Rock Hard
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“I’m not ashamed, but I do get tired of being treated like a commodity. I thought becoming a lawyer might finally earn me some respect.”
“That’s why you want to be a lawyer? Honey, I don’t think there are many professions that are less respected than lawyers.”
“Respect is part of it. I really just want to help people. Protect them from all the bad things that happen in the world.”
Myrna chuckled. “You’re more like Sed than I realized.”
Jessica pulled a face. “Really? I don’t see it.”
“There are a lot of careers that help people. No one said you have to become a lawyer. You are allowed to change your mind.”
Jessica’s shoulders suddenly felt lighter. She hadn’t realized how much the thought of going back to that school was weighing her down. “I am?”
“Why not?”
Yeah, why not?
“The guys are set to go onstage in a few minutes. Are you ready to go?”
Jessica smiled at Myrna and nodded vigorously. Just the thought of seeing Sed onstage had her heart throbbing in her chest. Especially now that she knew she could stay with him. He’d be thrilled. Wouldn’t he?
Chapter 38
Jessica still hadn’t told Sed that she wanted to drop out of law school. And she didn’t have any idea how Sed would react to her proposition. She hoped he understood where she was coming from and didn’t think she was trying to trap him or giving up on her dream (it simply wasn’t her dream anymore). She loved him. She wasn’t ready to leave him to work toward something she no longer wanted. Not when she had everything she desired right here.
The bus eased to a stop outside the airport terminal. Sed opened the bedroom door. She took a deep breath.
“Are you all packed?”
“I’m not going.”
His brow furrowed. “What?”
She climbed from the bed that was covered with all her belongings and her open, yet unpacked, suitcase. She wrapped her arms around him and looked up into his tired eyes. He hadn’t been sleeping well the past few nights. She kept finding him sitting at the dining table in the dark, drinking beer alone.
“I’m not going back. I don’t want to go to law school anymore. I want to stay on tour with you for a while and then—”
“No,” he said firmly. He peeled her arms from his body and shoved her aside.
She paused, his words a slash to her heart. He just didn’t know what she meant. She needed to explain herself better. “Will you let me finish?”
“This isn’t our deal, Jessica. Our two months are up and now you’re supposed to leave.”
Deal?
Leave? But…
“You don’t want me?” Her voice cracked as her throat squeezed shut with emotion.
“The game is over now. Go back to school, Jessica.”
Over?
No. She couldn’t accept that. Couldn’t. No. He… He was…
“I don’t want to go back to school. Will you listen to me, Sed?” Tears blurred her vision. Stupid tears. They never worked with Sed. They pissed him off and she knew it. She dabbed at her eyes with her fingertips. “Sed, please. Just listen.”
He started to shove her belongings into the open suitcase on the bed. “No, I’m not listening. You are not chickening out. You’re going back.”
“You don’t understand. That isn’t why…”
He slammed her suitcase shut and pressed it into her chest. “Good-bye.”
“I’m not finished talking to you.” She slammed the suitcase down on the floor, her nostrils flaring and eyes narrowing.
“I’m finished talking to you. Get out!”
“Sed… You don’t understand. Will you just listen?” Frustrated, she hit him in the shoulder. “Listen to me!”
He picked up her suitcase, took her by the arm, and pulled her toward the front of the bus. He tossed her suitcase out the open door. Her luggage sprang open, scattering her clothes across the wide sidewalk next to the terminal.
“Sed, don’t—”
He grabbed her and hugged her against him until she thought her ribs would crack. She hugged him back, her lungs aching with unshed tears.
He’d changed his mind. Thank God. She couldn’t walk away from him again. She just… couldn’t…
He released her abruptly and then pushed her out of the door. She stumbled over her open suitcase and struggled to regain her balance. Her purse landed on the ground next to her feet. The bus door swung shut and then the vehicle eased away from the curb, leaving Jessica alone.
Utterly.
Chapter 39
Beth grabbed Jessica in a bear hug the moment she stepped into the terminal. “I missed you,” Beth said breathlessly. “Tell me all about your summer. Did you make good money stripping before you got fired?”
“No,” Jessica said.
“Are you and Sed back together?”
“No.”
“No? What do you mean, no? I thought things were going well. What happened?”
“We’ll talk at home. I’m tired.” Jessica was tired, and didn’t think she could handle talking about Sed at the moment. His rejection was still too fresh. Too… raw. She’d thought they were finally working as a team instead of butting heads in constant opposition and then this.
Jessica stomped through the terminal toward baggage claim. “We need to make an ice cream and chocolate run,” Jessica said to Beth over her shoulder.
By the time they got to their shared apartment, Jessica was no longer in the mood for ice cream or chocolate. She really just wanted to curl up in a ball on her bed and cry herself to sleep. Beth wouldn’t hear of it. She brought two enormous servings of cookie dough ice cream into Jessica’s room and interrupted her unpacking.
“Tell me everything.” Beth slurped a bite of dessert into her mouth.
So Jessica told her everything. Well, almost everything. From Sed finding her in Vegas to him kicking her off the bus that morning. She conveniently left out some self-incriminating tales.
“Why do you put up with him? He’s such an ass**le. Seriously, Jess, you can do better. You deserve to be happy.”
“I love him, Beth. It’s not something I can help. I tried to tell him why I want to drop out of law school—”
“What?” Beth’s spoon slipped from her grip and rattled in her bowl. “You’re dropping out of law school? Why would you do that?”
“I told you I was on academic probation.”
“That’s why you want to be a lawyer? Honey, I don’t think there are many professions that are less respected than lawyers.”
“Respect is part of it. I really just want to help people. Protect them from all the bad things that happen in the world.”
Myrna chuckled. “You’re more like Sed than I realized.”
Jessica pulled a face. “Really? I don’t see it.”
“There are a lot of careers that help people. No one said you have to become a lawyer. You are allowed to change your mind.”
Jessica’s shoulders suddenly felt lighter. She hadn’t realized how much the thought of going back to that school was weighing her down. “I am?”
“Why not?”
Yeah, why not?
“The guys are set to go onstage in a few minutes. Are you ready to go?”
Jessica smiled at Myrna and nodded vigorously. Just the thought of seeing Sed onstage had her heart throbbing in her chest. Especially now that she knew she could stay with him. He’d be thrilled. Wouldn’t he?
Chapter 38
Jessica still hadn’t told Sed that she wanted to drop out of law school. And she didn’t have any idea how Sed would react to her proposition. She hoped he understood where she was coming from and didn’t think she was trying to trap him or giving up on her dream (it simply wasn’t her dream anymore). She loved him. She wasn’t ready to leave him to work toward something she no longer wanted. Not when she had everything she desired right here.
The bus eased to a stop outside the airport terminal. Sed opened the bedroom door. She took a deep breath.
“Are you all packed?”
“I’m not going.”
His brow furrowed. “What?”
She climbed from the bed that was covered with all her belongings and her open, yet unpacked, suitcase. She wrapped her arms around him and looked up into his tired eyes. He hadn’t been sleeping well the past few nights. She kept finding him sitting at the dining table in the dark, drinking beer alone.
“I’m not going back. I don’t want to go to law school anymore. I want to stay on tour with you for a while and then—”
“No,” he said firmly. He peeled her arms from his body and shoved her aside.
She paused, his words a slash to her heart. He just didn’t know what she meant. She needed to explain herself better. “Will you let me finish?”
“This isn’t our deal, Jessica. Our two months are up and now you’re supposed to leave.”
Deal?
Leave? But…
“You don’t want me?” Her voice cracked as her throat squeezed shut with emotion.
“The game is over now. Go back to school, Jessica.”
Over?
No. She couldn’t accept that. Couldn’t. No. He… He was…
“I don’t want to go back to school. Will you listen to me, Sed?” Tears blurred her vision. Stupid tears. They never worked with Sed. They pissed him off and she knew it. She dabbed at her eyes with her fingertips. “Sed, please. Just listen.”
He started to shove her belongings into the open suitcase on the bed. “No, I’m not listening. You are not chickening out. You’re going back.”
“You don’t understand. That isn’t why…”
He slammed her suitcase shut and pressed it into her chest. “Good-bye.”
“I’m not finished talking to you.” She slammed the suitcase down on the floor, her nostrils flaring and eyes narrowing.
“I’m finished talking to you. Get out!”
“Sed… You don’t understand. Will you just listen?” Frustrated, she hit him in the shoulder. “Listen to me!”
He picked up her suitcase, took her by the arm, and pulled her toward the front of the bus. He tossed her suitcase out the open door. Her luggage sprang open, scattering her clothes across the wide sidewalk next to the terminal.
“Sed, don’t—”
He grabbed her and hugged her against him until she thought her ribs would crack. She hugged him back, her lungs aching with unshed tears.
He’d changed his mind. Thank God. She couldn’t walk away from him again. She just… couldn’t…
He released her abruptly and then pushed her out of the door. She stumbled over her open suitcase and struggled to regain her balance. Her purse landed on the ground next to her feet. The bus door swung shut and then the vehicle eased away from the curb, leaving Jessica alone.
Utterly.
Chapter 39
Beth grabbed Jessica in a bear hug the moment she stepped into the terminal. “I missed you,” Beth said breathlessly. “Tell me all about your summer. Did you make good money stripping before you got fired?”
“No,” Jessica said.
“Are you and Sed back together?”
“No.”
“No? What do you mean, no? I thought things were going well. What happened?”
“We’ll talk at home. I’m tired.” Jessica was tired, and didn’t think she could handle talking about Sed at the moment. His rejection was still too fresh. Too… raw. She’d thought they were finally working as a team instead of butting heads in constant opposition and then this.
Jessica stomped through the terminal toward baggage claim. “We need to make an ice cream and chocolate run,” Jessica said to Beth over her shoulder.
By the time they got to their shared apartment, Jessica was no longer in the mood for ice cream or chocolate. She really just wanted to curl up in a ball on her bed and cry herself to sleep. Beth wouldn’t hear of it. She brought two enormous servings of cookie dough ice cream into Jessica’s room and interrupted her unpacking.
“Tell me everything.” Beth slurped a bite of dessert into her mouth.
So Jessica told her everything. Well, almost everything. From Sed finding her in Vegas to him kicking her off the bus that morning. She conveniently left out some self-incriminating tales.
“Why do you put up with him? He’s such an ass**le. Seriously, Jess, you can do better. You deserve to be happy.”
“I love him, Beth. It’s not something I can help. I tried to tell him why I want to drop out of law school—”
“What?” Beth’s spoon slipped from her grip and rattled in her bowl. “You’re dropping out of law school? Why would you do that?”
“I told you I was on academic probation.”
