Ignited
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He hooked his finger under my chin and tilted my head so that I had no choice but to look into his eyes, hard now with purpose and heat. “Tell me what you want,” he said, the gentleness of his voice in sharp contrast to the hard angles and lines of his face.
Everything. But I didn’t say that. Instead I said, “Take me here. Hot and hard and wild. And in every room in this house—tonight, before it even belongs to me, just because the idea excites me.”
Humor lit his eyes, but there was heat in his movements when he dropped his hand and stalked toward me, one step and then another. I matched him, backing up until he’d trapped me against the wall and he stood there, a solid barrier of masculine power.
My pulse had increased and my breath was coming unevenly. He was so close I could see the movement of his T-shirt as his heart beat inside his chest. I could smell the scent of lust. And there was no mistaking the violence I saw in his eyes.
With any other man, it would have been terror that cut through me, sharp and cold.
Instead, I burned for him. I was wet and open for him. And when he grabbed my wrists and yanked them roughly above my head, it was a cry of passion I released. A wild, desperate moan of pleasure and need that, even without words, begged him to touch me. To fuck me.
“Is this what you want?” he growled, thrusting his knee between my legs so that it was hard against my crotch. “Wild and rough?” he demanded as he curled his huge palm around both my wrists to hold me in place, then used his other hand to rip open my T-shirt at the collar. The violence of the action made me gasp—and it made me wet. And when he then yanked apart the tiny piece of material that held together the two cups of my bra, I really thought I would come right then.
He cupped my breast, then squeezed hard, making me groan. Relentless, he focused next on my nipple—on taking it and rolling the erect nub between his fingers before adding more and more pressure until I felt it not just in my breast but in my sex, and I ground shamelessly against his knee, wanting to feel more. Hell, to feel it all.
“Oh, yeah, you like it rough. You should see your skin, Kat, so pink and flush. Tell me you want me to fuck you.”
“I do. I want you to fuck me.”
“Tell me you want my cock inside you.”
“Yes, Cole. Please. Deep inside me. Hard inside me.”
“Tell me you’re mine,” he said, releasing my nipple, then grabbing a chunk of my hair and twisting it tight in his hand. “Tell me you’re mine,” he repeated. “And then tell me what that means.”
“I’m yours,” I said. “Whatever you want, however you want it.”
His eyes burned with the kind of passion I felt, and he used his grip on my hair to force me down onto my knees. “I want your mouth on my cock, baby.”
Yes, I thought as I fumbled at his belt, then his fly. Oh, god, yes.
I was so wet, my body humming, my power to think reduced to a primal, passionate lust that only Cole could fulfill.
This was what I’d wanted to see. A wilder, more dangerous side of him. I wanted to go there with him, because I’d never been and there was no one else in the world I trusted to take me there. No one else in the world I’d want to slide down into the darkness with.
He was so hard and so thick, and I wanted nothing more than to taste him and tease him and take this man who’d opened the world to me right to the edge. I started slowly, trailing my tongue down the length of him, but Cole was having none of it, and he moved my head so that my lips were curled around his cock and I slowly drew him in, sucking and tasting and teasing with my tongue.
He tasted of male and lust and power, and I wanted to take him all the way. Wanted to be the one who made him break, and when he moaned and thrust into me, fucking my mouth, I concentrated on breathing and taking him deeper and deeper, even as my body fired with the knowledge that his passion was building.
His fingers were still tight in my hair and as he got closer, he thrust harder and controlled my head more, taking what he wanted, but also shifting off my natural rhythm and forcing himself just a bit too far back in my throat.
It was a little bit uncomfortable, and I felt tears prick in my eyes, not from pain but from that odd physical reaction that makes you tear up sometimes, like when you’re dicing an onion or deep-throating the guy you love.
But those were minor things, and completely buried under the pleasure that fell over me like a blanket—the pure, sweet satisfaction of knowing that my mouth, my touch, had taken him to the edge, and was about to push him over.
But then he increased the tempo, thrusting harder into my mouth so that I had to shift my head so as not to choke. He was lost in the moment, though, and tugged hard on a shank of my hair to get me back where I was—and the violence of the motion sent unexpected needles of pain digging into my scalp.
I cried out as I flinched, and that made me choke. I tried to steady myself and control my breathing, but then I felt a hard shove. All of a sudden, I was falling backward. I reached my hands back to steady myself, but still managed to whack my shoulder blade hard on the windowsill before landing flat on my ass with a startled, frustrated yelp.
My sad little noise, however, was totally overshadowed by the look of complete horror on Cole’s face.
“Kat,” he said, his voice as ripped and destroyed as his expression.
I tried to stand and go to him, but he’d knocked the wind out of me when he shoved me backward, and I couldn’t make a sound. All I could do was reach for him, but he stared at my hand as if it would bite him.
Slowly—like a man fighting for every ounce of control—he shook his head. “I should never have—Jesus, Kat, I told you. Didn’t I goddamn fucking tell you that I’d go too far? That I’d hurt you?”
“No.” The word came out hoarse, my breath still off and my throat raw.
He looked pale, battered, and when he lifted his hand and saw strands of wavy blond hair still twined between his fingers, I thought he was going to throw up.
He backed away from me, and I couldn’t seem to move. It was as if I was trapped in amber, watching some horrific moment in history.
Then he was zipping his fly and buckling his belt. He reached into his pocket and tossed his keys onto my floor. “I have to go.”
“Cole, no!” That time, the words burst out of me, and there was no disguising my fear. Not of the man, but of him walking out that door.
Cole, however, heard only the fear.
“Take the Range Rover. Get yourself home. And here,” he added, pulling off his shirt and tossing it at me. “I fucking destroyed the one you were wearing.”
“Don’t go,” I said, and when I reached up to brush away an escaping tear, I realized that I’d been crying all along.
He paused in the doorway, and there was nothing for me to read on his face—nothing at all.
He looked at me for one long moment, and then he left the house and walked out into the night, leaving me numb and alone and terrified that somehow the universe had shifted and we’d lost each other even before we’d really had a chance to begin.
For most of the night, I’d been numb.
I’d called his cell phone at least nine times during the night, but I’d gotten no answer. I’d gone to his house. I’d gone to Destiny. I’d gone to the gallery. I’d gone to every other business the knights owned, and every bar I knew that Cole ever frequented.
Everything. But I didn’t say that. Instead I said, “Take me here. Hot and hard and wild. And in every room in this house—tonight, before it even belongs to me, just because the idea excites me.”
Humor lit his eyes, but there was heat in his movements when he dropped his hand and stalked toward me, one step and then another. I matched him, backing up until he’d trapped me against the wall and he stood there, a solid barrier of masculine power.
My pulse had increased and my breath was coming unevenly. He was so close I could see the movement of his T-shirt as his heart beat inside his chest. I could smell the scent of lust. And there was no mistaking the violence I saw in his eyes.
With any other man, it would have been terror that cut through me, sharp and cold.
Instead, I burned for him. I was wet and open for him. And when he grabbed my wrists and yanked them roughly above my head, it was a cry of passion I released. A wild, desperate moan of pleasure and need that, even without words, begged him to touch me. To fuck me.
“Is this what you want?” he growled, thrusting his knee between my legs so that it was hard against my crotch. “Wild and rough?” he demanded as he curled his huge palm around both my wrists to hold me in place, then used his other hand to rip open my T-shirt at the collar. The violence of the action made me gasp—and it made me wet. And when he then yanked apart the tiny piece of material that held together the two cups of my bra, I really thought I would come right then.
He cupped my breast, then squeezed hard, making me groan. Relentless, he focused next on my nipple—on taking it and rolling the erect nub between his fingers before adding more and more pressure until I felt it not just in my breast but in my sex, and I ground shamelessly against his knee, wanting to feel more. Hell, to feel it all.
“Oh, yeah, you like it rough. You should see your skin, Kat, so pink and flush. Tell me you want me to fuck you.”
“I do. I want you to fuck me.”
“Tell me you want my cock inside you.”
“Yes, Cole. Please. Deep inside me. Hard inside me.”
“Tell me you’re mine,” he said, releasing my nipple, then grabbing a chunk of my hair and twisting it tight in his hand. “Tell me you’re mine,” he repeated. “And then tell me what that means.”
“I’m yours,” I said. “Whatever you want, however you want it.”
His eyes burned with the kind of passion I felt, and he used his grip on my hair to force me down onto my knees. “I want your mouth on my cock, baby.”
Yes, I thought as I fumbled at his belt, then his fly. Oh, god, yes.
I was so wet, my body humming, my power to think reduced to a primal, passionate lust that only Cole could fulfill.
This was what I’d wanted to see. A wilder, more dangerous side of him. I wanted to go there with him, because I’d never been and there was no one else in the world I trusted to take me there. No one else in the world I’d want to slide down into the darkness with.
He was so hard and so thick, and I wanted nothing more than to taste him and tease him and take this man who’d opened the world to me right to the edge. I started slowly, trailing my tongue down the length of him, but Cole was having none of it, and he moved my head so that my lips were curled around his cock and I slowly drew him in, sucking and tasting and teasing with my tongue.
He tasted of male and lust and power, and I wanted to take him all the way. Wanted to be the one who made him break, and when he moaned and thrust into me, fucking my mouth, I concentrated on breathing and taking him deeper and deeper, even as my body fired with the knowledge that his passion was building.
His fingers were still tight in my hair and as he got closer, he thrust harder and controlled my head more, taking what he wanted, but also shifting off my natural rhythm and forcing himself just a bit too far back in my throat.
It was a little bit uncomfortable, and I felt tears prick in my eyes, not from pain but from that odd physical reaction that makes you tear up sometimes, like when you’re dicing an onion or deep-throating the guy you love.
But those were minor things, and completely buried under the pleasure that fell over me like a blanket—the pure, sweet satisfaction of knowing that my mouth, my touch, had taken him to the edge, and was about to push him over.
But then he increased the tempo, thrusting harder into my mouth so that I had to shift my head so as not to choke. He was lost in the moment, though, and tugged hard on a shank of my hair to get me back where I was—and the violence of the motion sent unexpected needles of pain digging into my scalp.
I cried out as I flinched, and that made me choke. I tried to steady myself and control my breathing, but then I felt a hard shove. All of a sudden, I was falling backward. I reached my hands back to steady myself, but still managed to whack my shoulder blade hard on the windowsill before landing flat on my ass with a startled, frustrated yelp.
My sad little noise, however, was totally overshadowed by the look of complete horror on Cole’s face.
“Kat,” he said, his voice as ripped and destroyed as his expression.
I tried to stand and go to him, but he’d knocked the wind out of me when he shoved me backward, and I couldn’t make a sound. All I could do was reach for him, but he stared at my hand as if it would bite him.
Slowly—like a man fighting for every ounce of control—he shook his head. “I should never have—Jesus, Kat, I told you. Didn’t I goddamn fucking tell you that I’d go too far? That I’d hurt you?”
“No.” The word came out hoarse, my breath still off and my throat raw.
He looked pale, battered, and when he lifted his hand and saw strands of wavy blond hair still twined between his fingers, I thought he was going to throw up.
He backed away from me, and I couldn’t seem to move. It was as if I was trapped in amber, watching some horrific moment in history.
Then he was zipping his fly and buckling his belt. He reached into his pocket and tossed his keys onto my floor. “I have to go.”
“Cole, no!” That time, the words burst out of me, and there was no disguising my fear. Not of the man, but of him walking out that door.
Cole, however, heard only the fear.
“Take the Range Rover. Get yourself home. And here,” he added, pulling off his shirt and tossing it at me. “I fucking destroyed the one you were wearing.”
“Don’t go,” I said, and when I reached up to brush away an escaping tear, I realized that I’d been crying all along.
He paused in the doorway, and there was nothing for me to read on his face—nothing at all.
He looked at me for one long moment, and then he left the house and walked out into the night, leaving me numb and alone and terrified that somehow the universe had shifted and we’d lost each other even before we’d really had a chance to begin.
For most of the night, I’d been numb.
I’d called his cell phone at least nine times during the night, but I’d gotten no answer. I’d gone to his house. I’d gone to Destiny. I’d gone to the gallery. I’d gone to every other business the knights owned, and every bar I knew that Cole ever frequented.
