Games of the Heart
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Mike’s brows drew together and he asked, “Your part of the mortgage and utilities?”
“Yeah, whatever it is, half it and I’ll have that transferred whenever you want, first of month, middle, last. Whenever it fits your schedule.”
“You’re not paying half the mortgage and utilities, Angel,” Mike stated, he did this firmly, very firmly, and I stared at him.
“Sorry?”
“You’re not paying half the mortgage and utilities,” he repeated.
“What do you mean?” I asked then didn’t give him a chance to answer before I said, “Are you thinking about the kids? Because I don’t think a quarter is cool. Or a third. They aren’t earning so they don’t factor –”
Mike cut me off with, “No, I’m not thinking about the kids or a different percentage. You’re not payin’ any of the mortgage and utilities.”
I blinked. Then I stared again.
Then I asked, “Why not?”
“Why not?” Mike asked back.
“Yeah, why not?”
I felt Mike’s body get slightly tight under me and his hands stopped roaming on my ass.
I should have taken this as a warning.
I didn’t.
“Because this is my house, it’s my mortgage, the utilities are my responsibility and you’re my woman and I take care of my woman.”
Was he insane?
“Mike, this isn’t the ‘50’s. I’m living here. I earn. So I help pay the bills,” I told him.
His body got tighter, another warning I didn’t take.
“I know it isn’t the ‘50’s, Dusty. I also know you’re at your wheel two days a week rather than whenever you wanna be. And you’re workin’ a tough gig the other five days. Not to mention you told me that, with the economy, your business has taken a dip. And further, your ranch is not rented out so you’re already paying a mortgage and utilities for a home you aren’t occupying.”
“Yes, but I’m occupying this one so I pay my way.”
“You rent your ranch, we’ll talk again. For now, I pay your way.”
He was insane.
“Mike, that’s nuts. I’m living here.”
“Did you pay rent on the farm?” he shot back.
“No but I paid for groceries and anyway, that’s my family home.”
“Uh…Angel,” he started, his deep voice holding a vein of sarcasm I didn’t like all that much. “You might have missed it but a week ago this became your family home.”
Now my body was getting tight. “You know what I mean, Mike.”
“I do and I mean the same thing, Dusty.”
With a forearm in his chest, I pushed slightly away from him only for his hands to slide from my ass to wrap around my waist and hold me close so I stopped.
But I didn’t stop talking.
This was unfortunate though obviously I didn’t know it at the time.
“I get you’re an alpha, Mike, and I’m your woman. I dig that. I like it. But I can’t live in a house and not help out. And, might I point out, you need to think about Rees’s school and now No who either needs his car cleaned and repainted, which, with that car, would be throwing money away, or he needs a new car. I lighten your load, things ease for you.”
“Yeah, and we can talk about you lightening my load when your ranch is occupied. But it won’t be half. Four people in this house, I’m responsible for all but you wanna be responsible for you, then we’ll make a deal. But we’ll do it then, not now.”
“That could take months, Mike.”
“So you lighten my load in months.”
I felt my teeth clench and I forced them to unclench when I informed him, “This makes me uncomfortable.”
“Give it time, you’ll get used to it,” he replied immediately and I felt my chest start burning.
I took in a breath.
Then I stated with forced calm, “This means something to me, Mike. I’ve been taking care of myself for a while. I’m used to doing it. I’m proud I’m able to do it so well. And I want to help you out.”
Something about what I said struck him in a place that was unhappier than his current unhappy. I knew this when he knifed to sitting, taking me with him, but his arms locked around me, keeping me in place.
And I would know what struck him as unhappier when he returned, “I don’t need help. I’ve been doin’ just fine, I’ll keep doin’ just fine. And it means something to me that you let go what you had in Texas to be here. I know you came to help deal with the shit at the farm but I also know you came to be with me. I’m not gonna let you take a financial hit for that. Your ranch rents, we’ll talk. It won’t be half. No f**kin’ way. But we’ll talk and we’ll talk then not now.”
“I know what I can afford financially, Mike,” I snapped.
“After tellin’ me your profits have been down for two years to the point you and your manager had to start sellin’ your shit over the internet and recruiting new galleries, are you tellin’ me that wouldn’t be a hit?”
It would but that wasn’t the point.
“That’s not the point,” I replied.
“Dusty, it is. You do not take a hit for me. You already took a hit for me, leavin’ your life, comin’ up here to be with me. That’s the first and the last.”
There were clearly some times when Mike’s bossy and macho weren’t all that cute.
“You can’t make that decision for the both of us,” I retorted.
“I just did,” he fired back.
I glared at him a second then whispered irately, “Mike, that is not cool. I get you’re a man, all man, boy do I get that, and most of that’s good. This is bad.”
I knew he was losing patience when he replied in a low voice, “Dusty, we’ll talk about this shit and come up with a deal when you rent your ranch.”
“And until then you’re happy for me to be uncomfortable with the situation?” I shot back.
“No, until then I’m happy for you to stop being so f**kin’ stubborn, understand I got your back with this and I’m tellin’ you the compromise we come to will be delayed which makes me comfortable.”
“That’s not an acceptable solution for me,” I told him.
“Dusty –”
That was when I lost it and cut him off to declare, “Choice, Mike. I move back to the farm or find an apartment or I stay here and pay my way. That’s it. Those are your choices. What do you choose?”
“Yeah, whatever it is, half it and I’ll have that transferred whenever you want, first of month, middle, last. Whenever it fits your schedule.”
“You’re not paying half the mortgage and utilities, Angel,” Mike stated, he did this firmly, very firmly, and I stared at him.
“Sorry?”
“You’re not paying half the mortgage and utilities,” he repeated.
“What do you mean?” I asked then didn’t give him a chance to answer before I said, “Are you thinking about the kids? Because I don’t think a quarter is cool. Or a third. They aren’t earning so they don’t factor –”
Mike cut me off with, “No, I’m not thinking about the kids or a different percentage. You’re not payin’ any of the mortgage and utilities.”
I blinked. Then I stared again.
Then I asked, “Why not?”
“Why not?” Mike asked back.
“Yeah, why not?”
I felt Mike’s body get slightly tight under me and his hands stopped roaming on my ass.
I should have taken this as a warning.
I didn’t.
“Because this is my house, it’s my mortgage, the utilities are my responsibility and you’re my woman and I take care of my woman.”
Was he insane?
“Mike, this isn’t the ‘50’s. I’m living here. I earn. So I help pay the bills,” I told him.
His body got tighter, another warning I didn’t take.
“I know it isn’t the ‘50’s, Dusty. I also know you’re at your wheel two days a week rather than whenever you wanna be. And you’re workin’ a tough gig the other five days. Not to mention you told me that, with the economy, your business has taken a dip. And further, your ranch is not rented out so you’re already paying a mortgage and utilities for a home you aren’t occupying.”
“Yes, but I’m occupying this one so I pay my way.”
“You rent your ranch, we’ll talk again. For now, I pay your way.”
He was insane.
“Mike, that’s nuts. I’m living here.”
“Did you pay rent on the farm?” he shot back.
“No but I paid for groceries and anyway, that’s my family home.”
“Uh…Angel,” he started, his deep voice holding a vein of sarcasm I didn’t like all that much. “You might have missed it but a week ago this became your family home.”
Now my body was getting tight. “You know what I mean, Mike.”
“I do and I mean the same thing, Dusty.”
With a forearm in his chest, I pushed slightly away from him only for his hands to slide from my ass to wrap around my waist and hold me close so I stopped.
But I didn’t stop talking.
This was unfortunate though obviously I didn’t know it at the time.
“I get you’re an alpha, Mike, and I’m your woman. I dig that. I like it. But I can’t live in a house and not help out. And, might I point out, you need to think about Rees’s school and now No who either needs his car cleaned and repainted, which, with that car, would be throwing money away, or he needs a new car. I lighten your load, things ease for you.”
“Yeah, and we can talk about you lightening my load when your ranch is occupied. But it won’t be half. Four people in this house, I’m responsible for all but you wanna be responsible for you, then we’ll make a deal. But we’ll do it then, not now.”
“That could take months, Mike.”
“So you lighten my load in months.”
I felt my teeth clench and I forced them to unclench when I informed him, “This makes me uncomfortable.”
“Give it time, you’ll get used to it,” he replied immediately and I felt my chest start burning.
I took in a breath.
Then I stated with forced calm, “This means something to me, Mike. I’ve been taking care of myself for a while. I’m used to doing it. I’m proud I’m able to do it so well. And I want to help you out.”
Something about what I said struck him in a place that was unhappier than his current unhappy. I knew this when he knifed to sitting, taking me with him, but his arms locked around me, keeping me in place.
And I would know what struck him as unhappier when he returned, “I don’t need help. I’ve been doin’ just fine, I’ll keep doin’ just fine. And it means something to me that you let go what you had in Texas to be here. I know you came to help deal with the shit at the farm but I also know you came to be with me. I’m not gonna let you take a financial hit for that. Your ranch rents, we’ll talk. It won’t be half. No f**kin’ way. But we’ll talk and we’ll talk then not now.”
“I know what I can afford financially, Mike,” I snapped.
“After tellin’ me your profits have been down for two years to the point you and your manager had to start sellin’ your shit over the internet and recruiting new galleries, are you tellin’ me that wouldn’t be a hit?”
It would but that wasn’t the point.
“That’s not the point,” I replied.
“Dusty, it is. You do not take a hit for me. You already took a hit for me, leavin’ your life, comin’ up here to be with me. That’s the first and the last.”
There were clearly some times when Mike’s bossy and macho weren’t all that cute.
“You can’t make that decision for the both of us,” I retorted.
“I just did,” he fired back.
I glared at him a second then whispered irately, “Mike, that is not cool. I get you’re a man, all man, boy do I get that, and most of that’s good. This is bad.”
I knew he was losing patience when he replied in a low voice, “Dusty, we’ll talk about this shit and come up with a deal when you rent your ranch.”
“And until then you’re happy for me to be uncomfortable with the situation?” I shot back.
“No, until then I’m happy for you to stop being so f**kin’ stubborn, understand I got your back with this and I’m tellin’ you the compromise we come to will be delayed which makes me comfortable.”
“That’s not an acceptable solution for me,” I told him.
“Dusty –”
That was when I lost it and cut him off to declare, “Choice, Mike. I move back to the farm or find an apartment or I stay here and pay my way. That’s it. Those are your choices. What do you choose?”
