Shadowfever
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Darroc turns to them and barks a harsh command in a language that hurts my ears.
They vanish.
The moment I no longer know where they are, whether they might be closing in on me, I reach for my spear. It is gone, too.
The Unseelie Princes cannot sift within the Silvers with any predictability. Darroc tells me its a crapshoot every time they try. Cruces curse again, screwing things up.
I tell him the stones are no better, that whatever dimension Im in tries to expel them once uncovered, in an effort to return the rune-covered blue-black stones to the cliffs of the icy Unseelie prison from whence they were chiseled.
Im surprised he doesnt know this and tell him so.
You do not understand what life is like at the Seelie court, MacKayla. Those with true knowledge, true memories of our past, guard it zealously. There are as many versions of the Old Days and conflicting tales of our origins as there are dimensions to choose from within the hall. The only Unseelie we ever saw were those we battled the day the king and queen fought and the king slew our queen. Since then, we have drunk from the cauldron countless times.
He moves along the cliffs edge with unnatural fluidity and grace. Fae move like sleek, kingly predators, born of the sure knowledge that they can never dieor at least very rarely and only under special circumstances. He hasnt lost that arrogance, or perhaps hes reclaimed it, from all the Unseelie hes been eating. Hes not wearing the crimson robes that once terrified me. Tall, gracefully muscled, hes dressed like an outdoorsman in a Versace ad, with a long fall of moon-silvered hair secured at his nape. Hes undeniably sexy. In his power and confidence, he reminds me of Barrons.
I dont ask why they drink. I understand. If I found the cauldron and drank from it, it would erase all pain and allow me to start life over, a blank slate. I couldnt grieve for what I didnt remember ever having. That they drink implies that on some level the Fae feel. If not pain, at least significant discomfort.
So how are we going to get out of here? I ask.
His reply gives me a sudden chill, a sense of something more vast and incomprehensible than dj vuan inevitability finally manifesting.
The White Mansion.
4
The night the walls came crashing down, I cowered in a belfry, my only goal to survive until dawn.
I had no idea if the world would survive with me.
I thought it was the longest night of my life. I was wrong.
This is the longest night of my life, walking side by side with my enemy, mourning Jericho Barrons, drowning in my own complicity.
It stretches on and on. I live a thousand hours in a handful. I count from one to sixty beneath my breath, over and over, ticking away the minutes I make it through, thinking if I put enough of them between me and his death, the immediacy of the pain might dull and I will be able to catch a breath without a knife stabbing through my heart.
We do notpause to eat or sleep. He keeps Unseelie flesh in a pouch and periodically chews it while we travel, which means he can keep going far longer than I. At some point, Ill be forced to rest. The thought of relinquishing consciousness in his presence is not a pleasant one.
I have weapons in my arsenal that Ive not yet tried on him. I have no doubt he is concealing armaments, too. Our truce is a floor of eggshells and were both wearing combat boots.
Where is the Unseelie King? I ask, hoping distraction might make the minutes move faster. Its his book on the loose out there. I heard he wants it destroyed. Why isnt he doing something about it? I may as well embark on an Unseelie fishing expedition, casting my nets for anything I can use. Until I know how powerful Darroc is and better understand what I have in my dark glassy lake, subtlety is the name of my game. I will make no rash moves that jeopardize my mission. Barrons resurrection depends on it.
He shrugs. He vanished long ago. Some say hes too insane to care. Others believe he cannot leave the Unseelie prison and lies encased in a tomb of black ice, slumbering eternally. Still others claim the prison never contained him to begin with and that remorse for the death of his concubine was the only bond he ever permitted.
That implies love. Fae dont.
Debatable. I recognize myself in you and find it compelling. It makes me less alone.
Translation: I serve as a mirror and the Fae enjoy their own reflection. Is that desirable to a Faeto be less alone?
Few Fae can endure solitude. Some posit that energy cast into an ethos that fails to reflect or rebound it permits that energy to dissipate until nothing remains. Perhaps it is a flaw.
Like clapping for Tinker Bell, I mock. A mirror, validation.
He gives me a look.
Is that what the Fae are made of? Energy?
He gives me another look that reminds me of Vlane, and I know that he will never discuss what the Fae are comprised of with me or any human. His superiority complex has in no way been diminished by time as a mortal. Rather, I suspect it has grown. He knows both sides now. This gives him a tactical advantage over other Fae. He understands what makes us tick and is more dangerous because of it. I file the energy idea away for further contemplation. Iron affects the Fae. Why? Are they some kind of energy that could be shorted out?
You admit to flaws? I press.
We are not perfect. What god is? Examine yours. According to your mythos, he was so disappointed with his initial efforts creating your race that he tried again. At least we imprisoned our mistakes. Your god permits his to roam free. At a mere few thousand years old, your creation myths are far more absurd than ours. Yet you wonder why we cant recall our origins, from a million or more years in the past.
They vanish.
The moment I no longer know where they are, whether they might be closing in on me, I reach for my spear. It is gone, too.
The Unseelie Princes cannot sift within the Silvers with any predictability. Darroc tells me its a crapshoot every time they try. Cruces curse again, screwing things up.
I tell him the stones are no better, that whatever dimension Im in tries to expel them once uncovered, in an effort to return the rune-covered blue-black stones to the cliffs of the icy Unseelie prison from whence they were chiseled.
Im surprised he doesnt know this and tell him so.
You do not understand what life is like at the Seelie court, MacKayla. Those with true knowledge, true memories of our past, guard it zealously. There are as many versions of the Old Days and conflicting tales of our origins as there are dimensions to choose from within the hall. The only Unseelie we ever saw were those we battled the day the king and queen fought and the king slew our queen. Since then, we have drunk from the cauldron countless times.
He moves along the cliffs edge with unnatural fluidity and grace. Fae move like sleek, kingly predators, born of the sure knowledge that they can never dieor at least very rarely and only under special circumstances. He hasnt lost that arrogance, or perhaps hes reclaimed it, from all the Unseelie hes been eating. Hes not wearing the crimson robes that once terrified me. Tall, gracefully muscled, hes dressed like an outdoorsman in a Versace ad, with a long fall of moon-silvered hair secured at his nape. Hes undeniably sexy. In his power and confidence, he reminds me of Barrons.
I dont ask why they drink. I understand. If I found the cauldron and drank from it, it would erase all pain and allow me to start life over, a blank slate. I couldnt grieve for what I didnt remember ever having. That they drink implies that on some level the Fae feel. If not pain, at least significant discomfort.
So how are we going to get out of here? I ask.
His reply gives me a sudden chill, a sense of something more vast and incomprehensible than dj vuan inevitability finally manifesting.
The White Mansion.
4
The night the walls came crashing down, I cowered in a belfry, my only goal to survive until dawn.
I had no idea if the world would survive with me.
I thought it was the longest night of my life. I was wrong.
This is the longest night of my life, walking side by side with my enemy, mourning Jericho Barrons, drowning in my own complicity.
It stretches on and on. I live a thousand hours in a handful. I count from one to sixty beneath my breath, over and over, ticking away the minutes I make it through, thinking if I put enough of them between me and his death, the immediacy of the pain might dull and I will be able to catch a breath without a knife stabbing through my heart.
We do notpause to eat or sleep. He keeps Unseelie flesh in a pouch and periodically chews it while we travel, which means he can keep going far longer than I. At some point, Ill be forced to rest. The thought of relinquishing consciousness in his presence is not a pleasant one.
I have weapons in my arsenal that Ive not yet tried on him. I have no doubt he is concealing armaments, too. Our truce is a floor of eggshells and were both wearing combat boots.
Where is the Unseelie King? I ask, hoping distraction might make the minutes move faster. Its his book on the loose out there. I heard he wants it destroyed. Why isnt he doing something about it? I may as well embark on an Unseelie fishing expedition, casting my nets for anything I can use. Until I know how powerful Darroc is and better understand what I have in my dark glassy lake, subtlety is the name of my game. I will make no rash moves that jeopardize my mission. Barrons resurrection depends on it.
He shrugs. He vanished long ago. Some say hes too insane to care. Others believe he cannot leave the Unseelie prison and lies encased in a tomb of black ice, slumbering eternally. Still others claim the prison never contained him to begin with and that remorse for the death of his concubine was the only bond he ever permitted.
That implies love. Fae dont.
Debatable. I recognize myself in you and find it compelling. It makes me less alone.
Translation: I serve as a mirror and the Fae enjoy their own reflection. Is that desirable to a Faeto be less alone?
Few Fae can endure solitude. Some posit that energy cast into an ethos that fails to reflect or rebound it permits that energy to dissipate until nothing remains. Perhaps it is a flaw.
Like clapping for Tinker Bell, I mock. A mirror, validation.
He gives me a look.
Is that what the Fae are made of? Energy?
He gives me another look that reminds me of Vlane, and I know that he will never discuss what the Fae are comprised of with me or any human. His superiority complex has in no way been diminished by time as a mortal. Rather, I suspect it has grown. He knows both sides now. This gives him a tactical advantage over other Fae. He understands what makes us tick and is more dangerous because of it. I file the energy idea away for further contemplation. Iron affects the Fae. Why? Are they some kind of energy that could be shorted out?
You admit to flaws? I press.
We are not perfect. What god is? Examine yours. According to your mythos, he was so disappointed with his initial efforts creating your race that he tried again. At least we imprisoned our mistakes. Your god permits his to roam free. At a mere few thousand years old, your creation myths are far more absurd than ours. Yet you wonder why we cant recall our origins, from a million or more years in the past.
