My Soul to Take
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A glimpse of sympathy flashed through his anger, but then it was gone, stamped out by fear born of caution. You have to. You cant go sticking your nose into reaper business every time someone you know dies, unless you want to die with them! He turned to Nash then, anger still spinning in his eyes. If youre going to tell her what she can do, you have a responsibility to also tell her what she cant do.
He did, I said before Nash could answer. But Emma wasnt supposed to die.
My uncles eyes narrowed in suspicion. How do you know that?
Nash spoke before I could, probably to keep me from digging my hole any deeper. Tod got a look at the list. The reaper is a rogue, and none of those girls were supposed to die.
See? I demanded, when Nash went silent without revealing the rest of Tods information. We had to save her. She wasnt meant to die yet. Plus, shes my best friend. Tell me you wouldnt have done the same thing.
He wouldnt have. The new voice came from the entry, carried on a soft September breeze, and we all whirled toward it in unison. My dad stood in the doorway, a suitcase in each hand. But I would.
I should have said something. I should have had some kind of greeting for the father I hadnt seen in a year and a half. But my mouth wouldnt open, and the longer I stood there in silence, the better I came to understand the problem. It wasnt that I had nothing to say to him. It was that I had too much to say.
Why did you lie? Where have you been? What makes you think coming back now will make any difference? But I couldnt decide what to say first.
Nash didnt have that problem. Im guessing this is your dad? he whispered, leaning closer so that our shoulders touched.
My father nodded, thick brown waves bobbing with the movement. His hair was longer than I remembered it, and nearly brushed his shoulders. I couldnt help wondering how different I looked to him.
You must be Harmonys boy, my father said, his deep voice rumbling. Brendon said youd probably be here.
Yes, sir, Nash said. Then, to me, he said, He doesnt sound like hes from Ireland.
My father dropped his bags in the entryway. Im not. I just live there. He reached back to pull the front door closed, then scuffed his boots on the mat before stepping into the living room. My dad took a long look at me, from head to toe, and his jaw hardened when his eyes lingered on my right hand, still clasped in Nashs. Then his gaze landed on my face, and a series of emotions passed over his.
Grief, first of all. Id expected that one. The older I got, the more I looked like my mother. She was only twenty-three when she diedat leastthats what theyd told meand sometimes even I was freaked out by the resemblance in old pictures. He also looked sad and a little worried, as if he dreaded our upcoming conversation.
But the last expressionthe part that kept me from storming out of the house and taking off in the car hed paid forwas pride. My fathers eyes gleamed with it, even as old pain etched lines into his otherwise youthful face.
Hey, kiddo. He took a deep breath, and his entire chest fell as he exhaled. Think I could get a hug?
Id had no intention of hugging my father. I was still so mad at him I could hardly think about anything else, even with everything else going on. Yet I disentangled my hand from Nashs and stepped forward on autopilot. My father crossed the rest of the floor toward me. He wrapped his huge arms around me and my head found his chest, just like it had when I was little.
He might have looked different, but he smelled exactly the same. Like coffee, and the wool in his coat, and whatever cologne hed been wearing as long as I could remember. Hugging my father brought back the ghosts of memories so old I couldnt quite bring them into focus.
I missed you, he said into my hair, as if I were still a child.
I stepped back and crossed my arms over my chest. Hugs wouldnt fix everything. You could have visited.
I should have. It wasnt quite an apology, but at least we agreed on something.
Well, youre here now. Uncle Brendon turned toward the kitchen. Sit, Aiden. What can I get you to drink?
Coffee, thanks. My dad shrugged out of his black wool coat and draped it over the back of an armchair. So He sank into the chair, and I sat opposite him, beside Nash on the couch. I hear youve discovered your heritage. And tried it out, evidently. You restored a friend?
I met his eyes boldly, daring him to criticize my decision when hed already admitted hed have done the same. Emma wasnt supposed to die. None of them were.
None of them? My father frowned toward the kitchen; obviously Uncle Brendon hadnt yet given him the details of my discovery. Who else are we talking about?
There were three others. One a day, three days in a row. Nashs thumb stroked the back of mine until my father scowled at him, and he dropped my hand and leaned back on the couch. Then the reaper took someone else today when we saved Emma.
Irritatedyet amusedI reclaimed his hand and let them both rest on my lap. Absentee fathers had no right to disapprove of boyfriends. All four of themfive if you count Emmajust fell over dead with no warning. It wasnt their time to go.
He did, I said before Nash could answer. But Emma wasnt supposed to die.
My uncles eyes narrowed in suspicion. How do you know that?
Nash spoke before I could, probably to keep me from digging my hole any deeper. Tod got a look at the list. The reaper is a rogue, and none of those girls were supposed to die.
See? I demanded, when Nash went silent without revealing the rest of Tods information. We had to save her. She wasnt meant to die yet. Plus, shes my best friend. Tell me you wouldnt have done the same thing.
He wouldnt have. The new voice came from the entry, carried on a soft September breeze, and we all whirled toward it in unison. My dad stood in the doorway, a suitcase in each hand. But I would.
I should have said something. I should have had some kind of greeting for the father I hadnt seen in a year and a half. But my mouth wouldnt open, and the longer I stood there in silence, the better I came to understand the problem. It wasnt that I had nothing to say to him. It was that I had too much to say.
Why did you lie? Where have you been? What makes you think coming back now will make any difference? But I couldnt decide what to say first.
Nash didnt have that problem. Im guessing this is your dad? he whispered, leaning closer so that our shoulders touched.
My father nodded, thick brown waves bobbing with the movement. His hair was longer than I remembered it, and nearly brushed his shoulders. I couldnt help wondering how different I looked to him.
You must be Harmonys boy, my father said, his deep voice rumbling. Brendon said youd probably be here.
Yes, sir, Nash said. Then, to me, he said, He doesnt sound like hes from Ireland.
My father dropped his bags in the entryway. Im not. I just live there. He reached back to pull the front door closed, then scuffed his boots on the mat before stepping into the living room. My dad took a long look at me, from head to toe, and his jaw hardened when his eyes lingered on my right hand, still clasped in Nashs. Then his gaze landed on my face, and a series of emotions passed over his.
Grief, first of all. Id expected that one. The older I got, the more I looked like my mother. She was only twenty-three when she diedat leastthats what theyd told meand sometimes even I was freaked out by the resemblance in old pictures. He also looked sad and a little worried, as if he dreaded our upcoming conversation.
But the last expressionthe part that kept me from storming out of the house and taking off in the car hed paid forwas pride. My fathers eyes gleamed with it, even as old pain etched lines into his otherwise youthful face.
Hey, kiddo. He took a deep breath, and his entire chest fell as he exhaled. Think I could get a hug?
Id had no intention of hugging my father. I was still so mad at him I could hardly think about anything else, even with everything else going on. Yet I disentangled my hand from Nashs and stepped forward on autopilot. My father crossed the rest of the floor toward me. He wrapped his huge arms around me and my head found his chest, just like it had when I was little.
He might have looked different, but he smelled exactly the same. Like coffee, and the wool in his coat, and whatever cologne hed been wearing as long as I could remember. Hugging my father brought back the ghosts of memories so old I couldnt quite bring them into focus.
I missed you, he said into my hair, as if I were still a child.
I stepped back and crossed my arms over my chest. Hugs wouldnt fix everything. You could have visited.
I should have. It wasnt quite an apology, but at least we agreed on something.
Well, youre here now. Uncle Brendon turned toward the kitchen. Sit, Aiden. What can I get you to drink?
Coffee, thanks. My dad shrugged out of his black wool coat and draped it over the back of an armchair. So He sank into the chair, and I sat opposite him, beside Nash on the couch. I hear youve discovered your heritage. And tried it out, evidently. You restored a friend?
I met his eyes boldly, daring him to criticize my decision when hed already admitted hed have done the same. Emma wasnt supposed to die. None of them were.
None of them? My father frowned toward the kitchen; obviously Uncle Brendon hadnt yet given him the details of my discovery. Who else are we talking about?
There were three others. One a day, three days in a row. Nashs thumb stroked the back of mine until my father scowled at him, and he dropped my hand and leaned back on the couch. Then the reaper took someone else today when we saved Emma.
Irritatedyet amusedI reclaimed his hand and let them both rest on my lap. Absentee fathers had no right to disapprove of boyfriends. All four of themfive if you count Emmajust fell over dead with no warning. It wasnt their time to go.
