It Ends with Us
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What a tease.
“You asshole!” I yell after him.
“I’m not an asshole!” he yells from my bedroom. “I’m a highly trained neurosurgeon!”
I laugh and pour myself another glass of wine.
I’ll show him who the tease really is.
• • •
I’m on my third glass of wine when he walks out of my bedroom.
I’m on the phone with my mother, so I watch him from the couch as he makes his way to the kitchen and pours himself another glass.
That is some seriously good wine.
“What are you doing tonight?” my mother asks.
I have her on speakerphone. Ryle is leaning against a wall, watching me talk to her. “Not much. Helping Ryle study.”
“That sounds . . . not very interesting,” she says.
Ryle winks at me.
“It’s actually very interesting,” I say to her. “I help him study a lot. Mostly reviewing fine-motor control of the hands. In fact, we’ll probably be up all night studying.”
The three glasses of wine has made me frisky. I can’t believe I’m flirting with him while I’m on the phone with my mother. Gross.
“I gotta go,” I tell her. “We’re taking Allysa and Marshall out to dinner tomorrow night, so I’ll call you on Monday.”
“Oh, where are you taking them?”
I roll my eyes. The woman can’t take a hint. “I don’t know. Ryle, where are we taking them?”
“That place we went to that one time with your mom,” he says. “Bib’s? I made reservations for six o’clock.”
My heart feels like it slinks down my chest. My mother says, “Oh, good choice.”
“Yeah. If you like stale bread. Bye, Mom.” I hang up and look at Ryle. “I don’t want to go back there. I didn’t like it. Let’s try something new.”
I fail to tell him why I really don’t want to go back there. But how do you tell your brand-new boyfriend that you’re trying to avoid your first love?
Ryle pushes off the wall. “You’ll be fine,” he says. “Allysa’s excited to eat there, I told her all about it.”
Maybe I’ll get lucky and Atlas won’t be working.
“Speaking of food,” Ryle says. “I’m starving.”
The casserole!
“Oh shit!” I say, laughing.
Ryle rushes to the kitchen and I stand up and follow him in there. I walk in just as he pulls the oven door open and waves away the smoke. Ruined.
I get dizzy all of a sudden from standing up too fast after having three glasses of wine. I grab the counter beside him to steady myself, just as he reaches in to pull the burnt casserole out.
“Ryle! You need a . . .”
“Shit!” he yells.
“Pot holder.”
The casserole falls from his hand and lands on the floor, shattering everywhere. I lift up my feet to avoid broken glass and mushroom chicken splatter. I start laughing as soon as I realize he didn’t even think to use a pot holder.
Must be the wine. This is some seriously strong wine.
He slams the oven shut and moves to the faucet, shoving his hand under the cold water, muttering curse words. I’m trying to suppress my laughter, but the wine and the ridiculousness of the last few seconds are making it hard. I look at the floor—at the mess we’re about to have to clean up—and the laughter bursts from me. I’m still laughing as I lean over to get a look at Ryle’s hand. I hope he didn’t hurt it too bad.
I’m instantly not laughing anymore. I’m on the floor, my hand pressed against the corner of my eye.
In a matter of one second, Ryle’s arm came out of nowhere and slammed against me, knocking me backward. There was enough force behind it to knock me off balance. When I lost my footing, I hit my face on one of the cabinet door handles as I came down.
Pain shoots through the corner of my eye, right near my temple.
And then I feel the weight.
Heaviness follows and it presses down on every part of me. So much gravity, pushing down on my emotions. Everything shatters.
My tears, my heart, my laughter, my soul. Shattered like broken glass, raining down around me.
I wrap my arms over my head and try to wish away the last ten seconds.
“Goddammit, Lily,” I hear him say. “It’s not funny. This hand is my fucking career.”
I don’t look up at him. His voice doesn’t penetrate through my body this time. It feels like it’s stabbing me now, the sharpness of each of his words coming at me like swords. Then I feel him next to me, his goddamn hand on my back.
Rubbing.
“Lily,” he says. “Oh, God. Lily.” He tries to pull my arms from my head, but I refuse to budge. I start shaking my head, wanting the last fifteen seconds to go away. Fifteen seconds. That’s all it takes to completely change everything about a person.
Fifteen seconds that we’ll never get back.
He pulls me against him and starts kissing the top of my head. “I’m so sorry. I just . . . I burned my hand. I panicked. You were laughing and . . . I’m so sorry, it all happened so fast. I didn’t mean to push you, Lily, I’m sorry.”
I don’t hear Ryle’s voice this time. All I hear is my father’s voice.
“I’m sorry, Jenny. It was an accident. I’m so sorry.”
“I’m sorry, Lily. It was an accident. I’m so sorry.”
I just want him away from me. I use every ounce of strength I have in both my hands and legs and I force him the fuck away from me.
He falls backward, onto his hands. His eyes are full of genuine sorrow, but then they’re full of something else.
“You asshole!” I yell after him.
“I’m not an asshole!” he yells from my bedroom. “I’m a highly trained neurosurgeon!”
I laugh and pour myself another glass of wine.
I’ll show him who the tease really is.
• • •
I’m on my third glass of wine when he walks out of my bedroom.
I’m on the phone with my mother, so I watch him from the couch as he makes his way to the kitchen and pours himself another glass.
That is some seriously good wine.
“What are you doing tonight?” my mother asks.
I have her on speakerphone. Ryle is leaning against a wall, watching me talk to her. “Not much. Helping Ryle study.”
“That sounds . . . not very interesting,” she says.
Ryle winks at me.
“It’s actually very interesting,” I say to her. “I help him study a lot. Mostly reviewing fine-motor control of the hands. In fact, we’ll probably be up all night studying.”
The three glasses of wine has made me frisky. I can’t believe I’m flirting with him while I’m on the phone with my mother. Gross.
“I gotta go,” I tell her. “We’re taking Allysa and Marshall out to dinner tomorrow night, so I’ll call you on Monday.”
“Oh, where are you taking them?”
I roll my eyes. The woman can’t take a hint. “I don’t know. Ryle, where are we taking them?”
“That place we went to that one time with your mom,” he says. “Bib’s? I made reservations for six o’clock.”
My heart feels like it slinks down my chest. My mother says, “Oh, good choice.”
“Yeah. If you like stale bread. Bye, Mom.” I hang up and look at Ryle. “I don’t want to go back there. I didn’t like it. Let’s try something new.”
I fail to tell him why I really don’t want to go back there. But how do you tell your brand-new boyfriend that you’re trying to avoid your first love?
Ryle pushes off the wall. “You’ll be fine,” he says. “Allysa’s excited to eat there, I told her all about it.”
Maybe I’ll get lucky and Atlas won’t be working.
“Speaking of food,” Ryle says. “I’m starving.”
The casserole!
“Oh shit!” I say, laughing.
Ryle rushes to the kitchen and I stand up and follow him in there. I walk in just as he pulls the oven door open and waves away the smoke. Ruined.
I get dizzy all of a sudden from standing up too fast after having three glasses of wine. I grab the counter beside him to steady myself, just as he reaches in to pull the burnt casserole out.
“Ryle! You need a . . .”
“Shit!” he yells.
“Pot holder.”
The casserole falls from his hand and lands on the floor, shattering everywhere. I lift up my feet to avoid broken glass and mushroom chicken splatter. I start laughing as soon as I realize he didn’t even think to use a pot holder.
Must be the wine. This is some seriously strong wine.
He slams the oven shut and moves to the faucet, shoving his hand under the cold water, muttering curse words. I’m trying to suppress my laughter, but the wine and the ridiculousness of the last few seconds are making it hard. I look at the floor—at the mess we’re about to have to clean up—and the laughter bursts from me. I’m still laughing as I lean over to get a look at Ryle’s hand. I hope he didn’t hurt it too bad.
I’m instantly not laughing anymore. I’m on the floor, my hand pressed against the corner of my eye.
In a matter of one second, Ryle’s arm came out of nowhere and slammed against me, knocking me backward. There was enough force behind it to knock me off balance. When I lost my footing, I hit my face on one of the cabinet door handles as I came down.
Pain shoots through the corner of my eye, right near my temple.
And then I feel the weight.
Heaviness follows and it presses down on every part of me. So much gravity, pushing down on my emotions. Everything shatters.
My tears, my heart, my laughter, my soul. Shattered like broken glass, raining down around me.
I wrap my arms over my head and try to wish away the last ten seconds.
“Goddammit, Lily,” I hear him say. “It’s not funny. This hand is my fucking career.”
I don’t look up at him. His voice doesn’t penetrate through my body this time. It feels like it’s stabbing me now, the sharpness of each of his words coming at me like swords. Then I feel him next to me, his goddamn hand on my back.
Rubbing.
“Lily,” he says. “Oh, God. Lily.” He tries to pull my arms from my head, but I refuse to budge. I start shaking my head, wanting the last fifteen seconds to go away. Fifteen seconds. That’s all it takes to completely change everything about a person.
Fifteen seconds that we’ll never get back.
He pulls me against him and starts kissing the top of my head. “I’m so sorry. I just . . . I burned my hand. I panicked. You were laughing and . . . I’m so sorry, it all happened so fast. I didn’t mean to push you, Lily, I’m sorry.”
I don’t hear Ryle’s voice this time. All I hear is my father’s voice.
“I’m sorry, Jenny. It was an accident. I’m so sorry.”
“I’m sorry, Lily. It was an accident. I’m so sorry.”
I just want him away from me. I use every ounce of strength I have in both my hands and legs and I force him the fuck away from me.
He falls backward, onto his hands. His eyes are full of genuine sorrow, but then they’re full of something else.
