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She relaxed against him, resting her head against his shoulder again. “That feels amazing.”
“I’ll send you a bill.”
“Can you fix my face, too?”
“Yes.” Another breath, another flare of power. She was relaxed, so he tried for information. “Why did he hit you?”
“I don’t want to talk about it. Did you sleep with Adam?”
“Of course not.” The thought was terrifying and intriguing all at once, and he told his imagination to knock it off.
“Don’t get all indignant about it. Two virile guys? Isn’t that like twice the recommended daily dose of testosterone?”
“Quinn.”
“Did you make out at least?”
He sighed along her skin.
Quinn made a low sound and snuggled closer. “You really like him, don’t you?”
He didn’t answer. Honestly, he still didn’t know if he’d been relieved to get Quinn’s call, putting an end to the night, or disappointed that it had cut their time short. He felt so unprepared to be with a guy, like he only knew the choreography for one dance step, and this was a completely different type of music.
God, he couldn’t even fool himself. Disappointed. He’d been disappointed.
He’d never lost control like that before. His life was always about fulfilling expectations. Spending a few minutes acting on instinct—he’d never felt anything like it. He couldn’t wait to feel like that again.
Quinn lifted her head and looked up at him. “You do really like him. I know you do. I could tell the instant you saw him at the studio.”
“I’m glad I’m so transparent.”
“You’re not transparent. He’s just like that. Magnetic. Everyone likes Adam.”
Nick blew another line of breath along her arm, drawing the burn out, feeling the skin rebuild. Everyone likes Adam.
Quinn’s voice had changed when she’d dropped the words.
Nick realigned what he’d learned from the evening, Adam’s gentle teasing, his easy comfort with who he was. They’d shared a moment. More than a moment—Nick had trusted him with the biggest secret of his life. You’re safe here.
With a start, he realized that Adam’s one-liners could have been the same kind of practiced words that Nick dropped on unsuspecting girls.
He’d rushed into this with his emotions exposed and bare.
He’d fallen for Adam’s quiet confidence, his dedication to dance and school, and his singular focus on what he wanted. Nick had been all instinct and feeling and passion. Adam had been controlled. In control.
You’re going to break my heart. I can feel it.
God, repeating it to himself now, it felt like such a line.
“Yowch!” Quinn said, sitting up straight and yanking her arm away. “Holy crap, Nick!”
“Sorry,” he muttered. “Here. I’ll be more careful.”
“No—actually—I think it’s fine.” She held her wrist out, running a finger along the smooth skin. “You’re amazing.”
“Amazing,” he echoed. “Yeah. Right.”
“What’s wrong?”
“Am I being an idiot, Quinn?”
He could feel her studying him in the darkness. “I think I need more information.”
“With Adam.”
She was quiet for a minute. He pulled up the driveway to his house and killed the engine. They couldn’t sit here too long, but they could never finish this conversation in the house, so he waited with the keys in his hand, his eyes on the darkened dash.
Quinn let out a slow breath. “You really like him,” she said softly. “Like, full on hearts in your eyes, doodling your last name with his, making up—”
“Quinn.”
She pulled her legs up on the bench to sit cross-legged. “Did you go back to his place?”
He winced, feeling like he was admitting something he shouldn’t. “Yes.”
“Was there more kissing or more talking?”
His face felt warm again, and he fiddled with the keys in his lap. Was this how girls felt? He didn’t like it. “Dead even.”
“Did anyone’s clothes come off?”
“No!” Thank god. But now he was imagining it.
God, this was so confusing. He shouldn’t have thrown away the cup sleeve with Courtnie’s number. That he knew how to handle.
But another part of him railed against the idea, like he’d cracked a door and his subconscious had wedged an arm into the opening.
Quinn was quiet for a while. “I’ve known Adam for a long time,” she finally said. “But that doesn’t mean I know him well.
He doesn’t bring a lot of guys around the studio or anything—
but he never seems lonely, either. Are you going to see him again?”
“I don’t know. You called, and I left in a hurry. He said he’d text me later.” Nick checked his phone. No new messages from Adam. Not even to ask how Quinn was.
“Sucks being the girl, doesn’t it?” said Quinn.
“Shut up.” But yes. It did.
Nick tried to be quiet when he snuck Quinn into the house, but Hunter stirred and ran a hand across his face when they crept into the bedroom.
His eyes widened fractionally when he saw Quinn, but he took it in stride. “You guys want me to crash on the couch?”
“She’s sleeping here, that’s all,” said Nick.