Sacrifice of Love
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Lilly was gone, at least for now. Once the threat of his brother had been neutralized he would go and get her back. He only hoped that her heart did not move on while he fought to keep her safe and alive.
Decebel closed the door quietly behind him as he walked into the room Jennifer and he shared at the Romanian pack mansion. He watched quietly as Jennifer went into the closet and began bringing out clothes and laying them on the bed. She didnt look at him or even acknowledge that he was in the room, so he waited. He didnt have any idea what he was going to say to her, but he was terrified that as soon as he opened his mouth it was going to be to beg her to stay and plead for her forgiveness. He had hurt her so much in the past month, and he knew that she would only continue to hurt. What choice do I have he growled to himself. He wanted to save the life of their child, and he didnt want to put Jennifer in a place where she had to choose between him or their baby. This was the only solution he could come up with, and he knew Jennifer would tell him it sucked and to come up with something new, but he was fresh out of new.
Are you going to tell me why you are okay with letting your pregnant wife fly halfway around the world with a woman who is being hunted by a crazy warlock? her voice was calm and even.
Decebel took a step towards her but she held up her hand to stop him.
Answer me, B, she told him firmly.
I love you, Jennifer. I love you more than any man has a right to love. That is all you need to know. He tried to implore her with his eyes to just trust him. But could he really ask that of her when he knew he was planning on ending his life without telling her.
As romantic and fuzzy as that sounds, its a crap answer Dec and you know it. Jen grabbed her suitcase from the closet and started putting the clothes she had laid on her bed into it. She let out a dry laugh that said she was anything but humored. I mean seriously, after all weve been through together? After all weve done together, you honestly believe I will just take what youre telling me and act like I have my head shoved so far up my butt that I cant smell the shit you have spewing from your lips?
His eyes widened at her language. He was use to her being crass, but even for her this was intense.
Yeah, I said it, she threw her arms out wide, what are you going to do about it, Alpha? Tell me another sweet nothing and hope that I choke on it so I can ignore the fact that my mate is shutting me out and shipping me and his unborn child off to another country without so much as a bye babe, hope our baby lives through delivery. Come on, Dec. What the hell is that?!
Decebel turned abruptly and slammed his fists into the wall tearing through the plaster even as her words tore through his heart.
HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK SUCH A THING? he snarled but kept his back to her. You have no concept of the pain that I am going through right now, mate. he turned slowly to face her as his breathing increased and he fought forcontrol to keep from phasing. The thought of you gone, where I cant touch you, cant hold you, cant be there if you need me, is like a hot skewer being shoved into my gut.
How am I supposed to know Decebel? she snarled right back. You wont let me in. You hide your thoughts from me. You keep your touch from me. Its like you cant stand to be with me. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK? Tears were sliding down her cheeks and she had abandoned the half packed suitcase.
Their eyes met and the pain they both felt radiated between them. Decebel stumbled forward and fell to his knees in front of her.
Please, I know I dont deserve it, but please trust me, he whispered against her stomach as he leaned against her.
Jen closed her eyes and soaked up the contact as she ran her fingers through his dark hair. It had grown enough in the past couple of months that it dropped in front of his eyes, adding to his off-limits allure.
She felt more tears slide down her cheeks and drop onto his face as he looked up at her. Decebel stood and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her in as tightly as he could without hurting her.
Baby, he whispered against her hair. He breathed in her scent and could taste her on his tongue and he longed for the nights of shared laughter, whispers, and love. Im so sorry Ive hurt you. But you have to believe me, I love you, I love our baby, and Im not abandoning you.
Jen shuddered as she felt his breath against her neck and his hands run up her back, firm and confident in his touch. She loved that about him. He saw what he wanted and he just took it. He had wanted her, and he had taken her and she had gone willingly with a big fat grin on her face. That felt like ages ago, but it hadnt even been a year. She never thought she would need anyone, not the way she needed Decebel. As he held her, asking her to trust him, even though he wouldnt tell her what he was keeping from her, she knew she would. She would give Decebel anything he asked for, even if it broke her heart to do so.
Promise me you will be alright, she told him as she pulled back far enough to be able to look up into his amber eyes, promise me that you will come for me and your child. Promise me that, her words were cut off with a choke as she tried to keep from falling apart.
Shh, Jennifer, he told her gently. He kissed her forehead, her cheeks, her chin, and then her lips. Decebels hand slipped up into Jennifers hair on either side of her face, holding her still as he took her mouth in his. He kissed her deeply imprinting his taste in her mind, his love in her heart, and, as usual, she gave as good as she got. He nipped at her lips and smiled when she moaned and pressed her swollen body against his. He continued to kiss her but let one of his hands slid down until it rested on her stomach. She gasped as she pulled back from the kiss and pressed her forehead to his. Her eyes met his as she covered his hand with her own.
Decebel closed the door quietly behind him as he walked into the room Jennifer and he shared at the Romanian pack mansion. He watched quietly as Jennifer went into the closet and began bringing out clothes and laying them on the bed. She didnt look at him or even acknowledge that he was in the room, so he waited. He didnt have any idea what he was going to say to her, but he was terrified that as soon as he opened his mouth it was going to be to beg her to stay and plead for her forgiveness. He had hurt her so much in the past month, and he knew that she would only continue to hurt. What choice do I have he growled to himself. He wanted to save the life of their child, and he didnt want to put Jennifer in a place where she had to choose between him or their baby. This was the only solution he could come up with, and he knew Jennifer would tell him it sucked and to come up with something new, but he was fresh out of new.
Are you going to tell me why you are okay with letting your pregnant wife fly halfway around the world with a woman who is being hunted by a crazy warlock? her voice was calm and even.
Decebel took a step towards her but she held up her hand to stop him.
Answer me, B, she told him firmly.
I love you, Jennifer. I love you more than any man has a right to love. That is all you need to know. He tried to implore her with his eyes to just trust him. But could he really ask that of her when he knew he was planning on ending his life without telling her.
As romantic and fuzzy as that sounds, its a crap answer Dec and you know it. Jen grabbed her suitcase from the closet and started putting the clothes she had laid on her bed into it. She let out a dry laugh that said she was anything but humored. I mean seriously, after all weve been through together? After all weve done together, you honestly believe I will just take what youre telling me and act like I have my head shoved so far up my butt that I cant smell the shit you have spewing from your lips?
His eyes widened at her language. He was use to her being crass, but even for her this was intense.
Yeah, I said it, she threw her arms out wide, what are you going to do about it, Alpha? Tell me another sweet nothing and hope that I choke on it so I can ignore the fact that my mate is shutting me out and shipping me and his unborn child off to another country without so much as a bye babe, hope our baby lives through delivery. Come on, Dec. What the hell is that?!
Decebel turned abruptly and slammed his fists into the wall tearing through the plaster even as her words tore through his heart.
HOW COULD YOU EVEN THINK SUCH A THING? he snarled but kept his back to her. You have no concept of the pain that I am going through right now, mate. he turned slowly to face her as his breathing increased and he fought forcontrol to keep from phasing. The thought of you gone, where I cant touch you, cant hold you, cant be there if you need me, is like a hot skewer being shoved into my gut.
How am I supposed to know Decebel? she snarled right back. You wont let me in. You hide your thoughts from me. You keep your touch from me. Its like you cant stand to be with me. WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO THINK? Tears were sliding down her cheeks and she had abandoned the half packed suitcase.
Their eyes met and the pain they both felt radiated between them. Decebel stumbled forward and fell to his knees in front of her.
Please, I know I dont deserve it, but please trust me, he whispered against her stomach as he leaned against her.
Jen closed her eyes and soaked up the contact as she ran her fingers through his dark hair. It had grown enough in the past couple of months that it dropped in front of his eyes, adding to his off-limits allure.
She felt more tears slide down her cheeks and drop onto his face as he looked up at her. Decebel stood and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her in as tightly as he could without hurting her.
Baby, he whispered against her hair. He breathed in her scent and could taste her on his tongue and he longed for the nights of shared laughter, whispers, and love. Im so sorry Ive hurt you. But you have to believe me, I love you, I love our baby, and Im not abandoning you.
Jen shuddered as she felt his breath against her neck and his hands run up her back, firm and confident in his touch. She loved that about him. He saw what he wanted and he just took it. He had wanted her, and he had taken her and she had gone willingly with a big fat grin on her face. That felt like ages ago, but it hadnt even been a year. She never thought she would need anyone, not the way she needed Decebel. As he held her, asking her to trust him, even though he wouldnt tell her what he was keeping from her, she knew she would. She would give Decebel anything he asked for, even if it broke her heart to do so.
Promise me you will be alright, she told him as she pulled back far enough to be able to look up into his amber eyes, promise me that you will come for me and your child. Promise me that, her words were cut off with a choke as she tried to keep from falling apart.
Shh, Jennifer, he told her gently. He kissed her forehead, her cheeks, her chin, and then her lips. Decebels hand slipped up into Jennifers hair on either side of her face, holding her still as he took her mouth in his. He kissed her deeply imprinting his taste in her mind, his love in her heart, and, as usual, she gave as good as she got. He nipped at her lips and smiled when she moaned and pressed her swollen body against his. He continued to kiss her but let one of his hands slid down until it rested on her stomach. She gasped as she pulled back from the kiss and pressed her forehead to his. Her eyes met his as she covered his hand with her own.
