Fisher's Light
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I should be afraid of the manic look I saw in his eyes when he charged across the room or worried that he hasn’t spoken a single word. Something about this is extremely different than all of his other homecomings, and I should probably be a little wary of this man who’s not behaving at all like my Fisher.
But I’m not.
“I missed you so much,” I whisper as his hands roughly yank my yoga pants and underwear down my thighs.
I’m not afraid, I’m turned on, more than I ever have been in my entire life. Aside from the sixteen months without sex, there’s something about this that excites me and makes me wet. I want whatever he’s going to give me and I want it now.
I hear the rustle of his pants being pushed down and I know I should try to speak again, try to make my voice louder so he’ll hear me, slow down, let me touch him and calm whatever storm I feel is brewing in this kitchen right now, but I don’t want to. I want the thunder and lightning, I want the crash of the storm and I want whatever destruction it will leave behind.
I don’t have time to prepare or even think of something else to say before the shock of him slamming inside of me steals the breath from my lungs. He clutches onto my hips and I brace my hands against the wall as he pounds into me without a word or a sound. I was wet for him as soon as he stalked across the room to me, but I still feel a sting of pain after having gone so long without him inside of me. It’s delicious and perfect. The pain reminds me that he’s here, he’s alive and he’s home. He’s inside of me where I’ve needed him for sixteen long months and I never want him to stop.
He thrusts into me roughly and his hips slam against my ass each time. My body smacks into the wall with each hard drive of his cock inside of me, and I can already feel bruises forming on my hips from how hard he’s holding onto me so he can move faster, go deeper, fill me completely.
His hot breath against the back of my neck is something I’ve dreamt about for sixteen months, something as familiar to me as my own reflection. Fisher feels the same and smells the same, but nothing about what is happening right now is anything like him. He’s different every time he comes back from the war, but this is like nothing he’s ever done before. He always talks to me when he gets home, says my name over and over, tells me how much he loves me and how much he missed me. He holds me and touches me lovingly and I always feel cherished. This time, I feel wanted. I feel craved and I feel needed. He’s taking me like an animal and I want more. I want it harder, I want it faster, I want to know without a shadow of a doubt that he’s been dreaming about this, dreaming about me while he’s been gone and needing me as much as I need him.
I arch my back and tilt my hips to meet each of his thrusts and pull him in deeper. I remove one of my hands from the wall and push it between my legs, sliding my fingers around where we’re joined and bringing the wetness up to circle around my clit. Bracing my feet against the floor so I don’t fall to the ground with the force of him fucking me, I rub my clit with the tips of my fingers. I want to moan and scream at how good it feels, but my breath gets caught in my throat each time he slams into me. I wish I could turn around and see him. He must look like a wild beast rutting against me, and as crude as that sounds, that knowledge makes my sex throb and causes my orgasm to explode out of me in a rush of heat and pleasure. I come against my fingers with my face pressed against the wall while Fisher fucks the hell out of me. It’s not even fucking at this point, it’s taking. He’s taking me, he’s owning me and he’s punishing me with his body and his cock. I want the punishment. I want the pain. I want to hurt for all the months I forced myself to shut down and turn off my emotions so I wouldn’t go crazy with worry for him. I want to wake up tomorrow with pain between my thighs reminding me with every step I take that he kept his promise and he found his way back to me.
He’s unrelenting as he fucks me, never slowing down, never easing up. He’s racing to the finish line and I can feel the sweat dripping down his face and onto my shoulder. He slams into me roughly one last time before holding himself still while he comes inside of me.
We’ve barely spoken two words to each other in a month. I look at my husband across the dinner table and I feel like I’m looking at a stranger. This is my husband, my love, my Fisher. He’s the man who leaves me every once in a while, but always, always comes home to me. He loves me, he takes care of me and he does everything in his power to make me smile.
Except lately.
The last four weeks have been filled with one-word answers and grunts when I ask him a question. We’ve haven’t had sex since that night in the kitchen and every time I’ve tried to touch him, he gets up and leaves the room. I feel like I did something wrong, but I have no idea what it could be. I need to hear his voice, I need to know he’s still the same man who named all of my freckles, even though I hated it, and sings Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds in a loud, off key voice whenever he says my name. I won’t pretend to know what kind of demons he’s trying to chase away, and I won’t pretend to understand what’s going on in his mind. All I can do is let him know that I’m here and I’m not going anywhere.
I don’t say anything when I see him grab a beer from the fridge or pour a glass of whiskey from the cabinet above the dishes. It’s been happening more frequently during the day, but who am I to say something to him about it? He goes off to war, fights for our country and then he comes home to me and works his ass off around the inn. I can’t pick a fight with him just to get a reaction out of him, even though I want to. I want to see something spark behind his eyes instead of the cold, dead stare he seems to always have lately. I want to smack him across the face, push him so hard in the chest he stumbles. Something, ANYTHING to get some kind of emotion out of him. I want the man back who took me in the kitchen the night he came home. The man who needed me so much he couldn’t even say one word before he buried himself inside of me.
But I’m not.
“I missed you so much,” I whisper as his hands roughly yank my yoga pants and underwear down my thighs.
I’m not afraid, I’m turned on, more than I ever have been in my entire life. Aside from the sixteen months without sex, there’s something about this that excites me and makes me wet. I want whatever he’s going to give me and I want it now.
I hear the rustle of his pants being pushed down and I know I should try to speak again, try to make my voice louder so he’ll hear me, slow down, let me touch him and calm whatever storm I feel is brewing in this kitchen right now, but I don’t want to. I want the thunder and lightning, I want the crash of the storm and I want whatever destruction it will leave behind.
I don’t have time to prepare or even think of something else to say before the shock of him slamming inside of me steals the breath from my lungs. He clutches onto my hips and I brace my hands against the wall as he pounds into me without a word or a sound. I was wet for him as soon as he stalked across the room to me, but I still feel a sting of pain after having gone so long without him inside of me. It’s delicious and perfect. The pain reminds me that he’s here, he’s alive and he’s home. He’s inside of me where I’ve needed him for sixteen long months and I never want him to stop.
He thrusts into me roughly and his hips slam against my ass each time. My body smacks into the wall with each hard drive of his cock inside of me, and I can already feel bruises forming on my hips from how hard he’s holding onto me so he can move faster, go deeper, fill me completely.
His hot breath against the back of my neck is something I’ve dreamt about for sixteen months, something as familiar to me as my own reflection. Fisher feels the same and smells the same, but nothing about what is happening right now is anything like him. He’s different every time he comes back from the war, but this is like nothing he’s ever done before. He always talks to me when he gets home, says my name over and over, tells me how much he loves me and how much he missed me. He holds me and touches me lovingly and I always feel cherished. This time, I feel wanted. I feel craved and I feel needed. He’s taking me like an animal and I want more. I want it harder, I want it faster, I want to know without a shadow of a doubt that he’s been dreaming about this, dreaming about me while he’s been gone and needing me as much as I need him.
I arch my back and tilt my hips to meet each of his thrusts and pull him in deeper. I remove one of my hands from the wall and push it between my legs, sliding my fingers around where we’re joined and bringing the wetness up to circle around my clit. Bracing my feet against the floor so I don’t fall to the ground with the force of him fucking me, I rub my clit with the tips of my fingers. I want to moan and scream at how good it feels, but my breath gets caught in my throat each time he slams into me. I wish I could turn around and see him. He must look like a wild beast rutting against me, and as crude as that sounds, that knowledge makes my sex throb and causes my orgasm to explode out of me in a rush of heat and pleasure. I come against my fingers with my face pressed against the wall while Fisher fucks the hell out of me. It’s not even fucking at this point, it’s taking. He’s taking me, he’s owning me and he’s punishing me with his body and his cock. I want the punishment. I want the pain. I want to hurt for all the months I forced myself to shut down and turn off my emotions so I wouldn’t go crazy with worry for him. I want to wake up tomorrow with pain between my thighs reminding me with every step I take that he kept his promise and he found his way back to me.
He’s unrelenting as he fucks me, never slowing down, never easing up. He’s racing to the finish line and I can feel the sweat dripping down his face and onto my shoulder. He slams into me roughly one last time before holding himself still while he comes inside of me.
We’ve barely spoken two words to each other in a month. I look at my husband across the dinner table and I feel like I’m looking at a stranger. This is my husband, my love, my Fisher. He’s the man who leaves me every once in a while, but always, always comes home to me. He loves me, he takes care of me and he does everything in his power to make me smile.
Except lately.
The last four weeks have been filled with one-word answers and grunts when I ask him a question. We’ve haven’t had sex since that night in the kitchen and every time I’ve tried to touch him, he gets up and leaves the room. I feel like I did something wrong, but I have no idea what it could be. I need to hear his voice, I need to know he’s still the same man who named all of my freckles, even though I hated it, and sings Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds in a loud, off key voice whenever he says my name. I won’t pretend to know what kind of demons he’s trying to chase away, and I won’t pretend to understand what’s going on in his mind. All I can do is let him know that I’m here and I’m not going anywhere.
I don’t say anything when I see him grab a beer from the fridge or pour a glass of whiskey from the cabinet above the dishes. It’s been happening more frequently during the day, but who am I to say something to him about it? He goes off to war, fights for our country and then he comes home to me and works his ass off around the inn. I can’t pick a fight with him just to get a reaction out of him, even though I want to. I want to see something spark behind his eyes instead of the cold, dead stare he seems to always have lately. I want to smack him across the face, push him so hard in the chest he stumbles. Something, ANYTHING to get some kind of emotion out of him. I want the man back who took me in the kitchen the night he came home. The man who needed me so much he couldn’t even say one word before he buried himself inside of me.
