Magic Binds
Page 37
Her body shook. My father’s seal held. I gritted my teeth, pouring magic into her. It pulled her from the brink of death, but she was still his.
“I swore an oath, Sharrim . . .” she whispered. “He’s Sharrum . . .”
“He isn’t here. This is my domain. Here I’m Sharratum. Here I rule. My word is the only word that matters.”
The pressure of my power had ground the seal to almost nothing, but couldn’t pierce it. It needed to be broken from within. I needed movement or words, some sort of indication, some specific action I could make her do. If she acknowledged and obeyed, it would shatter the seal like the strike of a dagger.
“Rise.”
She screamed.
“Rise.”
Convulsions gripped her. She needed help. She’d lost too much blood.
I put my hand above her chest, the surface of my palm a prism through which I focused on the blood inside her. It felt . . . right. I sensed her heart beating and my blood spreading through her like fire. It pumped and each pulse set the intricate net of her capillaries aglow.
Magic bubbled up from somewhere deep within me and flowed out into her. Her body straightened, pulled by my power.
“Rise.”
The seal shattered in an explosion of power. She rolled to her feet and stood.
Her voice came out strained, in tortured gasps. “My life . . . for you, Sharratum.”
She swayed, but stayed upright. Blood soaked the entire front of her coat. I could seal her and she would be completely mine. The groundwork was already there.
No. Curran wouldn’t like that.
“Your life is your own. I don’t want it. You’re no longer a slave.”
I let go. She collapsed on the bridge.
I turned around. Derek stood completely motionless four feet away from me. I’d been concentrating on her so hard, I hadn’t heard him walk over. Behind him Ascanio stared at me, his face shocked even in half-form. Holland gripped his sword, watching me like I was rabid.
Damn it. I did it again. I let the magic drag me under. How the hell did it even happen . . . ?
“Sharrim,” the woman on the ground whispered. “Let me serve you, Sharrim. My life is yours. My will is yours. Kill me.”
Oh crap. Crap.
“Everything I am is yours. All I ask is a good death.”
“Why do you keep doing this?” Derek snarled.
“I haven’t done anything.”
His eyes glowed bright yellow. He bared his teeth, his muzzle wrinkling in an ugly snarl. The fur on his back rose. “Do you think it’s fucking easy for Julie? She never forgets that you can override her will with one word. She feels you. Always! Every fucking second of every day.”
Julie knew. She knew.
“She already loves you as much as she can. I would die fighting for you.” He stabbed his clawed hand at Ascanio. “He would die for you. Isn’t it fucking enough, Kate? How much love and devotion do you need that you keep making slaves?”
It felt like he had stabbed me.
“I didn’t make her into a slave.”
“She’s bleeding out and all she wants is for you to love her and kill her. What the hell do you call that?”
“I didn’t enslave her! My father did. I broke their bond. She’s free now.”
“I’m so sorry, Sharrim,” the woman on the ground whispered. “I didn’t mean to make things difficult.”
“Will you obey any order she gives?” Derek snarled.
“Yes.”
Derek pointed to her. “Don’t lie to me, Kate. I’ll do almost anything for you, but don’t lie to me!”
He didn’t believe me. He was right there when it happened and he didn’t believe me. Curran wouldn’t believe me either. Julie knew she couldn’t refuse my orders. Everything I built was collapsing around me.
The magic tore out of me and I screamed into it. The land screamed with me. Water shot up from the river, the trees jerked up as if pulled straight by an invisible hand, and every weed stood perfectly straight. Derek clamped his hands onto the bridge rail. Holland flew back. Ascanio caught him and spun him around, grabbing the rail and shielding the deputy with his back.
I screamed, the frustration boiling out of me until it was finally gone.
Water collapsed back into the river, drenching us with spray.
I had to fix this. I had no idea how and I was suddenly so tired.
I exhaled and turned to Derek. “Have I ever lied to you?”
He didn’t answer.
“Have I ever lied to you, Derek?”
“No.”
“I’m telling you right now I didn’t turn her into a slave. I could’ve, but I didn’t. I don’t know what she is. I don’t understand why she is acting this way. But we’re going to find out. Pick her up. We’ll take her to a medmage and when she’s better, we can ask her questions.”
He stared at me.
“If you won’t carry her, then I will,” I told him. “But she would be more comfortable with you because you’re stronger. Or you can walk away. That will be fine, too.”
Derek scooped the woman off the bridge. Ascanio picked up the old woman’s head.
We started down the path back to civilization.
I’d fucked up. I didn’t cross the line but I came close enough to see the abyss at the bottom. Explaining this to Curran would be really difficult. Derek was right there and he didn’t believe me.
“What’s your name?” I asked the woman.
“Adora.”
“We’re going to take you to the emergency room, where a medmage will work on you. Please don’t tell the medmage anything about my father or me. If he asks how you got this wound, tell him to ask me.”
“Yes, Sharrim.”
Derek’s eyes shone.
“Also, please don’t call me Sharrim. Call me Kate.”
“Yes, Kate.”
I needed to figure out exactly what she was before I saw Curran, because I didn’t understand it myself and I didn’t want there to be any misunderstandings. I knew what I did and what I didn’t do. If I made it into a “believe me because I am me and you know me” argument, he would give me the benefit of the doubt, but I didn’t want that. I wanted to prove to him with absolute certainty that I hadn’t enslaved this woman. I hadn’t crossed the line. I’d ridden an elephant up to it and run back and forth along its edge while a mariachi band played in the background, but I hadn’t crossed it.
“I swore an oath, Sharrim . . .” she whispered. “He’s Sharrum . . .”
“He isn’t here. This is my domain. Here I’m Sharratum. Here I rule. My word is the only word that matters.”
The pressure of my power had ground the seal to almost nothing, but couldn’t pierce it. It needed to be broken from within. I needed movement or words, some sort of indication, some specific action I could make her do. If she acknowledged and obeyed, it would shatter the seal like the strike of a dagger.
“Rise.”
She screamed.
“Rise.”
Convulsions gripped her. She needed help. She’d lost too much blood.
I put my hand above her chest, the surface of my palm a prism through which I focused on the blood inside her. It felt . . . right. I sensed her heart beating and my blood spreading through her like fire. It pumped and each pulse set the intricate net of her capillaries aglow.
Magic bubbled up from somewhere deep within me and flowed out into her. Her body straightened, pulled by my power.
“Rise.”
The seal shattered in an explosion of power. She rolled to her feet and stood.
Her voice came out strained, in tortured gasps. “My life . . . for you, Sharratum.”
She swayed, but stayed upright. Blood soaked the entire front of her coat. I could seal her and she would be completely mine. The groundwork was already there.
No. Curran wouldn’t like that.
“Your life is your own. I don’t want it. You’re no longer a slave.”
I let go. She collapsed on the bridge.
I turned around. Derek stood completely motionless four feet away from me. I’d been concentrating on her so hard, I hadn’t heard him walk over. Behind him Ascanio stared at me, his face shocked even in half-form. Holland gripped his sword, watching me like I was rabid.
Damn it. I did it again. I let the magic drag me under. How the hell did it even happen . . . ?
“Sharrim,” the woman on the ground whispered. “Let me serve you, Sharrim. My life is yours. My will is yours. Kill me.”
Oh crap. Crap.
“Everything I am is yours. All I ask is a good death.”
“Why do you keep doing this?” Derek snarled.
“I haven’t done anything.”
His eyes glowed bright yellow. He bared his teeth, his muzzle wrinkling in an ugly snarl. The fur on his back rose. “Do you think it’s fucking easy for Julie? She never forgets that you can override her will with one word. She feels you. Always! Every fucking second of every day.”
Julie knew. She knew.
“She already loves you as much as she can. I would die fighting for you.” He stabbed his clawed hand at Ascanio. “He would die for you. Isn’t it fucking enough, Kate? How much love and devotion do you need that you keep making slaves?”
It felt like he had stabbed me.
“I didn’t make her into a slave.”
“She’s bleeding out and all she wants is for you to love her and kill her. What the hell do you call that?”
“I didn’t enslave her! My father did. I broke their bond. She’s free now.”
“I’m so sorry, Sharrim,” the woman on the ground whispered. “I didn’t mean to make things difficult.”
“Will you obey any order she gives?” Derek snarled.
“Yes.”
Derek pointed to her. “Don’t lie to me, Kate. I’ll do almost anything for you, but don’t lie to me!”
He didn’t believe me. He was right there when it happened and he didn’t believe me. Curran wouldn’t believe me either. Julie knew she couldn’t refuse my orders. Everything I built was collapsing around me.
The magic tore out of me and I screamed into it. The land screamed with me. Water shot up from the river, the trees jerked up as if pulled straight by an invisible hand, and every weed stood perfectly straight. Derek clamped his hands onto the bridge rail. Holland flew back. Ascanio caught him and spun him around, grabbing the rail and shielding the deputy with his back.
I screamed, the frustration boiling out of me until it was finally gone.
Water collapsed back into the river, drenching us with spray.
I had to fix this. I had no idea how and I was suddenly so tired.
I exhaled and turned to Derek. “Have I ever lied to you?”
He didn’t answer.
“Have I ever lied to you, Derek?”
“No.”
“I’m telling you right now I didn’t turn her into a slave. I could’ve, but I didn’t. I don’t know what she is. I don’t understand why she is acting this way. But we’re going to find out. Pick her up. We’ll take her to a medmage and when she’s better, we can ask her questions.”
He stared at me.
“If you won’t carry her, then I will,” I told him. “But she would be more comfortable with you because you’re stronger. Or you can walk away. That will be fine, too.”
Derek scooped the woman off the bridge. Ascanio picked up the old woman’s head.
We started down the path back to civilization.
I’d fucked up. I didn’t cross the line but I came close enough to see the abyss at the bottom. Explaining this to Curran would be really difficult. Derek was right there and he didn’t believe me.
“What’s your name?” I asked the woman.
“Adora.”
“We’re going to take you to the emergency room, where a medmage will work on you. Please don’t tell the medmage anything about my father or me. If he asks how you got this wound, tell him to ask me.”
“Yes, Sharrim.”
Derek’s eyes shone.
“Also, please don’t call me Sharrim. Call me Kate.”
“Yes, Kate.”
I needed to figure out exactly what she was before I saw Curran, because I didn’t understand it myself and I didn’t want there to be any misunderstandings. I knew what I did and what I didn’t do. If I made it into a “believe me because I am me and you know me” argument, he would give me the benefit of the doubt, but I didn’t want that. I wanted to prove to him with absolute certainty that I hadn’t enslaved this woman. I hadn’t crossed the line. I’d ridden an elephant up to it and run back and forth along its edge while a mariachi band played in the background, but I hadn’t crossed it.
