Rising Tides
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But he couldn't. Not with Ethan watching him, and waiting. And knowing.
"If you do, she'll just come back for more. She'll keep coming back." Seth rubbed the back of a sweaty hand over his mouth. "As long as she knows where I am she'll keep coming back. I have to go someplace else, someplace where she can't find me."
"You're not going anywhere." Ethan crouched so they were closer to eye level. "And she's not going to get any more money. She's not going to win."
Slowly, mechanically, Seth shook his head back and forth. "You don't know her."
"I know pieces of her. She's smart enough to know we're set on keeping you with us. That we love you enough to pay." He saw the flash of emotion in Seth's eyes before the boy lowered them. "And we would pay if that would end it, if that would ease things. But it won't end or ease it. It's like you said. She'd just come back."
"What are you going to do?"
"It's what we're going to do now. All of us," he said and waited for Seth's gaze to settle on his face again. "We'll go on as we've been going on, mostly. Phil will talk to the lawyer so we got that end covered."
"You tell him I'm not going back with her," Seth said furiously, shooting a desperate look at Phillip. "No matter what, I'm not going back."
"I'll tell him."
"Anna's going to write her a letter," Ethan continued.
"What kind of letter?"
"A smart one," Ethan said with the hint of a smile. "With all those fifty-dollar words and that official-sounding stuff. She'll be doing it as your caseworker, to let Gloria know we've got the system and the law behind us. It might give her pause to think."
"She hates social workers," Seth put in.
"Good." For the first time in more than an hour, Anna smiled and meant it. "People who hate something are usually afraid of it, too."
"One thing that would help, Seth, if you can do it—"
He turned back to Ethan. "What do I have to do?"
"If you could talk to Anna, tell her how things were before—as close to exact as you can manage."
"I don't want to talk about it. It's over. I'm not going back."
"I know." Gently, Ethan put his hands on Seth's trembling shoulders. "And I know talking about it can be almost like being there again. It took me a long time to be able to tell my mother—to tell Stella. To say it all out loud, even though she already knew most of it. It started to get better after that. And it helped her and Ray get the legal crap handled."
Seth thought ofHigh Noon , of heroes. Of Ethan. "It's the right thing to do?"
"Yeah, it's the right thing."
"Will you come with me?"
"Sure." Ethan rose, held out a hand. "We'll go home and talk it through."
Chapter Fourteen
"ready? mama? time to go?"
"Almost, Aubrey." Grace put the finishing touches on her potato salad, sprinkling paprika on to give it zest and color.
Aubrey had been asking her the same question since seven-thirty that morning. Grace decided the only reason she hadn't run out of patience with her daughter was because she felt just as anxious and eager as a two year old herself.
"Maaamaaa."
At the deep frustration in Aubrey's voice, Grace had to swallow a chuckle. "Let me see." Grace tucked the clear wrap tidily around the bowl before she turned and studied her little girl. "You look pretty."
"I have a bow." In a purely female gesture, Aubrey lifted a hand and patted the ribbon Grace had threaded through her curls.
"A pink bow."
"Pink." With a smile, Aubrey beamed up at her mother. "Pretty Mama."
"Thanks, baby." She hoped Ethan thought so. How would he look at her? she wondered. How should they behave? There would be so many people there, and no one—well, besides the Quinns—no one knew they were in love.
In love, she thought with a long, dreamy sigh. It was such a marvelous place to be. She blinked when little arms wrapped around her legs and squeezed.
"Mama! Ready?"
Laughing, Grace hauled her up for a big hug and kiss. "All right. Let's go."
no general in thehours before a decisive battle ever ordered his troops into action with more authority and determination than Anna Spinelli Quinn.
"Seth, you set those folding chairs up under the shade trees over there. Isn't Phillip back with the extra ice yet? He's been gone twenty minutes. Cam! You and Ethan are putting those picnic tables too close together."
"Minute ago," Cam said under his breath, "they were too far apart." But he walked backward, hauling the table another foot.
"That's good. That's fine." Armed with bright red, white, and blue striped cloths, Anna hurried across the lawn. "Now you can move the umbrella tables, nearer the water, I think." Cam narrowed his eyes. "You said you wanted them over by the trees."
"I changed my mind." She scanned the yard as she spread the tablecloths. Cam opened his mouth to protest, but caught Ethan's warning shake of the head in time. His brother was right, he decided. Arguing wasn't going to change a thing.
Anna had been on a tear all morning, and when he said as much to Ethan as they moved out of earshot, it was with the irritation of the baffled.
"We're talking about a practical-minded, organized woman here," Cam added. "I don't know what's gotten into her. It's just a damn picnic."
"I guess women get that way over things like this," was Ethan's opinion. He remembered the way Grace had refused to let him take a shower in his own bathroom just because Cam and Anna were coming home. Who knew what went on in a female mind?
"She wasn't this bad over the wedding reception."
"I expect she had her mind on other things then."
"Yeah." Cam grunted as he picked up one of the round umbrella tables—again—and began to cart it toward the sun-dazzled water. "Phil's the smart one. He got the hell out of the house."
"He's always had a knack for it," Ethan agreed.
He didn't mind moving tables, or setting up chairs, or any of the dozens of chores—small and large—that Anna came up with. It helped keep his mind off weightier matters. If he let himself think too much, he started to get a picture of Gloria DeLauter in his head. Because he'd never seen her, the image his brain conjured up was a tall, fleshy woman with tangled straw-colored hair, hard eyes smeared with sooty makeup, a mouth lax from too many trips to the bottle, too many matings with the needle.
"If you do, she'll just come back for more. She'll keep coming back." Seth rubbed the back of a sweaty hand over his mouth. "As long as she knows where I am she'll keep coming back. I have to go someplace else, someplace where she can't find me."
"You're not going anywhere." Ethan crouched so they were closer to eye level. "And she's not going to get any more money. She's not going to win."
Slowly, mechanically, Seth shook his head back and forth. "You don't know her."
"I know pieces of her. She's smart enough to know we're set on keeping you with us. That we love you enough to pay." He saw the flash of emotion in Seth's eyes before the boy lowered them. "And we would pay if that would end it, if that would ease things. But it won't end or ease it. It's like you said. She'd just come back."
"What are you going to do?"
"It's what we're going to do now. All of us," he said and waited for Seth's gaze to settle on his face again. "We'll go on as we've been going on, mostly. Phil will talk to the lawyer so we got that end covered."
"You tell him I'm not going back with her," Seth said furiously, shooting a desperate look at Phillip. "No matter what, I'm not going back."
"I'll tell him."
"Anna's going to write her a letter," Ethan continued.
"What kind of letter?"
"A smart one," Ethan said with the hint of a smile. "With all those fifty-dollar words and that official-sounding stuff. She'll be doing it as your caseworker, to let Gloria know we've got the system and the law behind us. It might give her pause to think."
"She hates social workers," Seth put in.
"Good." For the first time in more than an hour, Anna smiled and meant it. "People who hate something are usually afraid of it, too."
"One thing that would help, Seth, if you can do it—"
He turned back to Ethan. "What do I have to do?"
"If you could talk to Anna, tell her how things were before—as close to exact as you can manage."
"I don't want to talk about it. It's over. I'm not going back."
"I know." Gently, Ethan put his hands on Seth's trembling shoulders. "And I know talking about it can be almost like being there again. It took me a long time to be able to tell my mother—to tell Stella. To say it all out loud, even though she already knew most of it. It started to get better after that. And it helped her and Ray get the legal crap handled."
Seth thought ofHigh Noon , of heroes. Of Ethan. "It's the right thing to do?"
"Yeah, it's the right thing."
"Will you come with me?"
"Sure." Ethan rose, held out a hand. "We'll go home and talk it through."
Chapter Fourteen
"ready? mama? time to go?"
"Almost, Aubrey." Grace put the finishing touches on her potato salad, sprinkling paprika on to give it zest and color.
Aubrey had been asking her the same question since seven-thirty that morning. Grace decided the only reason she hadn't run out of patience with her daughter was because she felt just as anxious and eager as a two year old herself.
"Maaamaaa."
At the deep frustration in Aubrey's voice, Grace had to swallow a chuckle. "Let me see." Grace tucked the clear wrap tidily around the bowl before she turned and studied her little girl. "You look pretty."
"I have a bow." In a purely female gesture, Aubrey lifted a hand and patted the ribbon Grace had threaded through her curls.
"A pink bow."
"Pink." With a smile, Aubrey beamed up at her mother. "Pretty Mama."
"Thanks, baby." She hoped Ethan thought so. How would he look at her? she wondered. How should they behave? There would be so many people there, and no one—well, besides the Quinns—no one knew they were in love.
In love, she thought with a long, dreamy sigh. It was such a marvelous place to be. She blinked when little arms wrapped around her legs and squeezed.
"Mama! Ready?"
Laughing, Grace hauled her up for a big hug and kiss. "All right. Let's go."
no general in thehours before a decisive battle ever ordered his troops into action with more authority and determination than Anna Spinelli Quinn.
"Seth, you set those folding chairs up under the shade trees over there. Isn't Phillip back with the extra ice yet? He's been gone twenty minutes. Cam! You and Ethan are putting those picnic tables too close together."
"Minute ago," Cam said under his breath, "they were too far apart." But he walked backward, hauling the table another foot.
"That's good. That's fine." Armed with bright red, white, and blue striped cloths, Anna hurried across the lawn. "Now you can move the umbrella tables, nearer the water, I think." Cam narrowed his eyes. "You said you wanted them over by the trees."
"I changed my mind." She scanned the yard as she spread the tablecloths. Cam opened his mouth to protest, but caught Ethan's warning shake of the head in time. His brother was right, he decided. Arguing wasn't going to change a thing.
Anna had been on a tear all morning, and when he said as much to Ethan as they moved out of earshot, it was with the irritation of the baffled.
"We're talking about a practical-minded, organized woman here," Cam added. "I don't know what's gotten into her. It's just a damn picnic."
"I guess women get that way over things like this," was Ethan's opinion. He remembered the way Grace had refused to let him take a shower in his own bathroom just because Cam and Anna were coming home. Who knew what went on in a female mind?
"She wasn't this bad over the wedding reception."
"I expect she had her mind on other things then."
"Yeah." Cam grunted as he picked up one of the round umbrella tables—again—and began to cart it toward the sun-dazzled water. "Phil's the smart one. He got the hell out of the house."
"He's always had a knack for it," Ethan agreed.
He didn't mind moving tables, or setting up chairs, or any of the dozens of chores—small and large—that Anna came up with. It helped keep his mind off weightier matters. If he let himself think too much, he started to get a picture of Gloria DeLauter in his head. Because he'd never seen her, the image his brain conjured up was a tall, fleshy woman with tangled straw-colored hair, hard eyes smeared with sooty makeup, a mouth lax from too many trips to the bottle, too many matings with the needle.
