Darkness, Kindled
Page 57
She was alone now with Jai. She stood by the end of the bed, gazing at him in heartbreak, his eyes dark with rage and denial. “We have to leave,” he suddenly said, his voice different, thick and hostile.
Ari shook her head. “Jai, they’ll kill you.”
“Do you want to marry him?” he asked hoarsely, his eyes flashing as he strode toward her. He gripped her upper arms and gave her a little shake, causing her to gasp and reach for him. “Do you want to spend your life in his harem? Bending to his every whim? His every whim, Ari? You’ll be his bride. You’ll be in his bed.” Jai’s grip grew more painful. “Do you want me to just stand by and let that happen?”
“Jai …” The tears spilled over her lids now and she blindly reached for him, trying to soothe him. “Stop …”
His breath shuddered as he pulled her closer, his voice choked with emotion. “We’ll never see each other again.”
He ducked his head so their faces were inches apart and for the first time ever, she saw tears shimmering in Jai Bitar’s eyes. It killed her. An anguished sob broke between her lips. “I can’t live without you.”
She fell against him and his arms came around her tight as she cried her heartache into his body, his own still trembling. Slowly, their knees gave out and they sat together on the floor, clinging onto one another in desperation.
Hours seemed to pass before Jai finally placed fingers gently to her chin and lifted her head to stare into her eyes. “I’d die so you wouldn’t end up in his hands.”
She shook her head, everything hurting, even her gums. “I’m going to end up in his hands no matter what, and he was right. I’ll only be able to survive it if I know that you’re out there somewhere and that you’re okay.”
“Why aren’t you fighting this?” Jai asked roughly. “You’ve fought everything. Why not this?”
“Because,” she sniffed, brushing frantically at tears that wouldn’t stop flowing, “you didn’t see him when he killed Lilif. It destroyed any little piece of light that was left in him, and all that darkness, all that darkness in him is directed at me. He’s got Azazil on his side, Jai. The Sultan. There’s nowhere we could go to escape that. The last time they wanted something from me, they got it—the Seal. There was nothing I could do to stop Asmodeus punching a hole in my chest. The only thing I had left was bargain. I bargained for a favor. Well, this time you are my bargain. If I do this willingly, he’ll let you live.”
“Not without first making me watch the moment I lose the woman I love forever.”
“Jai—”
“I’m not giving in!” he roared, standing, glaring down at her, his chest heaving with passion. “There has to be a way!”
“Jai—”
“I’ll fight him for you.”
Ari stood up slowly, her expression aghast. “You can’t be serious.”
“Would you die for me?” She stared at him in silent panic. He knew she would, but she couldn’t admit it and strengthen his argument. “Ari, would you die for me?”
She closed her eyes and two more tears slipped down her cheeks.
“Ari?”
Stop.
“Would you die for me?”
“Yes.” As soon as she uttered the word, she knew there would be no talking Jai out of it. Although it killed her to do it, she called in help.
Red, I need you to come take Jai. I need you to watch over him until this is all over so he doesn’t do anything to get himself killed.
The last word was barely sent when the flames flickered into the room. Red and Glass stepped out of the Peripatos and immediately took hold of a surprised Jai.
“What the hell are you doing?” he bit out, struggling against their grip. His eyes flew to Ari. “What are you doing?”
Ari hurried over to him and ignoring her uncles, she stood on tiptoes and pressed a hard kiss filled with longing against Jai’s mouth. When she pulled back, his expression had dimmed from rage to desolation. “I won’t let you die for me.”
She turned, closing her eyes and cradling her chest as if she could somehow contain the pieces of her broken heart. Red and Glass removed Jai from the room, his shouts for her echoing in her ears.
24
Blood Brothers
He wasn’t allowed even an inch of space to breathe.
Jai bowed his head, knees drawn up, hands dangling uselessly over them. The Red King was sitting in a similar position, their backs to the wall of Red’s chamber in Azazil’s palace. Red was almost pressed up against him, close in case Jai decided to do something stupid like attempt to use the Peripatos to get to Ari and to get off Mount Qaf.
Jai warred with himself. He wasn’t the type of guy who could sit and do nothing, but he knew if he did anything, it would end in his death and Ari would blame herself. His throat burned and drew tight, and for a moment he fought to breathe.
Red sighed beside him. “I cannot make you any promises this won’t go ahead, Jai. But I can tell you, while I stay here with you, Glass is out there and he is trying.”
“Why?” Jai asked bitterly. “Really?
Why have you allied yourself with us? And why should I believe it?”
“I’ll try not to let that piss me off,” Red replied with an edge in his tone, “since I know you’re going through something right now.”
“Didn’t answer my question.”
Red sighed again. “I am loyal to my father, Jai, because of who he is, and because in the grand scheme of things, he will always try to protect these worlds and the balance. I am loyal to Glass, because we have proven ourselves to each other. We know that neither one of us would betray the other, to anyone, not even to Father. And I find I am loyal to Ari because even after everything, even after my deceit, she threw herself in front of my mother’s attack to save me. She has proven herself my ally.
I am loyal to her, and since there is nothing in these worlds that means more to her than you, I am consequently loyal to you too.”
Jai found a small amount of relief in that. He turned to Red, and although the words killed him to form, he asked, “If we can’t get her out of this, will you still watch over her? Make sure he doesn’t hurt her?”
Something flashed in Red’s eyes and Jai finally saw for himself Red’s loyalty and affection for Ari. He hated the thought of her with Asmodeus almost as much as Jai did. “I will protect her if it comes to that. And if it doesn’t … I will still make sure she is protected.”
Ari shook her head. “Jai, they’ll kill you.”
“Do you want to marry him?” he asked hoarsely, his eyes flashing as he strode toward her. He gripped her upper arms and gave her a little shake, causing her to gasp and reach for him. “Do you want to spend your life in his harem? Bending to his every whim? His every whim, Ari? You’ll be his bride. You’ll be in his bed.” Jai’s grip grew more painful. “Do you want me to just stand by and let that happen?”
“Jai …” The tears spilled over her lids now and she blindly reached for him, trying to soothe him. “Stop …”
His breath shuddered as he pulled her closer, his voice choked with emotion. “We’ll never see each other again.”
He ducked his head so their faces were inches apart and for the first time ever, she saw tears shimmering in Jai Bitar’s eyes. It killed her. An anguished sob broke between her lips. “I can’t live without you.”
She fell against him and his arms came around her tight as she cried her heartache into his body, his own still trembling. Slowly, their knees gave out and they sat together on the floor, clinging onto one another in desperation.
Hours seemed to pass before Jai finally placed fingers gently to her chin and lifted her head to stare into her eyes. “I’d die so you wouldn’t end up in his hands.”
She shook her head, everything hurting, even her gums. “I’m going to end up in his hands no matter what, and he was right. I’ll only be able to survive it if I know that you’re out there somewhere and that you’re okay.”
“Why aren’t you fighting this?” Jai asked roughly. “You’ve fought everything. Why not this?”
“Because,” she sniffed, brushing frantically at tears that wouldn’t stop flowing, “you didn’t see him when he killed Lilif. It destroyed any little piece of light that was left in him, and all that darkness, all that darkness in him is directed at me. He’s got Azazil on his side, Jai. The Sultan. There’s nowhere we could go to escape that. The last time they wanted something from me, they got it—the Seal. There was nothing I could do to stop Asmodeus punching a hole in my chest. The only thing I had left was bargain. I bargained for a favor. Well, this time you are my bargain. If I do this willingly, he’ll let you live.”
“Not without first making me watch the moment I lose the woman I love forever.”
“Jai—”
“I’m not giving in!” he roared, standing, glaring down at her, his chest heaving with passion. “There has to be a way!”
“Jai—”
“I’ll fight him for you.”
Ari stood up slowly, her expression aghast. “You can’t be serious.”
“Would you die for me?” She stared at him in silent panic. He knew she would, but she couldn’t admit it and strengthen his argument. “Ari, would you die for me?”
She closed her eyes and two more tears slipped down her cheeks.
“Ari?”
Stop.
“Would you die for me?”
“Yes.” As soon as she uttered the word, she knew there would be no talking Jai out of it. Although it killed her to do it, she called in help.
Red, I need you to come take Jai. I need you to watch over him until this is all over so he doesn’t do anything to get himself killed.
The last word was barely sent when the flames flickered into the room. Red and Glass stepped out of the Peripatos and immediately took hold of a surprised Jai.
“What the hell are you doing?” he bit out, struggling against their grip. His eyes flew to Ari. “What are you doing?”
Ari hurried over to him and ignoring her uncles, she stood on tiptoes and pressed a hard kiss filled with longing against Jai’s mouth. When she pulled back, his expression had dimmed from rage to desolation. “I won’t let you die for me.”
She turned, closing her eyes and cradling her chest as if she could somehow contain the pieces of her broken heart. Red and Glass removed Jai from the room, his shouts for her echoing in her ears.
24
Blood Brothers
He wasn’t allowed even an inch of space to breathe.
Jai bowed his head, knees drawn up, hands dangling uselessly over them. The Red King was sitting in a similar position, their backs to the wall of Red’s chamber in Azazil’s palace. Red was almost pressed up against him, close in case Jai decided to do something stupid like attempt to use the Peripatos to get to Ari and to get off Mount Qaf.
Jai warred with himself. He wasn’t the type of guy who could sit and do nothing, but he knew if he did anything, it would end in his death and Ari would blame herself. His throat burned and drew tight, and for a moment he fought to breathe.
Red sighed beside him. “I cannot make you any promises this won’t go ahead, Jai. But I can tell you, while I stay here with you, Glass is out there and he is trying.”
“Why?” Jai asked bitterly. “Really?
Why have you allied yourself with us? And why should I believe it?”
“I’ll try not to let that piss me off,” Red replied with an edge in his tone, “since I know you’re going through something right now.”
“Didn’t answer my question.”
Red sighed again. “I am loyal to my father, Jai, because of who he is, and because in the grand scheme of things, he will always try to protect these worlds and the balance. I am loyal to Glass, because we have proven ourselves to each other. We know that neither one of us would betray the other, to anyone, not even to Father. And I find I am loyal to Ari because even after everything, even after my deceit, she threw herself in front of my mother’s attack to save me. She has proven herself my ally.
I am loyal to her, and since there is nothing in these worlds that means more to her than you, I am consequently loyal to you too.”
Jai found a small amount of relief in that. He turned to Red, and although the words killed him to form, he asked, “If we can’t get her out of this, will you still watch over her? Make sure he doesn’t hurt her?”
Something flashed in Red’s eyes and Jai finally saw for himself Red’s loyalty and affection for Ari. He hated the thought of her with Asmodeus almost as much as Jai did. “I will protect her if it comes to that. And if it doesn’t … I will still make sure she is protected.”
