Considering Kate
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"What's wrong?"
"I hate saying goodbye. I wouldn't have to say goodbye if he didn't insist on living three thousand miles away in stupid California. The dope."
Ah, her brother. "Well…" Because a fresh tear had spilled over, Brody yanked a bandanna from his pocket. "He works there."
"Excuse me, but I'm not feeling particularly logical." She took the bandanna. "Thanks."
"Don't mention it"
She dabbed at tears, then stared across the street. "Do you have any siblings?"
"No."
"Want one? I'll sell him cheap." She sighed, leaned back on the steps. "My sister's in New York. Brand's in L.A. I'm in West Virginia. I never thought we'd end up so scattered." He remembered the way she and her brother had embraced, that natural flow of love. "You don't look scattered to me.''
Kate looked back at him. In a moment, her eyes cleared. "You're right. You're absolutely right. That was exactly the right thing to say. So." She drew in a breath, handed him back his bandanna. "Take my mind off all this for a minute. What'd you do for Christmas? The big, noisy family thing?"
"Jack makes plenty of noise. He got me up at five." Remembering made Brody smile. "I think I peeled him off the ceiling around two that afternoon."
"Did he make it through Christmas dinner?"
Brody's smile faded. "Yeah, barely." He moved his shoulder. "We went over to his grandparents' for that. We live in the same town," he said. "But you could say we're scattered."
"I'm sorry."
"They dote on Jack. That's the important thing."
And why the hell did he bring it up? Maybe, he thought, maybe because it was stuck in his craw. Maybe because his father continued to dismiss everything he'd done with his life, everything he wanted to do.
"I'm having the dirt dumped around the other side of the house. You might want to have it spread there, start a garden or something in the spring."
"That's a good thought."
"Well." He got to his feet. "I've got to get back to work, before the boss docks my pay."
"Brody—'' She wasn't sure what she meant to say, or how she meant to say it. Then the moment passed as Brandon pulled up to the curb in his spiffy rental car.
"Dad!" Jack was already fighting to free himself from the seat belt. "Wait till you see! Brand gave me his mitt, and a baseball with his name wrote on it and everything."
"Written on it," Brody said automatically, then caught the bullet of his son as Jack shot toward him.
"Let's have a look." He examined the mitt and ball, both warm from Jack's tight grip. "These are really special, and you'll have to take special care of them."
"I will. I promise. Thanks, Brand. Thanks! I'm going to keep them forever. Can we show the guys now, Dad?"
"You bet." Brody hitched Jack higher on his hip, looked down at Brandon. "Thanks."
"My pleasure. Remember, Jack. Keep your eye on the ball."
"I will! Bye."
"Safe trip," Brody added, and carted Jack around to show off his treasures to the crew. Kate let out a little sigh, leaned down into Brandon's open window. "Maybe you're not such a jerk, after all."
"Hell of a kid." He pinched Kate's chin. "You got an eye on the dad, I noticed."
"No. I've got both eyes on the dad." Laughing, she leaned in to give him a kiss. "You go ahead after those California girls, pal. I like country boys."
"Behave yourself."
"Not a chance."
He laughed, turned on the engine again. "See you, gorgeous." She stepped back, waved. "Fly safe," she murmured.
* * * * *
It was traditional for Natasha to close the shop on New Year's Eve. She spent the day in the kitchen, preparing the myriad dishes she'd set out for the open house she held every New Year's Day. Family, friends, neighbors would crowd the house for hours.
"Brand should have stayed until after the party."
"I wish he could have." Natasha checked the apricots and water she was boiling for kissel, turned the mixture down to simmer. "Don't sulk, Katie. There were times your life and your work kept you away."
"I know." Kate continued to roll out pastry dough as she'd been taught. "I just need a little more sulk time. I miss the jerk, that's all."
"So do I."
On the stove, pots puffed steam. In the oven, an enormous ham was baking. Years ago, Natasha thought, she'd have had three children underfoot while she was juggling these chores. There would have been squabbling, giggling, spills to mop up. Her patience would have been sorely tried a dozen times. It had been wonderful.
Now she only had her Kate, pouting over the pastry dough.
"You're restless." Natasha tapped a spoon on the side of a pot, set it on its holder. "You don't have enough to fill your time while the building is going on."
"I'm making plans."
"Yes, I know." She poured two cups of tea, brought them to the table. "Sit."
"Mama, I'm—"
"Sit. So, you're like me," Natasha continued as they both took seats at the crowded table. "Plans, details, goals. These are so important. We want to know what happens next, because if we know, we can have control."
"What's wrong with that?"
"Nothing. When I came here to open my store, it was very hard. Hard to leave the family. But I needed to. I didn't know I'd meet your father here. That wasn't planned."
"It was fate."
"Yes." Natasha smiled. "We plan, you and I, and we calculate. And still, we understand fate. So maybe fate, for all your plans, brought you back."
"Are you disappointed?" She blurted it out, and felt both relief and dread that it had finally been asked.
"In what? You? Why would you think so?"
"Mama." Searching for words, Kate turned her cup around and around. "I know how much you and Dad sacrificed—"
"Wait." Dark eyes kindling, Natasha tapped her fingers hard on the table. "Maybe, after all these years my English is failing. I don't understand the word sacrifice when it comes to my children. You have never been a sacrifice."
"I hate saying goodbye. I wouldn't have to say goodbye if he didn't insist on living three thousand miles away in stupid California. The dope."
Ah, her brother. "Well…" Because a fresh tear had spilled over, Brody yanked a bandanna from his pocket. "He works there."
"Excuse me, but I'm not feeling particularly logical." She took the bandanna. "Thanks."
"Don't mention it"
She dabbed at tears, then stared across the street. "Do you have any siblings?"
"No."
"Want one? I'll sell him cheap." She sighed, leaned back on the steps. "My sister's in New York. Brand's in L.A. I'm in West Virginia. I never thought we'd end up so scattered." He remembered the way she and her brother had embraced, that natural flow of love. "You don't look scattered to me.''
Kate looked back at him. In a moment, her eyes cleared. "You're right. You're absolutely right. That was exactly the right thing to say. So." She drew in a breath, handed him back his bandanna. "Take my mind off all this for a minute. What'd you do for Christmas? The big, noisy family thing?"
"Jack makes plenty of noise. He got me up at five." Remembering made Brody smile. "I think I peeled him off the ceiling around two that afternoon."
"Did he make it through Christmas dinner?"
Brody's smile faded. "Yeah, barely." He moved his shoulder. "We went over to his grandparents' for that. We live in the same town," he said. "But you could say we're scattered."
"I'm sorry."
"They dote on Jack. That's the important thing."
And why the hell did he bring it up? Maybe, he thought, maybe because it was stuck in his craw. Maybe because his father continued to dismiss everything he'd done with his life, everything he wanted to do.
"I'm having the dirt dumped around the other side of the house. You might want to have it spread there, start a garden or something in the spring."
"That's a good thought."
"Well." He got to his feet. "I've got to get back to work, before the boss docks my pay."
"Brody—'' She wasn't sure what she meant to say, or how she meant to say it. Then the moment passed as Brandon pulled up to the curb in his spiffy rental car.
"Dad!" Jack was already fighting to free himself from the seat belt. "Wait till you see! Brand gave me his mitt, and a baseball with his name wrote on it and everything."
"Written on it," Brody said automatically, then caught the bullet of his son as Jack shot toward him.
"Let's have a look." He examined the mitt and ball, both warm from Jack's tight grip. "These are really special, and you'll have to take special care of them."
"I will. I promise. Thanks, Brand. Thanks! I'm going to keep them forever. Can we show the guys now, Dad?"
"You bet." Brody hitched Jack higher on his hip, looked down at Brandon. "Thanks."
"My pleasure. Remember, Jack. Keep your eye on the ball."
"I will! Bye."
"Safe trip," Brody added, and carted Jack around to show off his treasures to the crew. Kate let out a little sigh, leaned down into Brandon's open window. "Maybe you're not such a jerk, after all."
"Hell of a kid." He pinched Kate's chin. "You got an eye on the dad, I noticed."
"No. I've got both eyes on the dad." Laughing, she leaned in to give him a kiss. "You go ahead after those California girls, pal. I like country boys."
"Behave yourself."
"Not a chance."
He laughed, turned on the engine again. "See you, gorgeous." She stepped back, waved. "Fly safe," she murmured.
* * * * *
It was traditional for Natasha to close the shop on New Year's Eve. She spent the day in the kitchen, preparing the myriad dishes she'd set out for the open house she held every New Year's Day. Family, friends, neighbors would crowd the house for hours.
"Brand should have stayed until after the party."
"I wish he could have." Natasha checked the apricots and water she was boiling for kissel, turned the mixture down to simmer. "Don't sulk, Katie. There were times your life and your work kept you away."
"I know." Kate continued to roll out pastry dough as she'd been taught. "I just need a little more sulk time. I miss the jerk, that's all."
"So do I."
On the stove, pots puffed steam. In the oven, an enormous ham was baking. Years ago, Natasha thought, she'd have had three children underfoot while she was juggling these chores. There would have been squabbling, giggling, spills to mop up. Her patience would have been sorely tried a dozen times. It had been wonderful.
Now she only had her Kate, pouting over the pastry dough.
"You're restless." Natasha tapped a spoon on the side of a pot, set it on its holder. "You don't have enough to fill your time while the building is going on."
"I'm making plans."
"Yes, I know." She poured two cups of tea, brought them to the table. "Sit."
"Mama, I'm—"
"Sit. So, you're like me," Natasha continued as they both took seats at the crowded table. "Plans, details, goals. These are so important. We want to know what happens next, because if we know, we can have control."
"What's wrong with that?"
"Nothing. When I came here to open my store, it was very hard. Hard to leave the family. But I needed to. I didn't know I'd meet your father here. That wasn't planned."
"It was fate."
"Yes." Natasha smiled. "We plan, you and I, and we calculate. And still, we understand fate. So maybe fate, for all your plans, brought you back."
"Are you disappointed?" She blurted it out, and felt both relief and dread that it had finally been asked.
"In what? You? Why would you think so?"
"Mama." Searching for words, Kate turned her cup around and around. "I know how much you and Dad sacrificed—"
"Wait." Dark eyes kindling, Natasha tapped her fingers hard on the table. "Maybe, after all these years my English is failing. I don't understand the word sacrifice when it comes to my children. You have never been a sacrifice."
