Inner Harbor
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"Because I was hers?"
"Partly." She had to be honest, had to give him that, at least. "She was never kind, Seth. Something was twisted in her. It seemed that she could never be happy unless the people closest to her weren't. I didn't want her back in my life. I'd planned to give her a day or two, then arrange to have the two of you moved to a shelter. That way I would fulfill my family obligation and protect my own lifestyle."
"But you didn't."
"I made excuses at first. Just one more night. Then I admitted that I was letting her stay because I wanted to keep you there. If I found her a job, helped her get an apartment, worked with her to put her life back together, I could keep you close. I'd never had--you were the…"
She ordered herself to take one cleansing breath and just say it. "You loved me. You were the first person who ever did. I didn't want to lose that. And when I did, I pulled myself back, right back to where I'd been before you came. I was thinking much more of myself than of you. I'd like to make up for that, a little, by thinking of you now."
He looked away from her, down at the feet he was kicking back and forth over the water. "Phil said how she called and you told her to kiss ass."
"Not precisely in those words."
"But that's what you meant, right?"
"I guess it was." She nearly smiled. "Yes."
"You guys got the same mother, right, but, like, different fathers?"
"Yes, that's right."
"Do you know who my father was?"
"I never met him, no."
"No, I mean do you know who he was? She was always making up different guys and names and shit. And stuff," he corrected. "I just wondered, that's all."
"I only know his name was Jeremy DeLauter. They weren't married long, and--"
"Married?" His gaze flew back to hers. "She never got married. She was just BS-ing you."
"No, I saw the marriage license. She had it with her when she came to New York. She thought I could help her track him down and sue him for child support."
He considered a moment, absorbing the possibility. "Maybe. It doesn't matter. I figured she just took the name from some guy she lived with sometime. If he got hooked up with her, he must've been a loser."
"I could arrange for a search. I'm sure we could locate him. It would take some time."
"I don't want that." There wasn't any panic in his voice, just disinterest. "I was just wondering if you knew him, that's all. I got a family now." He lifted his arm as Foolish nosed into his armpit, and wrapped it around the dog's neck.
"Yes, you do." Aching a little, she started to rise. She hesitated, her eye drawn toward a flash of white. She saw the heron soar, gliding over the water just at the edge of the trees. Then it was gone, around the bend, leaving barely a ripple on the air.
A lovely thing, she thought. A lovely spot. A harbor for troubled souls, for young boys who only needed a chance to become men. Perhaps she couldn't thank Ray and Stella Quinn for what they'd done here, but she could show her gratitude by stepping aside now and letting their sons finish the job with Seth.
"Well, I should go."
"The art stuff you gave me, it's really great."
"I'm glad you like it. You have talent."
"I fooled around some with the charcoal last night."
She hesitated again. "Oh?"
"I'm not getting it right." He twisted his head to look up at her. "It's a lot different than a pencil. Maybe you could show me how to do it."
She stared hard over the water because she knew he wasn't asking. He was offering. Now, it seemed, she was being given a chance, and a choice.
"Yes, I could show you."
"Now?"
"Yes." She concentrated on keeping her voice even. "I could show you now."
"Cool."
Chapter Nineteen
so, he'd been a little hard on her, Phillip told himself. Maybe he felt that she should have told him immediately that Gloria had contacted her. Party or no party, she could have taken him aside and filled him in. But he shouldn't have jumped all over her and then walked out.
Still, in his own defense, he'd felt raw and annoyed and unsettled. He'd spent the first part of the night worried about her, and the second part worried about himself. Was he supposed to be happy that she'd wormed her way through his defenses? Was he supposed to jump for joy that in a matter of weeks she'd managed to drill a hole in the highly polished shield he'd maintained so expertly for over thirty years?
He didn't think so.
But he was willing to admit that he hadn't behaved well. He was even willing to offer a peace token in the form of vintage champagne and long-stemmed roses.
He'd packed the basket himself. Two bottles of Dom, well chilled, two crystal flutes--he wasn't about to insult that brilliant French monk with hotel glasses--the beluga he'd craftily hidden, for just such an occasion, inside an empty carton of plain low-fat yogurt, knowing that no one in his family would touch it.
He'd made the toast points himself and had selected both the blush-pink roses and the vase with care.
He thought she might be a tad resistant to the visit. It never hurt to pave the way with champagne and flowers. And since he intended to do a little worming himself, they couldn't hurt. He was going to loosen her up, he decided, talk to her, and more, get her talking. He wasn't leaving until he had a much clearer view on just who Sybill Griffin was.
He rapped cheerfully on her door. That was going to be his approach--casual cheer. He shot a quick, charming smile at the peephole when he heard footsteps, saw the vague, telltale shadow.
And he stood as those footsteps receded.
Okay. Maybe more than a tad resistant, he concluded, and knocked again.
"Come on, Sybill. I know you're there. I want to talk to you."
Silence, he discovered, didn't have to be empty. It could be crowded with ice.
Okay, fine, he thought, scowling at the door. She wanted to do it the hard way.
He set the basket beside the door, then marched back down the hall to the fire stairs and started down. For what he had in mind it was wiser not to be seen leaving the lobby.
"Ticked her off good, didn't you?" Ray commented as he jogged down the steps beside his son.
"Partly." She had to be honest, had to give him that, at least. "She was never kind, Seth. Something was twisted in her. It seemed that she could never be happy unless the people closest to her weren't. I didn't want her back in my life. I'd planned to give her a day or two, then arrange to have the two of you moved to a shelter. That way I would fulfill my family obligation and protect my own lifestyle."
"But you didn't."
"I made excuses at first. Just one more night. Then I admitted that I was letting her stay because I wanted to keep you there. If I found her a job, helped her get an apartment, worked with her to put her life back together, I could keep you close. I'd never had--you were the…"
She ordered herself to take one cleansing breath and just say it. "You loved me. You were the first person who ever did. I didn't want to lose that. And when I did, I pulled myself back, right back to where I'd been before you came. I was thinking much more of myself than of you. I'd like to make up for that, a little, by thinking of you now."
He looked away from her, down at the feet he was kicking back and forth over the water. "Phil said how she called and you told her to kiss ass."
"Not precisely in those words."
"But that's what you meant, right?"
"I guess it was." She nearly smiled. "Yes."
"You guys got the same mother, right, but, like, different fathers?"
"Yes, that's right."
"Do you know who my father was?"
"I never met him, no."
"No, I mean do you know who he was? She was always making up different guys and names and shit. And stuff," he corrected. "I just wondered, that's all."
"I only know his name was Jeremy DeLauter. They weren't married long, and--"
"Married?" His gaze flew back to hers. "She never got married. She was just BS-ing you."
"No, I saw the marriage license. She had it with her when she came to New York. She thought I could help her track him down and sue him for child support."
He considered a moment, absorbing the possibility. "Maybe. It doesn't matter. I figured she just took the name from some guy she lived with sometime. If he got hooked up with her, he must've been a loser."
"I could arrange for a search. I'm sure we could locate him. It would take some time."
"I don't want that." There wasn't any panic in his voice, just disinterest. "I was just wondering if you knew him, that's all. I got a family now." He lifted his arm as Foolish nosed into his armpit, and wrapped it around the dog's neck.
"Yes, you do." Aching a little, she started to rise. She hesitated, her eye drawn toward a flash of white. She saw the heron soar, gliding over the water just at the edge of the trees. Then it was gone, around the bend, leaving barely a ripple on the air.
A lovely thing, she thought. A lovely spot. A harbor for troubled souls, for young boys who only needed a chance to become men. Perhaps she couldn't thank Ray and Stella Quinn for what they'd done here, but she could show her gratitude by stepping aside now and letting their sons finish the job with Seth.
"Well, I should go."
"The art stuff you gave me, it's really great."
"I'm glad you like it. You have talent."
"I fooled around some with the charcoal last night."
She hesitated again. "Oh?"
"I'm not getting it right." He twisted his head to look up at her. "It's a lot different than a pencil. Maybe you could show me how to do it."
She stared hard over the water because she knew he wasn't asking. He was offering. Now, it seemed, she was being given a chance, and a choice.
"Yes, I could show you."
"Now?"
"Yes." She concentrated on keeping her voice even. "I could show you now."
"Cool."
Chapter Nineteen
so, he'd been a little hard on her, Phillip told himself. Maybe he felt that she should have told him immediately that Gloria had contacted her. Party or no party, she could have taken him aside and filled him in. But he shouldn't have jumped all over her and then walked out.
Still, in his own defense, he'd felt raw and annoyed and unsettled. He'd spent the first part of the night worried about her, and the second part worried about himself. Was he supposed to be happy that she'd wormed her way through his defenses? Was he supposed to jump for joy that in a matter of weeks she'd managed to drill a hole in the highly polished shield he'd maintained so expertly for over thirty years?
He didn't think so.
But he was willing to admit that he hadn't behaved well. He was even willing to offer a peace token in the form of vintage champagne and long-stemmed roses.
He'd packed the basket himself. Two bottles of Dom, well chilled, two crystal flutes--he wasn't about to insult that brilliant French monk with hotel glasses--the beluga he'd craftily hidden, for just such an occasion, inside an empty carton of plain low-fat yogurt, knowing that no one in his family would touch it.
He'd made the toast points himself and had selected both the blush-pink roses and the vase with care.
He thought she might be a tad resistant to the visit. It never hurt to pave the way with champagne and flowers. And since he intended to do a little worming himself, they couldn't hurt. He was going to loosen her up, he decided, talk to her, and more, get her talking. He wasn't leaving until he had a much clearer view on just who Sybill Griffin was.
He rapped cheerfully on her door. That was going to be his approach--casual cheer. He shot a quick, charming smile at the peephole when he heard footsteps, saw the vague, telltale shadow.
And he stood as those footsteps receded.
Okay. Maybe more than a tad resistant, he concluded, and knocked again.
"Come on, Sybill. I know you're there. I want to talk to you."
Silence, he discovered, didn't have to be empty. It could be crowded with ice.
Okay, fine, he thought, scowling at the door. She wanted to do it the hard way.
He set the basket beside the door, then marched back down the hall to the fire stairs and started down. For what he had in mind it was wiser not to be seen leaving the lobby.
"Ticked her off good, didn't you?" Ray commented as he jogged down the steps beside his son.
