Claim Me
Page 47
“You talked to her tonight?”
“I did.”
“Oh. Well, I’m very glad to hear it,” I admit. “And I don’t think Bruce will tell anyone, either.”
“Do you want me to talk to him? I haven’t yet.”
“No. I trust him.”
Damien nods, satisfied. “What about Tanner?”
I tell him about Tanner’s theory that I was hired to make Giselle happy, and I see the anger light in Damien’s eyes.
I laugh. “He’s already been fired—thanks for that—but don’t do anything else.”
“What would I do?”
“Oh, I don’t know,” I say, thinking of my old boyfriend Kurt. “Sic the Yakuza on him. Task a satellite to blast him with a laser beam from space. Honestly, what couldn’t you do?”
“I rather like the laser-beam-from-space idea.”
“Promise me.”
“I promise. He’s out of Innovative and away from you. End of story.”
“Good,” I say, even though, honestly, I wouldn’t be too upset if a space laser took out Tanner.
“And Palm Springs?” he asks. “I’ve always found it to be such a relaxing place. I’m curious how such a benign location made it onto your list of suspects.”
“You’re teasing me.”
“Only a little.”
“You should have told me you were giving Giselle a ride back in the limo.”
“Oh,” he says, and nods solemnly. “Yes, I can see your point. I should have. I would have. If I had given her a ride back in the limo.”
He’s patronizing me, of course, but I don’t care because I’m still caught up on the whole he-didn’t-drive-her thing. “But you came back in the limo. I assumed that was because you were giving her and the paintings a lift. But if you weren’t, then why not just come back in the helicopter? Wasn’t that your plan?”
“It was. But my meetings ended surprisingly early, and as you’ve noted so many times, I have a universe to run. It’s difficult to conduct business from a helicopter. The noise level makes dictation tricky, and I’ve found that international clients get touchy when they think I’m shouting at them. Plus, it’s much easier to make unscheduled stops along the way from a ground vehicle, and when I realized I had the time, I scheduled a few stops in Fullerton and Pasadena.”
I cross my arms over my chest and cock my head to the side. “The point, Mr. Stark?”
“The point is that when I realized my schedule was going to change, I called my office to arrange to have the limo sent. My assistant told me that Giselle had called, hoping that I could suggest a transport company in Palm Springs that could arrange the delivery of some paintings for the show. Apparently she decided to bring back more than could fit in her car.”
“And since you were right there, you offered to bring them back yourself.”
“The paintings,” he acknowledges. “Not the woman. As you said, I can be a very nice man.”
I laugh. “Yes, you can.”
“I wonder if I might make a suggestion?”
“Um, sure.”
“Next time you have a question about whether or not I’m transporting other women in the limo, simply pick up the phone and ask.”
“Right,” I say. “I’ll do that.” I shake my head in exasperation at myself. “I really am sorry. I’ve been out of sorts.”
“As have I,” he says.
I think of the storm clouds that I’ve seen in his eyes. Of the legal troubles that seem to be brewing. “Will you tell me why?” I ask softly.
He looks at me for such a long moment that I’m afraid he’s not going to answer. “I don’t want what is between us to end.”
“Oh.” His response is not what I expected, but I cannot deny the relief that almost swallows me. “No,” I say, my skin already warming from the heat in his voice. “I don’t, either.”
He searches my face. “Don’t you?” he finally whispers, and I see in his eyes the same vulnerable melancholy that I saw last night.
“Damien, God, of course not.” I draw in a breath, trying to articulate to him how I’ve been feeling. “Everything feels skewed tonight, as if nothing is the way it’s supposed to be. This house, even. I’m so used to coming here. To standing up in front of that balcony and posing for Blaine, and knowing that you’re watching and that when Blaine leaves it will just be you and me in this house, on that bed.” I flash a watery smile. “I love that you thought to give it to me, but it felt so final. As if we were closing a door.”
“The bed was only a gift,” he says. “Something for you to have, to lie on, to think about us. But tonight I thought you wanted to close that door. What was it you said? No rules, no game?”
“I was angry,” I admit.
“I don’t like the thought that I’ve hurt you or upset you.”
“You haven’t,” I say. “Not really.”
“Haven’t I? I wonder …” His brow furrows, and his eyes search my face, but I don’t know what it is that he’s looking for.
“Damien?”
“I watched you tonight,” he says, and his words are measured, the vocal equivalent of walking on glass.
I say nothing, just stand there, unsure of where this is heading.
“I couldn’t help it,” he continues. “When you’re in a room, I have no choice but to watch you. You draw me in. You compel me. And I fall willingly under your spell.” His eyes light with a smile, but even that doesn’t hide the worry I see there. “I saw you with Jamie. I watched you talking with Bruce. I heard your laughter as you chatted with those ridiculous television stars. I saw the hurt on your face when you escaped the party with Evelyn. And each smile, each frown, each laugh, and each flash of pain in your eyes were like wounds to me, Nikki, because I wasn’t the one sharing them with you.”
I press my lips together and swallow, but still I do not speak.
“But this is what wounded me most of all,” he says, and he reaches for my left hand.
I blink, and a single tear escapes and slowly trickles down my cheek. “You saw?”
My fingertip has returned to its normal color, and there are no indentations left. Even so, it seems to throb in memory of the pain. A pain that Damien now soothes with a single, gentle kiss.
“Will you tell me why?”
I want to tip my head down, but I force myself to look straight at him. With Damien, I do not feel weak or broken, but I am ashamed, because he asked me to come to him if I ever needed the pain again. And this is twice now that I have broken that promise. My finger, at least, survived my assault with more aplomb than my hair.
“I’ve told you most of it already,” I say. “It’s just been a hell of a day.”
“All right. Now tell me the rest.” His voice is easy, conversational, and it soothes me.
“This party,” I admit. “Seeing Giselle as the hostess. Looking around at unfamiliar furniture.” Now that I am articulating these things, I realize how much they’ve been bothering me. “I didn’t even recognize the third floor. That room, this house—for so long, they’ve been ours. But tonight they weren’t.” And I wasn’t yours.
“I did.”
“Oh. Well, I’m very glad to hear it,” I admit. “And I don’t think Bruce will tell anyone, either.”
“Do you want me to talk to him? I haven’t yet.”
“No. I trust him.”
Damien nods, satisfied. “What about Tanner?”
I tell him about Tanner’s theory that I was hired to make Giselle happy, and I see the anger light in Damien’s eyes.
I laugh. “He’s already been fired—thanks for that—but don’t do anything else.”
“What would I do?”
“Oh, I don’t know,” I say, thinking of my old boyfriend Kurt. “Sic the Yakuza on him. Task a satellite to blast him with a laser beam from space. Honestly, what couldn’t you do?”
“I rather like the laser-beam-from-space idea.”
“Promise me.”
“I promise. He’s out of Innovative and away from you. End of story.”
“Good,” I say, even though, honestly, I wouldn’t be too upset if a space laser took out Tanner.
“And Palm Springs?” he asks. “I’ve always found it to be such a relaxing place. I’m curious how such a benign location made it onto your list of suspects.”
“You’re teasing me.”
“Only a little.”
“You should have told me you were giving Giselle a ride back in the limo.”
“Oh,” he says, and nods solemnly. “Yes, I can see your point. I should have. I would have. If I had given her a ride back in the limo.”
He’s patronizing me, of course, but I don’t care because I’m still caught up on the whole he-didn’t-drive-her thing. “But you came back in the limo. I assumed that was because you were giving her and the paintings a lift. But if you weren’t, then why not just come back in the helicopter? Wasn’t that your plan?”
“It was. But my meetings ended surprisingly early, and as you’ve noted so many times, I have a universe to run. It’s difficult to conduct business from a helicopter. The noise level makes dictation tricky, and I’ve found that international clients get touchy when they think I’m shouting at them. Plus, it’s much easier to make unscheduled stops along the way from a ground vehicle, and when I realized I had the time, I scheduled a few stops in Fullerton and Pasadena.”
I cross my arms over my chest and cock my head to the side. “The point, Mr. Stark?”
“The point is that when I realized my schedule was going to change, I called my office to arrange to have the limo sent. My assistant told me that Giselle had called, hoping that I could suggest a transport company in Palm Springs that could arrange the delivery of some paintings for the show. Apparently she decided to bring back more than could fit in her car.”
“And since you were right there, you offered to bring them back yourself.”
“The paintings,” he acknowledges. “Not the woman. As you said, I can be a very nice man.”
I laugh. “Yes, you can.”
“I wonder if I might make a suggestion?”
“Um, sure.”
“Next time you have a question about whether or not I’m transporting other women in the limo, simply pick up the phone and ask.”
“Right,” I say. “I’ll do that.” I shake my head in exasperation at myself. “I really am sorry. I’ve been out of sorts.”
“As have I,” he says.
I think of the storm clouds that I’ve seen in his eyes. Of the legal troubles that seem to be brewing. “Will you tell me why?” I ask softly.
He looks at me for such a long moment that I’m afraid he’s not going to answer. “I don’t want what is between us to end.”
“Oh.” His response is not what I expected, but I cannot deny the relief that almost swallows me. “No,” I say, my skin already warming from the heat in his voice. “I don’t, either.”
He searches my face. “Don’t you?” he finally whispers, and I see in his eyes the same vulnerable melancholy that I saw last night.
“Damien, God, of course not.” I draw in a breath, trying to articulate to him how I’ve been feeling. “Everything feels skewed tonight, as if nothing is the way it’s supposed to be. This house, even. I’m so used to coming here. To standing up in front of that balcony and posing for Blaine, and knowing that you’re watching and that when Blaine leaves it will just be you and me in this house, on that bed.” I flash a watery smile. “I love that you thought to give it to me, but it felt so final. As if we were closing a door.”
“The bed was only a gift,” he says. “Something for you to have, to lie on, to think about us. But tonight I thought you wanted to close that door. What was it you said? No rules, no game?”
“I was angry,” I admit.
“I don’t like the thought that I’ve hurt you or upset you.”
“You haven’t,” I say. “Not really.”
“Haven’t I? I wonder …” His brow furrows, and his eyes search my face, but I don’t know what it is that he’s looking for.
“Damien?”
“I watched you tonight,” he says, and his words are measured, the vocal equivalent of walking on glass.
I say nothing, just stand there, unsure of where this is heading.
“I couldn’t help it,” he continues. “When you’re in a room, I have no choice but to watch you. You draw me in. You compel me. And I fall willingly under your spell.” His eyes light with a smile, but even that doesn’t hide the worry I see there. “I saw you with Jamie. I watched you talking with Bruce. I heard your laughter as you chatted with those ridiculous television stars. I saw the hurt on your face when you escaped the party with Evelyn. And each smile, each frown, each laugh, and each flash of pain in your eyes were like wounds to me, Nikki, because I wasn’t the one sharing them with you.”
I press my lips together and swallow, but still I do not speak.
“But this is what wounded me most of all,” he says, and he reaches for my left hand.
I blink, and a single tear escapes and slowly trickles down my cheek. “You saw?”
My fingertip has returned to its normal color, and there are no indentations left. Even so, it seems to throb in memory of the pain. A pain that Damien now soothes with a single, gentle kiss.
“Will you tell me why?”
I want to tip my head down, but I force myself to look straight at him. With Damien, I do not feel weak or broken, but I am ashamed, because he asked me to come to him if I ever needed the pain again. And this is twice now that I have broken that promise. My finger, at least, survived my assault with more aplomb than my hair.
“I’ve told you most of it already,” I say. “It’s just been a hell of a day.”
“All right. Now tell me the rest.” His voice is easy, conversational, and it soothes me.
“This party,” I admit. “Seeing Giselle as the hostess. Looking around at unfamiliar furniture.” Now that I am articulating these things, I realize how much they’ve been bothering me. “I didn’t even recognize the third floor. That room, this house—for so long, they’ve been ours. But tonight they weren’t.” And I wasn’t yours.
