me, and we walk on, still hand in hand.
When we finally reach my house, I almost don’t recognize it. I’ve always seen it from the inside. My only glimpse from the outside was when I was fleeing it, and I didn’t look back. It seems strangely staid after the opulence of the rest of the city. The gray stones look . . . natural.
The rest of the city is all artifice. Beautiful, bright, but not natural.
The sight of home, with its interlocked pattern of real stones, its muted mossy gray color, makes me homesick in anticipation. This is where I belong, I think. I can’t leave home! I can’t . . .
Lark lays a hand on my shoulder, distracting me. “You are so lucky to live here,” she says.
I know I am, but I ask, “Why?” expecting a conventional answer.
She surprises me. “I can’t imagine what a thrill it must be to live in the home of Aaron Al-Baz. Always wondered why there isn’t a plaque on the wall, commemorating it.”
I look at her blankly. “The creator of EcoPan lived here?”
“You didn’t know?”
I shake my head.
“My dad told me. He was the only one in Eden allowed to have a real stone house. Everything else is synthetic, but he insisted on keeping a connection to the Earth. Stones aren’t alive, people said, but he told them that stones are the Earth’s bones.”
I process for a moment, then say, “So I’m living inside a skeleton?”
She tilts her head and laughs. “An ossuary—a bone house!”
“Why don’t I know this?” I ask.
She shrugs. “We all have our secrets,” she says, and winks at me. “Are you going to be in trouble when you go in?”
I honestly have no idea what awaits me.
“Thanks for getting me back safely,” I tell her, thinking I should make some formal gesture: a bow, a handshake. “I really like you . . . I mean, meeting you . . .” I stammer.
“Can you sneak out tomorrow?” she blurts out.
“Of course,” I say without thinking. Will it be possible? After tonight’s escapade I doubt I can elude my parents again. Would I be brave enough? I look into Lark’s earnest eyes. Yes, I think I will be.
“Good,” Lark says. “I’ll meet you here tomorrow. Just after dark. Don’t worry, I won’t tell Ash what you’ve been up to.” I asked her not to earlier. I’m still undecided about whether I want to tell Ash about sneaking out and meeting Lark. On balance, I don’t think I will. At least, not yet. I want this to stay mine. I don’t want to share.
She tilts her head to peer up at the wall around my courtyard. Her wisps of lilac hair fall away from her face. “Can you really climb that?” she asks, amazed.
Remembering how I had to fall the last few feet, I have my doubts. Nervously, I find a tiny handhold and grip, tensing my muscles to pull myself up.
“Hold on, silly,” Lark says as she catches my shoulder and gently wheels me around. “Aren’t you even going to say good-bye?”
Just say the word, I tell myself. But I can’t. She’s looking at me with a quirky smile, curled up at one side, down at the other. Good-bye feels tragic.
“Until tomorrow,” I say instead, and she laughs and hugs me.
“Until tomorrow,” she repeats, as if it is a magic spell.
Suddenly I want to impress Lark. She’s been the strong one, guiding me through the city, soothing my worries. Now I want to look strong and capable. While she’s watching, I leap onto the wall and with nothing but instinct find the perfect holds. Though they’re hardly more than hairline cracks, my fingertips and toes seem glued to the wall. Smoothly, hiding the effort under a veneer of pure grace, I ascend halfway up, then throw my head back to look down at her. It’s a reckless move, almost pitching me off balance . . . but isn’t that what this night is about? Throwing caution to the wind?
I shudder again. That’s my fate—at the very least—if I get caught.
Lark notices. “Don’t worry,” she says. “As long as you’re with me you’re safe. I know these streets like the back of my hand.” That phrase makes me think of Mom, and calms me. Lark seems so fearless, so confident, that it’s rubbing off on me. I feel safe with her at my side.
It’s a long, circuitous walk back to my house. We even pass her house, though she doesn’t point it out until we’ve walked beyond it. I crane my neck and see the soft warm glow in one of the windows.
Lark is chatty, which is a novelty to me. Ash tells me all about his day as soon as he gets home, and no matter how tired Mom is after work she always makes a point of sitting down with me for a while before I go to sleep. But so many of my hours have been spent in silence. Just hearing Lark’s patter is so interesting that sometimes I lose the train of her conversation and just listen to the flow of her voice, marveling that it is directed at me. Soon all of my life will be like this, with friends and conversation. But Lark will always be the first.
I’m lucky, too, that she takes the burden of conversation on herself. Most of the time I really don’t know what to say, how to respond. But she seems to understand, and barrels through any of my awkward pauses with a steady flow of words. She makes all this new socializing almost easy for me.
When we reach our home circle Lark suddenly stops, gripping my hand tightly.
“What is it?” I ask in alarm. She seems frozen. A few seconds later, though, she relaxes, though she doesn’t let go of my hand.
“I thought . . . never mind.”
“No, tell me,” I say.
She sighs, then smiles. “After what you’ve shared with me, I guess I don’t have the right to hide anything from you. I have seizures.”
She explains how a quirk in her brain makes her have seizures. “It’s kind of like a lightning storm in my brain. The neurons go crazy. The episodes usually aren’t too bad, and I can almost always feel them coming on. The world goes kinda . . . different. Floaty. I get a little dizzy. That’s why I thought I was going to have a seizure just now. The ground seemed to shift and I felt off-balance. Did you feel it?”
I shake my head. I think my heart is pounding too fast, too loud in my chest for me to notice any other sensation.
She smiles at me, and we walk on, still hand in hand.
When we finally reach my house, I almost don’t recognize it. I’ve always seen it from the inside. My only glimpse from the outside was when I was fleeing it, and I didn’t look back. It seems strangely staid after the opulence of the rest of the city. The gray stones look . . . natural.
The rest of the city is all artifice. Beautiful, bright, but not natural.
The sight of home, with its interlocked pattern of real stones, its muted mossy gray color, makes me homesick in anticipation. This is where I belong, I think. I can’t leave home! I can’t . . .
Lark lays a hand on my shoulder, distracting me. “You are so lucky to live here,” she says.
I know I am, but I ask, “Why?” expecting a conventional answer.
She surprises me. “I can’t imagine what a thrill it must be to live in the home of Aaron Al-Baz. Always wondered why there isn’t a plaque on the wall, commemorating it.”
I look at her blankly. “The creator of EcoPan lived here?”
“You didn’t know?”
I shake my head.
“My dad told me. He was the only one in Eden allowed to have a real stone house. Everything else is synthetic, but he insisted on keeping a connection to the Earth. Stones aren’t alive, people said, but he told them that stones are the Earth’s bones.”
I process for a moment, then say, “So I’m living inside a skeleton?”
She tilts her head and laughs. “An ossuary—a bone house!”
“Why don’t I know this?” I ask.
She shrugs. “We all have our secrets,” she says, and winks at me. “Are you going to be in trouble when you go in?”
I honestly have no idea what awaits me.
“Thanks for getting me back safely,” I tell her, thinking I should make some formal gesture: a bow, a handshake. “I really like you . . . I mean, meeting you . . .” I stammer.
“Can you sneak out tomorrow?” she blurts out.
“Of course,” I say without thinking. Will it be possible? After tonight’s escapade I doubt I can elude my parents again. Would I be brave enough? I look into Lark’s earnest eyes. Yes, I think I will be.
“Good,” Lark says. “I’ll meet you here tomorrow. Just after dark. Don’t worry, I won’t tell Ash what you’ve been up to.” I asked her not to earlier. I’m still undecided about whether I want to tell Ash about sneaking out and meeting Lark. On balance, I don’t think I will. At least, not yet. I want this to stay mine. I don’t want to share.
She tilts her head to peer up at the wall around my courtyard. Her wisps of lilac hair fall away from her face. “Can you really climb that?” she asks, amazed.
Remembering how I had to fall the last few feet, I have my doubts. Nervously, I find a tiny handhold and grip, tensing my muscles to pull myself up.
“Hold on, silly,” Lark says as she catches my shoulder and gently wheels me around. “Aren’t you even going to say good-bye?”
Just say the word, I tell myself. But I can’t. She’s looking at me with a quirky smile, curled up at one side, down at the other. Good-bye feels tragic.
“Until tomorrow,” I say instead, and she laughs and hugs me.
“Until tomorrow,” she repeats, as if it is a magic spell.
Suddenly I want to impress Lark. She’s been the strong one, guiding me through the city, soothing my worries. Now I want to look strong and capable. While she’s watching, I leap onto the wall and with nothing but instinct find the perfect holds. Though they’re hardly more than hairline cracks, my fingertips and toes seem glued to the wall. Smoothly, hiding the effort under a veneer of pure grace, I ascend halfway up, then throw my head back to look down at her. It’s a reckless move, almost pitching me off balance . . . but isn’t that what this night is about? Throwing caution to the wind?
