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Now I Rise

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“Hunyadi does not have enough support to go fight, but he will. The king’s mother is encouraging him. She hopes he will die there, and solve some of her problems. She will make certain he has the forces and the funding he needs.”
“I mean you. What do you think? What do the men think? If I asked them to march with Hunyadi and defend the walls … would they?”
Stefan was quiet for a long time. Then he lifted his shoulders. “I think they would.”
“But it is not our goal. It is not what has kept us together.”
“Goals change,” he said simply. “If you ask, most will follow.”
“Will you?”
A ghost of a smile disrupted the blank space of his face. “I do not know.”
Lada nodded, looking back up at the sky. “That is fine. I do not know, either.”
 
Two weeks after the council about Constantinople, Hunyadi invited Lada to dine in the castle. She always ate with her men, so this was unusual. Against her better judgment, she agreed, but only after Hunyadi said she did not have to wear a dress. She would not put herself through that again.
She entered the dining room with her back as straight as a sword, hair tied in a black cloth in defiance of the elaborate styles of the Hungarian court.
She need not have worried so much. Dress or trousers, curls or cloth, she was still invisible.
As dishes of food were passed by servants, Lada tried to listen to the conversations around her. Her dinner companions spoke of people she did not know, of matters that did not concern her. Nowhere was there anything for her to contribute to or even enjoy. The familiarity of it all exhausted her. It was the same as what she had grown up with: circles of gossip, words and favors traded for power, deals made for which the nobility would see none of the work and all of the benefit.
Since she had nothing to offer anyone, no one paid her the slightest mind. Hunyadi fared better. He was wildly popular, regaled with requests to tell stories of his conquest. But his otherness was inescapable. He was a soldier, through and through, and though he was undeniably charming, there was a gruff directness to him that was out of place here. The nobles deferred to him with a certain patronizing arrogance. The king’s mother, Elizabeth, asked him for story after story, each circling back to his childhood.
Lada realized with a spike of anger what it was: Hunyadi was their pet. They were proud of his accomplishments, boastful of what he had done, but they would never, ever see him as their equal. And Elizabeth made certain no one forgot where he came from.
He was worth more than every glittering waste of a person in this whole castle.
Though Hunyadi never drank when they were campaigning or riding, Lada watched as he downed glass after glass of wine. She revised her previous thought that he was doing better than she. He was miserable. As the meal broke up and people stood in groups to talk, Hunyadi suggested dancing several times. Lada had seen him dance—he was a wonderful dancer—and she understood his need to do something with his body. Movement was freedom. But there were no musicians, and his suggestions were met with laughter, as though he jested.
Lada stomped across the room and took his elbow. “I need him,” she snapped at the courtesans polluting the air with their aggressive perfume. They pouted, protesting mildly that he had not finished his story, but as soon as Lada removed Hunyadi they filled the space as though he had never existed.
“Thank you,” Hunyadi said, swaying slightly. “These people are more terrifying than a contingent of Janissaries.”
“And far more ruthless.”
Lada guided him toward the door, but he stumbled to a stop, a smile of true joy parting the haze of alcohol on his expression. “Matthias!”
Matthias, his own auburn hair oiled and carefully styled, unlike his father’s mane, paused in his conversation with several other men. Lada knew he had heard Hunyadi, but he continued as though he had not.
“Matthias!” Hunyadi barreled over, clapping his hands on the young man’s shoulders. Matthias’s answering smile was as carefully styled as his hair.
“Father.”
“Matthias, I wanted you to meet Lada Dracul.” Hunyadi turned back to her and gestured at Matthias with unabashed pride. Matthias’s answering whisper of a sneer made Lada wish to run her sword through him.
He gave her a perfunctory bow. “So you are the feral girl of Wallachia he has taken under his wing.” The men around him laughed. One made an obscene gesture behind Hunyadi’s back. Their opinion of her relationship with him was evident. Lada sensed that Matthias had never been privy to his father’s idea of marrying them.
“Lada single-handedly defeated a whole Bulgar contingent. Saved my life. And she grew up with Sultan Mehmed. Invaluable insight. Very clever.” Hunyadi smiled at Lada with the same level of pride as he had shown for his son, and something inside her broke.
“Is that so?” One of the men leaned forward, leering. “Tell me, is it true what they say? That he has one thousand women in his harem, and another harem made up entirely of boys?”
Lada felt the familiar stab of anger that always accompanied mention of the harem, and a brief spike of fear. A male harem? Was such a thing possible? Was Radu … She shoved those feelings down with an unexpected defensiveness on her brother’s behalf. How must Radu, already tormented by the impossibility of his love, feel when he heard such insinuations used as slander?
Besides, these men did not know Mehmed. How dare they speak of him this way? She raised an eyebrow coolly. “If you are so interested in male harems, I can introduce you to the sultan. Though you are not quite pretty enough for his tastes.”
The man’s face turned a dangerous shade of red. Hunyadi let out a barking burst of laughter and clapped Matthias on the back. His son cringed, then carefully reset his face. “I believe Elizabeth would like to speak to you,” he said to his father.
Hunyadi groaned.
The leering man spoke again. “I believe she would like to do more than speak with you.” Matthias pretended outrage, but it was all in jest. Hunyadi was embarrassed. Response was impossible. He could not impugn Elizabeth’s honor, nor did he want to criticize Matthias’s friends.
Lada could bear no more. “The room is too warm. Will you see me out?” Hunyadi nodded graciously, offering his arm. She steered him once more toward the door and grabbed a bottle of wine on their way. She handed it to him wordlessly. They walked through the center courtyard, then over the bridge, descending the bank to a bare weeping willow. Hunyadi slipped several times, nearly taking them both down.