Queen of Song and Souls
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"And now what?" she pressed.
Dorian shoved aside the delicate lace curtain to gaze out over his kingdom, "And now it is time to show the Eld that Celieria is not so easy a mark. I do not forget their equally outrageous attack on the Grand Cathedral or the murder of Greatfather Tivrest and Father Bellamy. Such treachery will not go unanswered."
Annoura took a breath. Long had it been since she'd seen him looking so fierce, so stern and determined. "Dorian, stop and think this through. Celieria has lived in peace with Eld for the last three hundred years. They wanted to further that peace until Rain Tairen Soul returned to the world. We have no reason to believe the Eld would ever have attacked us if it were not for the Fey. Now, once more, Celieria is caught in the center of a war between magical races. Our best and only hope is to remain neutral—let the Eld and the Fey destroy one another. Celieria's involvement can only end in our destruction."
His brows drew together and his lips compressed in a sure sign of rising temper. "Your senseless dislike of the Fey has impaired your judgment, Annoura. The Eld did not attack the Fading Lands. They attacked Celieria. My kingdom. It pains me that you would ever think I should allow their murderous aggression to go unanswered."
Seeing that spark of genuine anger in his eyes, she backtracked quickly. "You're right, Dorian. If the Eld attack Celieria again, they should be met with force. But why must you be the one to lead our armies along the borders? Surely the border lords can see to our northern defenses without you there to guide them." She moved forward, reaching for his arms. Fingertips met hard steel. She reached for his hands, but he stepped back. "I love you. Can you not understand that I don't want to see you hurt—or worse, killed? I want you here, safe, with me. With our baby."
He made a sharp, slashing gesture. "Stop, Annoura. It's not love of me that drives you; it's hatred of the Fey. Do you think I haven't noticed all the little ways you’ve been testing me these last months? Trying to make me choose between my kin-ties to the Fey and my love of you. I've had enough. The Fey are my blood kin—but more than that, they are this country's staunchest ally. The sooner you accept that, the better for all concerned."
"Dorian—"
"This discussion is over. I leave for the borders at twelve bells tomorrow. I am Dorian the Tenth of Celieria. It's long past rime I began to live up to the honorable name of my forebears." He waved his hand to dispel the privacy weave and called, "Marten!"
The door opened, and Dorian's valet stepped inside. "Your Majesty?"
"The queen is leaving. See her out; then come finish getting me strapped into this thing."
Annoura stood there, trembling with a mix of despair, fury, and disbelief over the way Dorian was dismissing her from his presence—as if she were a mere courtier whose company had grown wearisome. She wanted to cry out for him to love her again, but pride wouldn't let her beg—especially not in front of a servant.
She'd loved him more than she'd ever thought herself capable of loving anyone. And for a Capellan princess raised in a lion's den of deceit, intrigue, and political maneuvering, the sheer vulnerability of forming such a strong emotional attachment had been one of the most terrifying—albeit exhilarating— experiences of her life.
And Dorian had betrayed her.
She'd loved him, given him everything, but he'd chosen his Fey kin over her, and now he was cutting her out of his heart.
Annoura drew herself up, locking her emotions—such weak, useless things—behind a curtain of steely self-control. Her expression hardened into the impassively regal mask she had spent a lifetime perfecting.
"Your Majesty," she responded. Her tone was pure silk but without a drop of inflection. She sank into a flawless full court curtsy, so deep her forehead nearly touched the floor, then rose with smooth grace in an elegant rustle of silk and starched lace. "May the gods watch over you in the north and see you safely home again. And may victory be yours, my king."
His eyes flickered then—an awareness that some threshold had been crossed, and that things between them would never be the same. "Annoura ..."
She waited in silence, cool and composed, her hands clasped lightly at her waist.
His brows furrowed. For a moment, she thought she saw a slight softening in his demeanor, but then his jaw clenched and he looked down on the pretext of adjusting the buckles holding his chest plate in place. "Never mind. I will see you again before I depart."
Annoura's last flicker of hope winked out. Strange how quietly even great love could die.
"Of course, Sire." She inclined her head and turned to leave. Marten started towards the door with her, but she waved him away. "Go to His Majesty, Marten. I'm perfectly capable of seeing myself out."
Head high, emotions trapped in a tight web of discipline and pride, she walked the short distance down the corridors of Celieria's royal palace from Dorian's suite of rooms to her own. Never had the walk seemed longer.
Inside her suite, the Dazzles of her inner court were lounging about, sharing titillating gossip and nibbling on sweetmeats. They all rose and dropped into curtsies and deep bows when she entered, and uttered a chorus of respectful greetings. "Your Majesty."
"Ladies. Sers." Her voice didn't quaver in the least. She took pride in that. The accomplishment was no mean feat. "Please leave me. I am weary and need to rest. I am not to be disturbed. Is that understood?" With the news of her pregnancy, she knew none of them would think her request odd.
Dorian shoved aside the delicate lace curtain to gaze out over his kingdom, "And now it is time to show the Eld that Celieria is not so easy a mark. I do not forget their equally outrageous attack on the Grand Cathedral or the murder of Greatfather Tivrest and Father Bellamy. Such treachery will not go unanswered."
Annoura took a breath. Long had it been since she'd seen him looking so fierce, so stern and determined. "Dorian, stop and think this through. Celieria has lived in peace with Eld for the last three hundred years. They wanted to further that peace until Rain Tairen Soul returned to the world. We have no reason to believe the Eld would ever have attacked us if it were not for the Fey. Now, once more, Celieria is caught in the center of a war between magical races. Our best and only hope is to remain neutral—let the Eld and the Fey destroy one another. Celieria's involvement can only end in our destruction."
His brows drew together and his lips compressed in a sure sign of rising temper. "Your senseless dislike of the Fey has impaired your judgment, Annoura. The Eld did not attack the Fading Lands. They attacked Celieria. My kingdom. It pains me that you would ever think I should allow their murderous aggression to go unanswered."
Seeing that spark of genuine anger in his eyes, she backtracked quickly. "You're right, Dorian. If the Eld attack Celieria again, they should be met with force. But why must you be the one to lead our armies along the borders? Surely the border lords can see to our northern defenses without you there to guide them." She moved forward, reaching for his arms. Fingertips met hard steel. She reached for his hands, but he stepped back. "I love you. Can you not understand that I don't want to see you hurt—or worse, killed? I want you here, safe, with me. With our baby."
He made a sharp, slashing gesture. "Stop, Annoura. It's not love of me that drives you; it's hatred of the Fey. Do you think I haven't noticed all the little ways you’ve been testing me these last months? Trying to make me choose between my kin-ties to the Fey and my love of you. I've had enough. The Fey are my blood kin—but more than that, they are this country's staunchest ally. The sooner you accept that, the better for all concerned."
"Dorian—"
"This discussion is over. I leave for the borders at twelve bells tomorrow. I am Dorian the Tenth of Celieria. It's long past rime I began to live up to the honorable name of my forebears." He waved his hand to dispel the privacy weave and called, "Marten!"
The door opened, and Dorian's valet stepped inside. "Your Majesty?"
"The queen is leaving. See her out; then come finish getting me strapped into this thing."
Annoura stood there, trembling with a mix of despair, fury, and disbelief over the way Dorian was dismissing her from his presence—as if she were a mere courtier whose company had grown wearisome. She wanted to cry out for him to love her again, but pride wouldn't let her beg—especially not in front of a servant.
She'd loved him more than she'd ever thought herself capable of loving anyone. And for a Capellan princess raised in a lion's den of deceit, intrigue, and political maneuvering, the sheer vulnerability of forming such a strong emotional attachment had been one of the most terrifying—albeit exhilarating— experiences of her life.
And Dorian had betrayed her.
She'd loved him, given him everything, but he'd chosen his Fey kin over her, and now he was cutting her out of his heart.
Annoura drew herself up, locking her emotions—such weak, useless things—behind a curtain of steely self-control. Her expression hardened into the impassively regal mask she had spent a lifetime perfecting.
"Your Majesty," she responded. Her tone was pure silk but without a drop of inflection. She sank into a flawless full court curtsy, so deep her forehead nearly touched the floor, then rose with smooth grace in an elegant rustle of silk and starched lace. "May the gods watch over you in the north and see you safely home again. And may victory be yours, my king."
His eyes flickered then—an awareness that some threshold had been crossed, and that things between them would never be the same. "Annoura ..."
She waited in silence, cool and composed, her hands clasped lightly at her waist.
His brows furrowed. For a moment, she thought she saw a slight softening in his demeanor, but then his jaw clenched and he looked down on the pretext of adjusting the buckles holding his chest plate in place. "Never mind. I will see you again before I depart."
Annoura's last flicker of hope winked out. Strange how quietly even great love could die.
"Of course, Sire." She inclined her head and turned to leave. Marten started towards the door with her, but she waved him away. "Go to His Majesty, Marten. I'm perfectly capable of seeing myself out."
Head high, emotions trapped in a tight web of discipline and pride, she walked the short distance down the corridors of Celieria's royal palace from Dorian's suite of rooms to her own. Never had the walk seemed longer.
Inside her suite, the Dazzles of her inner court were lounging about, sharing titillating gossip and nibbling on sweetmeats. They all rose and dropped into curtsies and deep bows when she entered, and uttered a chorus of respectful greetings. "Your Majesty."
"Ladies. Sers." Her voice didn't quaver in the least. She took pride in that. The accomplishment was no mean feat. "Please leave me. I am weary and need to rest. I am not to be disturbed. Is that understood?" With the news of her pregnancy, she knew none of them would think her request odd.
