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Mason, E, LT 2nd: How is your mom anyways? I would literally swim the few thousand klicks of vacuum between Alexander and Hypatia for some of her dessert
ByteMe: Yeah, I always knew what you were really at my place for.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Hey, you should thank her. I owe this manly physique almost entirely to her home cooking
Mason, E, LT 2nd: *flexes*
ByteMe: I was totally just in it for your manly physique, u know. I watched so many boring geeball games for that physique. And all before u even asked me out
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Boring? Ok NOW you’re hurting my feelings.
ByteMe: i’m flattering you, idiot.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: You know, you’ve REALLY gotta think of a better pet name for me than “idiot.”
Mason, E, LT 2nd: What about “sweetiepuff”
Mason, E, LT 2nd: “sugarpants”?
Mason, E, LT 2nd: NONO WAIT. “CUDDLEPIE”
ByteMe: I will hack the Alexander comms system and let them know you prefer to be known as Cuddlepie immediately, my love
Mason, E, LT 2nd: noooooooooooooooo
ByteMe: u look as good in your uniform as you did in your geeball gear? if not please lie.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Well the pants are tighter, if that counts for anything
ByteMe: mmmmm go on
Mason, E, LT 2nd: u sure?
Mason, E, LT 2nd: We’d need waaaay more than seven minutes for that ;)
ByteMe: Always took about 2 mins as I recall
Mason, E, LT 2nd: 0_o
ByteMe: Set yourself up for that one son.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: …
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Well played, madam.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Well played indeed
ByteMe: speaking of 7 mins, time to split
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Yeah
Mason, E, LT 2nd: i miss you, you know
ByteMe: you too
ByteMe: and seriously, things r only going to get more intense. be calm. be smart.
ByteMe: stay safe, shnookums
Mason, E, LT 2nd: see now you’re just being silly
COUNTDOWN TO LINCOLN INTERCEPTION
OF ALEXANDER FLEET: 58 hours: 41 minutes
Date: 07/27/75
Text: alone
I’m not ready to die.
If the Lincoln catches us, she’ll destroy us. There’s simply no other reason she’d chase us for months on end if it wasn’t to hide the last of the evidence. Wipe out the only witnesses with a chance to tell the universe BeiTech attacked another corp, hijacked their illegal processing plant and oh yes killed thousands of people.
That, or we’re on the lam because the Lincoln’s captain is secretly Torrence’s angry ex-girlfriend and they have unfinished business. He’s totally the kind of guy who’d leave the toilet seat up.
I think my jokes are getting worse. Weirder, anyway. The sleep dep is really getting to me. But I can’t miss a chance to peek inside AIDAN and help out Byron, and that means jumping onto a new ID every time a tech takes a break. And in the spare minutes I’m supposed to be sleeping, I’m thinking about what we might find if we make it out of this alive instead.
I figure it this way: WUC’s operation on Kerenza was illegal, so they can’t tell the UTA we stopped reporting in. When Kerenza was attacked, our alarms would’ve been relayed through the closest waypoint, and then on to Heimdall Station. But the only ship that showed up—the Alexander—was on patrol nearby. Which means our SOS never made it out of the system. And if Heimdall didn’t send the cavalry, that has to mean the station itself was taken as part of the BT attack. Which means my dad might be dead. I am not okay with that.
I am NOT OKAY WITH THAT.
We’ll never make it as far as Heimdall, says my brain, and if we do, Heimdall’s been taken anyway. It says nobody made it off the Copernicus alive—or not alive in any way I’d recognize. I lie in my bunk, pretending I’m at home, and just return those thoughts to sender. They show up, and try to get their claws into me, and with a mental NO I push them back. Force myself somewhere safer. Counting rivets. Tugging at the loose threads along the edge of my sheet, winding them so tight around my fingers my nails turn blue.
But deep down, I know it. The truth. Nobody’s coming for us. The place we’re running to probably isn’t safe. And there’s nobody I can trust in this equation except Ezra and Byron. But Byron’s hands are tied, and E’s along with him. So if we’re going to find out exactly what happened to the Copernicus, and why, it has to be me.
If we had to, could the Hypatia outrun the Alexander?
Is anyone who made it off the Copernicus still sane? Or even alive?
Are they alive, at Heimdall?
I’m not ready to die just yet. Too many things left to do.
No way I am getting short-changed.
Ezra loves me. I mean, maybe I’m an idiot and it’s just his fear and desperation talking, but I don’t think so. I don’t care if it is, I need him. Being angry at him because he didn’t want to leave Kerenza … seems kind of small, now.
It was so good, when we were together. It was right. We should have fronted up to the problem, not screamed at each other and avoided it. We should have fought for it, instead of giving up and making out all the time.
I should have been big enough to tell him what he meant to me.
Now I get to tell him in 7 minute bursts.
I try to reach out and connect, to remind him however I can, in my own super awkward way, that I’m here. That if he does something dumb over there, there’s one person left who cares.
Care doesn’t cover it.
If I lose Ezra too, it’ll be one body blow too many.
ByteMe: Yeah, I always knew what you were really at my place for.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Hey, you should thank her. I owe this manly physique almost entirely to her home cooking
Mason, E, LT 2nd: *flexes*
ByteMe: I was totally just in it for your manly physique, u know. I watched so many boring geeball games for that physique. And all before u even asked me out
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Boring? Ok NOW you’re hurting my feelings.
ByteMe: i’m flattering you, idiot.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: You know, you’ve REALLY gotta think of a better pet name for me than “idiot.”
Mason, E, LT 2nd: What about “sweetiepuff”
Mason, E, LT 2nd: “sugarpants”?
Mason, E, LT 2nd: NONO WAIT. “CUDDLEPIE”
ByteMe: I will hack the Alexander comms system and let them know you prefer to be known as Cuddlepie immediately, my love
Mason, E, LT 2nd: noooooooooooooooo
ByteMe: u look as good in your uniform as you did in your geeball gear? if not please lie.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Well the pants are tighter, if that counts for anything
ByteMe: mmmmm go on
Mason, E, LT 2nd: u sure?
Mason, E, LT 2nd: We’d need waaaay more than seven minutes for that ;)
ByteMe: Always took about 2 mins as I recall
Mason, E, LT 2nd: 0_o
ByteMe: Set yourself up for that one son.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: …
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Well played, madam.
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Well played indeed
ByteMe: speaking of 7 mins, time to split
Mason, E, LT 2nd: Yeah
Mason, E, LT 2nd: i miss you, you know
ByteMe: you too
ByteMe: and seriously, things r only going to get more intense. be calm. be smart.
ByteMe: stay safe, shnookums
Mason, E, LT 2nd: see now you’re just being silly
COUNTDOWN TO LINCOLN INTERCEPTION
OF ALEXANDER FLEET: 58 hours: 41 minutes
Date: 07/27/75
Text: alone
I’m not ready to die.
If the Lincoln catches us, she’ll destroy us. There’s simply no other reason she’d chase us for months on end if it wasn’t to hide the last of the evidence. Wipe out the only witnesses with a chance to tell the universe BeiTech attacked another corp, hijacked their illegal processing plant and oh yes killed thousands of people.
That, or we’re on the lam because the Lincoln’s captain is secretly Torrence’s angry ex-girlfriend and they have unfinished business. He’s totally the kind of guy who’d leave the toilet seat up.
I think my jokes are getting worse. Weirder, anyway. The sleep dep is really getting to me. But I can’t miss a chance to peek inside AIDAN and help out Byron, and that means jumping onto a new ID every time a tech takes a break. And in the spare minutes I’m supposed to be sleeping, I’m thinking about what we might find if we make it out of this alive instead.
I figure it this way: WUC’s operation on Kerenza was illegal, so they can’t tell the UTA we stopped reporting in. When Kerenza was attacked, our alarms would’ve been relayed through the closest waypoint, and then on to Heimdall Station. But the only ship that showed up—the Alexander—was on patrol nearby. Which means our SOS never made it out of the system. And if Heimdall didn’t send the cavalry, that has to mean the station itself was taken as part of the BT attack. Which means my dad might be dead. I am not okay with that.
I am NOT OKAY WITH THAT.
We’ll never make it as far as Heimdall, says my brain, and if we do, Heimdall’s been taken anyway. It says nobody made it off the Copernicus alive—or not alive in any way I’d recognize. I lie in my bunk, pretending I’m at home, and just return those thoughts to sender. They show up, and try to get their claws into me, and with a mental NO I push them back. Force myself somewhere safer. Counting rivets. Tugging at the loose threads along the edge of my sheet, winding them so tight around my fingers my nails turn blue.
But deep down, I know it. The truth. Nobody’s coming for us. The place we’re running to probably isn’t safe. And there’s nobody I can trust in this equation except Ezra and Byron. But Byron’s hands are tied, and E’s along with him. So if we’re going to find out exactly what happened to the Copernicus, and why, it has to be me.
If we had to, could the Hypatia outrun the Alexander?
Is anyone who made it off the Copernicus still sane? Or even alive?
Are they alive, at Heimdall?
I’m not ready to die just yet. Too many things left to do.
No way I am getting short-changed.
Ezra loves me. I mean, maybe I’m an idiot and it’s just his fear and desperation talking, but I don’t think so. I don’t care if it is, I need him. Being angry at him because he didn’t want to leave Kerenza … seems kind of small, now.
It was so good, when we were together. It was right. We should have fronted up to the problem, not screamed at each other and avoided it. We should have fought for it, instead of giving up and making out all the time.
I should have been big enough to tell him what he meant to me.
Now I get to tell him in 7 minute bursts.
I try to reach out and connect, to remind him however I can, in my own super awkward way, that I’m here. That if he does something dumb over there, there’s one person left who cares.
Care doesn’t cover it.
If I lose Ezra too, it’ll be one body blow too many.
