Reflected in You

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"Come now.
You're my daughter.
You can't be that na?ve."
"Eva!" I turned at the sound of my name and felt a rush of relief to see Trey hurrying toward me.
He was of average height and nicely muscular, with unruly blond hair, hazel eyes, and a slight angle to his nose that told me it'd been broken at some point.
He was dressed in faded, frayed jeans and a T- shirt, and I was struck by the fact that he wasn't Cary's usual flashy type.
For once, it seemed, the attraction had been more than skin deep.
"I just found out," he said when he reached me.
"Detectives came by my work this morning and questioned me.
I can't believe this happened Friday night and I'm only just finding out about it."
I couldn't hold his slightly accusatory tone against him.
"I just found out early this morning myself.
I was out of town."
After a quick introduction between my mother and Trey, she excused herself to go sit with Cary, leaving me to elaborate on the information Trey had gleaned from the detectives.
Trey shoved his hands through his hair, making it look even messier.
"This wouldn't have happened if I'd taken him with me when I left."
"You can't blame yourself for this."
"Who else do I blame for the fact that he's screwing around with another guy's girl?" He gripped the back of his neck.
"I'm the one who's not enough for him.
He's got the drive of a hormonal teenager and I'm working or in school all the damn time."
Ugh.
Total TMI.
It was a struggle not to wince.
But I understood that Trey likely didn't have anyone else he felt comfortable discussing Cary with.
"He's bisexual, Trey," I said softly, reaching out to run a comforting hand down his biceps.
"That doesn't mean you're lacking."
"I don't know how to live with this."
"Would you consider counseling? With both of you, I mean."
He looked at me with haunted eyes for a long minute; then his shoulders slumped.
"I don't know.
I think I have to decide if I can live with him cheating.
Could you do it, Eva? Could you sit at home waiting for your man, knowing he was sticking it somewhere else?" "No."
An icy shiver coursed through me at the mere words.
"No, I couldn't."
"And I don't even know if Cary would agree to counseling.
He keeps pushing me away.
He wants me, and then he doesn't.
He's committed, and then he isn't.
I want in, Eva, like he's let you in, but he keeps shutting me out."
"It took me a long time to break through to him.
He tried pushing me away with sex, always coming on to me, taunting me.
I think you made the right decision keeping it platonic on Friday.
Cary puts his value on his looks and sex appeal.
You need to show him that it's not just his body you want."
Trey sighed and crossed his arms.
"Is that how you two got close? Because you wouldn't sleep with him?" "Partly.
Mostly it's because I'm a mess.
It's not as obvious now as it was when we met, but he knows I'm not perfect."
"Neither am I! Who is?" "He believes you're better than he is, that you deserve better."
I grinned.
"Me .
well, I bet part of him thinks I deserve him.
That we deserve each other."
"Crazy fucker," he muttered.
"He is that," I agreed.
"That's why we love him, isn't it? Do you want to go in and see him? Or do you want to go home and think about it?" "No, I want to see him."
Trey's shoulders rolled back and his chin lifted.
"I don't care what put him here.
I want to be with him while he's going through this."
"I'm glad to hear that."
I linked my arm with his and led him to Cary's room.
We entered to the sound of my mother's trilling, girlish laughter.
She sat on the edge of the bed, with Cary smiling adoringly at her.
She was as much a mother to him as she was to me, and he loved her so much for that.
His own mother had hated him, abused him, and allowed others to abuse him.
He looked over and saw us, and the emotions that swept across his face in that moment caused a tightness in my chest.
I heard Trey's breath catch as he got his first sight of Cary's condition.
I kicked myself for not telling him in advance not to make the mistake of getting weepy like I had.
Trey cleared his throat.
"Drama queen," he said with gruff affection.
"If you wanted flowers, you should've just asked for them.
This is extreme."
"And ineffective, apparently," Cary rejoined hoarsely, clearly trying to pull himself together.
"I don't see any flowers."
"I see a ton."
Trey's gaze did a brief slide across the room, then went back to Cary.
"Just wanted to see what I was up against, so I could beat out my competition."
There was no way to miss the double meaning in that statement.
My mom rose from the bed.
She leaned over and kissed Cary's cheek.
"I'll take Eva out to breakfast.
We'll see you in about an hour or so."
"Gimme a sec," I said, passing the bed quickly, "and I'll get out of your hair, guys."
I grabbed my phone and charger out of my bag and plugged it into an outlet by the window.
As soon as the screen flickered to life, I sent a quick group text message to Shawna and my dad, saying simply: I'll call later.
Then I made sure my phone was silenced and left it on the window ledge.
"Ready?" my mom asked.
"As I'll ever be."

Chapter 13

I had to get up before dawn Tuesday morning.
I left a note for Cary where he'd see it as soon as he woke up, then headed out to grab a cab back to our place.
I showered, dressed, made coffee, and tried to talk myself out of feeling like something was off.
I was stressed and suffering from lack of sleep, which always led to tiny bouts of depression.
I told myself that it had nothing to do with Gideon, but the knot in my stomach said differently.
Looking at the clock, I saw it was a little after eight.
I'd have to leave soon, because Gideon hadn't called or texted to say that he'd be giving me a ride.
It had been almost twenty-four hours since I'd last seen him or even really talked to him.
The call I'd made to him at nine the night before had been less than brief.
He'd been in the middle of something and barely said hello and good-bye.
I knew he had a lot of work to do.
I knew I shouldn't resent him for having to pay for the time away with extra hours of work getting caught up.
He'd done a lot to help me deal with Cary's situation, more than anyone could've expected.
It was up to me to deal with how I was feeling about it.
Finishing my coffee, I rinsed out my mug, then grabbed my purse and bag on the way out.
My tree-lined street was quiet, but the rest of New York was wide awake, its ceaseless energy thrumming with a tangible force.
Women in chic office wear and men in suits tried to hail taxis that streaked by, before settling for packed buses or the subway instead.
Flower stands exploded with brilliant color, the sight of them always capable of cheering me up in the morning, as did the sight and smell of the neighborhood bakery, which was doing a brisk business at that hour.
I was a little ways down Broadway before my phone rang.
The little thrill that shot through me at the sight of Gideon's name quickened my steps.
"Hey, stranger."
"Where the hell are you?" he snapped.
A frisson of unease dampened my excitement.
"I'm on my way to work."
"Why?" He spoke to someone offline, then, "Are you in a cab?" "I'm walking.
Jeez.
Did you wake up on the wrong side of the bed or what?" "You should have waited to be picked up."
"I didn't hear from you, and I didn't want to be late after missing work yesterday."
"You could've called me instead of just taking off."
His voice was low and angry.
I became angry, too.
"The last time I called, you were too busy to give me more than a minute of your time."
"I've got things to take care of, Eva.
Give me a break."
"Sure thing.
How about now?" I hung up and dropped my phone back into my bag.
It began ringing again immediately and I ignored it, my blood simmering.
When the Bentley pulled up beside me a few minutes later, I kept walking.
It followed, the front passenger window sliding down.
Angus leaned over.
"Miss Tramell, please."
I paused, looking at him.
"Are you alone?" "Yes."
With a sigh, I got in the car.
My phone was still ringing nonstop, so I reached in and shut the ringer off.
One block later, I heard Gideon's voice coming through the car's speakers.
"Do you have her?" "Yes, sir," Angus replied.
The line cut out.
"What the hell crawled up his ass and died?" I asked, looking at Angus in the rearview mirror.
"He's got a lot on his mind."
Whatever it was, it sure wasn't me.
I couldn't believe what a jerk he was being.
He'd been curt on the phone the night before, too, but not rude.
Within a few minutes after I arrived at work, Mark came up to my cubicle.
"I'm sorry to hear about your roommate," he said, setting a fresh cup of coffee on my desk.
"Is he going to be all right?" "Eventually.
Cary's tough; he'll pull through."