Children of Eden
Page 21
Before I go to bed, I look at my strange, multicolored eyes. What will I feel like when my eyes are flat and dull like everyone else’s? I won’t be me anymore.
Even though everyone I’ve really seen in my life (all four of them, aside from passersby last night) has these flat lifeless eyes, it shocks me to imagine seeing them staring blankly out of my face. Those flat eyes are unnatural, wrong, in a way I never appreciated before, until it became personal. All the light and variation of my irises will be crushed. They’ll be a dull gray-blue. I’ll look like a blind girl, though my vision will be unchanged.
Mom ducks her head into the bathroom, and I blink to hide the moisture gathering in my eyes. “Your dad and I are taking the day off of work tomorrow to be with you, and Ash is staying home. We’ll have a real family party then. All your favorite foods. And we’ll have a chance to talk about . . . ,” she breaks off, “some important things you need to know.”
Whatever they are, why did she wait until my final days to tell me?
Soon afterward, everyone is in bed. I pretend to sleep, too, but under my bed is a bag containing the clothes I plan to wear. I breathe slowly, quietly, listening to the sounds of the house: Ash turning in his sleep, the soft settling sound the walls make when the temperature drops at night. When I’m sure everyone is deeply asleep, I grab my bag and slip out to the courtyard.
Right on the other side is the world. And Lark. My fingers tremble as I strip off my nightclothes and stand almost naked in the dark. Above me the stars twinkle dimly, and I tilt my head back to let their muted light fall on me. I know almost nothing about the stars, not their names or the science behind them. But I love looking at their glowing patterns because they remind me that there’s a world outside of my courtyard, outside of Eden even. And they make me think of my most treasured possession: the ancient, faded, crumbling photo from before the Ecofail that Mom smuggled out of the archives. I’ve brought it to share with Lark. She can keep secrets.
I thought more about what to wear than I did about leaving home. The fact embarrasses me, but I know that if I didn’t have the distraction of Lark and sneaking out, I’d be going crazy with what’s happening in the rest of my life.
After long consideration and much pawing through my meager wardrobe (mostly made up of duplicates of Ash’s school uniforms and casual clothes), I settled on one of my few feminine pieces: a deep red skirt that flares to my mid-thigh. The material is imbued with subtle sparkles that flash when the light hits them just so.
For the rest I chose black, partly from limited choice, partly from an instinct that tells me I may need to blend into the night if anything goes wrong. I tuck my black leggings into my soft ankle boots, and adjust the shoulders of a snug synthwool sweater knitted in an open weave. I know I’ll look dull alongside the lurid magenta and ultramarine and canary colors favored by the residents of Eden. But the shock of red at my hips is a rare treat for me. I hope Lark likes it.
I don’t want to risk triggering the alarm on the front door, so I scale the wall—now I remember why I rarely wear skirts—and sit at the top, hunkered low to reduce my profile, looking for Lark. For one terrible moment I don’t see her. Then she emerges from the shadows, starlight on lilac, and the entire world seems to settle into place.
I remember most of the tricky holds for the way down, and scale the wall easily, leaping down the last four feet just to show off.
“You’re amazing!” Lark cries as she runs up to me. “How do you do that? When you climb you look like a squirrel, or . . . a gecko!”
“And you look like a flower,” I blurt out before I can stop myself.
She lowers her head for a second, but when she raises it her eyes are shining.
“Here,” she says, and hands me a pair of glasses. I unfold them, and see that the lenses are in a faceted kaleidoscope of pink and sky blue and lilac. Lark slips on a pair of her own. “Dragonfly glasses,” she tells me. “Aren’t they beautiful? Lots of people are wearing them, even at night, so no one will even think about your eyes.”
I put them on. Despite the facets on the lenses, when I look through them my vision isn’t fractured. The only difference is that a pink-purple glow is cast over the world. Eden has gone rosy tonight.
Lark takes my hand. “Come on! I want to run!” And then we’re off, down the road, our linked arms swinging, laughing, careless of who might hear us. We’re just two girls enjoying life. Why would anyone look twice?
It isn’t long before she’s panting, though I’m only just warming up. I feel like I could run forever.
“I can’t run like you,” she gasps out. “How did you get so fast and so strong?”
“There’s not much else for me to do, except run and climb and stretch and exercise,” I explain.
She regards me in what I think is admiration. “You’re so . . .” She breaks off, shaking her head. “Do you know what you could do with speed like that? No one could ever catch you. The Greenshirts are soft compared to you. Why, I bet you could even outrun a securitybot. And climbing could be pretty useful to someone who . . .” She stops herself again. “But we shouldn’t talk about that now. Not until we get there.”
“Where’s there?” I ask.
She gives me her quirky up-and-down smile. “That’s for me to know . . . and you to find out.” She crooks her elbow in mine and we head to the nearest autoloop station.
PANIC HITS ME as soon as we slide through the turnstile. Walking through a crowd on a public street where everyone goes about their own business is one thing. But here there is an actual checkpoint of sorts, where passengers have to pay for their ticket. I try to back up, but my thighs hit the turnstile’s padded bar.
“One way,” Lark says, catching my arm. More loudly she adds for the benefit of those behind us annoyed at the holdup, “Don’t worry, the bathroom is over this way.”
“What if they . . . ,” I begin, but she shushes me with a squeeze.
“You’ll be fine. I’ll put the fare on my chip. Just act normal.”
Bikk! Money! I hadn’t even thought about that. There are so many little things that could catch me out. I don’t have any funds, of course, nor do I know how to use them or what anything costs.
Lark goes first to show me how it’s done. It’s simple. There’s what looks like a mirror at the entrance to the autoloop platform. She lifts her glasses and smiles into it, adjusting her flower-colored hair coquettishly, and says brightly, “Two please!” The mirror quickly dims and brightens again as it reads her eye implants. Her currency has been transferred, and two small chits roll out from a slot under the mirror. She heads through the corridor leading to the station platform. There are people in uniform everywhere. Only one is a Greenshirt, lounging against the wall at the far end of the station, chewing at a hangnail. But even the station attendants alarm me in their crisp, official-looking costumes. They have the bull’s-eye insignia of the Center on their lapels, and even if they’re low-level functionaries, they still represent the establishment that is my natural enemy . . . whose lair I’m attempting to infiltrate.
Even though everyone I’ve really seen in my life (all four of them, aside from passersby last night) has these flat lifeless eyes, it shocks me to imagine seeing them staring blankly out of my face. Those flat eyes are unnatural, wrong, in a way I never appreciated before, until it became personal. All the light and variation of my irises will be crushed. They’ll be a dull gray-blue. I’ll look like a blind girl, though my vision will be unchanged.
Mom ducks her head into the bathroom, and I blink to hide the moisture gathering in my eyes. “Your dad and I are taking the day off of work tomorrow to be with you, and Ash is staying home. We’ll have a real family party then. All your favorite foods. And we’ll have a chance to talk about . . . ,” she breaks off, “some important things you need to know.”
Whatever they are, why did she wait until my final days to tell me?
Soon afterward, everyone is in bed. I pretend to sleep, too, but under my bed is a bag containing the clothes I plan to wear. I breathe slowly, quietly, listening to the sounds of the house: Ash turning in his sleep, the soft settling sound the walls make when the temperature drops at night. When I’m sure everyone is deeply asleep, I grab my bag and slip out to the courtyard.
Right on the other side is the world. And Lark. My fingers tremble as I strip off my nightclothes and stand almost naked in the dark. Above me the stars twinkle dimly, and I tilt my head back to let their muted light fall on me. I know almost nothing about the stars, not their names or the science behind them. But I love looking at their glowing patterns because they remind me that there’s a world outside of my courtyard, outside of Eden even. And they make me think of my most treasured possession: the ancient, faded, crumbling photo from before the Ecofail that Mom smuggled out of the archives. I’ve brought it to share with Lark. She can keep secrets.
I thought more about what to wear than I did about leaving home. The fact embarrasses me, but I know that if I didn’t have the distraction of Lark and sneaking out, I’d be going crazy with what’s happening in the rest of my life.
After long consideration and much pawing through my meager wardrobe (mostly made up of duplicates of Ash’s school uniforms and casual clothes), I settled on one of my few feminine pieces: a deep red skirt that flares to my mid-thigh. The material is imbued with subtle sparkles that flash when the light hits them just so.
For the rest I chose black, partly from limited choice, partly from an instinct that tells me I may need to blend into the night if anything goes wrong. I tuck my black leggings into my soft ankle boots, and adjust the shoulders of a snug synthwool sweater knitted in an open weave. I know I’ll look dull alongside the lurid magenta and ultramarine and canary colors favored by the residents of Eden. But the shock of red at my hips is a rare treat for me. I hope Lark likes it.
I don’t want to risk triggering the alarm on the front door, so I scale the wall—now I remember why I rarely wear skirts—and sit at the top, hunkered low to reduce my profile, looking for Lark. For one terrible moment I don’t see her. Then she emerges from the shadows, starlight on lilac, and the entire world seems to settle into place.
I remember most of the tricky holds for the way down, and scale the wall easily, leaping down the last four feet just to show off.
“You’re amazing!” Lark cries as she runs up to me. “How do you do that? When you climb you look like a squirrel, or . . . a gecko!”
“And you look like a flower,” I blurt out before I can stop myself.
She lowers her head for a second, but when she raises it her eyes are shining.
“Here,” she says, and hands me a pair of glasses. I unfold them, and see that the lenses are in a faceted kaleidoscope of pink and sky blue and lilac. Lark slips on a pair of her own. “Dragonfly glasses,” she tells me. “Aren’t they beautiful? Lots of people are wearing them, even at night, so no one will even think about your eyes.”
I put them on. Despite the facets on the lenses, when I look through them my vision isn’t fractured. The only difference is that a pink-purple glow is cast over the world. Eden has gone rosy tonight.
Lark takes my hand. “Come on! I want to run!” And then we’re off, down the road, our linked arms swinging, laughing, careless of who might hear us. We’re just two girls enjoying life. Why would anyone look twice?
It isn’t long before she’s panting, though I’m only just warming up. I feel like I could run forever.
“I can’t run like you,” she gasps out. “How did you get so fast and so strong?”
“There’s not much else for me to do, except run and climb and stretch and exercise,” I explain.
She regards me in what I think is admiration. “You’re so . . .” She breaks off, shaking her head. “Do you know what you could do with speed like that? No one could ever catch you. The Greenshirts are soft compared to you. Why, I bet you could even outrun a securitybot. And climbing could be pretty useful to someone who . . .” She stops herself again. “But we shouldn’t talk about that now. Not until we get there.”
“Where’s there?” I ask.
She gives me her quirky up-and-down smile. “That’s for me to know . . . and you to find out.” She crooks her elbow in mine and we head to the nearest autoloop station.
PANIC HITS ME as soon as we slide through the turnstile. Walking through a crowd on a public street where everyone goes about their own business is one thing. But here there is an actual checkpoint of sorts, where passengers have to pay for their ticket. I try to back up, but my thighs hit the turnstile’s padded bar.
“One way,” Lark says, catching my arm. More loudly she adds for the benefit of those behind us annoyed at the holdup, “Don’t worry, the bathroom is over this way.”
“What if they . . . ,” I begin, but she shushes me with a squeeze.
“You’ll be fine. I’ll put the fare on my chip. Just act normal.”
Bikk! Money! I hadn’t even thought about that. There are so many little things that could catch me out. I don’t have any funds, of course, nor do I know how to use them or what anything costs.
Lark goes first to show me how it’s done. It’s simple. There’s what looks like a mirror at the entrance to the autoloop platform. She lifts her glasses and smiles into it, adjusting her flower-colored hair coquettishly, and says brightly, “Two please!” The mirror quickly dims and brightens again as it reads her eye implants. Her currency has been transferred, and two small chits roll out from a slot under the mirror. She heads through the corridor leading to the station platform. There are people in uniform everywhere. Only one is a Greenshirt, lounging against the wall at the far end of the station, chewing at a hangnail. But even the station attendants alarm me in their crisp, official-looking costumes. They have the bull’s-eye insignia of the Center on their lapels, and even if they’re low-level functionaries, they still represent the establishment that is my natural enemy . . . whose lair I’m attempting to infiltrate.
