Forever Innocent
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I pushed away from the wall and hurried to my seat, trying not to look Gavin’s way. While the professor talked about supernovas, I tapped out an e-mail to Austin on my iPad. “Are you on campus today? I get out of Jacobs Hall at 10. Corabelle.”
I could feel Gavin’s eyes on me as I took notes and tried to focus, already regretting involving an innocent boy to make life easier for me. I stole a guilty glance down the row. Gavin was still watching, intense and brooding. His eyes dropped to the strap of my tank top, and I knew he was remembering the moment at the coffee shop.
Fire licked through me again, and I focused back on the screen. Gavin always had that effect on me.
After that first kissing session in my closet, we were crazy with it. Every chance we got, we pressed against each other feverishly. When a movie or television show showed a couple clutching each other, we’d stop everything to pay attention, only to act the scene out later in my room.
The first time Gavin touched me was completely by accident. I’d just started wearing training bras. He teased me about it and threatened to pop the elastic. When he reached for the back, I whirled around and his fingers grazed across my chest.
The touch had been so electric, I almost screamed. Gavin immediately backed away, sure he’d done something wrong. All I really wanted was for him to do it again.
A lot like now. The scene in the dish room had played over and over in my mind all night. Surely Gavin wasn’t the only way to feel so intense. I had always been too afraid of giving any other boy a chance.
My screen popped up with an e-mail notification. Austin. I kept my head down as I opened it. He didn’t have class, but he’d come down anyway. He lived close to campus.
So it was done. I’d engaged him, and I couldn’t just back away. This was for the best.
I suffered through the lecture, taking frenetic notes to avoid looking at Gavin. At last class ended and Jenny bounded over to me. “You haven’t asked me how I am!”
“Oh, that’s right! Star party! How did it go with Lumberjack?” From the corner of my eye I could see Gavin loading up his backpack. I wanted him long gone before I went outside and met up with Austin.
“He was a dream!” Jenny glanced over her shoulder. Robert stood talking to Amy and the third TA. Jenny pulled me toward the door. “I have to tell you about him!”
This would work. As long as Jenny and I were absorbed in a conversation, Gavin would pass on by and I could wait to go outside to meet Austin.
When we were out of earshot of the TAs, Jenny said, “I got him! We’re going out Saturday night!”
“That’s great. Is he okay with you being a student?”
“Rules are made to be broken. We’re discreet.”
Jenny was about as discreet as a fire truck. “You sure about that?”
She hugged her messenger bag to her chest. “Completely. After all the other students left the lab, we stayed up on the roof until midnight!”
“Wow.”
“He kisses just like Westley in The Princess Bride.”
“You kissed him already?”
“Of course!” Jenny slung her strap over her shoulder. “I’m not into taking things slow.” She threaded her arm around mine. “And based on the dish room, neither are you!”
The hall was clear, so I let her lead me down the steps.
“So what about the guy from the coffee shop? You seemed all serious coming from the alley with him despite serving up suds with hunk boy.” Jenny sighed. “I should have been taking notes from you.”
“Austin is meeting me here.”
Jenny halted by the door to the stairwell. “Seriously? Man-meat looked ready to kill him yesterday, and you’re putting them in the same zip code?”
“Gavin’s probably already halfway across town on his Harley by now.”
Jenny tugged on the handle to the stairs. “Your funeral. Or his.”
I winced at the word, refusing to let the image of a powder-blue casket stick in my mind. “It’ll be fine.”
Still, we took our time on the stairs, killing a few more minutes. “Let me scout ahead,” Jenny said. We walked down the hall and approached the main doors. “I’ll come back when the coast is clear.”
“Corabelle?”
I turned to the voice. Austin was coming down the hall.
“Hey,” I said, not sure at all I was doing the right thing. But I’d committed.
“Hey.” He reached out like he would take my hand, then pulled back, closing his fingers around the strap of his pack.
“So you said you live close?” I asked.
He nodded. “You want to go there?”
My face burned. “No! I — it was just conversation.”
Austin laughed a little. “I’m glad you wrote me. I’m glad I could come.”
A few other students passed by us, and we moved to a corner. I relaxed a little. Finally I’d do something like normal girls. Meet a regular guy, have a normal conversation, and just be another college student. This was going to be all right.
Chapter 14: Gavin
I didn’t really want to leave campus. I hung around the door, waiting on Corabelle, but she kept talking to that girl she worked with. Finally I gave up, heading to my Harley. But instead of driving off campus, I decided to go past the engineering building. Maybe I could convince her to take a ride with me.
Corabelle’s pinked-up friend was standing at the entrance, looking around.
I could feel Gavin’s eyes on me as I took notes and tried to focus, already regretting involving an innocent boy to make life easier for me. I stole a guilty glance down the row. Gavin was still watching, intense and brooding. His eyes dropped to the strap of my tank top, and I knew he was remembering the moment at the coffee shop.
Fire licked through me again, and I focused back on the screen. Gavin always had that effect on me.
After that first kissing session in my closet, we were crazy with it. Every chance we got, we pressed against each other feverishly. When a movie or television show showed a couple clutching each other, we’d stop everything to pay attention, only to act the scene out later in my room.
The first time Gavin touched me was completely by accident. I’d just started wearing training bras. He teased me about it and threatened to pop the elastic. When he reached for the back, I whirled around and his fingers grazed across my chest.
The touch had been so electric, I almost screamed. Gavin immediately backed away, sure he’d done something wrong. All I really wanted was for him to do it again.
A lot like now. The scene in the dish room had played over and over in my mind all night. Surely Gavin wasn’t the only way to feel so intense. I had always been too afraid of giving any other boy a chance.
My screen popped up with an e-mail notification. Austin. I kept my head down as I opened it. He didn’t have class, but he’d come down anyway. He lived close to campus.
So it was done. I’d engaged him, and I couldn’t just back away. This was for the best.
I suffered through the lecture, taking frenetic notes to avoid looking at Gavin. At last class ended and Jenny bounded over to me. “You haven’t asked me how I am!”
“Oh, that’s right! Star party! How did it go with Lumberjack?” From the corner of my eye I could see Gavin loading up his backpack. I wanted him long gone before I went outside and met up with Austin.
“He was a dream!” Jenny glanced over her shoulder. Robert stood talking to Amy and the third TA. Jenny pulled me toward the door. “I have to tell you about him!”
This would work. As long as Jenny and I were absorbed in a conversation, Gavin would pass on by and I could wait to go outside to meet Austin.
When we were out of earshot of the TAs, Jenny said, “I got him! We’re going out Saturday night!”
“That’s great. Is he okay with you being a student?”
“Rules are made to be broken. We’re discreet.”
Jenny was about as discreet as a fire truck. “You sure about that?”
She hugged her messenger bag to her chest. “Completely. After all the other students left the lab, we stayed up on the roof until midnight!”
“Wow.”
“He kisses just like Westley in The Princess Bride.”
“You kissed him already?”
“Of course!” Jenny slung her strap over her shoulder. “I’m not into taking things slow.” She threaded her arm around mine. “And based on the dish room, neither are you!”
The hall was clear, so I let her lead me down the steps.
“So what about the guy from the coffee shop? You seemed all serious coming from the alley with him despite serving up suds with hunk boy.” Jenny sighed. “I should have been taking notes from you.”
“Austin is meeting me here.”
Jenny halted by the door to the stairwell. “Seriously? Man-meat looked ready to kill him yesterday, and you’re putting them in the same zip code?”
“Gavin’s probably already halfway across town on his Harley by now.”
Jenny tugged on the handle to the stairs. “Your funeral. Or his.”
I winced at the word, refusing to let the image of a powder-blue casket stick in my mind. “It’ll be fine.”
Still, we took our time on the stairs, killing a few more minutes. “Let me scout ahead,” Jenny said. We walked down the hall and approached the main doors. “I’ll come back when the coast is clear.”
“Corabelle?”
I turned to the voice. Austin was coming down the hall.
“Hey,” I said, not sure at all I was doing the right thing. But I’d committed.
“Hey.” He reached out like he would take my hand, then pulled back, closing his fingers around the strap of his pack.
“So you said you live close?” I asked.
He nodded. “You want to go there?”
My face burned. “No! I — it was just conversation.”
Austin laughed a little. “I’m glad you wrote me. I’m glad I could come.”
A few other students passed by us, and we moved to a corner. I relaxed a little. Finally I’d do something like normal girls. Meet a regular guy, have a normal conversation, and just be another college student. This was going to be all right.
Chapter 14: Gavin
I didn’t really want to leave campus. I hung around the door, waiting on Corabelle, but she kept talking to that girl she worked with. Finally I gave up, heading to my Harley. But instead of driving off campus, I decided to go past the engineering building. Maybe I could convince her to take a ride with me.
Corabelle’s pinked-up friend was standing at the entrance, looking around.
