Fate and Fury
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You still are love, he told her gently. I would remember if we had indulged in something that is bound to be amazing.
Sally shook her head, frustrated that he didnt understand.
No, it wasnt you. Someone else did it, Costin, and I couldnt stop him. I tried, I promise.
I know baby, but that wasnt real. It didnt really happen.
She continued as if she hadnt heard him. Thats not the worst part, oh god, thats not the worst. Tears flooded her eyes and sobs broke through her chest. She reached for him, though she knew she had no right to. Not any more.
I She tried to tell him but she couldnt. Shame washed over her and so she showed him instead. She buried her face in his neck and played the images for him of the things she had endured, the things she had done. Her body shook and she bit her bottom lip to keep from crying out.
Costin wrapped his arms around Sally and pulled her onto his lap. He saw the things in Sallys mind that she believed had happened. Costin wouldnt lie and say that it didnt make him angry, but not for the reason Sally thought. It made Costin angry, because it took something that was to be special and beautiful for her and cheapened it; stole it from her, making her think that she had cheated on him. Costin had endured the same images in the In-Between and he had prayed that he would be able to keep those images from her, to keep her safe. Yet, here she sat utterly devastated.
He didnt know what to do. She wouldnt believe his words. He could see the ferocious determination to push him away because she thought she no longer deserved him, that she wasnt worthy of him. It was ridiculous; if anyone wasnt worthy, it was him. Sally was his precious and amazing Sally, with a heart of gold and a gentle spirit.
I love you, he told her and she shook harder, but he wasnt going to stop, not until she understood with absolute certainty that he was not leaving her.
I love you Sally. I love you and Im not leaving. He pulled back so that he could wipe the tears from her cheeks. She fought him, but he was stronger. He held her shoulders still and looked at her.
Im going to kiss you now; do not fight me.
Sally tried to shake her head, but Costin wrapped his hand around the nape of her neck and held her still. She refused to open her mouth and Costin nipped her lips in admonishment.
Open your mouth, Sally. His voice was a deep, husky whisper in her mind, it made her shutter, and for a moment, she forgot her pain and fear. She opened her mouth and when their tongues met, she moaned. And, just like that, the sound brought an image to her that made her want to vomit. She tried to pull away, but Costin refused to let her go. He continued to kiss her and Sally gasped when she saw the images in hismind.
Costin decided the only way to fight Sallys mind was to give her something else to think about.
Let me replace those images Sally mine. Those were false things, lies that never happened. No one has touched you intimitley. No other has kissed you as I do and nobody has taken what is so precious to us both. They are lies that were put in your head by a spell. When we are married I will replace those with something real. He didnt wait for a response. He continued to kiss her as he laid her back on the bed. He blanketed her with his body, putting just enough weight on her to make her think about him. Costin moved from her lips across her jaw line. She tilted her head back, giving him access to her throat and he took advantage of it. He kissed her, nipped her gently with his teeth. He made his way across her neck until his lips hovered over his mark.
Im going to bite you, I dont want you to be alarmed, he told her softly. She nodded slowly as she drowned in the feel of his body, the touch of his hands and the caress of his lips. Costin wrapped his hand around her neck so that she wouldnt jump and make him accidentally tear into her soft flesh. He tilted her head back and sunk his teeth deep into her neck. Her blood filled his mouth and he felt his wolf howl in victory. They had their mate back; she was in their arms where she belonged. Costins other hand slipped under the back of her shirt meeting flesh with flesh and his wolf took comfort in the touch. He pulled his teeth back, licked the wound. He felt the rightness in the act and felt his heart flood with love for the woman before him.
Sally, he groaned her name as he kissed down her collar bone, and then pulled back to look at her. As he stared into her eyes, he shared with her his desire, his passion, and need for her. He knew she wanted to wait until they were married to mate, and he would honor her wishes. He hoped once they were married and mated that every time he touched her, she wouldnt have the memory of what the curse had shown to her popping up. So, he vowed that once she was his wife was going to make sure that a mere touch from him would flood her mind with the desire that he alone could unleash on her.
Do you see how much I love you, how much I want you? Costin asked her, gently.
She nodded against his chest. Costin rolled onto his side and pulled her with him. He wrapped his arm around her, keeping his hand up under the back of her shirt. His fingers traced the markings he knew traveled the length of her spine, markings that matched his exactly. He kissed her hair and pulled her tighter against him when she shivered.
Costin?
Yes?
I love you. Sally clung to his shirt as she pressed her face against him and breathed his scent in. Breath after breath she began to calm, and she relaxed against him.
Sally shook her head, frustrated that he didnt understand.
No, it wasnt you. Someone else did it, Costin, and I couldnt stop him. I tried, I promise.
I know baby, but that wasnt real. It didnt really happen.
She continued as if she hadnt heard him. Thats not the worst part, oh god, thats not the worst. Tears flooded her eyes and sobs broke through her chest. She reached for him, though she knew she had no right to. Not any more.
I She tried to tell him but she couldnt. Shame washed over her and so she showed him instead. She buried her face in his neck and played the images for him of the things she had endured, the things she had done. Her body shook and she bit her bottom lip to keep from crying out.
Costin wrapped his arms around Sally and pulled her onto his lap. He saw the things in Sallys mind that she believed had happened. Costin wouldnt lie and say that it didnt make him angry, but not for the reason Sally thought. It made Costin angry, because it took something that was to be special and beautiful for her and cheapened it; stole it from her, making her think that she had cheated on him. Costin had endured the same images in the In-Between and he had prayed that he would be able to keep those images from her, to keep her safe. Yet, here she sat utterly devastated.
He didnt know what to do. She wouldnt believe his words. He could see the ferocious determination to push him away because she thought she no longer deserved him, that she wasnt worthy of him. It was ridiculous; if anyone wasnt worthy, it was him. Sally was his precious and amazing Sally, with a heart of gold and a gentle spirit.
I love you, he told her and she shook harder, but he wasnt going to stop, not until she understood with absolute certainty that he was not leaving her.
I love you Sally. I love you and Im not leaving. He pulled back so that he could wipe the tears from her cheeks. She fought him, but he was stronger. He held her shoulders still and looked at her.
Im going to kiss you now; do not fight me.
Sally tried to shake her head, but Costin wrapped his hand around the nape of her neck and held her still. She refused to open her mouth and Costin nipped her lips in admonishment.
Open your mouth, Sally. His voice was a deep, husky whisper in her mind, it made her shutter, and for a moment, she forgot her pain and fear. She opened her mouth and when their tongues met, she moaned. And, just like that, the sound brought an image to her that made her want to vomit. She tried to pull away, but Costin refused to let her go. He continued to kiss her and Sally gasped when she saw the images in hismind.
Costin decided the only way to fight Sallys mind was to give her something else to think about.
Let me replace those images Sally mine. Those were false things, lies that never happened. No one has touched you intimitley. No other has kissed you as I do and nobody has taken what is so precious to us both. They are lies that were put in your head by a spell. When we are married I will replace those with something real. He didnt wait for a response. He continued to kiss her as he laid her back on the bed. He blanketed her with his body, putting just enough weight on her to make her think about him. Costin moved from her lips across her jaw line. She tilted her head back, giving him access to her throat and he took advantage of it. He kissed her, nipped her gently with his teeth. He made his way across her neck until his lips hovered over his mark.
Im going to bite you, I dont want you to be alarmed, he told her softly. She nodded slowly as she drowned in the feel of his body, the touch of his hands and the caress of his lips. Costin wrapped his hand around her neck so that she wouldnt jump and make him accidentally tear into her soft flesh. He tilted her head back and sunk his teeth deep into her neck. Her blood filled his mouth and he felt his wolf howl in victory. They had their mate back; she was in their arms where she belonged. Costins other hand slipped under the back of her shirt meeting flesh with flesh and his wolf took comfort in the touch. He pulled his teeth back, licked the wound. He felt the rightness in the act and felt his heart flood with love for the woman before him.
Sally, he groaned her name as he kissed down her collar bone, and then pulled back to look at her. As he stared into her eyes, he shared with her his desire, his passion, and need for her. He knew she wanted to wait until they were married to mate, and he would honor her wishes. He hoped once they were married and mated that every time he touched her, she wouldnt have the memory of what the curse had shown to her popping up. So, he vowed that once she was his wife was going to make sure that a mere touch from him would flood her mind with the desire that he alone could unleash on her.
Do you see how much I love you, how much I want you? Costin asked her, gently.
She nodded against his chest. Costin rolled onto his side and pulled her with him. He wrapped his arm around her, keeping his hand up under the back of her shirt. His fingers traced the markings he knew traveled the length of her spine, markings that matched his exactly. He kissed her hair and pulled her tighter against him when she shivered.
Costin?
Yes?
I love you. Sally clung to his shirt as she pressed her face against him and breathed his scent in. Breath after breath she began to calm, and she relaxed against him.
