Grave Secret

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This was Cameron's fantasy, her happy one. She had some that were darker, much darker. She told me, one morning on our walk to school, that she also dreamed one of our mother's dealers would show up at the trailer while we were gone and kill our mother and stepfather. After they were dead, we'd be put in a nice foster home. Then, when we'd graduated from high school, we'd get jobs and rent an apartment and work our way through college.
That was as far as Cameron's dream had gone. I wondered what she'd imagined would happen after that. Would we each have found a good and prosperous man, and lived happily ever after? Or maybe instead we'd have continued living together (in our modest but clean apartment), wearing our new clothes (a very important part of Cameron's tale), and eating our good food that we'd learned how to cook.
"Honey?" Tolliver said. I turned to him, startled. He'd never called me that before.
"Do you want dessert?" he asked. I realized that the waitress was waiting, smiling in that pained way that said she was being so, so patient.
I almost never eat dessert. "No, thanks," I said. To my irritation, Mark ordered pie, and Tolliver got coffee to keep him company. I was ready to go; I wanted to get away from all this remembrance. I shifted a little to a more comfortable position, stifling a sigh.
When Tolliver and Mark resorted to talking about computers, I was once more free to think about other things.
But all I could think about was Cameron.
Chapter Three
WHEN we were back in our room, we were both reluctant to start talking about Mark's perfidy in renewing contact with their dad. Tolliver booted up the laptop and went to a fan website that tracks my activities; he monitors it regularly because he's worried that I might acquire a crazy stalker. I never look at it, because there are posts from guys who want to do things with me and to me; and that's scary, not to say repellent. Now, I was worried that Matthew might be reading it at the same moment Tolliver was; he'd be looking for clues on how to find his son.
A nagging pain interrupted my worry session.
I rummaged through my medicine bag to unearth some Icy Hot to rub into my right leg. That's where I feel the long-term effects of getting struck by lightning most of all. I pulled off my shoes and jeans and sat on the bed, stretching out the aching muscles and joints. My right thigh is covered with a tracery of red lines-broken capillaries or something. It's been like that since I got hit, when I was fifteen. It's not pretty.
I worked the cream into my skin for a while in silence. I rubbed hard, trying to get the muscles to give up the discomfort. After a few minutes of massage, I felt some relief. I lay back on the pillows, telling each muscle group to relax in turn. I closed my eyes. "I'd rather be out in the snow finding a corpse than talking to Iona and Hank, just in general," I said. "And sometimes talking to Mark is just as hard."
"Last night at Iona 's..." Tolliver said, then paused. When he resumed, he sounded cautious. "Hank pulled me aside while you were in the bathroom and asked me if I'd gotten you knocked up."
"He did not."
"Oh, yeah. He did. He was serious, too. He was like, 'You gotta marry her if you got her pregnant, boy. If you can't do the time, don't do the crime.' "
"Great perspective on marriage and fatherhood."
Tolliver laughed. "Well, this is the guy who calls Iona his 'ball and chain.' "
"Married, not married, I don't care," I said, before I realized this was a less than tactful way to put it. "I do care," I said hastily. "I mean, I love you and being with you is what I want. I don't care about the marriage part of it. Shit, that wasn't right either."
"We'll do what's right when the time comes," Tolliver said, in a voice heavy with elaborate unconcern.
Apparently he did want to get married. Why couldn't he just say so? I put my hands over my face, which felt strange because they were tingling from the Icy Hot.
Of course I would marry him, especially if it was a make-or-break issue of our relationship. I would do almost anything to get him to stay.
That wasn't a romantic realization. I lay there thinking, listening to Tolliver's fingers touch the keyboard. I thought, If anything happens to him, I might as well die. I wondered if that said a lot for Tolliver-or not much for me.
There was a knock at the door of our room. We looked at each other, puzzled. Tolliver shook his head; he wasn't expecting anyone, either.
He got up and pulled the curtain back a little. He let it drop back into position. "It's Lizzie Joyce," he said. "With her sister. Kate, right?"
"Right." I was as startled as he was. "Well," I said. "What the hell?" We gave each other little shrugs.
Tolliver, having decided they weren't armed and dangerous, let the Joyce sisters inside. I pulled my jeans back on and rose to greet them.
You'd think they'd never seen a middle-of-the-road motel before. Kate and Lizzie examined the room with nearly identical slow scans. The sisters looked a lot alike. Katie was a little shorter than Lizzie, and maybe two years younger. But she'd colored her hair the same blond as Lizzie's, and her brown eyes were narrow like Lizzie's, and her lean build was the same, too. They were both wearing jeans, boots, and jackets. Lizzie had slicked her hair back into a ponytail at the nape of her neck, while Katie's was loose and bouncy. Between necklaces, earrings, and rings, I figured they each were wearing a couple of thousand dollars' worth of jewelry. (After a subsequent trip to a mall store, I revised that figure upward.)
Katie's eyes were avid as she examined Tolliver. She wasn't so enthusiastic about our paraphernalia: our clothes, his crossword puzzle book, the open laptop, his shoes put neatly by his suitcase.
"Hello, Ms. Joyce," I said, trying to inject my voice with some warmth. "What can I do for you?"
"You can tell me again what you saw when you stood on Mariah Parish's grave."
It took me a second to recall. "Your father's caregiver," I said. "The one who had the childbirth problems. The infection."
"Yeah, why'd you say that? She had complications after her appendectomy," Lizzie said. She was issuing a very low-level challenge.
Oh, for goodness' sake. This was hardly my fight. "If that's what you're calling it, okay," I said. It made no difference to me. Mariah Parish wasn't the one I'd been paid to read, anyway.
"That's what happened," Katie said.
I shrugged. "All right."
"What the hell do you mean, 'all right'? She either did or she didn't." The Joyce sisters were not going to let go of this bone.
"Believe what you want to believe. I already told you what she died of."
"She was a good woman. Why would you make that up?"
"Exactly. Why would I make that up?" And what was wrong with a woman having gone through childbirth?
"So who was the father?" Lizzie asked, as abruptly as she'd asked about the death.
"I have no idea."
"Then..." Lizzie floundered to a halt. She was a woman who wasn't used to floundering. She didn't like it. "Why'd you say it?"
I really had to restrain myself from rolling my eyes. "I said it because I saw it, and you wanted me to find your grandfather's grave myself," I said, with fabulous diction. "To give you your money's worth, I went from grave to grave, as you obviously wanted me to."
"Everything else you said was right," Katie said.
"I know." Had they expected me to be surprised at my own accuracy?
"So why'd you make up that one?"
If they hadn't been so agitated, this would have been boring. My leg hurt, and I wanted to sit down. But I didn't want to invite them to, so I felt obliged to remain standing. "I didn't. Believe me or not. I don't give a damn."
"But where's the baby?"
"How should I know?" I'd reached the end of my patience.
"Ladies," Tolliver said, just in the nick of time, "my sister finds the dead. The baby was not in the grave she scanned. Either the baby is alive or it's buried somewhere else. Or it might have been miscarried."
"But if the baby was my granddad's, that baby inherits some of what he left," Lizzie said, and suddenly their agitation became understandable.
To hell with them. I sank down on the bed, stretching out my aching leg. "Please have a seat," I said. "Do you want a Coke or a 7-Up?"
Tollilver sat by me so the sisters could have the two room chairs. They accepted a drink apiece, and though Katie kept looking at the laptop to see what Tolliver had been up to, they both seemed calmer and less accusatory, which was a relief to me.
"Neither of us had any idea Mariah was pregnant," Lizzie said. "That's why we're so shocked. And we didn't realize she was dating anyone. She and my grandfather were pretty good friends, and we're imagining that maybe that became something else. Maybe not. We need to know. Aside from the legal and financial considerations, we owe any child who might be a member of the Joyce family... We want to meet that kid. Can I smoke?"
"No, sorry," Tolliver said.
"The baby must be alive somewhere; there must be some record of its birth," I said. "Even if it was born dead, there should still be hospital records. It's knowing who to ask and where to ask. Maybe you can hire a private investigator, someone who can get through the records easily. I only contact the dead, myself."
"That's a good idea," Katie said. "Do you know any?"
"Since you're already here in Garland," Tolliver said, "there's a woman a little farther into Dallas who's good. Her name's Victoria Flores. She used to be a cop in Texarkana. And I know there's at least one ex-military guy even closer to your ranch; I think he's based in Longview. His name's Ray Phyfe."
"There are dozens of big agencies in Dallas, too," I said, as if that would have been hard for them to figure out.
"We don't want a big agency," Lizzie said. "We just want this to be very, very private."
That was the response I'd been waiting to hear; I'd been curious about their asking us, of all people, for a recommendation. The Joyce empire, of which RJ Ranch was only a part, surely had employed private detectives in the past. Under normal circumstances, I was sure the Joyces would go to an agency they'd used before, where they'd get the deluxe treatment they were used to.
At the moment, I didn't care what they wanted or how they went about it. I wanted to take a lot of Advil and crawl into the bed.
Lizze was talking to Tolliver about Victoria Flores, and he was giving her Victoria 's phone number. That name brought back some memories.
"You really saw that?" Katie asked me directly. "You're not just making this up to jerk us around? No one paid you to play a joke on us?"
"I don't play jokes, in case you missed that about me. I don't take money to make fake pronouncements. Of course I really saw that. It's not a likely thing to make up."
Lizzie had appropriated our little pad of paper by the telephone and the cheap motel pen to write down Victoria Flores's information.
"She switched locations recently," Tolliver said. "This is the right number, though." I looked down, not wanting my face to reveal how surprised I was.
After more reassurance and more repetition of the things we'd already said, the Joyce sisters were out our door and back on the road. I wondered if they'd spend the night in Dallas or try to make it back to their ranch, which would be quite a drive. They'd stay in some place more palatial if they were lingering in the area, I was sure. Probably had a Dallas apartment.
"So," I said, when the door had closed behind them and Tolliver had reseated himself at the table to finish his computer work, "Victoria Flores."
I didn't need to say anything else.
"I call her from time to time," Tolliver said. "Every now and then she hears something new. Every now and then she runs something down. She sends me a bill. I pay her."
"And you didn't tell me this-because?"
"You get so upset," he said. "I just couldn't see what purpose it served. When I used to tell you, every time she called, you'd get all upset. Every time, it would come to nothing. She doesn't call much now, maybe twice a year, and I just couldn't do that to you anymore."
I took a deep breath. My impulse was to launch into him. It was my business how I reacted to possible news of my sister. It was my right to suffer for her.
Then I had a second thought. On the other hand-Tolliver's hand-did it serve any purpose? Hadn't I been okay, not knowing? Hadn't I been calmer and happier, just waiting to locate Cameron in my own way? Was it not okay to have something done for you, some pain spared you, even if it meant you were ignorant about something that you considered your personal business?
Could that idea have gotten more convoluted?
But I knew what I meant, and I knew what Tolliver meant. And I thought maybe he was right. Or at least, it was okay that he had done that.
I nodded finally. He seemed relieved, because his shoulders relaxed and he blew out a breath. He sat on the bed to pull off his socks, then tossed them into our laundry bag, which reminded me that we were low on detergent.
I had ten little thoughts like this while I got ready for bed. I'd been reading through the novels of Charlie Huston and Duane Swierczynski, but it was like getting a jolt of caffeine if I read either one before bedtime; I definitely didn't need that tonight. Instead, I opened a crossword puzzle book. I crawled into bed in my soft sleep pants and my T, and I lay on my stomach, absorbed in the crossword. Tolliver was better at them than I was, and it was hard not to ask him questions.