Possession

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Rifling through his stuff, he found, through the grace of God, a pack of unopened Marlboros in his winter parka. As he lit one up and sat down on his bed, he ran through what he was going to need to cut the cast off his leg. Some kind of saw?
Underneath the plaster or whatever the hell it was, he knew damn well the bone was probably still broken, but similar to the way the scratches on the backs of his hands were healing in front of his eyes, the leg had to be doing the same. Guess it made sense. What kind of savior would he be if he was sidelined by injury?
Wonder if he cut off his arm, would it grow back?
Exhaling, he watched the smoke curl up toward the ceiling. Then he put the cig in between his teeth and went for his crystal knife—the one he had left. ’Cuz the other was in the cab of his truck—or in the CPD’s evidence room, more likely.
The weapon was as beautiful as it was deadly, the ultimate lights-out switch for minions and harpies alike—two subspecies of demon he had had the joy of coming into contact with lately. It was also handy-dandy when it came to exorcisms, as he’d learned in the first round.
Shit, that felt like forever ago.
As he turned the blade over in his palm, the prism caught the illumination from the lamp on the bureau, a rainbow of colors flashing and making him think of Eddie.
That angel wouldn’t have approved of any of this. Not the trade. Not Sissy here on this side. Not the distractions.
Jim took another drag and angled the tip onto the cast, right in front, below his knee. As he pushed down, there was some initial resistance, but then the plaster gave way, the blade cleaving a path down, down, down along his shinbone. Jim was careful to go slowly—and as he progressed, all kinds of in-the-field injuries came back to him, times when he’d been cut or wounded and had had no medical anything to fall back on.
Just like the good ol’ days. Except he wasn’t getting shot at while he was treating himself.
Things were looking up.
Although, meh … if he were honest, he felt like he’d been popped in the sternum by a forty. As long as he lived, in any sense of the word, he was never going to forget the sight of Sissy rushing into the path of that car.
Seeing her dead once had been more than enough—and then he’d had the chaser of her being in Hell. Yup, more than plenty, thanks.
Just leave me alone, okay?
Refocusing, he finished the cutting job at his foot and laid the blade aside on the messy sheets. After taking a drag on his cigarette, he turned his fingers into claws and penetrated the fault line he’d created in the plaster, prying the cast apart until it cracked free and fell off.
His leg looked just the same. So not a compound fracture, obviously.
Rubbing his calf to get rid of the itchies, he finished his coffin nail and ground the thing out. Then he stood up and put some weight on his leg as a test. Held like a dream. Achy? Yes. But it worked—and with the help of its twin, took him out and to the bathroom, where he ditched the johnny, showered, shaved, and brushed his teeth.
His stomach was hungry. The rest of him was not. In fact, as he went back to his room with a towel around his hips, all his brain wanted him to do was get drunk. Really hammered, seeing-double drunk. Tragically, he didn’t think there was any alcohol in the house—at least not that had been made after Prohibition.
Throwing the towel into the dirty pile, he collapsed on his bed, sprawling out on his back like da Vinci’s Vitruvian Man—
The lamp across the way flickered as if the bulb was fritzing out—or maybe the electricity was failing.
Then everything went dark.
“Annnd something else breaks in this house.”
Crap, he really should go back out there and get Sissy. Bring her in from the proverbial rain. Apologize for biting her head off.
And he intended to do all that—just after he rested his heavy eyes for five minutes. Besides, she probably needed a little more time to cool off. What a temper—and bizarrely, that made her even more attractive.
Suggested there might be passion—
Like a cop facing off at an armed suspect, he ordered, “Stop it. Right there.”
Put down the inappropriate thoughts and step away with your hands on your head, not on your cock.
Huh. Wonder what Miranda rights would look like under that scenario … You have the right to remain erect, but anything you do to yourself will be used against you in a court of conscience—
Okay, he was losing it. And it was time to take everyone’s advice and pull it together. He was going to have a five-minute TO followed by clean clothes and a good solid attempt to try to talk to Sissy again.
Taking deep, easy breaths, he chilled himself out, willing his emotions back into the closet that they’d jumped free of—
Knock. Knock.
Jim lifted his head. “Yeah?”
As the door opened a crack, light sliced through all the pitch-black. “Can I come in?”
At the sound of Sissy’s voice, Jim grabbed the covers and yanked them over his crotch. “Now’s not a good time.”
“I just want to apologize.”
“Can I meet you in the kitchen?”
“I’m really sorry, Jim,” she said hoarsely.
“Shit. Me, too.”
With a graceful shift, she peered around the door, and God, in that illumination streaming in from behind her, her blond hair looked like a halo. Momentarily struck by her presence, he rubbed his eyes, thinking maybe this was a dream. Maybe he’d fallen asleep quick, and his subconscious had presented this chance to make up.
“I’m cold,” she said in a small voice.
“I’ll give you a sweatshirt.” He went to get up, and remembered the whole na**d thing. “Actually … ah, it’s over there.”
As he gestured to the corner where the clean-clothes pile was, Sissy stepped inside and stayed where she was. “I wasn’t…”
She cleared her throat.
Oh, right. This actually wasn’t about any kind of body-heat issue. She didn’t know how to properly take back what had happened out there—and yeah, he knew what that felt like.
“You don’t have to say it,” he murmured.
“Really?”
“Nah.”
“Oh, good.” She shut the door. “I’m glad.”
Jim frowned as he heard her closing in on the bed … and then the mattress dipped under her slight weight. “What are you—”
“I’m cold. I’m so … cold, Jim. I just need … to be warm.”
Jim felt his eyes bulge, but there was no time to react beyond that: Before he knew what was happening, she had stretched out next to him and curled up into his chest.
“Just … put your arms around me for a little bit. I need it so badly.”
Her voice was tortured, sadness and exhaustion cracking it. But this was a serious no-go.
Holding his arms out to the sides as far as he could stretch them, he shook his head even though she couldn’t see him. “Sissy …” His voice was rough to his own ears. “You can’t … no, this isn’t right.”
“Why?” Her voice deepened, reminding him yet again that she was not who she had been. “I’m not asking for sex.”
Jim recoiled, shocked by the candor. But he believed her on that one. The issue was him. Plus, oh, heeeeeey, he was naked.
“Please,” she said. “I feel lost. So lost, like I’m going to float away. And there’s nothing holding me here … just let me stay the night. I promise I won’t bother you.”
Not likely on that one, he thought.
Except he wasn’t going to turn her away. He couldn’t.
Pushing himself to the far edge of the mattress, he mummied himself in the sheeting. “I’ll…”
What, he thought. Tell her he was going to keep his hands off of her? He didn’t want her to know he’d even gone there for a second.
“Come here,” he muttered.
Sissy came in close again, once more snuggling up against his chest, but this time she took it even further—she tucked her arms in between them, and put her head under his chin.
The rough sigh she let out was such a commentary on where she was that he wanted to kick his own ass for getting tangled in the head for even a second about any attraction bullcrap.
She was lost, and he was, for the time being, her imperfect anchor.
Made him wish he were a better man; it really did.
With some stiff herky-jerky, he adjusted himself to her position, but he didn’t touch her and kept his h*ps way back. There was still a lot of skin exposed on his part, but she didn’t seem to notice.
He was all too aware of it.
God, she was so small against him—not because she was short, but rather because he had, what, almost a hundred pounds on her?
She smelled so good. Not fake perfume-y, just lovely, beautiful, fragile woman. And the fit with her was perfect, as if their bodies had been made for each other.
“Thank you,” she whispered.
Jim squeezed his eyes shut. Then he gently put an arm around her, holding her very loosely. As she shuddered and inched in still closer, he realized that she wasn’t the only one who needed warmth. He did, too.
Had for a long time, actually.
After a while, Sissy’s breathing became deep and even, and with her safe, he let himself follow her lead. The war was still going on; Devina was out there and so was the soul; time was passing.
But in this room … there was peace—and he was hard-pressed to say that he and Sissy didn’t deserve it, at least for a little while.
Chapter Twenty-three
Talk about your one-eighties.
As Cait sat at her desk and stared out at the overcast, gloomy morning, she was a shadow of yesterday’s productive artist: She’d been sitting here, staring at a blank page for well over an hour. And this was after she’d slept through her alarm, and then wasted another twenty minutes just lying in bed and enjoying the aching stiffness that lingered in her legs … and various other places—
Riiiiiing. Riiiiing.
Cait slammed her hand over her cell phone, grabbing it and turning the thing over. Local area code. Local exchange. This could be—
“Hello?” she said breathlessly.
“Hi, this is Cindy over at…”
As Cindy from Cindy’s Alterations and More informed her that the suit, pants, and two skirts she’d had taken in were ready, Cait wanted to scream. Instead, she led with, “Oh, thank you. Yes, I’ll be over to pick them up today, or tomorrow at the latest.”
Hanging up, she knew that waiting for a maybe-never phone call from Duke was not helping her workload. But it was impossible not to jump anytime that phone rang—which had been, like, twelve times. For whatever reason, anyone she’d dialed recently or contracted for work was getting back to her this morning.
Not Duke, though.
And perhaps it was a good idea to point out to herself that he might never call. Given that she’d only left him, what, seven hours ago, it was way too early to give up hope, but still. He wouldn’t have been the first man to take a number in postcoital bliss, only to have his head clear later and realize the woman wasn’t his type.
He hadn’t even written her digits down.
Riiiiiiing. Riiiiinnng.
This time Cait didn’t bother to check her screen. It was probably her accountant calling about taxes. Or a neighbor telling her they were putting on a back porch and going to be working right next to her office for the next twelve weeks. Or Flo from Progressive. The frickin’ gecko from GEICO.
“Hello.”
“I thought about you all night long.”
Bolting to attention, Cait gripped her phone as the rough male voice shot into her ear and went right through her body.
“Hello?” Duke said.
Oh, right, she was supposed to purr something in exchange. “Ah, hi.”
Wow. She was a real Angelina Jolie over here.
“I want to see you.”
Boom. No preamble, no sweet talk, and no awkwardness: Clearly the man talked in the same way he had sex. And what do you know, she responded the same way she had at the club: Instant. Arousal.
“Where?” Two could play the straight-up game.
“I have the night off. Dinner—the Riverside Diner. Six.”
Cait started to smile so wide her cheeks hurt. “Dinner, huh?”
“I have fairly good table manners. And I figure, since what we’re doing isn’t your style, it might make you feel more comfortable.”
The words were gruff, and the thoughtfulness a surprise—and probably because of both, she was especially touched.
“I’d love that.”
“Good.” There was a pause. “Don’t wear a bra.”
“Why,” she breathed.
“Why do you think.”