My Soul to Take
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My pulse jumped into my throat. Was he leaving early just so he could ride with me? Or had I ruined his evening with my freak-tastic hysterics?
Umyeah. My car was a mess, but it was too late to worry about that. But youll have to flip Emma for shotgun.
Fortunately, that turned out to be unnecessary. Em took the back, shooting me a meaningful glance and pointing at Nash as she slid across the seat, swiping a corn-chip bag onto the floor. I dropped her off first, a full hour and a half before her curfew, which had to be some kind of record.
As I pulled out of Emmas driveway, Nash twisted in the passenger seat to face me, his expression somber, and my heart beat so hard it almost hurt. It was time for the easy letdown. He was too cool to say it in front of Emma, and even with her gone, hed probably be really nice about it. But the bottom line was the same; he wasnt interested in me. At least, not after my public meltdown.
So youve had these panic attacks before?
What? My hands clenched the wheel in surprise as I took a left at the end of the street.
A couple of times. Half a dozen, at least. I couldnt purge suspicion from my voice. My issues should have driven him screaming into the night, and instead he wanted details? Why?
Do your parents know?
I shifted in my seat, as if a new position might make me more comfortable with the question. But it would take much more than that. My mom died when I was little, and my dad couldnt handle me on his own. He moved to Ireland, and Ive been with my aunt and uncle ever since.
Nash blinked and nodded for me to go on. He gave me none of the awkward sympathy or compulsive, Im-not-sure-what-to-say throat-clearing I usually got when people found out Id been half-orphaned, then wholly abandoned. I liked him for that, even if I didnt like where his questions were heading.
So your aunt and uncle know?
Yeah. They think Im one egg shy of a dozen. But the truth hurt too much to say out loud.
I turned to see him watching me closely, and my suspicion flared again, settling to burn deep in my gut. Why did he care what my family knew about my not-so-private misery? Unless he was planning to laugh with his friends later about what a freak I was.
But his interest didnt seem malicious. Especially considering what hed done for me at Taboo. So maybe his curiosity was feigned, and he was after something else to tell his friends about. Something girls rarely denied him, if the rumors were true.
If he didnt get it, would he tell the entire school my darkest, most painful secret?
No. My stomach pitched at the thought, and I hit the brake too hard as we came to a stop sign.
My foot still wedged against the brake, I glanced in the rearview mirror at the empty street behind me, then shifted into Park and turned to face Nash,steeling my nerve for the question to come. What do you want from me? I spat it out before I could change my mind.
Nashs eyes widened in surprise, and he sat back hard against the passengers side door, as if Id shoved him. I justNothing.
You want nothing? I wanted to see the deep greens and browns of his irises, but the beam from the nearest streetlight didnt reach my car, so only the dim light from my dashboard shone on him, and it wasnt enough to illuminate his face. To let me truly read his expression. I can count the number of times weve really spoken before tonight on one hand. I held that hand up for emphasis. Then you come out of nowhere and play white knight to my distressed damsel, and Im supposed to believe you want nothing in return? Nothing to tell your friends about on Monday?
He tried to laugh, but the sound was stilted, and he shifted uncomfortably in his seat. I wouldnt
Save it. Rumor has it youve conquered more territory than Genghis Khan.
A single dark brow rose in the shadows, challenging me. You believe everything you hear?
My eyebrow shot up to mirror his. You denyin it?
Instead of answering, he laughed for real and propped one elbow on the door handle. Are you always this mean to guys who sing to you in dark alleys?
My next retort died on my lips, so surprised was I by the reminder. He had sung to me, and somehow talked me down from a brutal panic attack. Hed saved me from public humiliation. But there had to be a reason, and I wasnt that great of a conquest.
I dont trust you, I said finally, my hands limp and worthless on my lap.
Right now I dont trust you either. He grinned in the dark, flashing pale teeth and a single shadowed dimple, and his open-armed gesture took in the stopped car. Are you kicking me out, or do I get door-to-door service?
Thats the only service you get. But I shifted into Drive and faced the road again, then turned right into his subdivision, which was definitely more than a couple of minutes from my neighborhood. Would he really have walked if Id let him drive me home?
Would he have taken me straight home?
Take this left, then the next right. Its the one on the corner.
His directions led me to a small frame house in an older section of the development. I pulled into the driveway behind a dusty, dented sedan. The drivers side door stood open, spilling light from the interior to illuminate a lopsided square of dry grass to the left of the pavement.
You left your car door open, I said, shifting into Park, glad for something to focus on other than Nash, though thats where my gaze really wanted to be.
Umyeah. My car was a mess, but it was too late to worry about that. But youll have to flip Emma for shotgun.
Fortunately, that turned out to be unnecessary. Em took the back, shooting me a meaningful glance and pointing at Nash as she slid across the seat, swiping a corn-chip bag onto the floor. I dropped her off first, a full hour and a half before her curfew, which had to be some kind of record.
As I pulled out of Emmas driveway, Nash twisted in the passenger seat to face me, his expression somber, and my heart beat so hard it almost hurt. It was time for the easy letdown. He was too cool to say it in front of Emma, and even with her gone, hed probably be really nice about it. But the bottom line was the same; he wasnt interested in me. At least, not after my public meltdown.
So youve had these panic attacks before?
What? My hands clenched the wheel in surprise as I took a left at the end of the street.
A couple of times. Half a dozen, at least. I couldnt purge suspicion from my voice. My issues should have driven him screaming into the night, and instead he wanted details? Why?
Do your parents know?
I shifted in my seat, as if a new position might make me more comfortable with the question. But it would take much more than that. My mom died when I was little, and my dad couldnt handle me on his own. He moved to Ireland, and Ive been with my aunt and uncle ever since.
Nash blinked and nodded for me to go on. He gave me none of the awkward sympathy or compulsive, Im-not-sure-what-to-say throat-clearing I usually got when people found out Id been half-orphaned, then wholly abandoned. I liked him for that, even if I didnt like where his questions were heading.
So your aunt and uncle know?
Yeah. They think Im one egg shy of a dozen. But the truth hurt too much to say out loud.
I turned to see him watching me closely, and my suspicion flared again, settling to burn deep in my gut. Why did he care what my family knew about my not-so-private misery? Unless he was planning to laugh with his friends later about what a freak I was.
But his interest didnt seem malicious. Especially considering what hed done for me at Taboo. So maybe his curiosity was feigned, and he was after something else to tell his friends about. Something girls rarely denied him, if the rumors were true.
If he didnt get it, would he tell the entire school my darkest, most painful secret?
No. My stomach pitched at the thought, and I hit the brake too hard as we came to a stop sign.
My foot still wedged against the brake, I glanced in the rearview mirror at the empty street behind me, then shifted into Park and turned to face Nash,steeling my nerve for the question to come. What do you want from me? I spat it out before I could change my mind.
Nashs eyes widened in surprise, and he sat back hard against the passengers side door, as if Id shoved him. I justNothing.
You want nothing? I wanted to see the deep greens and browns of his irises, but the beam from the nearest streetlight didnt reach my car, so only the dim light from my dashboard shone on him, and it wasnt enough to illuminate his face. To let me truly read his expression. I can count the number of times weve really spoken before tonight on one hand. I held that hand up for emphasis. Then you come out of nowhere and play white knight to my distressed damsel, and Im supposed to believe you want nothing in return? Nothing to tell your friends about on Monday?
He tried to laugh, but the sound was stilted, and he shifted uncomfortably in his seat. I wouldnt
Save it. Rumor has it youve conquered more territory than Genghis Khan.
A single dark brow rose in the shadows, challenging me. You believe everything you hear?
My eyebrow shot up to mirror his. You denyin it?
Instead of answering, he laughed for real and propped one elbow on the door handle. Are you always this mean to guys who sing to you in dark alleys?
My next retort died on my lips, so surprised was I by the reminder. He had sung to me, and somehow talked me down from a brutal panic attack. Hed saved me from public humiliation. But there had to be a reason, and I wasnt that great of a conquest.
I dont trust you, I said finally, my hands limp and worthless on my lap.
Right now I dont trust you either. He grinned in the dark, flashing pale teeth and a single shadowed dimple, and his open-armed gesture took in the stopped car. Are you kicking me out, or do I get door-to-door service?
Thats the only service you get. But I shifted into Drive and faced the road again, then turned right into his subdivision, which was definitely more than a couple of minutes from my neighborhood. Would he really have walked if Id let him drive me home?
Would he have taken me straight home?
Take this left, then the next right. Its the one on the corner.
His directions led me to a small frame house in an older section of the development. I pulled into the driveway behind a dusty, dented sedan. The drivers side door stood open, spilling light from the interior to illuminate a lopsided square of dry grass to the left of the pavement.
You left your car door open, I said, shifting into Park, glad for something to focus on other than Nash, though thats where my gaze really wanted to be.
