Queen of Shadows
Page 73
Lysandra plucked up a grape, examined it, and then flicked her eyes to Rowan. “Perhaps I’m just studying you to know where to sink my fangs if I ever get my gifts back.”
Rowan laughed.
It explained so much. You and I are nothing but beasts wearing human skins.
Lysandra turned her attention to Aelin. “No one knows this. Not even Arobynn.” Her face was hard. A challenge and a question lay in those eyes.
Secrets—Nehemia had kept secrets from her, too. Aelin didn’t say anything.
Lysandra’s mouth tightened as she turned to Rowan. “How’d you know?”
A shrug, even as Aelin felt his attention on her and knew he could read the emotions biting at her. “I met a few shifters, centuries ago. Your scents are the same.”
Lysandra sniffed at herself, but Aedion murmured, “So that’s what it is.”
Lysandra looked at Aelin again. “Say something.”
Aelin held up a hand. “Just—just give me a moment.” A moment to sort out one friend from another—the friend she had loved and who had lied to her at every chance, and the friend she had hated and who she had kept secrets from herself … hated, until love and hate had met in the middle, fused by loss.
Aedion asked, “How old were you when you found out?”
“Young—five or six. I knew even then to hide it from everyone. It wasn’t my mother, so my father must have had the gift. She never mentioned him. Or seemed to miss him.”
Gift—interesting choice of words. Rowan said, “What happened to her?”
Lysandra shrugged. “I don’t know. I was seven when she beat me, then threw me out of the house. Because we lived here—in this city—and that morning, for the first time, I’d made the mistake of shifting in her presence. I don’t remember why, but I remember being startled enough that I changed into a hissing tabby right in front of her.”
“Shit,” Aedion said.
“So you’re a full-powered shifter,” Rowan said.
“I’d known what I was for a long time. From even before that moment, I knew that I could change into any creature. But magic was outlawed here. And everyone, in every kingdom, was distrustful of shape-shifters. How could they not be?” A low laugh. “After she kicked me out, I was left on the streets. We were poor enough that it was hardly different, but—I spent the first two days crying on the doorstep. She threatened to turn me in to the authorities, so I ran, and I never saw her again. I even went back to the house months later, but she was gone—moved away.”
“She sounds like a wonderful person,” Aedion said.
Lysandra hadn’t lied to her. Nehemia had lied outright, kept things that were vital. What Lysandra was … They were even: after all, she hadn’t told Lysandra she was queen.
“How’d you survive?” Aelin asked at last, her shoulders relaxing. “A seven-year-old on the streets of Rifthold doesn’t often meet a happy end.”
Something sparked in Lysandra’s eyes, and Aelin wondered if she had been waiting for the blow to fall, waiting for the order to get out. “I used my abilities. Sometimes I was human; sometimes I wore the skins of other street children with high standing in their packs; sometimes I became an alley cat or a rat or a gull. And then I learned that if I made myself prettier—if I made myself beautiful—when I begged for money, it came far faster. I was wearing one of those beautiful faces the day magic fell. And I’ve been stuck in it ever since.”
“So this face,” Aelin said, “isn’t your real face? Your real body?”
“No. And what kills me is that I can’t remember what my real face was. That was the danger of shifting—that you would forget your real form, because it’s the memory of it that guides the shifting. I remember being plain as a dormouse, but … I don’t remember if my eyes were blue or gray or green; I can’t remember the shape of my nose or my chin. And it was a child’s body, too. I don’t know what I would look like now, as a woman.”
Aelin said, “And this was the form that Arobynn spotted you in a few years later.”
Lysandra nodded and picked at an invisible fleck of lint on her dress. “If magic is free again—would you be wary of a shape-shifter?”
So carefully phrased, so casually asked, as if it weren’t the most important question of all.
Aelin shrugged and gave her the truth. “I’d be jealous of a shape-shifter. Shifting into any form I please would come in rather handy.” She considered it. “A shape-shifter would make a powerful ally. And an even more entertaining friend.”
Aedion mused, “It would make a difference on a battlefield, once magic is freed.”
Rowan just asked, “Did you have a favorite form?”
Lysandra’s grin was nothing short of wicked. “I liked anything with claws and big, big fangs.”
Aelin swallowed her laugh. “Is there a reason behind this visit, Lysandra, or are you here just to make my friends squirm?”
All amusement faded as Lysandra held up a velvet sack that sagged with what looked to be a large box. “What you requested.” The box thumped as she set the sack onto the worn wooden table.
Aelin slid the sack toward herself, even as the males raised their brows and subtly sniffed at the box within. “Thank you.”
Lysandra said, “Arobynn is going to call in your favor tomorrow, to be delivered the following night. Be ready.”
“Good.” It was an effort to keep her face blank.
Aedion leaned forward, glancing between them. “Does he expect only Aelin to deliver it?”
“No—all of you, I think.”
Rowan said, “Is it a trap?”
“Probably, in some way or another,” Lysandra said. “He wants you to deliver it and then join him for dinner.”
“Demons and dining,” Aelin said. “A delightful combination.”
Only Lysandra smiled.
“Will he poison us?” Aedion asked.
Aelin scratched at a piece of dirt on the table. “Poison isn’t Arobynn’s style. If he were to do anything to the food, it would be to add some drug that would incapacitate us while he had us moved wherever he wanted. It’s the control that he loves,” she added, still staring at the table, not quite feeling like seeing what was written on Rowan’s or Aedion’s face. “The pain and fear, yes—but the power is what he really thrives on.” Lysandra’s face had lost its softness, her eyes cold and sharp—a reflection of Aelin’s own, no doubt. The only person who could understand, who had also learned firsthand exactly how far that lust for control went. Aelin rose from her seat. “I’ll walk you to your carriage.”
She and Lysandra paused among the stacks of crates in the warehouse.
“Are you ready?” Lysandra asked, crossing her arms.
Aelin nodded. “I’m not sure the debt could ever be paid for what he … what they all did. But it will have to be enough. I’m running out of time.”
Lysandra pursed her lips. “I won’t be able to risk coming here again until afterward.”
“Thank you—for everything.”
“He could still have a few tricks up his sleeve. Be on your guard.”
Rowan laughed.
It explained so much. You and I are nothing but beasts wearing human skins.
Lysandra turned her attention to Aelin. “No one knows this. Not even Arobynn.” Her face was hard. A challenge and a question lay in those eyes.
Secrets—Nehemia had kept secrets from her, too. Aelin didn’t say anything.
Lysandra’s mouth tightened as she turned to Rowan. “How’d you know?”
A shrug, even as Aelin felt his attention on her and knew he could read the emotions biting at her. “I met a few shifters, centuries ago. Your scents are the same.”
Lysandra sniffed at herself, but Aedion murmured, “So that’s what it is.”
Lysandra looked at Aelin again. “Say something.”
Aelin held up a hand. “Just—just give me a moment.” A moment to sort out one friend from another—the friend she had loved and who had lied to her at every chance, and the friend she had hated and who she had kept secrets from herself … hated, until love and hate had met in the middle, fused by loss.
Aedion asked, “How old were you when you found out?”
“Young—five or six. I knew even then to hide it from everyone. It wasn’t my mother, so my father must have had the gift. She never mentioned him. Or seemed to miss him.”
Gift—interesting choice of words. Rowan said, “What happened to her?”
Lysandra shrugged. “I don’t know. I was seven when she beat me, then threw me out of the house. Because we lived here—in this city—and that morning, for the first time, I’d made the mistake of shifting in her presence. I don’t remember why, but I remember being startled enough that I changed into a hissing tabby right in front of her.”
“Shit,” Aedion said.
“So you’re a full-powered shifter,” Rowan said.
“I’d known what I was for a long time. From even before that moment, I knew that I could change into any creature. But magic was outlawed here. And everyone, in every kingdom, was distrustful of shape-shifters. How could they not be?” A low laugh. “After she kicked me out, I was left on the streets. We were poor enough that it was hardly different, but—I spent the first two days crying on the doorstep. She threatened to turn me in to the authorities, so I ran, and I never saw her again. I even went back to the house months later, but she was gone—moved away.”
“She sounds like a wonderful person,” Aedion said.
Lysandra hadn’t lied to her. Nehemia had lied outright, kept things that were vital. What Lysandra was … They were even: after all, she hadn’t told Lysandra she was queen.
“How’d you survive?” Aelin asked at last, her shoulders relaxing. “A seven-year-old on the streets of Rifthold doesn’t often meet a happy end.”
Something sparked in Lysandra’s eyes, and Aelin wondered if she had been waiting for the blow to fall, waiting for the order to get out. “I used my abilities. Sometimes I was human; sometimes I wore the skins of other street children with high standing in their packs; sometimes I became an alley cat or a rat or a gull. And then I learned that if I made myself prettier—if I made myself beautiful—when I begged for money, it came far faster. I was wearing one of those beautiful faces the day magic fell. And I’ve been stuck in it ever since.”
“So this face,” Aelin said, “isn’t your real face? Your real body?”
“No. And what kills me is that I can’t remember what my real face was. That was the danger of shifting—that you would forget your real form, because it’s the memory of it that guides the shifting. I remember being plain as a dormouse, but … I don’t remember if my eyes were blue or gray or green; I can’t remember the shape of my nose or my chin. And it was a child’s body, too. I don’t know what I would look like now, as a woman.”
Aelin said, “And this was the form that Arobynn spotted you in a few years later.”
Lysandra nodded and picked at an invisible fleck of lint on her dress. “If magic is free again—would you be wary of a shape-shifter?”
So carefully phrased, so casually asked, as if it weren’t the most important question of all.
Aelin shrugged and gave her the truth. “I’d be jealous of a shape-shifter. Shifting into any form I please would come in rather handy.” She considered it. “A shape-shifter would make a powerful ally. And an even more entertaining friend.”
Aedion mused, “It would make a difference on a battlefield, once magic is freed.”
Rowan just asked, “Did you have a favorite form?”
Lysandra’s grin was nothing short of wicked. “I liked anything with claws and big, big fangs.”
Aelin swallowed her laugh. “Is there a reason behind this visit, Lysandra, or are you here just to make my friends squirm?”
All amusement faded as Lysandra held up a velvet sack that sagged with what looked to be a large box. “What you requested.” The box thumped as she set the sack onto the worn wooden table.
Aelin slid the sack toward herself, even as the males raised their brows and subtly sniffed at the box within. “Thank you.”
Lysandra said, “Arobynn is going to call in your favor tomorrow, to be delivered the following night. Be ready.”
“Good.” It was an effort to keep her face blank.
Aedion leaned forward, glancing between them. “Does he expect only Aelin to deliver it?”
“No—all of you, I think.”
Rowan said, “Is it a trap?”
“Probably, in some way or another,” Lysandra said. “He wants you to deliver it and then join him for dinner.”
“Demons and dining,” Aelin said. “A delightful combination.”
Only Lysandra smiled.
“Will he poison us?” Aedion asked.
Aelin scratched at a piece of dirt on the table. “Poison isn’t Arobynn’s style. If he were to do anything to the food, it would be to add some drug that would incapacitate us while he had us moved wherever he wanted. It’s the control that he loves,” she added, still staring at the table, not quite feeling like seeing what was written on Rowan’s or Aedion’s face. “The pain and fear, yes—but the power is what he really thrives on.” Lysandra’s face had lost its softness, her eyes cold and sharp—a reflection of Aelin’s own, no doubt. The only person who could understand, who had also learned firsthand exactly how far that lust for control went. Aelin rose from her seat. “I’ll walk you to your carriage.”
She and Lysandra paused among the stacks of crates in the warehouse.
“Are you ready?” Lysandra asked, crossing her arms.
Aelin nodded. “I’m not sure the debt could ever be paid for what he … what they all did. But it will have to be enough. I’m running out of time.”
Lysandra pursed her lips. “I won’t be able to risk coming here again until afterward.”
“Thank you—for everything.”
“He could still have a few tricks up his sleeve. Be on your guard.”
