Rock Chick Renegade
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“He does?” I asked.
Vance nodded.
See? I knew Frank was thinking about destroying the world.
Damn.
“From now on, you’re workin’ with Mace and Luke,” Vance stated as if that was that, moving away from me and leaning back as our drinks arrived.
“I’m not. I’m fine where I am.”
“Are you ready to order?” the waiter asked.
I looked down at my menu which I hadn’t even opened.
“No,” Vance said shortly.
“Thank you,” I finished for Vance.
The waiter moved away.
Vance turned to me again and got even closer than last time. “Jules, Zip’s son OD’ed in the eighties. Heavy’s wife was a speed freak. They’re out for revenge and using you to get it. Frank is just a nutcase.”
I didn’t know Zip’s son OD’ed either. I hated it that Vance knew more than me.
“Crowe –” I started.
“You keep this up you need to work with people who have their heads in the game.”
“Like Mace and Luke aren’t their own kind of crazy,” I said.
His eyes flashed.
Yikes. Again, not good. I’d definitely said the wrong thing.
“Mace and Luke know their shit, understand their limits and play to their strengths. They do what they do because they’re good at it. They could teach you a few things.”
I was sure they could. Still.
I looked away, picked up my menu and started to read it like it was the most fascinating novel ever written, nonverbally making the point that our discussion was over.
Vance pulled the menu out of my hands and tossed it on the table, nonverbally making the point that our discussion was not over.
“I was reading that,” I protested.
“In a minute.”
“Now. The sooner we order, the sooner this date is over, the sooner we’re over.”
At my words I watched, fascinated in a kind of passing-a-car-accident way as he leaned in and his eyes went hard. If I thought I’d made him angry earlier with my (admittedly stupid) comment about his friends, I’d thoroughly made him angry now.
“We’re not over because of an idiotic fight.”
“We haven’t even begun, Crowe, and this isn’t an idiotic fight. You’re trying to tell me what to do.”
“I’m tryin’ to help you.”
“Then maybe you can find a better way to communicate that than saying nasty things about my friends.”
“I haven’t said anything that isn’t the truth.”
“They aren’t using me.”
“Jules, they are.”
“Then they are, but still, they like me,” I said and I said it in a way that made it sound like I desperately needed to believe it and if it was anatomically possible I would have kicked myself.
His chin dipped, his head went back in a slow jerk and he stared at me a beat. Then something happened to his face, the anger just disappeared. Vanished. Gone. In its place was something else, something softer, something I couldn’t read.
“Jules,” he said quietly.
I grabbed my menu, entirely unable to deal with the something else in his face.
“Let’s just order,” I snapped, opened it and studied it.
After the waiter had taken our orders, I sipped my cosmo and stared at the tablecloth of the booth across from us. Vance allowed this for a few seconds then his arm came from the back of the booth, wrapped around me and his hand cupped my shoulder. He curled me to face him and (again) got in my space.
“Excuse me,” I said, all haughty.
“We have begun,” he said, his eyes staring into mine.
“No,” I stated.
“I don’t know what shit you’re workin’ through but I know it’s there. I know you’d rather not even acknowledge it and definitely don’t want me to be a part of the process. I don’t care. Princess, this is happening between you and me.”
“What, exactly, do you mean by ‘this’? You f**king me?” I snapped, being nasty. It wasn’t me and I didn’t like it but I couldn’t stop myself either.
“Yeah. Me f**king you. In your bed, on your couch, in my bed and anywhere else I can think of. I’m gonna do you on your back, on your knees and you’re gonna ride me. And when I’ve exhausted you and you don’t have those f**king shields up, I’m gonna make you talk to me and tell me what this shit is about and then, maybe, I can help you with it.”
What he said stunned me, shocked me and made me feel funny but not exactly in a bad way, in kind of a good-but-scary way.
My emotional Rottweiler started barking and drooling and I pulled away from Vance but his arm tightened keeping me where I was.
“You’ve got tonight. Then that’s it,” I said.
He shook his head. “You have no idea what you’re dealin’ with.”
“I know exactly what I’m dealing with,” I told him.
He let me go and grabbed a shrimp.
Then he said, “We’ll see.”
Chapter Nine
Stop Chuckling
It had to be, officially, the worst date on record.
We ate, we drank and we didn’t speak.
Well, Vance spoke, I didn’t speak. After we ate the shrimp, he pulled my hair off my shoulder, leaned into my ear and whispered, “Stop bein’ angry, Jules.”
I just threw him a look. He gave me an arrogant grin.
He seemed unaffected by my snit, in fact he carried on like nothing was wrong and I wasn’t emanating Go to Hell Vance Crowe Death Rays. Between the salad and main course his arm came around me, tucking me into his side while his hand played with a curl in my hair. I allowed this because to struggle would be tacky and we were in The Broker, the least tacky place in Denver. Between the main course and dessert, when I’d forgotten about the dip in my slacks again and had leaned forward, he ran his fingers across my exposed skin.
After we were done, he paid, we walked to his bike and he got on. I got on behind him thinking that a motorcycle was the worst form of transportation when you were holding an angry grudge against its driver. He started the bike, leaned back into me and grabbed my wrists, pulling them around his waist which pressed my torso into his back. Before I could disconnect he rocketed from the curb and I hung on so I didn’t go off the end of the bike and to a scary, body-skidding-on-pavement-tearing-skin-off death.
He parked behind my house, I let us in even though I wanted to see him break in, I wasn’t in the mood to ask and switched on the light.
Vance nodded.
See? I knew Frank was thinking about destroying the world.
Damn.
“From now on, you’re workin’ with Mace and Luke,” Vance stated as if that was that, moving away from me and leaning back as our drinks arrived.
“I’m not. I’m fine where I am.”
“Are you ready to order?” the waiter asked.
I looked down at my menu which I hadn’t even opened.
“No,” Vance said shortly.
“Thank you,” I finished for Vance.
The waiter moved away.
Vance turned to me again and got even closer than last time. “Jules, Zip’s son OD’ed in the eighties. Heavy’s wife was a speed freak. They’re out for revenge and using you to get it. Frank is just a nutcase.”
I didn’t know Zip’s son OD’ed either. I hated it that Vance knew more than me.
“Crowe –” I started.
“You keep this up you need to work with people who have their heads in the game.”
“Like Mace and Luke aren’t their own kind of crazy,” I said.
His eyes flashed.
Yikes. Again, not good. I’d definitely said the wrong thing.
“Mace and Luke know their shit, understand their limits and play to their strengths. They do what they do because they’re good at it. They could teach you a few things.”
I was sure they could. Still.
I looked away, picked up my menu and started to read it like it was the most fascinating novel ever written, nonverbally making the point that our discussion was over.
Vance pulled the menu out of my hands and tossed it on the table, nonverbally making the point that our discussion was not over.
“I was reading that,” I protested.
“In a minute.”
“Now. The sooner we order, the sooner this date is over, the sooner we’re over.”
At my words I watched, fascinated in a kind of passing-a-car-accident way as he leaned in and his eyes went hard. If I thought I’d made him angry earlier with my (admittedly stupid) comment about his friends, I’d thoroughly made him angry now.
“We’re not over because of an idiotic fight.”
“We haven’t even begun, Crowe, and this isn’t an idiotic fight. You’re trying to tell me what to do.”
“I’m tryin’ to help you.”
“Then maybe you can find a better way to communicate that than saying nasty things about my friends.”
“I haven’t said anything that isn’t the truth.”
“They aren’t using me.”
“Jules, they are.”
“Then they are, but still, they like me,” I said and I said it in a way that made it sound like I desperately needed to believe it and if it was anatomically possible I would have kicked myself.
His chin dipped, his head went back in a slow jerk and he stared at me a beat. Then something happened to his face, the anger just disappeared. Vanished. Gone. In its place was something else, something softer, something I couldn’t read.
“Jules,” he said quietly.
I grabbed my menu, entirely unable to deal with the something else in his face.
“Let’s just order,” I snapped, opened it and studied it.
After the waiter had taken our orders, I sipped my cosmo and stared at the tablecloth of the booth across from us. Vance allowed this for a few seconds then his arm came from the back of the booth, wrapped around me and his hand cupped my shoulder. He curled me to face him and (again) got in my space.
“Excuse me,” I said, all haughty.
“We have begun,” he said, his eyes staring into mine.
“No,” I stated.
“I don’t know what shit you’re workin’ through but I know it’s there. I know you’d rather not even acknowledge it and definitely don’t want me to be a part of the process. I don’t care. Princess, this is happening between you and me.”
“What, exactly, do you mean by ‘this’? You f**king me?” I snapped, being nasty. It wasn’t me and I didn’t like it but I couldn’t stop myself either.
“Yeah. Me f**king you. In your bed, on your couch, in my bed and anywhere else I can think of. I’m gonna do you on your back, on your knees and you’re gonna ride me. And when I’ve exhausted you and you don’t have those f**king shields up, I’m gonna make you talk to me and tell me what this shit is about and then, maybe, I can help you with it.”
What he said stunned me, shocked me and made me feel funny but not exactly in a bad way, in kind of a good-but-scary way.
My emotional Rottweiler started barking and drooling and I pulled away from Vance but his arm tightened keeping me where I was.
“You’ve got tonight. Then that’s it,” I said.
He shook his head. “You have no idea what you’re dealin’ with.”
“I know exactly what I’m dealing with,” I told him.
He let me go and grabbed a shrimp.
Then he said, “We’ll see.”
Chapter Nine
Stop Chuckling
It had to be, officially, the worst date on record.
We ate, we drank and we didn’t speak.
Well, Vance spoke, I didn’t speak. After we ate the shrimp, he pulled my hair off my shoulder, leaned into my ear and whispered, “Stop bein’ angry, Jules.”
I just threw him a look. He gave me an arrogant grin.
He seemed unaffected by my snit, in fact he carried on like nothing was wrong and I wasn’t emanating Go to Hell Vance Crowe Death Rays. Between the salad and main course his arm came around me, tucking me into his side while his hand played with a curl in my hair. I allowed this because to struggle would be tacky and we were in The Broker, the least tacky place in Denver. Between the main course and dessert, when I’d forgotten about the dip in my slacks again and had leaned forward, he ran his fingers across my exposed skin.
After we were done, he paid, we walked to his bike and he got on. I got on behind him thinking that a motorcycle was the worst form of transportation when you were holding an angry grudge against its driver. He started the bike, leaned back into me and grabbed my wrists, pulling them around his waist which pressed my torso into his back. Before I could disconnect he rocketed from the curb and I hung on so I didn’t go off the end of the bike and to a scary, body-skidding-on-pavement-tearing-skin-off death.
He parked behind my house, I let us in even though I wanted to see him break in, I wasn’t in the mood to ask and switched on the light.
