My Soul to Take
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And then I saw her. Second from the left, three down from Sophie. A tall, slender girl with honey-brown hair and heavily lashed eyes.
Meredith Cole. The team captain. Shrouded in a shadow so thick I could barely make out her features.
As soon as my eyes found her, my throat began to burn, like Id inhaled bleach fumes. Devastation drenched me, threatening to pull me beneath the surface of despair. And that familiar dark knowledge left me shivering where I sat. Meredith Cole would die very, very soon.
Kaylee, come on. Nash stood, tugging on my arm, trying to pull me up. Lets go.
My throat tightened, and my breaths grew short. My head swam with the bitter chaos building inside me, and my heart felt swollen and heavy with grief. But I couldnt go. I had to tell her. Id let Heidi die, but I could save Meredith. I could warn her, and everything would be okay.
My mouth fell open, but the words didnt come. Instead, a scream clawed at my throat, announcing its arrival with the usual burst of panic, and this time there was nothing I could do to stop it. I couldnt speak; I could only scream. But that wouldnt be enough. I needed words to warn Meredith, not in-articulate shrieking. What good was my gift if I couldnt use it? If all I could do was scream uselessly?
The keening began deep in my throat, so low it felt like my lungs were on fire. Yet the sound was soft at first. Like a whisper I felt more than heard. I clamped my jaws shut in horror as Nashs eyes widened, his irises seeming to churn again in the bright sunlight.
My vision darkened and went dull, as if that same foggy gray filter had been draped over the entire world. The day was dimmer now, the shadows thicker, the air hazy. My own hands looked fuzzy, as if I couldnt quite bring them into focus. Tables, students, and the school building itself were suddenly leached of their vibrancy, like someone had opened a drain at the base of a rainbow and let all the color out.
I stood and clamped a hand over my mouth, begging an oddly faded-looking Nash with my eyes for help. The keening sound rolled up my throat now and stuck there, like a growl, offering no release.
Nash wrapped one arm around my waist and nodded for Emma to take my other side. Calm down, Kaylee, he whispered into my ear, his breath warm against my neck, stirring the fine hairs there. Just relax and listen to
My legs collapsed, even as my gaze was drawn back to Meredith, now dancing between Sophie and a petite blonde I knew only by sight.
Nash scooped me into his arms and held me tight to his chest, still whispering something in my ear. Something familiar. Something that rhymed. His words fell on me with an almost physical presence, soothing me everywhere they touched me, like a balm I could hear.
Yet still the scream raged inside me, demanding a way out, and apparently willing to forge an exit itself, if I offeredno alternative.
Emma walked ahead of us to the end of the English hall and around the corner, out of sight of the quad. No one else noticed; they were all watching the dance squad.
Nash put me down against the short wall at the end of the building, next to a door that only worked as an exit. He sat beside me again, and this time he wrapped his arms around me while Emma knelt next to us. Nash was warm at my back, and the only sounds I could hear were his whispers and my own soft keening, persisting in spite of my struggle to suppress it.
I stared over his shoulder and past Emmas concerned face, at the weirdly gray field house in the distance, concentrating on my efforts to speak without screaming. Something rushed across the left edge of my vision, and my gaze homed in on it automatically, trying to bring it into focus. But it moved too fast, leaving me with only a vague impression of a human silhouette, out of proportion in no way I could explain with so short a glimpse. The figure was misshapen, somehow. Odd-looking. And when I blinked, I could no longer be sure of where Id seen it.
A teacher, probably, rendered unrecognizable by the weird gray fog that had overlaid my vision. I squeezed my eyes shut to avoid any future distractions.
Then, as swiftly as it had struck, the panic faded. Tension drained from my body like air from a beach ball, leaving me limp with relief and fatigue. I opened my eyes to see that color and clarity had returned to the world. My hands relaxed, and the scream died in my throat. But an instant later it tore through the air, and it actually took me a second to realize that the shriek hadnt come from me.
It had come from the quad.
I knew what had happened without even looking. Meredith had collapsed. My urge to scream died the moment she did.
Again, Id known someone was going to die. And again, Id let it happen.
My eyes closed as a fresh wave of shock and grief rolled over me, followed immediately by guilt so heavy I could hardly lift my head. My fault. I should have been able to save her.
More shouts came from the quad, and someone yelled for someone else to call an ambulance. Doors squealed open, then crashed into the side of the brick building. Sneakers pounded on concrete steps.
Tears of shame and frustration poured down my face. I buried my head in Nashs shoulder, heedless as my tears soaked into his shirt. I might as well have killed her myself, for all the good my warning had done.
Around the corner, the buzz of chaos rose, each terrified voice blending into the next. Someone was crying. Someone else was running. And above it all, Mrs. Tucker, the girls softball coach, blew her whistle, trying ineffectively to calm everyone down.
Who is it? Emma asked, still kneeling beside us, eyes wide in shock and understanding as she brushed back a strand of my hair so she could see my face.
Meredith Cole. The team captain. Shrouded in a shadow so thick I could barely make out her features.
As soon as my eyes found her, my throat began to burn, like Id inhaled bleach fumes. Devastation drenched me, threatening to pull me beneath the surface of despair. And that familiar dark knowledge left me shivering where I sat. Meredith Cole would die very, very soon.
Kaylee, come on. Nash stood, tugging on my arm, trying to pull me up. Lets go.
My throat tightened, and my breaths grew short. My head swam with the bitter chaos building inside me, and my heart felt swollen and heavy with grief. But I couldnt go. I had to tell her. Id let Heidi die, but I could save Meredith. I could warn her, and everything would be okay.
My mouth fell open, but the words didnt come. Instead, a scream clawed at my throat, announcing its arrival with the usual burst of panic, and this time there was nothing I could do to stop it. I couldnt speak; I could only scream. But that wouldnt be enough. I needed words to warn Meredith, not in-articulate shrieking. What good was my gift if I couldnt use it? If all I could do was scream uselessly?
The keening began deep in my throat, so low it felt like my lungs were on fire. Yet the sound was soft at first. Like a whisper I felt more than heard. I clamped my jaws shut in horror as Nashs eyes widened, his irises seeming to churn again in the bright sunlight.
My vision darkened and went dull, as if that same foggy gray filter had been draped over the entire world. The day was dimmer now, the shadows thicker, the air hazy. My own hands looked fuzzy, as if I couldnt quite bring them into focus. Tables, students, and the school building itself were suddenly leached of their vibrancy, like someone had opened a drain at the base of a rainbow and let all the color out.
I stood and clamped a hand over my mouth, begging an oddly faded-looking Nash with my eyes for help. The keening sound rolled up my throat now and stuck there, like a growl, offering no release.
Nash wrapped one arm around my waist and nodded for Emma to take my other side. Calm down, Kaylee, he whispered into my ear, his breath warm against my neck, stirring the fine hairs there. Just relax and listen to
My legs collapsed, even as my gaze was drawn back to Meredith, now dancing between Sophie and a petite blonde I knew only by sight.
Nash scooped me into his arms and held me tight to his chest, still whispering something in my ear. Something familiar. Something that rhymed. His words fell on me with an almost physical presence, soothing me everywhere they touched me, like a balm I could hear.
Yet still the scream raged inside me, demanding a way out, and apparently willing to forge an exit itself, if I offeredno alternative.
Emma walked ahead of us to the end of the English hall and around the corner, out of sight of the quad. No one else noticed; they were all watching the dance squad.
Nash put me down against the short wall at the end of the building, next to a door that only worked as an exit. He sat beside me again, and this time he wrapped his arms around me while Emma knelt next to us. Nash was warm at my back, and the only sounds I could hear were his whispers and my own soft keening, persisting in spite of my struggle to suppress it.
I stared over his shoulder and past Emmas concerned face, at the weirdly gray field house in the distance, concentrating on my efforts to speak without screaming. Something rushed across the left edge of my vision, and my gaze homed in on it automatically, trying to bring it into focus. But it moved too fast, leaving me with only a vague impression of a human silhouette, out of proportion in no way I could explain with so short a glimpse. The figure was misshapen, somehow. Odd-looking. And when I blinked, I could no longer be sure of where Id seen it.
A teacher, probably, rendered unrecognizable by the weird gray fog that had overlaid my vision. I squeezed my eyes shut to avoid any future distractions.
Then, as swiftly as it had struck, the panic faded. Tension drained from my body like air from a beach ball, leaving me limp with relief and fatigue. I opened my eyes to see that color and clarity had returned to the world. My hands relaxed, and the scream died in my throat. But an instant later it tore through the air, and it actually took me a second to realize that the shriek hadnt come from me.
It had come from the quad.
I knew what had happened without even looking. Meredith had collapsed. My urge to scream died the moment she did.
Again, Id known someone was going to die. And again, Id let it happen.
My eyes closed as a fresh wave of shock and grief rolled over me, followed immediately by guilt so heavy I could hardly lift my head. My fault. I should have been able to save her.
More shouts came from the quad, and someone yelled for someone else to call an ambulance. Doors squealed open, then crashed into the side of the brick building. Sneakers pounded on concrete steps.
Tears of shame and frustration poured down my face. I buried my head in Nashs shoulder, heedless as my tears soaked into his shirt. I might as well have killed her myself, for all the good my warning had done.
Around the corner, the buzz of chaos rose, each terrified voice blending into the next. Someone was crying. Someone else was running. And above it all, Mrs. Tucker, the girls softball coach, blew her whistle, trying ineffectively to calm everyone down.
Who is it? Emma asked, still kneeling beside us, eyes wide in shock and understanding as she brushed back a strand of my hair so she could see my face.
