Forever Innocent
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I stuck a fork in another bite of egg and shoved it in my mouth so I wouldn’t have to answer. It didn’t want to go down, but I forced it. I had to get a grip.
Jenny pushed up from the chair and paced in little circles. “Why aren’t there any nice guys? Sweet normal guys who open doors and buy you dinner and don’t have a room full of drugs or bonus women on nights and weekends?”
“I don’t think he was seeing someone else,” I said. I was settling back into something more akin to numb than grief, a comfortable place, nice and familiar.
She sat down again. “So what happened? Is he stalking your apartment?”
“I don’t know. After I left his place, I knew he’d follow me home.”
“I’m sorry I didn’t get your message sooner.”
“It’s okay. I just hung out at Jerry’s Coffee Bar. It’s 24 hours.” Talking helped my stomach settle.
“You going to tell me what he did?”
“He didn’t do anything to me. I just found out some things.”
Jenny propped her chin on her hand. “I’m listening.”
“I just have to decide if I can live with it. I don’t want him around while I decide.”
She popped up out of her chair. “Fair enough. Let’s color those nails.”
When she disappeared into another room, I carried the plate into the kitchen. I was stuck getting a manicure, but this would be an opportunity to ask Jenny a favor. I needed her to take notes for me in astronomy until I was up for seeing Gavin again. For the first time in my entire life, I was going to skip class.
Chapter 37: Gavin
I knew exactly how Corabelle felt four years ago after the funeral. Lost. Confused. More worried than mad, although I could see how anger might figure into it.
She hadn’t answered any text messages or phone calls. She hadn’t been at home. She didn’t work Sundays, I knew, but I went to Cool Beans anyway. Some guy with dreadlocks was super interested in why I asked for her, but I didn’t tell him anything.
I spent most of Sunday in a funk. I figured when I saw the image of Candy on my phone that this was what got to her. I should have done something to block all those girls. But even after wrangling with the cell service for an hour, I couldn’t figure out how to do anything but mute the calls. I wanted to change my number, but Corabelle had it too. I couldn’t do anything about that now.
I should have lived my life differently. I should have accounted for the possibility of a second chance. All my mistakes lined up in front of me and no matter how I pummeled them, they didn’t fall.
Monday morning I put on the khakis and shirt Corabelle liked and rode over to campus, nervous as hell. She might not speak to me. She might punch me. I would take anything she dished out. I deserved it. But I had to make her see that those women were the past. Once I got her back, I had nothing to do with them, and I wouldn’t. I didn’t even want them. I hadn’t even thought of them. The pictures embarrassed me now.
I paused in our stairwell and gripped the rail. You didn’t find someone you loved and lost a long time ago just to lose them again. I refused to believe it. I wouldn’t let that happen.
The stairs blurred beneath my feet as I hurried to class. I searched for Corabelle, but her seat was empty. So was her friend Jenny’s on the other end.
I plunked down to wait, suddenly wondering if Corabelle would show at all.
The room filled up and the professor took his spot at the podium. At the last moment, Jenny dashed in and sat down. The TA Robert tried not to look at her, but I could see his hidden smile. If I couldn’t get anything from her, and I was betting I wouldn’t, he might be my way in.
I couldn’t pay attention to a damn thing during the lecture. At the end, I wished I had, because I could have offered my notes to Corabelle. But she probably wasn’t paying any attention to my messages. Shit.
Jenny took off like a pink streak after class. I tried to push my way into the hall in time to catch up, but she’d already gone down one stairwell or the other, and I had no idea how to catch her. I turned back to the room to get something out of Robert.
Robert shoved a folder in his backpack as I strode up. The blond TA, Amy, looked up expectantly, and I debated which one to approach. Hell, they were together.
“Corabelle wasn’t here,” I said to them both.
Amy looked away, annoyed. Robert shrugged. “Mondays. People skip.” He turned away.
I grabbed his arm. “How many classes can she miss before it affects her grade?”
“Two,” Amy said. “I’ll e-mail her if she misses another one.”
“What about the star parties?”
Robert tried to take off again, but I kept a grip on him.
“She has to make up all of those. You can’t miss.” Amy clutched her folder to her chest and turned away.
Robert looked down at my arm. “Dude, you going to let go?”
When Amy was halfway to the door, I said, “Jenny wanted to double date with us.”
He jerked his arm from me. “I’m sure your winning personality works with the ladies.” He tilted his head in the direction of Amy. “But you’re acting like Asshole #1 to me.”
“Did you talk to Jenny yesterday?” I was desperate. “Was Corabelle with her?”
Robert leaned against the podium. The room had emptied out. “So you alpha males can screw it up too. Good to know.”
My rage was building. “Did you talk to Jenny or not?”
Jenny pushed up from the chair and paced in little circles. “Why aren’t there any nice guys? Sweet normal guys who open doors and buy you dinner and don’t have a room full of drugs or bonus women on nights and weekends?”
“I don’t think he was seeing someone else,” I said. I was settling back into something more akin to numb than grief, a comfortable place, nice and familiar.
She sat down again. “So what happened? Is he stalking your apartment?”
“I don’t know. After I left his place, I knew he’d follow me home.”
“I’m sorry I didn’t get your message sooner.”
“It’s okay. I just hung out at Jerry’s Coffee Bar. It’s 24 hours.” Talking helped my stomach settle.
“You going to tell me what he did?”
“He didn’t do anything to me. I just found out some things.”
Jenny propped her chin on her hand. “I’m listening.”
“I just have to decide if I can live with it. I don’t want him around while I decide.”
She popped up out of her chair. “Fair enough. Let’s color those nails.”
When she disappeared into another room, I carried the plate into the kitchen. I was stuck getting a manicure, but this would be an opportunity to ask Jenny a favor. I needed her to take notes for me in astronomy until I was up for seeing Gavin again. For the first time in my entire life, I was going to skip class.
Chapter 37: Gavin
I knew exactly how Corabelle felt four years ago after the funeral. Lost. Confused. More worried than mad, although I could see how anger might figure into it.
She hadn’t answered any text messages or phone calls. She hadn’t been at home. She didn’t work Sundays, I knew, but I went to Cool Beans anyway. Some guy with dreadlocks was super interested in why I asked for her, but I didn’t tell him anything.
I spent most of Sunday in a funk. I figured when I saw the image of Candy on my phone that this was what got to her. I should have done something to block all those girls. But even after wrangling with the cell service for an hour, I couldn’t figure out how to do anything but mute the calls. I wanted to change my number, but Corabelle had it too. I couldn’t do anything about that now.
I should have lived my life differently. I should have accounted for the possibility of a second chance. All my mistakes lined up in front of me and no matter how I pummeled them, they didn’t fall.
Monday morning I put on the khakis and shirt Corabelle liked and rode over to campus, nervous as hell. She might not speak to me. She might punch me. I would take anything she dished out. I deserved it. But I had to make her see that those women were the past. Once I got her back, I had nothing to do with them, and I wouldn’t. I didn’t even want them. I hadn’t even thought of them. The pictures embarrassed me now.
I paused in our stairwell and gripped the rail. You didn’t find someone you loved and lost a long time ago just to lose them again. I refused to believe it. I wouldn’t let that happen.
The stairs blurred beneath my feet as I hurried to class. I searched for Corabelle, but her seat was empty. So was her friend Jenny’s on the other end.
I plunked down to wait, suddenly wondering if Corabelle would show at all.
The room filled up and the professor took his spot at the podium. At the last moment, Jenny dashed in and sat down. The TA Robert tried not to look at her, but I could see his hidden smile. If I couldn’t get anything from her, and I was betting I wouldn’t, he might be my way in.
I couldn’t pay attention to a damn thing during the lecture. At the end, I wished I had, because I could have offered my notes to Corabelle. But she probably wasn’t paying any attention to my messages. Shit.
Jenny took off like a pink streak after class. I tried to push my way into the hall in time to catch up, but she’d already gone down one stairwell or the other, and I had no idea how to catch her. I turned back to the room to get something out of Robert.
Robert shoved a folder in his backpack as I strode up. The blond TA, Amy, looked up expectantly, and I debated which one to approach. Hell, they were together.
“Corabelle wasn’t here,” I said to them both.
Amy looked away, annoyed. Robert shrugged. “Mondays. People skip.” He turned away.
I grabbed his arm. “How many classes can she miss before it affects her grade?”
“Two,” Amy said. “I’ll e-mail her if she misses another one.”
“What about the star parties?”
Robert tried to take off again, but I kept a grip on him.
“She has to make up all of those. You can’t miss.” Amy clutched her folder to her chest and turned away.
Robert looked down at my arm. “Dude, you going to let go?”
When Amy was halfway to the door, I said, “Jenny wanted to double date with us.”
He jerked his arm from me. “I’m sure your winning personality works with the ladies.” He tilted his head in the direction of Amy. “But you’re acting like Asshole #1 to me.”
“Did you talk to Jenny yesterday?” I was desperate. “Was Corabelle with her?”
Robert leaned against the podium. The room had emptied out. “So you alpha males can screw it up too. Good to know.”
My rage was building. “Did you talk to Jenny or not?”
