Reasonable Doubt: Volume 1
Page 12
Aubrey
I couldn’t stop thinking about the way Mr. Hamilton kissed me the other day, the way he pulled me against his chest and f**ked my lips with his mouth.
Thoughts of him kissing me had been invading my mind all day, and even now, when I was setting down his latest cup of coffee, I was tempted to walk behind his desk and dare him to kiss me again. Ever since I’d become his intern, he’d been quite mean to me—reckless, but I thought it was a training technique, a way to see if I’d quit under pressure.
Until he kissed me that day.
There was something intangible in his kiss; unspoken words, a repressed desire. It made me think that the glances he often tossed my way, those looks of scorn that were laced with wanting, meant a little more.
I placed a plastic stirrer into his cup and cleared my throat. “Do you need anything else, Mr. Hamilton?”
No answer.
I stood my ground and waited for him to look up at me; I wanted to see his face.
The suit he was wearing today—a dark grey three piece with a silver silk tie, made him look even more devastatingly beautiful than he normally did.
“Is there a problem, Miss Everhart?” He clenched his fists above the desk, trying his best to act like my presence wasn’t bothering him. But it was, I could tell.
I knew he would look up at any moment, so I stepped back, making sure the light blue dress I wore specifically for him would be in full view, but he kept his gaze lowered.
“No, sir.”
“Then get out of my office. I’ll need your Brownstein report with my next cup of coffee. Four o’ clock.”
“You just gave me that report yesterday. You said I could take all the time I needed.”
“You must’ve misheard me. You can take all the time you need today. Things change instantly around here, and that’s the exact reason why some of us never leave early. Four o’ clock.”
I stood there completely speechless. There was no way I’d be able to read and summarize a three hundred paged report by the end of the day.
“Did you lose some of your hearing between today and yesterday?” He finally looked up, his perfect face expressionless. “I need complete silence when I work and I can’t focus with your heavy breathing.” He narrowed his eyes at me. “Get out, finish the report, and bring it back to me with my coffee. If you don’t, you’re fired.”
I quickly decided that he was bipolar, and that our seemingly connected kiss was just a mistake. I turned around and left his office, rushing straight to the break room.
There was no way I was going to get that Brownstein report done by the end of the day.
I pulled out my phone and scrolled through my messages—realizing that Thoreau hadn’t responded to my morning texts. Sighing, I decided to call him. I needed someone to tell me that my life wouldn’t end today when I was fired.
It rang once.
It rang twice.
It went to voicemail.
He hit ignore?!
I sent him a text. “What the hell is wrong with you lately? Is your lack of sex forcing you to act like a jerk toward me? Is the withdrawal THAT BAD? Talk to me.”
I waited for a response, but none came, so I slumped onto the couch. There was no point in even attempting to finish that report. I was just going to sit here, relax, and when it was five o’ clock I was going to collect all of my things and leave.
I could find another internship in two weeks, or worst case, ask the department chair if I could shadow my mother and father around their stuffy firm for credit.
Ugh...God...
I shut my eyes and lay back against the cushion, wishing I could fall asleep.
“Aubrey?” Someone shook my shoulder just as I was drifting away.
“Yes?” I opened my eyes. It was Jessica.
“I’ve been looking for you forever. Mr. Hamilton wants to speak with you.”
I raised my eyebrow. “More coffee?”
“Probably.” She shrugged. “He’s been a bit off lately. Just come on, you don’t want to make him angry.” She held the door open and I stood up, making my way past her.
I debated whether I should even go to his office. Then again, seeing the look on his face as I said, “Fuck you. I quit.” was too good of an experience to pass up. I forced a smile and knocked on his door.
“Come in.” His voice was stern.
I slipped inside, expecting to see him holding an empty coffee cup, but he was sitting at his desk–glaring at me.
“Have a seat,” he said.
I sat in front of his desk, waiting for him to scold me about something, to unleash more of his seemingly bipolar tendencies, but he didn’t. He just kept staring at me.
I hated the effect he was having on my body right now, and as much as I wanted to ask him what the hell he wanted, I couldn’t get my mouth to say a thing.
Without addressing me, he suddenly stood up and walked around his desk, sitting on the edge of it, letting his knees touch mine.
“Lawyers are supposed to be people with integrity, are they not?” he whispered.
“Yes.”
“Do you think you have integrity, Miss Everhart?” He emphasized every syllable of my name.
“Yes.”
“Hmmm.” He leaned forward. “So, would you ever willingly withhold the truth from someone you supposedly cared about?”
“It depends...” My breath hitched in my throat; my heart was racing a mile a minute.
“It depends?” He sat back a bit. “It depends on what?”
“If the truth would damage anything or hurt someone unnecessarily, then I believe I have a right to withhold it.”
“But what if someone blatantly asked you for the truth, several times? What if he said, I want you to tell me the truth no matter how much it hurts, or how angry it may make me?”
Where is he going with this? “Are you referring to a potential witness changing his testimony on the stand, Mr. Hamilton?”
“No...” He trailed his fingers across my collarbone, setting my nerves on fire. “This is a personal inquiry. I’m just in need of an outside opinion. Answer the question.”
“Well, I think—” I sucked in a breath as he placed his hand on my thigh and strummed his fingers against my skirt. “I think certain lies have to be told, and certain truths have to be withheld. The ultimate conviction is up to those who can discern which is which.”
“So, you believe in reasonable doubt?”
“In certain cases, yes...”
“What about in our case?” His hand was slowly slipping underneath my skirt, traveling further and further up my thigh.
“Our case?”
“Yes,” he said. “I believe you and I are currently in an unfortunate web of deceit.”
“No...” I said, breathless and confused. “We’re not in a web of deceit...”
“We definitely are, Alyssa—" He pulled me forward by the strand of pearls around my neck. "It’s the case of a woman who befriended me online, but she turned out to be someone completely different than who she told me she was. So, in this case—our case, how do you feel about reasonable doubt?”
Gasping, I could feel all the color draining from my face. My heart wasn’t racing anymore; it was flailing around wildly—ready to jump out of my chest, and my eyes were as wide as they could go.
I couldn’t stop thinking about the way Mr. Hamilton kissed me the other day, the way he pulled me against his chest and f**ked my lips with his mouth.
Thoughts of him kissing me had been invading my mind all day, and even now, when I was setting down his latest cup of coffee, I was tempted to walk behind his desk and dare him to kiss me again. Ever since I’d become his intern, he’d been quite mean to me—reckless, but I thought it was a training technique, a way to see if I’d quit under pressure.
Until he kissed me that day.
There was something intangible in his kiss; unspoken words, a repressed desire. It made me think that the glances he often tossed my way, those looks of scorn that were laced with wanting, meant a little more.
I placed a plastic stirrer into his cup and cleared my throat. “Do you need anything else, Mr. Hamilton?”
No answer.
I stood my ground and waited for him to look up at me; I wanted to see his face.
The suit he was wearing today—a dark grey three piece with a silver silk tie, made him look even more devastatingly beautiful than he normally did.
“Is there a problem, Miss Everhart?” He clenched his fists above the desk, trying his best to act like my presence wasn’t bothering him. But it was, I could tell.
I knew he would look up at any moment, so I stepped back, making sure the light blue dress I wore specifically for him would be in full view, but he kept his gaze lowered.
“No, sir.”
“Then get out of my office. I’ll need your Brownstein report with my next cup of coffee. Four o’ clock.”
“You just gave me that report yesterday. You said I could take all the time I needed.”
“You must’ve misheard me. You can take all the time you need today. Things change instantly around here, and that’s the exact reason why some of us never leave early. Four o’ clock.”
I stood there completely speechless. There was no way I’d be able to read and summarize a three hundred paged report by the end of the day.
“Did you lose some of your hearing between today and yesterday?” He finally looked up, his perfect face expressionless. “I need complete silence when I work and I can’t focus with your heavy breathing.” He narrowed his eyes at me. “Get out, finish the report, and bring it back to me with my coffee. If you don’t, you’re fired.”
I quickly decided that he was bipolar, and that our seemingly connected kiss was just a mistake. I turned around and left his office, rushing straight to the break room.
There was no way I was going to get that Brownstein report done by the end of the day.
I pulled out my phone and scrolled through my messages—realizing that Thoreau hadn’t responded to my morning texts. Sighing, I decided to call him. I needed someone to tell me that my life wouldn’t end today when I was fired.
It rang once.
It rang twice.
It went to voicemail.
He hit ignore?!
I sent him a text. “What the hell is wrong with you lately? Is your lack of sex forcing you to act like a jerk toward me? Is the withdrawal THAT BAD? Talk to me.”
I waited for a response, but none came, so I slumped onto the couch. There was no point in even attempting to finish that report. I was just going to sit here, relax, and when it was five o’ clock I was going to collect all of my things and leave.
I could find another internship in two weeks, or worst case, ask the department chair if I could shadow my mother and father around their stuffy firm for credit.
Ugh...God...
I shut my eyes and lay back against the cushion, wishing I could fall asleep.
“Aubrey?” Someone shook my shoulder just as I was drifting away.
“Yes?” I opened my eyes. It was Jessica.
“I’ve been looking for you forever. Mr. Hamilton wants to speak with you.”
I raised my eyebrow. “More coffee?”
“Probably.” She shrugged. “He’s been a bit off lately. Just come on, you don’t want to make him angry.” She held the door open and I stood up, making my way past her.
I debated whether I should even go to his office. Then again, seeing the look on his face as I said, “Fuck you. I quit.” was too good of an experience to pass up. I forced a smile and knocked on his door.
“Come in.” His voice was stern.
I slipped inside, expecting to see him holding an empty coffee cup, but he was sitting at his desk–glaring at me.
“Have a seat,” he said.
I sat in front of his desk, waiting for him to scold me about something, to unleash more of his seemingly bipolar tendencies, but he didn’t. He just kept staring at me.
I hated the effect he was having on my body right now, and as much as I wanted to ask him what the hell he wanted, I couldn’t get my mouth to say a thing.
Without addressing me, he suddenly stood up and walked around his desk, sitting on the edge of it, letting his knees touch mine.
“Lawyers are supposed to be people with integrity, are they not?” he whispered.
“Yes.”
“Do you think you have integrity, Miss Everhart?” He emphasized every syllable of my name.
“Yes.”
“Hmmm.” He leaned forward. “So, would you ever willingly withhold the truth from someone you supposedly cared about?”
“It depends...” My breath hitched in my throat; my heart was racing a mile a minute.
“It depends?” He sat back a bit. “It depends on what?”
“If the truth would damage anything or hurt someone unnecessarily, then I believe I have a right to withhold it.”
“But what if someone blatantly asked you for the truth, several times? What if he said, I want you to tell me the truth no matter how much it hurts, or how angry it may make me?”
Where is he going with this? “Are you referring to a potential witness changing his testimony on the stand, Mr. Hamilton?”
“No...” He trailed his fingers across my collarbone, setting my nerves on fire. “This is a personal inquiry. I’m just in need of an outside opinion. Answer the question.”
“Well, I think—” I sucked in a breath as he placed his hand on my thigh and strummed his fingers against my skirt. “I think certain lies have to be told, and certain truths have to be withheld. The ultimate conviction is up to those who can discern which is which.”
“So, you believe in reasonable doubt?”
“In certain cases, yes...”
“What about in our case?” His hand was slowly slipping underneath my skirt, traveling further and further up my thigh.
“Our case?”
“Yes,” he said. “I believe you and I are currently in an unfortunate web of deceit.”
“No...” I said, breathless and confused. “We’re not in a web of deceit...”
“We definitely are, Alyssa—" He pulled me forward by the strand of pearls around my neck. "It’s the case of a woman who befriended me online, but she turned out to be someone completely different than who she told me she was. So, in this case—our case, how do you feel about reasonable doubt?”
Gasping, I could feel all the color draining from my face. My heart wasn’t racing anymore; it was flailing around wildly—ready to jump out of my chest, and my eyes were as wide as they could go.
