Fate and Fury
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Lilly knew he was asking about Jacque and it warmed her heart that he wanted to know about the most important person in her life.
She is full of life. Shes got a smart mouth on her; shes stubborn, beautiful, and loves with her whole heart.
Sounds like someone I know, Cypher told her, as he kissed her forehead.
Were alike in a lot of ways, Lilly agreed. But, shes better than I am and Im glad for that. No parent wants their child to inherit their faults or make their mistakes.
What mistakes have you made Lilly? What deep secrets does your heart hold?
Lilly considered whether she should tell him about Dillon, about how Jacque came to be a part of this world.
Havent you wondered how it is that Jacque is mated to a werewolf? She asked him.
He nodded. Yes, Ive wondered, but I figured you would tell me when you were ready. He paused. Are you ready?
She shrugged. Its not like we have anything better to do.
Cypher tightened his hold on her and kissed her neck, I love hearing your voice, but Im sure I can find something to do that I would love just as equally as listening to you.
Lilly laughed. Im sure you could.
Sooo, he prompted.
I fell in love when I was young. He was handsome, fun, and not human. Within days of meeting him, my heart was his. For as long as I can remember, Ive always possessed what I considered to be some sort of sixth sense. It doesnt always happen, but sometimes I just feel like I know something about a person and that was how I felt about Dillon. I knew something was very different about him. When I confronted him about it, he told me what he was. At first, I was a little freaked, but then I saw that he was still the man I loved. What I was not prepared for was when he told me that I was not his true mate.
How were you together if you werent his mate? Cypher asked, gruffly.
He loved me. He told me that there was a possibility that one day he would meet his true mate and if he did, he would have no choice but to go, that his soul would cry out for her. At the time, I didnt care; I just wanted to be with him. Time went on, things were good, and then the impossible happened. I got pregnant. Canis lupuses have a very hard time conceiving with each other, to conceive with a human was unheard of. As soon as I found out, I rushed home to tell him. I walked in, ready to share the good news, only to find a note with my name on it and all traces of Dillon were gone.
Cypher stroked her hair as he felt the heart that, though mended now, remembered a time when it had broken.
I never tried to find him. He didnt know he had a daughter until this year. Jacque didnt know anythingabout her father or what he was until Fane came to Coldspring and claimed her as his mate.
So, you have seen Dillon recently? Cypher asked, and Lilly could tell he wasnt happy about it.
Yes.
Do you still love him?
Not the way that you think. I love him, because he gave me Jacque.
Cypher tried not to be jealous, but the idea of his mate with another man was not sitting well with him, even if it had happened so many years ago.
Lilly felt Cyphers arms tense up. She looked up into his face and saw anger and possessiveness in his eyes.
Talk to me Cypher, she said to him, gently.
I dont want to share your heart, he told her, honestly.
You will always have to share my heart. Jacque holds a big chunk of it.
Cypher shook his head. Thats not what I meant. I expect to share with her and Im happy to do so, but I hate that he held it at one time. Cypher closed his eyes and tried to sort through his emotions before he continued. I dont want to sound like a petulant child, but I want you to be all mine.
I am all yours, Cypher, or at least thats the direction we are headed, but you have a past as well. If I remember correctly on a certain night when you held me in bed I asked you if you had been with a woman and you said yes.
None that I have loved, none that have ever had any hold on me, Cypher argued.
They had to have held something sweetie, for you to be in their bed. Lilly snorted at her own joke, but noticed that Cypher didnt find the humor in it.
That was a good one; you have to at least give me a little credit.
He growled. It was crude.
Yes, well so was the act of you sleeping with women solely for gratification, but then it happened right? She shot back.
Are you jealous little one? He asked with a gleam in his eyes.
No, she answered, in a clipped tone.
Cypher pulled her against his chest and put his mouth directly next to her ear. Since the moment I laid eyes on you I have forgotten any other woman who has crossed my path.
And your bed? Lilly asked.
In my mind, there is only you, Lilly. All I see is your face all I want is you. You are right we both have a past. I will try not to let your past make me into a jealous fool.
So, when you meet Dillon, you will be nice? She asked, cautiously.
Why would I meet Dillon? He asked.
Because he is Jacques father and if you are my She stumbled for words because she still wasnt sure what to call him.
She is full of life. Shes got a smart mouth on her; shes stubborn, beautiful, and loves with her whole heart.
Sounds like someone I know, Cypher told her, as he kissed her forehead.
Were alike in a lot of ways, Lilly agreed. But, shes better than I am and Im glad for that. No parent wants their child to inherit their faults or make their mistakes.
What mistakes have you made Lilly? What deep secrets does your heart hold?
Lilly considered whether she should tell him about Dillon, about how Jacque came to be a part of this world.
Havent you wondered how it is that Jacque is mated to a werewolf? She asked him.
He nodded. Yes, Ive wondered, but I figured you would tell me when you were ready. He paused. Are you ready?
She shrugged. Its not like we have anything better to do.
Cypher tightened his hold on her and kissed her neck, I love hearing your voice, but Im sure I can find something to do that I would love just as equally as listening to you.
Lilly laughed. Im sure you could.
Sooo, he prompted.
I fell in love when I was young. He was handsome, fun, and not human. Within days of meeting him, my heart was his. For as long as I can remember, Ive always possessed what I considered to be some sort of sixth sense. It doesnt always happen, but sometimes I just feel like I know something about a person and that was how I felt about Dillon. I knew something was very different about him. When I confronted him about it, he told me what he was. At first, I was a little freaked, but then I saw that he was still the man I loved. What I was not prepared for was when he told me that I was not his true mate.
How were you together if you werent his mate? Cypher asked, gruffly.
He loved me. He told me that there was a possibility that one day he would meet his true mate and if he did, he would have no choice but to go, that his soul would cry out for her. At the time, I didnt care; I just wanted to be with him. Time went on, things were good, and then the impossible happened. I got pregnant. Canis lupuses have a very hard time conceiving with each other, to conceive with a human was unheard of. As soon as I found out, I rushed home to tell him. I walked in, ready to share the good news, only to find a note with my name on it and all traces of Dillon were gone.
Cypher stroked her hair as he felt the heart that, though mended now, remembered a time when it had broken.
I never tried to find him. He didnt know he had a daughter until this year. Jacque didnt know anythingabout her father or what he was until Fane came to Coldspring and claimed her as his mate.
So, you have seen Dillon recently? Cypher asked, and Lilly could tell he wasnt happy about it.
Yes.
Do you still love him?
Not the way that you think. I love him, because he gave me Jacque.
Cypher tried not to be jealous, but the idea of his mate with another man was not sitting well with him, even if it had happened so many years ago.
Lilly felt Cyphers arms tense up. She looked up into his face and saw anger and possessiveness in his eyes.
Talk to me Cypher, she said to him, gently.
I dont want to share your heart, he told her, honestly.
You will always have to share my heart. Jacque holds a big chunk of it.
Cypher shook his head. Thats not what I meant. I expect to share with her and Im happy to do so, but I hate that he held it at one time. Cypher closed his eyes and tried to sort through his emotions before he continued. I dont want to sound like a petulant child, but I want you to be all mine.
I am all yours, Cypher, or at least thats the direction we are headed, but you have a past as well. If I remember correctly on a certain night when you held me in bed I asked you if you had been with a woman and you said yes.
None that I have loved, none that have ever had any hold on me, Cypher argued.
They had to have held something sweetie, for you to be in their bed. Lilly snorted at her own joke, but noticed that Cypher didnt find the humor in it.
That was a good one; you have to at least give me a little credit.
He growled. It was crude.
Yes, well so was the act of you sleeping with women solely for gratification, but then it happened right? She shot back.
Are you jealous little one? He asked with a gleam in his eyes.
No, she answered, in a clipped tone.
Cypher pulled her against his chest and put his mouth directly next to her ear. Since the moment I laid eyes on you I have forgotten any other woman who has crossed my path.
And your bed? Lilly asked.
In my mind, there is only you, Lilly. All I see is your face all I want is you. You are right we both have a past. I will try not to let your past make me into a jealous fool.
So, when you meet Dillon, you will be nice? She asked, cautiously.
Why would I meet Dillon? He asked.
Because he is Jacques father and if you are my She stumbled for words because she still wasnt sure what to call him.
