Fragile Eternity
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Hes gone. She looked at Carla and at the faeries behind her and whispered, And it hurts.
Her friend made comforting noises, and her faeries stroked their hands over her hair and face. Once that would have terrified her, but now their touches comforted her. The faeries were hers. They were her reason now, her focus and her responsibility.I need them. And they needed her; they werent going to ever leave her. Her court needed her. That truth was a comfort as she went through the motions of the school day yet again.
Faeries werent often in the school. The metal and plethora of religious symbols made them uncomfortable. Yet, throughout the day, her faeries surrounded her. Siobhan sat beside her in an empty desk during study hall. Eliza sang a lullaby during lunch. The soft cadence of her words was matched by affectionate brushes of faery hands as her guard and other assorted faeries came by without any reason but to show her they cared.This is my family. Her court was more than a collection of strangers or strange creatures. Their love didnt make all the pain go away, but it helped.They helped. That sense of being cosseted in her courts embrace was a salve on her injured heartand it was all that helped.
After school, Aislinn didnt race to see Keenan, but her steps as she went up the stairs to the loft were hurried. Being there, surrounded by her king and court, made her feel a sense of security she lacked outside the building.
She still went to school, and she still spent some nights at home with Grams, but in the eighteen days since Seth had vanished, her attempts to reenter her old life had stopped. She didnt see or call her friends. She didnt go anywhere alone. She was safest with Keenan. Together, they were stronger. Together in their loft, they were safer.
After the first couple days, hed learned not to ask any awkward questions about how she was doing or how she felt orworst of allif Seth had called yet. Instead he gave her tasks to keep her distracted. Between schoolwork and court business and the new self-defense training, shed been exhausted enough that she slept at least a few hours every night.
Sometimes, Keenan mentioned in passing that hed not had any progress on finding Seth.But we will, he promised. It was only slow because theyd been cautious in their inquiries.Letting Seths absence become public could endanger him, hed explained.If hes left us, hes vulnerable. It made things slower than she wanted, but endangering himis he already in danger?wasnt an option she liked at all. Whether he left her by choice or not didnt matter. She still loved him.
All theyd learned so far was that hed gone to the Crows Nest and spent hours with Damali, a dreadlocked singer hed once sort-of dated. The guards hadnt seen him leave; a tussle with several Ly Ergs whod captured one of the younger Summer Girls had called their attention away. When they returned to the Crows Nest, Seth had slipped out, but Skelley had spoken to him afterward.He was safe in his home, Skelley repeated.I dont know how he left. Hes never done so before. Seth left stealthily; he took Boomer; he sounded excited. The evidence didnt add up.Did he go willingly? The only reason to believe he hadnt was that it seemed out of character.
Does it though?
Seth didnt do relationships. Hed never been in one before her; he was increasingly tense about her bond with Keenan; and hed sounded fine when he called. He didnt sound quite right, but telling someone good-bye over voice mail was weird.Maybe he went to see his family. Shed spent hours thinking it through, ordering faeries sent to various locations, having them check ticket receipts at the bus and train station. None of it made her feel any betteror brought answers.
Seeing Keenan was all that eased the ball of tension she felt. Today though, when she walked through the door of the loft, he greeted her with a sentence she wasnt sure she wanted to hear: Niall would like to speak with you.
Niall? She felt both fear and hope at the thought of talking to him. Shed tried to contact him the day after Seth had first vanished, but hed refused to see her.
Keenans usually transparent emotions were tamped down so tightly that she couldnt get any sense of what he was feeling. After you meet with him, we can go over Tavishs notes and have dinner.
She was unable to breathe around the tightness in her chest. Niall is here?
The look on Keenans face was a brief blur of fury. In our study. Waiting for you alone.
Aislinn didnt correct him as she once wouldve; the study was hers too now. This was her home. It had to be.Immortal only if Im not murdered. Shed not thought about the finite and infinite until shed become a faery, but since the change, the idea of reducing forever to just another heartbeat terrified her. The recent threats from Bananach, Donia, and Niall made the possibility of ending seem too real. There were those who could take everything awayand one of them was waiting on the other side of the door.
Knowing Keenan stood a moment away helped, but the trepidation she felt at seeing Niall was still awful. In the first rush of changing, shed still felt terror, self-doubt, worriesall the stuff shed hid over the years when she saw the faeries but had to keep her Sight secret. Fear for her safety had faded. It was back now, stronger than it had ever been before.
Do you want me to come in? Keenans offer was without inflection.
If he said noif he has information and didnt tell me because She gave him a pleading look. I need answers.
Keenan nodded. I am here if you need me.
I know. Aislinn opened the door to go see the Dark King.
Niall sat on the sofa looking as comfortable as he had when hed lived there. It was familiar enough to ease the tension Aislinn feltbut his expression of contempt wasnt.
Her friend made comforting noises, and her faeries stroked their hands over her hair and face. Once that would have terrified her, but now their touches comforted her. The faeries were hers. They were her reason now, her focus and her responsibility.I need them. And they needed her; they werent going to ever leave her. Her court needed her. That truth was a comfort as she went through the motions of the school day yet again.
Faeries werent often in the school. The metal and plethora of religious symbols made them uncomfortable. Yet, throughout the day, her faeries surrounded her. Siobhan sat beside her in an empty desk during study hall. Eliza sang a lullaby during lunch. The soft cadence of her words was matched by affectionate brushes of faery hands as her guard and other assorted faeries came by without any reason but to show her they cared.This is my family. Her court was more than a collection of strangers or strange creatures. Their love didnt make all the pain go away, but it helped.They helped. That sense of being cosseted in her courts embrace was a salve on her injured heartand it was all that helped.
After school, Aislinn didnt race to see Keenan, but her steps as she went up the stairs to the loft were hurried. Being there, surrounded by her king and court, made her feel a sense of security she lacked outside the building.
She still went to school, and she still spent some nights at home with Grams, but in the eighteen days since Seth had vanished, her attempts to reenter her old life had stopped. She didnt see or call her friends. She didnt go anywhere alone. She was safest with Keenan. Together, they were stronger. Together in their loft, they were safer.
After the first couple days, hed learned not to ask any awkward questions about how she was doing or how she felt orworst of allif Seth had called yet. Instead he gave her tasks to keep her distracted. Between schoolwork and court business and the new self-defense training, shed been exhausted enough that she slept at least a few hours every night.
Sometimes, Keenan mentioned in passing that hed not had any progress on finding Seth.But we will, he promised. It was only slow because theyd been cautious in their inquiries.Letting Seths absence become public could endanger him, hed explained.If hes left us, hes vulnerable. It made things slower than she wanted, but endangering himis he already in danger?wasnt an option she liked at all. Whether he left her by choice or not didnt matter. She still loved him.
All theyd learned so far was that hed gone to the Crows Nest and spent hours with Damali, a dreadlocked singer hed once sort-of dated. The guards hadnt seen him leave; a tussle with several Ly Ergs whod captured one of the younger Summer Girls had called their attention away. When they returned to the Crows Nest, Seth had slipped out, but Skelley had spoken to him afterward.He was safe in his home, Skelley repeated.I dont know how he left. Hes never done so before. Seth left stealthily; he took Boomer; he sounded excited. The evidence didnt add up.Did he go willingly? The only reason to believe he hadnt was that it seemed out of character.
Does it though?
Seth didnt do relationships. Hed never been in one before her; he was increasingly tense about her bond with Keenan; and hed sounded fine when he called. He didnt sound quite right, but telling someone good-bye over voice mail was weird.Maybe he went to see his family. Shed spent hours thinking it through, ordering faeries sent to various locations, having them check ticket receipts at the bus and train station. None of it made her feel any betteror brought answers.
Seeing Keenan was all that eased the ball of tension she felt. Today though, when she walked through the door of the loft, he greeted her with a sentence she wasnt sure she wanted to hear: Niall would like to speak with you.
Niall? She felt both fear and hope at the thought of talking to him. Shed tried to contact him the day after Seth had first vanished, but hed refused to see her.
Keenans usually transparent emotions were tamped down so tightly that she couldnt get any sense of what he was feeling. After you meet with him, we can go over Tavishs notes and have dinner.
She was unable to breathe around the tightness in her chest. Niall is here?
The look on Keenans face was a brief blur of fury. In our study. Waiting for you alone.
Aislinn didnt correct him as she once wouldve; the study was hers too now. This was her home. It had to be.Immortal only if Im not murdered. Shed not thought about the finite and infinite until shed become a faery, but since the change, the idea of reducing forever to just another heartbeat terrified her. The recent threats from Bananach, Donia, and Niall made the possibility of ending seem too real. There were those who could take everything awayand one of them was waiting on the other side of the door.
Knowing Keenan stood a moment away helped, but the trepidation she felt at seeing Niall was still awful. In the first rush of changing, shed still felt terror, self-doubt, worriesall the stuff shed hid over the years when she saw the faeries but had to keep her Sight secret. Fear for her safety had faded. It was back now, stronger than it had ever been before.
Do you want me to come in? Keenans offer was without inflection.
If he said noif he has information and didnt tell me because She gave him a pleading look. I need answers.
Keenan nodded. I am here if you need me.
I know. Aislinn opened the door to go see the Dark King.
Niall sat on the sofa looking as comfortable as he had when hed lived there. It was familiar enough to ease the tension Aislinn feltbut his expression of contempt wasnt.
