Possession

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Made sense that he’d want to fill a childhood void by performing.
“What?” he said with a smile. “You’re looking at me funny.”
“Sorry.”
“Don’t apologize … I like your eyes on me. Aw, look, you’re a blusher.” He put his arms on the table and leaned into them. “Be honest. Are you feeling sorry for me?”
“Not at all. But your life makes me respect you more.”
And there was another angle to it. She shouldn’t have been surprised to find that there was a real person behind the singer Teresa was so enamored of—but it had been hard not to put him on a pedestal because of his voice, and imagine that everything had been white-picket-fence for him. Funny, the disillusionment was not a bad thing, not at all. As he talked with her, sat with her, exchanged with her, he was becoming three-dimensional, something so much more than a handsome hypothetical with an awesome talent.
“Will you let me draw you,” she blurted. As soon as she realized what she’d said, she waved her hand. “Sorry, that’s just—”
“Yes,” he said with a slow, intimate smile. “I would love that.”
Cait reached into her purse without looking away from him, and took out her sketch pad.
“Don’t move—wait, you’re frowning.”
“Oh, I was hoping—never mind. This is fine, too.” As his smile came back, he relaxed again in the chair. “I can’t wait to see how you see me.”
Cait’s pencil found her right hand as she flipped to a new page and started fiercely putting lead on paper. Fast strokes, darting across the white expanse, pulling his features out of the flat plane, sculpting his face and shoulders, his glorious hair, his compelling, intense eyes—
“G.B.! What the hell?” A man leaned into the room. “I’ve been looking for you for a half hour. You can’t be late for this kind of stuff.”
G.B. bolted out of his chair and glanced at his watch. “Oh, God, Dave, I’m so sorry—”
“Spare me, okay? Just get your ass up to Rehearsal Three, now. We’ve moved in there because they’re installing new bulbs stage right and the noise is ridiculous.”
As the guy took off, Cait flipped her sketchbook shut and fumbled to get it in her purse. “I’m so sorry.”
“No, it’s okay, he’s tightly wound.” And yet G.B. looked stressed, all that relaxation gone. “I probably should go. I had no idea that so much time had passed.”
Cait got up, and in the process dumped half her purse out. “Damn it. No, no, I’ve got it—you’d better head off—I can find my way out.”
“Are you sure?”
“Absolutely—”
As she looked up, he came in fast, and before she knew it, he’d planted a kiss on her mouth. Quick, soft, but the kind of thing that left no room to question where he wanted things to go: Friendship was not it.
Straightening, he said softly, “I’ll call you tonight.”
“Oh, okay, sure, thanks…”
And then he was gone, running off, his footfalls receding down the hall.
Left by herself, Cait looked around the room, as if the vending machine or maybe the refrigerator Chuck wasn’t allowed in could give her advice, answers, strength.
After a dry spell that had lasted how long, two great guys appeared at once.
Well, one guy was great. The other was … a maelstrom.
Come to think of it, put the pair of them together, and you had the perfect man.
Nature, however, didn’t work that way in this case. And neither did she. She couldn’t do both; she just didn’t have it in her.
The question was, who did she pick?
Chapter Twenty-six
It had been a while since Adrian had been to the land down under—and no, not Australia. As he stared at the walls that stretched up indefinitely, his stomach turned, and he wished like hell he hadn’t told Jim he’d keep Devina busy.
Naturally, she’d propped herself up on her worktable, like she wanted to force him to look over there.
“Well,” she said in that deep, velvety voice of hers, “did you miss me?”
Glancing in the demon’s direction, Adrian felt his hatred surge. She was sitting there all crossed legs and cle**age exposed, clearly enjoying the fact that he’d given her a metaphysical jingle. Hah. What he’d actually like to “give” her was a stab in the back—just like what she’d had one of her harpies do to Eddie.
“Not in the slightest,” he heard himself answer.
“Aw, Adrian.” She hopped off her perch and started walking over, all hip sway and then some. “Still bitter about your buddy?”
“No. What’s done is done.”
That pout of hers relented a little. “So phlegmatic. You aren’t going to therapy by any chance, are you? I’ve found it’s helped me tremendously.”
“With what? Coming to terms with the fact that you’re going to lose this game?”
She stopped about a foot away from him, and her no-bullshit voice came out. “Don’t be so sure, angel. This round is going to go my way.”
“Bet you said that about the other three you lost, didn’t you.” He leaned in toward her, even though it put extra stress on his bad leg. “Losing all those times must have come as a shocker.”
“I’ve got two flags.”
“Only one of which you’ve earned.”
Now she smiled, her luscious lips peeling off her sharp white teeth. “Both are still mine.” She pointed over to a stout oak door that had iron reinforcements all over it. “Cast your eyes on my decor.”
Sure enough, over that exit, there were two of the game’s flags, mounted on the jambs.
Man, that pissed him off.
“You’re angry at Jim, aren’t you,” the demon drawled.
“No.”
“Liar.” Rising up on her tiptoes, she licked across his mouth, her tongue lingering on his flesh. “Isn’t that why you’ve come? To get back at him?”
“No.” If that was the case, he’d have left the other angel high and dry.
“Oh, really?” Her hands went to his chest, palms flattening on his pecs as her h*ps brushed the front of his. “I think you did.”
His body revolted at the proximity, his skin prickling up, his shoulders tightening into steel cables, his gut twisting even more. And all that got worse as he looked past her falsely beautiful face to that table.
Impossible not to remember what she’d done to him on it.
Abruptly, he wondered if Eddie hadn’t been right. A long time ago, after Adrian had finally gotten free from down here, his best friend had warned him that that kind of abuse lingered not just in the mind and on emotional levels, but in the soul, in the bones, in the blood.
Ad had brushed all that off, of course, but now…
Staring at that table, he thought that Eddie might have been right.
“You know,” Devina said as her hands traveled down, down, down his torso, “sleeping with me would destroy him. He’s very jealous of me, possessive—it borders on stalkerish.”
Adrian refocused on the demon’s jet-black, glittering eyes. “What?”
“Jim’s obsessed with me. Violently so. It’s actually very sweet. And your best revenge is to f**k me. He’ll never get over it—his best friend with his best girl. Come on, it’s the stuff of movies, right?”
As her words sank in, Adrian’s brows popped. Yeah, wowzer. He’d thought Devina was a lot of things over the aeons they’d been going around and around with each other, but he’d never felt as though she was out of her mind in the more conventional sense.
Like in Stacy-from–Wayne’s World nutso.
Go fig.
“Did you say you were in therapy?” Adrian shook his head. “Does that also include medication or are you trying to go natural?”
“I don’t believe in anti-depressants. I think they cloud the mind.”
Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiight.
She eased back against him. “Now, where were we?”
You were channeling the role of cray-cray-never-was-girlfriend and I was negotiating with my stomach to make sure all that toast from breakfast stayed put.
Devina slid her palm between his legs, and Adrian flinched, his eyes clamping shut, his head turning away.
God, they had hit this corner before, her coming on to him, him going along with it, them ha**ng s*x because … well, sometimes he liked to feel the dirtiness on the outside of himself. It was the only relief he’d ever gotten from the stench she’d infected him with on the inside.
She’s in me, Jim. She’s inside of me …
Devina pressed that mouth of hers against the side of his throat as she rubbed him up and down, br**sts pushing into his chest, long leg sneaking around the back of his own.
“Don’t tell me that you don’t want this,” she breathed. “Because I know you do.”
Adrian opened his mouth to tell her the fifteen different reasons he in fact did not—and then it dawned on him. Yes, he was numb and disgusted with himself and her … but in the past, that had never discouraged his cock. Now, though?
The phone was ringing and nobody was picking it up, so to speak.
He was utterly flaccid. Which was the definition of impotence, wasn’t it.
Adrian glanced back over at that worktable and smiled. “You’re right, Devina.”
She let her head fall back and stared at him from under heavy, seductive lids. “I always am. So how about I get to work on you?”
“Okay. Yeah.”
The demon dropped to her knees and pushed her hands up his thighs. “You’re doing the right thing, Adrian.”
As she reached for his fly and slowly undid his pants, he helped her out, pulling his muscle shirt up his abs, staring down as if he gave a shit about what she was doing to him.
When his jeans hit the floor, there was a moment of pause, as if she were surprised with all he didn’t have to offer.
“I’m conflicted,” he said. “About Jim.”
“Ah …” She nuzzled his flaccid sex. “I can help with that.”
As her wet mouth engulfed his lazy cock, Adrian just looked straight ahead. He felt the suction, the warmth, the sensation of her reaching under and stroking his balls … but it was no different than someone brushing against his forearm or patting him on the back.
Before he’d done that little swaperoo with Matthias? He’d been capable of getting hard at a moment’s notice, even with Devina.
Now? Nada.
Devina retracted the suction, pulling back until his head popped out from between her red lips. As he just flopped back to a limp vertical, her brows dropped down like she was confronted with an anomaly of unimaginable proportions.
Adrian just shrugged to himself. Jim had asked him to keep the demon busy, and her trying to get him up was as good a time-passer as any. Rather amusing, actually—
A small voice in him, one that was nearly buried, pointed out that it wasn’t amusing at all. That it was one more piece of shrapnel in him, another nail in a coffin that was nearly complete, thanks to her having killed Eddie.
Ad didn’t care, though. He was dead whether he was up on the Earth dicking around with the war, or down here getting a bl*w j*b that got him nowhere.
Didn’t matter.
“Suck harder,” Adrian drawled as he gripped her head and thrust into her mouth. “Let me feel you on me.”
The warehouse district in Caldwell was exactly that: warehouses. In a district.
No big revelation there.
And yet, as Jim slowed his Harley down in the middle of a long block, he saw the area through new eyes: Desolate, really, even though a lot of the facilities had been renovated and turned into pricey condos.
Killing the bike’s engine, he twisted around. “You okay back there?”
Sissy nodded and dismounted, shucking her helmet and shaking out her hair. As she looked around, he studied her. Built long and thin, she hardly seemed the type who would prefer the cold wind in her face and nothing but an engine and two tires between her body and the road … but she had asked to take the hog.
And he had said yes.
Rising off the seat, he kicked out the stand and leaned the bike to the side.
“What are we doing here?” she asked as she glanced over at him.
Man, he hated being back on this street, in front of this particular building. “The entrance is around the corner.”
As he led the way, he could feel her following him, and he found himself wanting to move her in beside him. Maybe put an arm around her shoulder or hold her hand—he just didn’t want her to be alone in this, and shit knew that could happen even if you were with someone.