Fragile Eternity
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The imprint of her lips on his forehead and his cheeks glowed faintly in the dimness of the room. It made her feel guilty, this proof that shed touched him. It wasnt an intimate kiss. It wasnt new. Theyd discovered that her kiss healed him when shed still been a mortal awaiting the test to be Summer Queen. But, in the wake of their recent kiss and in light of the shaming thoughts shed had about him when she was captive to Niall, she felt embarrassed.
Keenan sat up and pulled away from her, forcing more distance between them than normal. I dont need coddling.
Are you okay? Dizzy? she asked.
He sat on the floor beside her, but out of reach. He glared at Seth. Seth must be thrilled.
She froze. Dont do that. Dont blame Seth for Nialls anger.
Niall punched mefor Seth. He didnt stand yet, and she was pretty certain it was because he wasnt sure he could.
And I went after Niallfor you .
Keenan smiledcruelly. Well, then.
She glanced over at Seth, who had stopped midway across the room. He wasnt likely to approach when he could tell that she and Keenan were arguing.He never treated her as anything less than an equal. If youd seen Niallwhat hewhen
Keenan was the one who froze this time. When hewhat ?
Niall is stronger than me. She crossed her arms over her chest. If Niall wanted to hurt me, he couldve. There wasnt anything I could do to stop him.
Did he hurt you? He was suddenly closer, running his hands over her arms, reaching toward her as if to pull her to him.
And I want him to.It was instinct. It was also unnecessary: she was fine.
Stop. Im bruised, but thats alland that was my fault as much as his. She blushed. I lost my temper. He tried to walk away, but you were hurt and I wasfurious.
She recounted what hed missed.
And what did you feel against the shadows? Keenans tone wasnt hurt or angry now. It was a challenge, the same challenge hed raised in their prior conversation. What did you lust for?
She ducked her head. That doesntIm nottelling you. That wasnt real. It was just a result of some perversion of
The words stopped, lies unable to be spoken.
What you feel for me isnot a perversion, Aislinn. Is it so hard to admit that? Cant you give me that much? He pushed, as if hearing her say it would change anything, as if that admission mattered as much as the Dark King striking him, as if their personal situation was of tantamount importance.
It isnt.
You already know the answer to thatand it doesnt changeanything . I love Seth. With that, she stood and crossed the room. She tried to tuck that whole uncomfortable topic away as she went toward Seth.
He wasnt happy either; it was plain on his face.
He okay? Seth asked grudgingly as they sat down at a battered table the guards had commandeered for them.
His prides not, but his head seems to be.
You? Seth didnt push or hover. He trusted her enough to know she wouldve come to him if she needed something.
Scared.
Nialls He shook his head. I dont think hed hurt you. Not really, but when you were in there, I wasnt really sure. You looked scared when he pushed you against that cage thing. Whatwas that?
Dark Court energy, like my sunlight and heat or Dons ice. Nialls is other stuff. Fear, anger, and lust. Dark Court things. Like Niall causes.
Lust? Seth repeated.
She blushed.
And Seth said the words she wouldnt: But not for Niall.
He glanced at Keenan, and she saw the sadness in Seths eyes. Then he reached out and took Aislinns hand.
No pressure. Even now.He trusted her.
The band had started as they sat there; Damali sang something about freedom and bullets. Her voice had an intensity that could carry the band good places, but the lyrics were dismal.
Silently, Keenan joined them at the table. He didnt look any happier than she feltor than she suspected Seth feltwith them all being there together.
When the song ended, Seth looked at him and said, You okay?
Yes. Keenan pressed his lips together in a cross between a grimace and a smile.
The next song began, sparing them from further attempts at civility.
Typically Aislinn wasnt girlfriend-y in public, but she moved over to sit on Seths lap. He slid his arms around her and held on. Somehow, despite the noise of the band, it felt like a silence between them. It wasnt anger, but it was weighty all the same. They both knew things were more precarious than either of them liked.
Across from her, Keenan caught her gaze before he left. It wasnt a look she couldor wanted tounderstand.Hurt? Angry? It didnt really matter. All that she knew was that there was a tugging sensation, a compulsion to follow Keenan if he went too far from her side. Usually, if she ignored it long enough, it dulledor maybe she simply stopped noticing it so muchbut those first few moments after he left were horrible. It was growing worse each day. It was like refusing to breathe when shed just surfaced from too long underwater, like telling her heart to stop its rapid rhythms when shed been kissed almost long enough.
Seth brushed his fingertips over her cheek. Everythings going to be okay.
I want it to be. She leaned in to Seths touch. It was better to just be honest. Seth was her anchor, the only thing that made sense most days.
I really can tell him anything. Hegetsme. She felt foolish for keeping things from him.Again. Hed believed her when she first told him about faeries. He trusted her; she needed to work harder at returning that unwavering trust.
Seth could read hernot through some strange faery bond but because he knew her. It wasnt why she loved him, but it was part of it. His calm, his honesty, his art, his passion, his wordsthere were more reasons to love him than she thought possible. Sometimes, it was hard to understand why hed choose to be with her.
Keenan sat up and pulled away from her, forcing more distance between them than normal. I dont need coddling.
Are you okay? Dizzy? she asked.
He sat on the floor beside her, but out of reach. He glared at Seth. Seth must be thrilled.
She froze. Dont do that. Dont blame Seth for Nialls anger.
Niall punched mefor Seth. He didnt stand yet, and she was pretty certain it was because he wasnt sure he could.
And I went after Niallfor you .
Keenan smiledcruelly. Well, then.
She glanced over at Seth, who had stopped midway across the room. He wasnt likely to approach when he could tell that she and Keenan were arguing.He never treated her as anything less than an equal. If youd seen Niallwhat hewhen
Keenan was the one who froze this time. When hewhat ?
Niall is stronger than me. She crossed her arms over her chest. If Niall wanted to hurt me, he couldve. There wasnt anything I could do to stop him.
Did he hurt you? He was suddenly closer, running his hands over her arms, reaching toward her as if to pull her to him.
And I want him to.It was instinct. It was also unnecessary: she was fine.
Stop. Im bruised, but thats alland that was my fault as much as his. She blushed. I lost my temper. He tried to walk away, but you were hurt and I wasfurious.
She recounted what hed missed.
And what did you feel against the shadows? Keenans tone wasnt hurt or angry now. It was a challenge, the same challenge hed raised in their prior conversation. What did you lust for?
She ducked her head. That doesntIm nottelling you. That wasnt real. It was just a result of some perversion of
The words stopped, lies unable to be spoken.
What you feel for me isnot a perversion, Aislinn. Is it so hard to admit that? Cant you give me that much? He pushed, as if hearing her say it would change anything, as if that admission mattered as much as the Dark King striking him, as if their personal situation was of tantamount importance.
It isnt.
You already know the answer to thatand it doesnt changeanything . I love Seth. With that, she stood and crossed the room. She tried to tuck that whole uncomfortable topic away as she went toward Seth.
He wasnt happy either; it was plain on his face.
He okay? Seth asked grudgingly as they sat down at a battered table the guards had commandeered for them.
His prides not, but his head seems to be.
You? Seth didnt push or hover. He trusted her enough to know she wouldve come to him if she needed something.
Scared.
Nialls He shook his head. I dont think hed hurt you. Not really, but when you were in there, I wasnt really sure. You looked scared when he pushed you against that cage thing. Whatwas that?
Dark Court energy, like my sunlight and heat or Dons ice. Nialls is other stuff. Fear, anger, and lust. Dark Court things. Like Niall causes.
Lust? Seth repeated.
She blushed.
And Seth said the words she wouldnt: But not for Niall.
He glanced at Keenan, and she saw the sadness in Seths eyes. Then he reached out and took Aislinns hand.
No pressure. Even now.He trusted her.
The band had started as they sat there; Damali sang something about freedom and bullets. Her voice had an intensity that could carry the band good places, but the lyrics were dismal.
Silently, Keenan joined them at the table. He didnt look any happier than she feltor than she suspected Seth feltwith them all being there together.
When the song ended, Seth looked at him and said, You okay?
Yes. Keenan pressed his lips together in a cross between a grimace and a smile.
The next song began, sparing them from further attempts at civility.
Typically Aislinn wasnt girlfriend-y in public, but she moved over to sit on Seths lap. He slid his arms around her and held on. Somehow, despite the noise of the band, it felt like a silence between them. It wasnt anger, but it was weighty all the same. They both knew things were more precarious than either of them liked.
Across from her, Keenan caught her gaze before he left. It wasnt a look she couldor wanted tounderstand.Hurt? Angry? It didnt really matter. All that she knew was that there was a tugging sensation, a compulsion to follow Keenan if he went too far from her side. Usually, if she ignored it long enough, it dulledor maybe she simply stopped noticing it so muchbut those first few moments after he left were horrible. It was growing worse each day. It was like refusing to breathe when shed just surfaced from too long underwater, like telling her heart to stop its rapid rhythms when shed been kissed almost long enough.
Seth brushed his fingertips over her cheek. Everythings going to be okay.
I want it to be. She leaned in to Seths touch. It was better to just be honest. Seth was her anchor, the only thing that made sense most days.
I really can tell him anything. Hegetsme. She felt foolish for keeping things from him.Again. Hed believed her when she first told him about faeries. He trusted her; she needed to work harder at returning that unwavering trust.
Seth could read hernot through some strange faery bond but because he knew her. It wasnt why she loved him, but it was part of it. His calm, his honesty, his art, his passion, his wordsthere were more reasons to love him than she thought possible. Sometimes, it was hard to understand why hed choose to be with her.
