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He talked about my generation’s “bloated sense of entitlement,” but it went much deeper than that.
“But they don’t fully appreciate the convenience of it in their lives,” Professor Cain argued.
“Because it’s not a convenience to them,” I shot back, growing stronger. “It’s their normal, because their frame of reference is different than yours was growing up. And we’ll say it’s a convenience when our children have things we didn’t. But again, that won’t be a convenience to them, either. It will be their normal.”
Damon and Will remained unmoving at my side.
“And furthermore,” I went on, “this discussion isn’t useful, because it won’t change anything. You’re angry, because your generation has given mine advances in technology and then blame us for the altered reality? Where’s the accountability?”
Will breathed out a quiet laugh next to me, while the rest of the room, including Damon, sat silently, as if waiting for whatever was next.
Professor Cain peered up at me, narrowing his eyes as the heavy silence wrapped around the room like a rubber band, making it smaller and smaller and smaller.
I felt like everyone was looking at me.
But as I waited for my skin to heat up with shame, it didn’t. Instead, my skin buzzed with adrenaline, and I had to hold back a smile as I stared at the professor.
This feels good.
Maybe it was the bullshit with Damon and Will or the run-ins with Michael, but the end of my rope was in my hand, and I was grasping for threads. I just decided to let go.
I didn’t drop my eyes. I didn’t blush. I didn’t apologize.
I owned it.
Crossing my arms over my chest, I sat back.
“She asked you a question,” Damon spoke up, making Cain’s face fall.
I blinked in surprise. What was he doing?
But Cain didn’t respond, merely straightened his back and walked back around his desk.
“Let’s think about that for next time, everyone,” he called out, plastering a smile on his face for the class as he evaded the discussion. “And don’t forget the reading assignment posted on my website. Have that ready for Wednesday.”
The class began to rise, and I didn’t hesitate. I grabbed my iPad, hurrying to make my escape, but Damon stopped me, getting in my face as he rose from his seat.
“No one fucks with you but us,” he warned with a sinister smile.
And I steeled my jaw, stuffing my belongings in my bag and shooting out of my chair.
All that time away, everything they’d lost, and this is what they indulge in when they come back? Me?
I slung my bag over my shoulder and glared at him. “Your sense of humor sucks,” I gritted out in an angry whisper. “It’s a little early for Devil’s Night pranks. If you ever threaten my mother again, even if it’s just joking, I’ll call the police.”
I turned to leave, but he hooked the back of my neck, and I came crashing into his chest. I gasped, my breaths shaking as students continued to filter out, seeming oblivious to what was happening.
“Who said I was kidding?” he whispered against my cheekbone.
I felt a body press into my back, and I knew it was Will caging me in.
I looked up at Damon, hardening my gaze. “What do you want?” I challenged. “Huh?”
He licked his lips, and I felt Will’s breath on my neck.
“Whatever it is,” he taunted, “I think I’m getting it.”
But I shook my head, feigning boredom. “A child can pick the legs off a spider,” I sneered. “What else you got?”
His eyes narrowed on me. “You’re going to be a lot of fun, Rika.”
He released me, and I immediately shoved him away, turning and pushing past Will. Hurrying up the stairs, I brushed past the other students to get away and barged out the door and into the hallway.
What the hell was going on?
WILL, KAI, AND DAMON WERE ALL OUT OF JAIL, all in Meridian City, and Will and Damon, at least, were seeking me out. Why?
Hadn’t they done enough damage three years ago? Hadn’t they learned their lesson then? They’d gotten what they deserved, and I couldn’t say I was sorry. They’d fucked up and they’d pissed me off, so any sympathy I mustered over the years for them was minimal.
I just wished they’d quit while they were ahead. They thought I was an easy target, and they mistook my quietness for weakness, but I was no longer their toy.
They needed to move on.
I didn’t have any more classes today, so I bolted from campus and rushed across the Commons to my apartment a few blocks down the busy city street.
Walking into Delcour, I spotted Alex, the girl from class and the other night, waiting at the elevator.
“Hey,” she greeted, turning to me and pushing her sunglasses up to the top of her head. “Are you okay?”
She must be asking because of Damon and Will.
I smiled weakly, hooding my eyes. “I think so. I used to go to school with them and be so curious about who they were. Now I just wish I was invisible to them again.”
I turned my eyes, seeing the blue lights of the elevator descending.
“Well, I don’t know Damon and Will all that well,” she stated, “but I can promise you, you were never invisible to them.”
And I shot her a look, seeing her eyes scale down my body.
She knew them?
Well, I guess that made sense. If she was seeing Michael, she would’ve met his friends, I suppose.
“But they don’t fully appreciate the convenience of it in their lives,” Professor Cain argued.
“Because it’s not a convenience to them,” I shot back, growing stronger. “It’s their normal, because their frame of reference is different than yours was growing up. And we’ll say it’s a convenience when our children have things we didn’t. But again, that won’t be a convenience to them, either. It will be their normal.”
Damon and Will remained unmoving at my side.
“And furthermore,” I went on, “this discussion isn’t useful, because it won’t change anything. You’re angry, because your generation has given mine advances in technology and then blame us for the altered reality? Where’s the accountability?”
Will breathed out a quiet laugh next to me, while the rest of the room, including Damon, sat silently, as if waiting for whatever was next.
Professor Cain peered up at me, narrowing his eyes as the heavy silence wrapped around the room like a rubber band, making it smaller and smaller and smaller.
I felt like everyone was looking at me.
But as I waited for my skin to heat up with shame, it didn’t. Instead, my skin buzzed with adrenaline, and I had to hold back a smile as I stared at the professor.
This feels good.
Maybe it was the bullshit with Damon and Will or the run-ins with Michael, but the end of my rope was in my hand, and I was grasping for threads. I just decided to let go.
I didn’t drop my eyes. I didn’t blush. I didn’t apologize.
I owned it.
Crossing my arms over my chest, I sat back.
“She asked you a question,” Damon spoke up, making Cain’s face fall.
I blinked in surprise. What was he doing?
But Cain didn’t respond, merely straightened his back and walked back around his desk.
“Let’s think about that for next time, everyone,” he called out, plastering a smile on his face for the class as he evaded the discussion. “And don’t forget the reading assignment posted on my website. Have that ready for Wednesday.”
The class began to rise, and I didn’t hesitate. I grabbed my iPad, hurrying to make my escape, but Damon stopped me, getting in my face as he rose from his seat.
“No one fucks with you but us,” he warned with a sinister smile.
And I steeled my jaw, stuffing my belongings in my bag and shooting out of my chair.
All that time away, everything they’d lost, and this is what they indulge in when they come back? Me?
I slung my bag over my shoulder and glared at him. “Your sense of humor sucks,” I gritted out in an angry whisper. “It’s a little early for Devil’s Night pranks. If you ever threaten my mother again, even if it’s just joking, I’ll call the police.”
I turned to leave, but he hooked the back of my neck, and I came crashing into his chest. I gasped, my breaths shaking as students continued to filter out, seeming oblivious to what was happening.
“Who said I was kidding?” he whispered against my cheekbone.
I felt a body press into my back, and I knew it was Will caging me in.
I looked up at Damon, hardening my gaze. “What do you want?” I challenged. “Huh?”
He licked his lips, and I felt Will’s breath on my neck.
“Whatever it is,” he taunted, “I think I’m getting it.”
But I shook my head, feigning boredom. “A child can pick the legs off a spider,” I sneered. “What else you got?”
His eyes narrowed on me. “You’re going to be a lot of fun, Rika.”
He released me, and I immediately shoved him away, turning and pushing past Will. Hurrying up the stairs, I brushed past the other students to get away and barged out the door and into the hallway.
What the hell was going on?
WILL, KAI, AND DAMON WERE ALL OUT OF JAIL, all in Meridian City, and Will and Damon, at least, were seeking me out. Why?
Hadn’t they done enough damage three years ago? Hadn’t they learned their lesson then? They’d gotten what they deserved, and I couldn’t say I was sorry. They’d fucked up and they’d pissed me off, so any sympathy I mustered over the years for them was minimal.
I just wished they’d quit while they were ahead. They thought I was an easy target, and they mistook my quietness for weakness, but I was no longer their toy.
They needed to move on.
I didn’t have any more classes today, so I bolted from campus and rushed across the Commons to my apartment a few blocks down the busy city street.
Walking into Delcour, I spotted Alex, the girl from class and the other night, waiting at the elevator.
“Hey,” she greeted, turning to me and pushing her sunglasses up to the top of her head. “Are you okay?”
She must be asking because of Damon and Will.
I smiled weakly, hooding my eyes. “I think so. I used to go to school with them and be so curious about who they were. Now I just wish I was invisible to them again.”
I turned my eyes, seeing the blue lights of the elevator descending.
“Well, I don’t know Damon and Will all that well,” she stated, “but I can promise you, you were never invisible to them.”
And I shot her a look, seeing her eyes scale down my body.
She knew them?
Well, I guess that made sense. If she was seeing Michael, she would’ve met his friends, I suppose.
