Grey
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Her brow creases once more; she’s confused.
“If you were my sub, you wouldn’t have to think about this. It would be easy. All those decisions—all the wearying thought processes behind them. The ‘Is this the right thing to do? Should this happen here? Can it happen now?’ You wouldn’t have to worry about any of that detail. That’s what I’d do as your Dom. And right now, I know you want me, Anastasia.”
She tosses her hair over her shoulder, and her frown intensifies as she licks her lips.
Oh yes. She wants me.
“I can tell because your body gives you away. You’re pressing your thighs together, you’re flushed, and your breathing has changed.”
“How do you know about my thighs?” she asks, her voice high-pitched, shocked, I think.
“I felt the tablecloth move, and it’s a calculated guess based on years of experience. I’m right, aren’t I?”
She’s quiet for a moment and looks away. “I haven’t finished my cod,” she says, evasive but still blushing.
“You’d prefer cold cod to me?”
Her eyes meet mine, and they’re wide, pupils dark and large. “I thought you liked me to clear my plate.”
“Right now, Miss Steele, I couldn’t give a fuck about your food.”
“Christian. You just don’t fight fair.”
“I know. I never have.”
We stare at each other in a battle of wills, both aware of the sexual tension stretching between us across the table.
Please, would you just do as you’re told? I implore her with a look. But her eyes glint with sensual disobedience and a smile lifts her lips. Still holding my stare, she picks up an asparagus spear and deliberately bites her lip.
What is she doing?
Very slowly, she places the tip of the spear in her mouth and sucks it.
Fuck.
She’s trifling with me—a dangerous tactic that will have me fucking her over this table.
Oh, bring it on, Miss Steele.
I watch, mesmerized, hardening by the second.
“Anastasia. What are you doing?” I warn.
“Eating my asparagus,” she says with a coy smile.
“I think you’re toying with me, Miss Steele.”
“I’m just finishing my food, Mr. Grey.” Her lips curl wider, slowly, carnal, and the heat between us rises several degrees. She really has no idea how sexy she is…I’m about to pounce when the waiter knocks and enters.
Damn it.
I let him clear the plates, then turn my attention back to Miss Steele. But her frown is back, and she’s fidgeting with her fingers.
Hell.
“Would you like some dessert?” I ask.
“No thank you. I think I should go,” she says, still staring at her hands.
“Go?” She’s leaving?
The waiter exits quickly with our plates.
“Yes,” Ana says, her voice firm with resolve. She gets to her feet to leave. And automatically I stand, too. “We both have the graduation ceremony tomorrow,” she says.
This is not going according to plan at all.
“I don’t want you to go,” I state, because it’s the truth.
“Please, I have to,” she insists.
“Why?” “Because you’ve given me so much to consider, and I need some distance.” Her eyes are pleading with me to let her go.
But we’ve gotten so far in our negotiation. We’ve made compromises. We can make this work. I have to make this work.
“I could make you stay,” I tell her, knowing that I could seduce her right now, in this room.
“Yes, you could easily, but I don’t want you to.”
This is all going south—I’ve overplayed my hand. This isn’t how I thought the night would end. I rake my hands through my hair in frustration.
“You know, when you fell into my office to interview me, you were all ‘Yes, sir,’ ‘No, sir.’ I thought you were a natural-born submissive. But quite frankly, Anastasia, I’m not sure you have a submissive bone in your delectable body.” I walk the few steps that separate us and look down into eyes that shine with determination.
“You may be right,” she says.
No. No. I don’t want to be right.
“I want the chance to explore the possibility that you do.” I caress her face and her lower lip with my thumb. “I don’t know any other way, Anastasia. This is who I am.”
“I know,” she says.
Lowering my head so my lips hover over hers, I wait until she raises her mouth to mine and closes her eyes. I want to give her a brief, chaste kiss, but as our lips touch, she leans in to me, her hands suddenly fisting in my hair, her mouth opening to me, her tongue insistent. I press my hand to the base of her spine, holding her against me, and deepen the kiss, mirroring her fervor.
Christ, I want her.
“I can’t persuade you to stay?” I whisper against the corner of her mouth, as my body responds, hardening with desire.
“No.”
“Spend the night with me.”
“And not touch you? No.”
Damn. The darkness uncoils in my guts, but I ignore it.
“You impossible girl,” I mutter, and pull back, examining her face and her tense, brooding expression.
“Why do I think you’re telling me good-bye?”
“Because I’m leaving now.”
“That’s not what I mean, and you know it.”
“Christian, I have to think about this. I don’t know if I can have the kind of relationship you want.”
I close my eyes and rest my forehead against hers.
What did you expect, Grey? She’s not cut out for this.
I take a deep breath and kiss her forehead, then bury my nose in her hair, inhaling her sweet, autumnal scent and committing it to memory.
That’s it. Enough.
Stepping back, I release her. “As you wish, Miss Steele. I’ll escort you to the lobby.” I hold out my hand for what could be the last time, and I’m surprised how painful this thought is. She places her hand in mine, and in silence we head down to reception.
“Do you have your valet ticket?” I ask as we reach the lobby. I sound calm and collected, but inside I’m in knots.
From her purse she retrieves the ticket, which I hand to the doorman.
“Thank you for dinner,” she says.
“If you were my sub, you wouldn’t have to think about this. It would be easy. All those decisions—all the wearying thought processes behind them. The ‘Is this the right thing to do? Should this happen here? Can it happen now?’ You wouldn’t have to worry about any of that detail. That’s what I’d do as your Dom. And right now, I know you want me, Anastasia.”
She tosses her hair over her shoulder, and her frown intensifies as she licks her lips.
Oh yes. She wants me.
“I can tell because your body gives you away. You’re pressing your thighs together, you’re flushed, and your breathing has changed.”
“How do you know about my thighs?” she asks, her voice high-pitched, shocked, I think.
“I felt the tablecloth move, and it’s a calculated guess based on years of experience. I’m right, aren’t I?”
She’s quiet for a moment and looks away. “I haven’t finished my cod,” she says, evasive but still blushing.
“You’d prefer cold cod to me?”
Her eyes meet mine, and they’re wide, pupils dark and large. “I thought you liked me to clear my plate.”
“Right now, Miss Steele, I couldn’t give a fuck about your food.”
“Christian. You just don’t fight fair.”
“I know. I never have.”
We stare at each other in a battle of wills, both aware of the sexual tension stretching between us across the table.
Please, would you just do as you’re told? I implore her with a look. But her eyes glint with sensual disobedience and a smile lifts her lips. Still holding my stare, she picks up an asparagus spear and deliberately bites her lip.
What is she doing?
Very slowly, she places the tip of the spear in her mouth and sucks it.
Fuck.
She’s trifling with me—a dangerous tactic that will have me fucking her over this table.
Oh, bring it on, Miss Steele.
I watch, mesmerized, hardening by the second.
“Anastasia. What are you doing?” I warn.
“Eating my asparagus,” she says with a coy smile.
“I think you’re toying with me, Miss Steele.”
“I’m just finishing my food, Mr. Grey.” Her lips curl wider, slowly, carnal, and the heat between us rises several degrees. She really has no idea how sexy she is…I’m about to pounce when the waiter knocks and enters.
Damn it.
I let him clear the plates, then turn my attention back to Miss Steele. But her frown is back, and she’s fidgeting with her fingers.
Hell.
“Would you like some dessert?” I ask.
“No thank you. I think I should go,” she says, still staring at her hands.
“Go?” She’s leaving?
The waiter exits quickly with our plates.
“Yes,” Ana says, her voice firm with resolve. She gets to her feet to leave. And automatically I stand, too. “We both have the graduation ceremony tomorrow,” she says.
This is not going according to plan at all.
“I don’t want you to go,” I state, because it’s the truth.
“Please, I have to,” she insists.
“Why?” “Because you’ve given me so much to consider, and I need some distance.” Her eyes are pleading with me to let her go.
But we’ve gotten so far in our negotiation. We’ve made compromises. We can make this work. I have to make this work.
“I could make you stay,” I tell her, knowing that I could seduce her right now, in this room.
“Yes, you could easily, but I don’t want you to.”
This is all going south—I’ve overplayed my hand. This isn’t how I thought the night would end. I rake my hands through my hair in frustration.
“You know, when you fell into my office to interview me, you were all ‘Yes, sir,’ ‘No, sir.’ I thought you were a natural-born submissive. But quite frankly, Anastasia, I’m not sure you have a submissive bone in your delectable body.” I walk the few steps that separate us and look down into eyes that shine with determination.
“You may be right,” she says.
No. No. I don’t want to be right.
“I want the chance to explore the possibility that you do.” I caress her face and her lower lip with my thumb. “I don’t know any other way, Anastasia. This is who I am.”
“I know,” she says.
Lowering my head so my lips hover over hers, I wait until she raises her mouth to mine and closes her eyes. I want to give her a brief, chaste kiss, but as our lips touch, she leans in to me, her hands suddenly fisting in my hair, her mouth opening to me, her tongue insistent. I press my hand to the base of her spine, holding her against me, and deepen the kiss, mirroring her fervor.
Christ, I want her.
“I can’t persuade you to stay?” I whisper against the corner of her mouth, as my body responds, hardening with desire.
“No.”
“Spend the night with me.”
“And not touch you? No.”
Damn. The darkness uncoils in my guts, but I ignore it.
“You impossible girl,” I mutter, and pull back, examining her face and her tense, brooding expression.
“Why do I think you’re telling me good-bye?”
“Because I’m leaving now.”
“That’s not what I mean, and you know it.”
“Christian, I have to think about this. I don’t know if I can have the kind of relationship you want.”
I close my eyes and rest my forehead against hers.
What did you expect, Grey? She’s not cut out for this.
I take a deep breath and kiss her forehead, then bury my nose in her hair, inhaling her sweet, autumnal scent and committing it to memory.
That’s it. Enough.
Stepping back, I release her. “As you wish, Miss Steele. I’ll escort you to the lobby.” I hold out my hand for what could be the last time, and I’m surprised how painful this thought is. She places her hand in mine, and in silence we head down to reception.
“Do you have your valet ticket?” I ask as we reach the lobby. I sound calm and collected, but inside I’m in knots.
From her purse she retrieves the ticket, which I hand to the doorman.
“Thank you for dinner,” she says.
